Cold season 1, episode 9: Light of Seattle – Full episode transcript

Dave Cawley: Steve Powell sent an email to West Valley police in mid-January, 2010, about five weeks after his daughter-in-law Susan’s unsolved disappearance. Steve wanted to know if police were looking into any other “persons of interest” beside his son, Josh. Steve had someone to suggest: a man named Tim Peterson.

Ken Fall (as Steve Powell from January 15, 2010 email): We are developing a resume of sorts on Tim Peterson, possibly to send to the media.

Dave Cawley: Peterson and his family lived in Josh and Susan’s West Valley neighborhood. In the summer of 2009, before Susan disappeared, both Tim and his wife Crystal had offered Susan advice about divorce and marriage counseling. Crystal had given Susan hand-me-down clothes for her sons Charlie and Braden to wear. Tim, under pressure from Josh, had offered the Powells his backyard swing set. His kids had outgrown it.

Then, Susan vanished. Tim suspected Josh was responsible. Late one December evening, he drove his truck and trailer over to the Powell house on Sarah Circle. He started backing into the yard, intent on retrieving the swing set, but the trailer clipped a fence and became mired in the snow.

Josh’s brother Michael, observing this, told Tim to leave. Tim refused. Michael threatened to call the police. TV news crews camped out in the cul-de-sac watched in disbelief.

The next day, Michael told a detective he’d remembered having a phone conversation with Susan a few weeks before she’d disappeared. He claimed Susan had mentioned a neighbor guy who was getting “too close for comfort.” Michael said his name was Tim Peterson. This was the first the police had heard of it and they had no way of verifying Michael’s claim, but it was all Steve Powell needed to paint Peterson as a scapegoat. Here again is what Steve wrote in his email.

Ken Fall (as Steve Powell from January 15, 2010 email): Since Tim Peterson’s violent show the other night, Josh had begun to look at him differently, and was taken aback to since learn that Peterson was trying to break up the Powells’ marriage.

Dave Cawley: Steve wondered if Peterson might’ve kidnapped Susan. Maybe, he suggested, she’d called him for a ride to work the morning of December 7th and that’s when Peterson did something terrible. Tim told me Josh had tried to make him into a patsy.

Tim Peterson: Before she went missing, he was almost like trying to get me to hang out with his wife.

Dave Cawley: But it didn’t work. In the weeks and months that followed, Tim would go so far as to take a lie detector test. It ruled him out as a suspect. When police obtained copies of Susan’s emails, they were able to read exactly what he’d told her about Josh.

Tim Peterson: I knew this guy was a piece of crap and uh, that he was trouble and I tried so hard to, to explain that to uh, Susan and help her to understand that he’s a sociopath and, and being such everything is an asset or a liability and that’s how he looks at people. Asset or liability. And if you decide to try and get a divorce from him, you then become a liability and you’re gonna take away things that belong to him, his assets. And there won’t be any, any doing of that, especially his kids.

Dave Cawley: This is Cold, episode 9: Light of Seattle. I’m Dave Cawley.

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Dave Cawley: Steve Powell’s email to the police about Tim Peterson included a clue he might not have intended to provide. At the bottom of the message was a footer, a piece of text automatically added to all of Steve’s outgoing emails. It read “hear the music at www.stevechantry.com.”

[Sound of Steve Powell’s music]

Steve Powell (from song recording): I can love in you a secret way. I can love you each and every day.

Dave Cawley: Following the link took the reader to a website with a nighttime photo of Steve sitting in front Elliot Bay, with the Seattle skyline reflected in the water behind him. The banner text at the top of the page read “Music of Steve Chantry” in a cursive font.

Ellis Maxwell: Steve Chantrey is a very creative individual. It’s why he’s a writer, it’s why he’s a singer, it’s why he’s a musician.

Dave Cawley: That’s Ellis Maxwell, the now-retired police detective who led the investigation into Susan Powell’s disappearance. He and the rest of the major crimes team took great interest in Steve’s website.

A navigation bar on the left-hand side included a link for an album titled “Light of Seattle.” It led to lyrics for 12 songs. One, titled “I Said, I Love You,” seemed particularly disturbing given what detectives had already learned about Steve’s lust for his daughter-in-law. Here’s how the song started.

“I said, ‘I love you.’ Is that a sin? I just might wanna say it once again: I love you, like it or don’t. I said, ‘I love you.’ You should have kissed me. I felt like giving up when you just dissed me. I love you…”

[Sound of Steve Powell’s music]

Steve Powell (from song recording): …so put me in jail. I said “I love you.” I couldn’t help it and you were mistaken if you thought I’d shelf it. I love you so cough up my bail. You made my eyes pop out of their sockets…

Dave Cawley: Susan had been Steve’s muse for years, his reason for writing. The selection of songs on his website didn’t even scratch the surface. He kept an updated tally of songs she’d inspired on his computer. That list grew to include more than 50 titles.

In April of 2010, Steve wrote this in his journal.

Ken Fall (as Steve Powell from April 6, 2010 journal entry): I recently dusted off my song “The Stars are Twinkling Down in Provo” and when I played it for Josh and Michael, they said it sounded like it was also about Susan. They like the line “you departed in a hustle, you flipped me off and showed your muscle.” Since I wrote the song years ago, Michael called me Nostradamus, a prophet.

Dave Cawley: Steve had even inserted Susan into songs she’d not originally inspired. One titled “Lydie with the Sunlight Hair” became “Susan with the Sunlight Hair.”

[Sound of Steve Powell’s music]

Steve Powell (from song recording): Soft in my ear, my Lydia.

Susan Cox Powell (from song recording): Lydia.

Steve Powell (from song recording): Soft as I dream of you.

Susan Cox Powell (from song recording): I dream of you.

Steve Powell (from song recording): Your voice is like the dew…

Dave Cawley: That voice you hear singing the harmony belongs to Susan.

Steve Powell (from song recording): …refreshes in the morn when I wake to think of you.

Dave Cawley: She’d reluctantly agreed to record background vocals for Steve. Months before her disappearance, she’d showed the songs to some coworkers.

Amber Hardman: She played it for all of us at work and we were all laughing about it and how weird that was. And she was laughing along with us and agreeing, “it’s so weird.”

Ken Fall (as Steve Powell from April 26, 2010 journal entry): There is a place in the instrumental bridge with the line “I’m in love with Susan.” Josh said people would find that objectionable, but that’s my favorite four seconds in the whole song. … My fantasy is that she will return, Josh won’t want her, and she will take up residence in my bedroom.

[Sound of Steve Powell’s music]

Steve Powell (from song recording): I spent the whole day through waiting for you. I could be getting a mistaken impression each time you seem to gaze at me. You let me touch you softly. Why is the question. And the effect amazes me. Had trouble sleeping…

Dave Cawley: No sooner had the Tim Peterson theory collapsed than Steve latched on to a new hypothesis. In mid-February of 2010, he called the FBI and asked to meet with agents. He wanted to talk to the feds about Steven Koecher.

Steve Powell (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): I mean, Josh’s story may be fishy but this one’s even fishier, y’know?

Dave Cawley: Koecher was a resident of St. George, Utah. He’d disappeared under bizarre circumstances on December 13th of 2009, a week after Susan’s disappearance. Koecher was last seen on a home surveillance video, leaving his car at a cul-de-sac in the Las Vegas, Nevada suburb of Henderson. Where he went or what became of him are still unknowns. Like Susan, he has never been found.

Steve Powell claimed that because Susan and Koecher were both Latter-day Saints and both from Utah, they must’ve had a secret relationship. He supposed Susan had hatched an elaborate plan to run off with Koecher, possibly fleeing the country and traveling by land and sea to Fortaleza, Brazil, where Koecher had lived while serving a two-year church mission.

Special Agent Russ Johnson from the FBI’s Salt Lake City field office arranged to meet with Steve on February 24th and he tapped another special agent from the Tacoma area, Gary France, to take part in the interview.

Steve arrived in the afternoon. The agents took him into a room, sat him down and started to ask about Josh.

Russ Johnson (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): Did he know that you were coming in today to talk to us?

Steve Powell (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): Yeah, yeah.

Russ Johnson (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): Yeah? How did he feel about that?

Steve Powell (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): Well y’know, he just said, y’know, “just be aware that they’re not, they’re not on our side.” That’s pretty much, y’know, because he kinda, that was his experience with the West Valley City police.

Dave Cawley: This is the actual recording of that interview. This is the first time it has ever been made public.

Steve didn’t know it, but the FBI had also invited West Valley police to observe the interview, unseen, from another room. The agents didn’t dive into the Koecher stuff right away. Instead, they told Steve they were coming to the case late. Much of what they knew, they said, came from the media. Their questions later in the interview would prove this was disingenuous, but it made sense for them to try and build some rapport with Steve at the outset.

Agents Johnson and France asked Steve about where he was the day Susan disappeared and his communications with Josh since. Steve said he’d had only sporadic contact with Josh on that day and the days that followed. He told the agents he was 75% sure Susan was still alive. He said he was 100% sure Josh hadn’t killed Susan.

Steve Powell (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): I, I think we’ll find her, I really do. Umm, and uh, and the other thing that has happened since the beginning of this whole process is that, y’know, when it first started, I didn’t know what happened to her. I didn’t have much contact with  my son because — that is, the son who’s married to her — because the police confiscated his cell phone. He had a crappy cell phone that didn’t work. I couldn’t—

Russ Johnson (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): Well, how did, how did you hear about it?

Dave Cawley: He made no secret of the fact Josh had bought another phone and swapped his SIM card into it. Steve conceded that in the first days and weeks after Susan’s disappearance, even he had had his doubts about Josh’s camping trip alibi.

Steve Powell (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): It looked pretty fishy and so of course the accusations came immediately that “oh,” y’know, yeah, “he did something with her,” y’know, he’s uh, y’know, eliminated her or whatever.

Russ Johnson (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): Well—

Steve Powell (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): And of course, being on the other end, y’know, anybody’s capable of doing that kind of thing. I mean, I could do it, you could do it. I mean we, in a fit of anger—

Russ Johnson (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): Weird things happen in relationships.

Steve Powell (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): Weird things happen in relationships. But, but, y’know, and I struggled with that for, y’know, because I couldn’t reach Josh half the time on the cell phone. It didn’t work, we weren’t connecting.

Russ Johnson (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): Was this on Monday?

Steve Powell (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): This is, well, this is on Monday and, and even after that for the next three weeks.

Russ Johnson (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): Were you able to talk to him a couple of times though?

Steve Powell (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): Oh yeah, yeah. Every, every day. Yeah, at least a little bit in spite of the cell phone problems. Yeah.

Dave Cawley: The communication troubles had led to Steve considering a trip to Utah, but he said he’d been so despondent in those early days, he couldn’t endure it. Instead, he sent his youngest children, Michael and Alina. Over the phone, he’d advised Josh to get a lawyer.

Steve Powell (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): Why haven’t the police contacted his attorney? They haven’t even contacted him?

Russ Johnson (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): They haven’t? They’ve not even contacted the attorney?

Steve Powell (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): No. Not even contacted him.

Russ Johnson (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): Wow.

Steve Powell (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): No, they haven’t asked him any questions. The only contact they had was about two weeks ago when Josh was in Salt Lake City, or in West Valley City, and they called him and said “we don’t have your finger prints.”

Dave Cawley: That wasn’t true. Josh’s attorney, Scott Williams, had told West Valley police in December that Josh wouldn’t submit to another interview or take a lie detector test. In late March, Williams had sent Ellis an email, telling him Josh needed his computers back for “tax, professional and personal endeavors.”

On February 3, 2010, Ellis called Josh’s phone number.

[Sound of phone ringing]

Dave Cawley: He knew Josh was in the Salt Lake City area at the time, but didn’t know for how long. Josh didn’t answer the call, so Ellis left him this voicemail.

Operator (from February 3, 2010 recording): When you are finished recording, hang up. Or for delivery options, press pound.

Ellis Maxwell (from February 3, 2010 recording): Hey Josh, it’s detective Maxwell with West Valley police department.

Dave Cawley: Ellis said he needed Josh’s fingerprints. He also said he wanted to talk to Josh about Steve’s email regarding Tim Peterson.

Ellis Maxwell (from February 3, 2010 recording): So I have a lot of questions there as well in regards to Tim and your thoughts and the stuff you didn’t share with me.

Dave Cawley: As for the computers?

Ellis Maxwell (from February 3, 2010 recording): You want to get your uh, computer stuff back. Uh, the RCFL, they’re finding that a lot of your hard drives and a lot of files are encrypted, so need to see if you’ll give us those passwords so we don’t have to uh, break those encryptions or those codes. Alright?

Dave Cawley: Josh didn’t call Ellis back, but his defense attorney Scott Williams did. Williams told Ellis that Josh couldn’t remember the passwords, but might if he were allowed to sit down with the devices. Ellis said they could make that happen but of course, Josh never followed through.

The agents told Steve they were very skeptical of his claim West Valley detectives had not contacted Josh’s attorney. Steve insisted it was the truth.

Steve Powell (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): They, they really, if they wanted to talk to him, they missed the boat because he was down in Salt Lake twice since he came up here to be with, to live in my house. He’s been back there twice for several days and they, if they wanted to talk to him, his attorney is totally available, totally, y’know, responsive. Uh, the only thing they’ve asked for is, y’know, when they first got there they wanted his, his van again and they took the air filter out I guess and don’t ask me what that’s all about since he’s gone all the way from Utah to, to Puyallup and back in the van since this tragedy began.

Russ Johnson (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): Oh yeah? When, when did he do that?

Dave Cawley: In fact, the very same day that Steve was sitting down with the FBI agents in Tacoma, Maxwell emailed Williams, asking to schedule a time when Josh might come to the computer lab and try to input his passwords. Also, he noted that Josh had removed the SIM cards from both his and Susan’s cell phones before police seized each device. He wanted to get ahold of those, as well.

Of course, that never happened. Josh never bothered to come and try his passwords. He made no time for it during his Utah visit in early February. Whether that was a failure of communication or a willing dodge on his part remains unclear.

I’ve tried several times to contact Josh’s attorney Scott Williams. He has never responded to my messages or emails. Josh never asked for his computers again.

Steve’s insistence that the West Valley police had not talked to Josh’s attorney suggested that Josh was keeping his dad in the dark. Either that, or Steve Powell was lying to the FBI, which is a federal crime.

Steve Powell (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): Part of it could be Josh. Y’know, Josh does not want to spend any more on the attorney fees than he has to, so he’s very, makes his contact—

Russ Johnson (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): But wouldn’t he spend whatever he needs to clear his name?

Steve Powell (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): It’s really not a, it’s not a matter of clearing his name because Josh doesn’t feel guilty of anything. He doesn’t even feel, in fact that was one of the things, I, after a few days he was at my house, y’know and, I said “Josh, umm, aren’t you worried that they might come and arrest you?” And he said “no, why? Why would they?” “Oh, ok.”

Dave Cawley: Steve said Josh was annoyed with the police because they had wasted his time and taken his stuff during December. But that wasn’t the worst thing.

Steve Powell (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): No. He doesn’t have any problem with the police. What he has a problem with is, y’know, he feels like when he was there at the police department, the only thing he’s not happy about is they lied to him. They would tell him things like, y’know, “your sons told us that your wife was with you on the campout.” Well y’know, c’mon. He knew she wasn’t with them. And y’know, if you’ve planted things in their minds or you’re making this up, y’know, then the conversation’s over basically. Y’know. … And he, in the back of his mind he said “you’re lying to me.” And that’s what he said to the, I mean he didn’t say that out loud to the police but he said that to me later. He said “they were lying to me. I figured they’re trying to, they’re trying to trump something up here. They’re trying to suggest that I have something to do with her disappearance. And on Wednesday morning…

Dave Cawley: Steve then added another interesting tidbit, saying Josh’s younger brother Michael, who had served in the U.S. Army doing signals and human intelligence work, had “debriefed” Josh after his police interviews. Whoa. Wow.

The agents steered the conversation toward Steve’s relationship with Susan. Here, he spoke in very frank terms, much more so than he had with the West Valley detectives who had interviewed him in a couple of months earlier. He described playing various “cat and mouse” games with her over the course of years, in which he read any incidental physical contact between the two of them as an overt sexual act. In his mind, Susan had instigated it.

Steve Powell (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): And at one point when they were planning on moving, I think they were planning on moving to Yakima, I told Susan that I was in love with her. I didn’t want her to leave and she got, just came unglued. And it was like, it’s ok to play the game, but don’t bring it out in the open. Y’know what I’m saying? So she would not talk to me for three months after that.

Russ Johnson (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): Ok.

Dave Cawley: Now, as we’ve already seen, that unwelcome love confession in July of 2003 was primary motivation for Josh and Susan’s move to Utah. Susan loathed her father-in-law. Yet, Steve truly believed he and Susan continued to share a mutual infatuation. The agents did not scoff at this. Remember, they were trying to gain his trust.

Russ Johnson (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): Did, y’know, the, the natural question is, y’know, did you guys actually ever have any actual contact of any sexual nature or anything or was it just always these, uh, little brushes that, that as you said you play the game on?

Steve Powell (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): Yeah I mean one, one time, y’know, I was massaging her feet and she was putting her feet in my crotch and everything. Yeah, stuff like that. But no, you’re talking about actual physical sex?

Russ Johnson (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): Yeah.

Steve Powell (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): No, we actually never had sex.

Russ Johnson (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): Ok.

Steve Powell (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): Because I don’t think, I didn’t think she would go that far but maybe it was just with me. I don’t know.

Dave Cawley: Steve said that this kind of activity had continued even after Josh and Susan left Washington, though far less frequently. As an example, he told the agents that while Josh and Susan were visiting Washington in 2008, he’d brushed up against her bare breast while she was feeding Braden.

Gary France (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): So Josh was aware of some of these cat-and-mouse games that she was—

Steve Powell (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): Well, I don’t think—

Gary France (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): —she was doing?

Steve Powell (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): —he was aware of it after that because it was, y’know, it was so subtle. I mean, Gary—

Gary France (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): Yeah.

Steve Powell (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): —this, Susan is very subtle. Y’know?

Gary France (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): Ok.

Steve Powell (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): Just like that whole thing pressing her breasts against my hands.

Gary France (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): Yes. Yeah.

Steve Powell (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): Y’know, she didn’t have to do that. She wanted to do it. Y’know what I’m saying?

Steve Powell (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): Right.

Dave Cawley: “She wanted to do it.” Wow. Susan had described Steve using words like “wicked.” She’d told her parents he was a pedophile. If there was one person in the world she did not want to touch her, it was Steve Powell. He blamed that attitude on her religion, which he claimed she only practiced to please her parents.

Susan’s own writings and actions contradict this. Not only did she regularly attend her church services, she also took on volunteer church assignments and fought against Josh to pay 10% of her income in tithing. Susan’s faith was a core pillar of her identity, not something she practiced out of grudging obligation.

Steve’s claims grew even more egregious. He told the agents that hot-tempered Susan had been abusing her two young sons.

Steve Powell (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): I mean, I’ve been very open with you about Susan’s abuse. I mean—

Russ Johnson (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): We appreciate your openness.

Steve Powell (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): —that could be a motive. That could be a motive.

Russ Johnson (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): Yeah.

Steve Powell (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): And, and, and for Josh, who just absolutely adores his sons, it could be a motive. But I don’t believe for a minute that, that, that anything happened like that…

Dave Cawley: None of the people who knew Susan well who I’ve spoken to for this podcast ever shared a similar concern. None of her friends, coworkers or relatives ever saw Susan strike Charlie or Braden. I specifically asked Josh’s sister Jennifer about this claim of abuse.

Dave Cawley: Did you ever see anything like that?

Jennifer Graves: Susan was so loving to her children. She was not abusive to them in any way. I never witnessed or heard, through the grapevine from anyone, that there was anything like that going on on her side. On the other hand, there were issues that Josh was doing that I was highly concerned about. He was regularly undermining her authority as a mother and that was really hard on her and on her relationship with her children and, and on her ability to be a good parent.

Dave Cawley: Now, Susan was not a saint. She did have flaws. For example, she can be heard snapping at Charlie in a 2008 video she made, documenting the family’s property in preparation for a possible divorce.

Susan Cox Powell (from July 29, 2008 home video): ‘Kay, be quiet Charlie. Josh cut the doorbell wire. Shh! Be quiet or I’m going to spank you!

Dave Cawley: But this is the kind of thing many an exasperated young mother might say to a misbehaving child. Steve wanted to twist that into something much more sinister. The agents asked if he ever actually witnessed Susan commit an act of abuse. He conceded that he had not, but said he’d overheard things on the phone. Josh, he said, was very protective of the boys.

Steve Powell (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): I mean, these are his boys. Josh dotes on them. He would guard them with his life.

Dave Cawley: Finally, after more than an hour and a half, the conversation turned to the topic of Steven Koecher. Steve Powell, with pen and paper in hand, started scratching out a rough map of Utah, Arizona and Nevada.

Steve Powell (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): And this is Koecher up here, right?

Dave Cawley: He marked the cities important to his theory…

Steve Powell (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): Ok. Here’s Salt Lake City. Here’s West Valley City. Ok here’s the highway that goes over to, uh, Wendover, Montana, oh, Wendover, Nevada.

Russ Johnson (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): Gotcha.

Dave Cawley: …and went about trying to explain how he believed Steven Koecher’s and Susan’s lives might have intersected. They each at one point had worked in downtown Salt Lake, in offices separated by a few city blocks. Perhaps, he suggested, they had somehow met and developed a secret romance.

Steve Powell (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): But I surmise she disappears on the morning of the 7th, calls him and says “I’m ready, we’re ready to take, undertake the plan.” He comes up on the night of the 7th, spends the night at, in my, in my document, in my uh, uh timeline I refer toat  a safe house. There’s somebody in, in West Valley City that knows what was going on, as far as I’m concerned. He spends, they spend the night at that person’s house because that’s where she would have gone, y’know, after she quote-unquote disappeared.

Dave Cawley: From there, Steve’s theory had Koecher slipping down to the Las Vegas area with Susan, where he staged his own disappearance before renting a boat, possibly with the help of a friend, in order to float south toward the U.S.-Mexico border.

Steve Powell (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): You can take this as, as coming from a crazy person or whatever you want to say but I would, I would put money on the possibility that they’re not even in this country. I would, y’know, I, y’know, I see, I see heading south in a boat as far as they could go, finding other ground transportation or whatever to Mexico City, picking up a flight or maybe going across to the, to one of the coasts of Mexico and picking up uh, a ship, y’know, and heading down to Fortaleza where he would know people. Y’know, I mean, I went to a mission to Argentina. Y’know at the time, it was so many years ago — I don’t know anybody now but back then — if I called somebody in, certain people, and said y’know “I’m coming down there with my fiancé, we’re going to get married.” Y’know—

Russ Johnson (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): Mmhmm.

Steve Powell (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): —they’d say “wow, stay at our place.” Y’know?

Dave Cawley: What possible reason could Susan have for going along with such an outlandish plot? Steve said she had once mentioned wanting to learn Portuguese, the primary language spoken in Brazil. What’s more, he said she was overwhelmed by the boys and, motivated by a desire to get pregnant again, attracted to Koecher.

There were many, many problems with the idea. The timelines didn’t quite mesh. Steve’s theory required Susan and Koecher to share a common acquaintance, someone who could sneak Susan away, unseen, and hide her for at least a day. Steve couldn’t point to a single friend they shared.

In order to cross international boundaries, Susan would’ve needed a passport. She didn’t have one. Steve figured she must’ve had a forgery made. He also believed her background in cosmetology would’ve allowed her to change her appearance and assume a false identity once on the run.

It was a story more at home in a b-grade spy movie than an actual criminal investigation. Yet, if Steve’s theory didn’t stand on its merits, it did seem capable of at least sowing a small seed of doubt. And perhaps that was the point all along. In his personal journal, Steve Powell later wrote of Josh.

Ken Fall (as Steve Powell from April 9, 2010 journal entry): If he were brought to trial the Koecher connection would be more than enough evidence to convince a jury that there is reasonable doubt as to his guilt.

Dave Cawley: The storyline Steve was spinning for the FBI and anyone else who would listen, including his own children, was that Susan had tried to frame Josh.

Steve Powell (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): I mean, seriously Gary, the scenario for Susan disappearing and Josh being blamed was perfect. It was perfect. Maybe a little too perfect.

Gary France (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): Yeah.

Steve Powell (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): But anyway, it was perfect. Y’know, Josh takes off on one of his late night campouts. I mean, the campout was probably planned for noon that day, noon on Sunday. And it may not have been, either. See I, I’m not prying into all this stuff because Josh’s attorney has said y’know, “don’t speculate about anything. Don’t talk about what happened even to your family that day. Just, y’know, you and I know what happened, the police know what happened. Just drop it.” Y’know?

Russ Johnson (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): Yeah.

Steve Powell (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): “It doesn’t, it doesn’t do anything for you.”

Dave Cawley: West Valley police did take the Koecher lead and investigate it — I’ll have more to say about that in a future episode — but for the two FBI agents who were listening to Steve on February 24th of 2010, his theory proved far from convincing.

Special Agent Johnson decided to level with Steve. He explained he wasn’t on anyone’s side — not the Powell family’s side, not the Cox family’s side, not the West Valley police’s side — but he knew things that hadn’t yet made the news.

Russ Johnson (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): But from what I know, ok?

Steve Powell (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): Mmhmm.

Russ Johnson (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): Umm, and some of the things that have happened around this disappearance and specifically some of the things that Josh, uh, has done and said, ok?

Steve Powell (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): Mmhmm.

Russ Johnson (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): Umm, I think, and uh, and I think you’re gonna probably going to have to, umm, at some point wrap your mind around this — it sounds like you started right where I’m going to be—

Steve Powell (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): Mmhmm.

Russ Johnson (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): —and then you went away from that based on Josh’s behavior — but I think you’re going to have to wrap your, your mind around the fact I think Josh is going to be arrested and charged with this crime, ok?

Steve Powell (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): With what crime?

Russ Johnson (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): With, with a, with a homicide. And—

Steve Powell (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): So you think she’s dead.

Russ Johnson (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): I do. Ok? And like I said, umm, this is, umm me coming without an agenda from somewhere else—

Steve Powell (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): Mmhmm, mmhmm.

Russ Johnson (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): —and umm, and not having an interest in it. I think that is what’s going to happen. … When that happens, I don’t think Josh has told you even all the things that have happened. I think he knows a lot of this stuff that I know and I don’t think he’s told you. Umm, you may want to, uh, find some of that out for yourself so that you can prepare yourself if, if this happens the way I say—

Steve Powell (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): Mmm.

Russ Johnson (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): —ok? And if it happens that way, and I, I  really think it will, you uh, you need to be aware, umm, that, y’know, that that’s coming and uh, and get, get ready for that.

Steve Powell (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): Hmm.

Russ Johnson (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): ‘Kay? That’s, I’m not saying I have the inside track and—

Steve Powell (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): Yeah.

Russ Johnson (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): —and, and, and uh, and I know exactly what West Valley and the DA’s office is going to do. I’m saying this is, this is me guessing right now and I think that’s gonna happen. … Umm, I think that, uh, the things that I know are highly suspicious, umm, and it’s not, umm, I don’t think that the other things that I know indicate that, umm, Susan went anywhere voluntarily, ok?

Steve Powell (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): Mmmhmm.

Russ Johnson (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): So, my suggestion to you is start thinking about that.

Steve Powell (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): Ok.

Russ Johnson (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): And, and make sure you are not, umm, involved — and I’m not accusing you of anything right now, ok? I’m just saying make sure you never get involved with the covering up or the obstruction of, of the investigation and y’know, hey, you’re here, you’re not doing that, obviously, you’re here talking to us, you want to help but when things go that other way — don’t be involved in any of that. Don’t put yourself in any jeopardy. If he, when he gets arrested, uh, for this, those grandkids are gonna need people that they know and love around them.

[Ad break]

Dave Cawley: The FBI told Steve Powell two-and-a-half months into the investigation that his son was likely to be arrested for Susan’s murder. What’s more, the agents explicitly warned him that he could himself wind up in trouble if he attempted to help Josh conceal evidence. Steve did not buy it.

Steve Powell (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): Well now, so are, so are you telling me that you’ve got some information that says that everything that I just said is hooey, that Steven Koecher could not possibly have anything to do with it?

Russ Johnson (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): I don’t know anything about Steven Koecher really. I can’t, I can’t comment on that.

Dave Cawley: They urged Steve to apply pressure, to get Josh to work with the police.

Russ Johnson (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): Make sure that umm, y’know, if you, if you really believe that, that uh, that your initial feelings were wrong and that Josh truly isn’t involved—

Steve Powell (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): I totally believe that.

Russ Johnson (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): Then you need to get him cleared and that means his cooperation in this matter. His attorney can be there. That’s fine. There’s so many unanswered questions, such what appears to be highly suspicious behavior from Josh. Ok? And uh—

Steve Powell (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): Why haven’t the police even as much as—

Russ Johnson (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): I can’t answer that. I don’t know.

Dave Cawley: Steve wondered how much of the information in the hands of police had come from his estranged daughter, Jennifer, the daughter who a month prior had visited the Powell family home and confronted Josh while secretly wearing a wire.

Steve Powell (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): If any of this information is coming from my daughter Jenny, please, please, please be aware—

Russ Johnson (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): It’s not.

Steve Powell (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): —this girl is filled with hate.

Russ Johnson (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): It’s not.

Steve Powell (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): Ok well, because she had made some comments, y’know, to me that “oh, I saw Josh doing this and doing that. And I saw—”

Russ Johnson (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): The, and there may be some information that comes from her, I don’t know. I don’t know anything about that—

Steve Powell (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): Mmhmm. Well yours isn’t coming from her.

Russ Johnson (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): —I just have, I just have some—

Steve Powell (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): Yeah.

Russ Johnson (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): —facts and some evidence—

Steve Powell (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): Yeah.

Russ Johnson (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): —that, that I have been made aware of—

Steve Powell (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): Yeah.

Russ Johnson (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): —and I wasn’t there to collect it or anything—

Steve Powell (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): Yeah.

Russ Johnson (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): —I’ve been made aware of and, and it does not, it does not look good—

Steve Powell (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): Ok.

Russ Johnson (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): —for Josh.

Steve Powell (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): Ok.

Russ Johnson (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): So that’s, that’s what I’m saying.

Dave Cawley: Let me step in here for a moment and provide some perspective. I’ve obviously interviewed Jennifer. I’ve read her book, A Light in Dark Places. It is a portrait of pain, loss, hope and faith, not hate. I asked Jennifer about what her father told the FBI. Here’s what she said.

Jennifer Graves: Well let me tell you about my dad. I grew up with my dad. I know how he works. My dad was a very deceitful person, but at the same time he was a very smooth talker. And he could convince anybody, for the longest time, that he was this wonderful person. And he could smooth over any lie forever.

Dave Cawley: So, does Jennifer think the FBI agents were buying the Steve Koecher conspiracy theory?

Jennifer Graves: I am sure that he went in there and talked really smoothly to them. But as time went on, the lies started to unravel. And this is where, this is where finally my dad’s true face, my dad’s true nature, was revealed.

Dave Cawley: Let’s go back to the interview.

Gary France (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): I’m a, I’m a father and I have kids. If you knew Josh did something or if he told you something, would you come forward and tell us?

Steve Powell (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): I’m not sure I would.

Gary France (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): ‘Kay.

Steve Powell (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): But, but the reality is—

Russ Johnson (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): Thanks for being honest.

Steve Powell (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): —I’m not sure I would.

Russ Johnson (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): Thank you for being honest.

Steve Powell (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): But as I said, I am, y’know, unless you’ve got something pretty, pretty, pretty tight, I, I, I’m a hundred percent convinced. I mean, y’know, uh, I’d really like to see the evidence but I understand you can’t show it to me.

Russ Johnson (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): I might be able to. If I get into this, if I get into this and, and I, I need your help, I might be able to come to you and say “look, here’s a couple things that, that, that we know.” Y’know, “does that change, does that change what you think?”

Steve Powell (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah. No, I understand.

Russ Johnson (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): And if you say, and if you say, and if you say “no, I don’t,” y’know, then, then we’re still there. But if you say “oh wow, I didn’t know that—”

Steve Powell (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): Yeah

Russ Johnson (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): —y’know, and then, y’know, maybe, y’know we could—

Steve Powell (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): Yeah.

Russ Johnson (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): —y’know, keep that dialogue going.

Dave Cawley: He also worried about what would happen to Charlie and Braden.

Steve Powell (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): If, if he’s, if something happened to Susan, I don’t want something to happen to their father.

Russ Johnson (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): Mmhmm.

Steve Powell (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): That would probably be my biggest concern.

Gary France (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): That actually entered my head too, when I was thinking about that, that, y’know, if, if my son told me “dad, I didn’t plan this, something snapped, it happened, umm, I don’t, I don’t even know who I was at that moment.” Y’know? ‘Cause even when you first walked in here you said “we’re all capable” and I think you’re right.

Steve Powell (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): We are.

Dave Cawley: From there, the conversation took on a chilling — and in retrospect, prophetic — tone. Agent Johnson proposed a hypothetical situation, in which Josh had killed Susan, covered up the murder and then fled with the boys.

Russ Johnson (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): If, if Josh did that, something’s broken inside there.

Steve Powell (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): Oh yeah, oh yeah. No, I’ve thought of that too, Russ—

Gary France (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): Ok, now—

Steve Powell (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): —I really have.

Russ Johnson (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): What if, what if one of the kids start saying something?

Steve Powell (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): Saying something like what?

Russ Johnson (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): Y’know like uh, coming out with information that he didn’t come out with before. What’s Josh going to do? Well, he loves his kids. Y’know, you might think he’d never do anything to his kids, but if something’s broken, maybe he would.

Steve Powell (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): I’m not sure I understand where you’re getting at, because uh—

Gary France (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): Listen—

Russ Johnson (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): If he would kill his wife—

Steve Powell (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): Oh.

Russ Johnson (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): —because he’s got something broken inside of him—

Steve Powell (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): Oh, you’re saying he would kill his kids.

Russ Johnson (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): He might, y’know. Do we know that? I know, you’re just saying “oh he’d never do that.” But—

Steve Powell (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): I don’t think so.

Russ Johnson (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): —but would you have said that about the wife?

Steve Powell (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): No, I would’ve said, y’know what Russ? Let me set, let me put it to you bluntly. Over the last couple of years I have, it has occurred to me that Susan would have killed Josh but it never would dawn on me that it would be the other way around. That would never even cross my mind—

Russ Johnson (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): Mmhmm.

Steve Powell (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): —until December 7th. Until December 7th. Then I started thinking “could he have done this.” At this point I don’t believe for, at all that he did it but it did occur to me that Susan was, was capable of doing something like that, seriously.

Dave Cawley: That mention of Josh killing the boys, did it send a shiver up your spine? And then Steve suggested against all available evidence that Susan might have wanted to kill Josh? He told the FBI agents, who he had earlier asked if they were Mormons, to consider that the church might be trying to silence Susan. They way he saw it, Susan’s parents — Chuck and Judy Cox — had rallied their fellow Latter-day Saints in an effort to steal Charlie and Braden away from Josh.

Steve Powell (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): There are some huge religious undercurrents in this thing. That whole Dr. Phil show was about “we want to get custody of those boys from Josh.” The grandparents wanted, they don’t want them in my home because I’m an ex-Mormon and I am a rabid anti-Mormon. Rabid. Y’know, I, I, I have nothing good to say about that religion, nothing good and I read about it constantly.  I am, y’know, they don’t want those kids in my home and they will do anything — lie, cheat, steal —  to get those boys away from my home. Keep that in mind as you look into this. I am, I am Satan incarnate as far as they’re concerned, ok? Keep that in mind.

Russ Johnson (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): We’ll note that.

Gary France (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): Yeah, yeah—

Steve Powell (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): Please note that.

Gary France (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): —yeah.

Steve Powell (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): This is really a scary thing. Even the church itself — I, I’m glad to be talking to somebody in Tacoma, Washington, somebody who’s not a Mormon, somebody who’s not in Salt Lake City simply because — the church itself would obfuscate an investigation if they thought it would throw some damaging light on the church.

Gary France (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): Right.

Steve Powell (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): They would do that. I mean, believe me, they would do that. So if—

Russ Johnson (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): Well they wouldn’t be very successful with, with anything federal.

Dave Cawley: Having heard out the FBI’s hypothetical, Steve then posed one of his own.

Steve Powell (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): We don’t have any video tapes of Susan’s disappearance, quote-unquote. Well all we know is that she’s gone.

Russ Johnson (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): Right.

Steve Powell (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): She went somewhere or somebody took her somewhere, y’know, we don’t know, and your seem, you seem to be of the opinion based on whatever evidence you have that maybe Josh had something to do with that disappearance.

Russ Johnson (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): That’s my opinion. But I’m open. I’m open.

Steve Powell (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): Ok. If, if she did walk away and she did it to frame Josh and she’s, y’know, just went to Brazil, start a new life, y’know, because her boyfriend knows Portuguese and yeah, let’s just go down there, we’re together and this guy really fits, you look at his picture, he fits the profile of the type of person she’d be attracted to. He looks not like, he doesn’t look like Josh but he has the sandy blonde hair, the blue eyes, all this, you know what I’m saying. Umm, so let’s suppose we do find out that she has basically done this and now Josh has been framed. Let’s suppose Josh is arrested because of this, whatever. Has she broken a law?

(Pause)

Steve Powell (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): Could she be extradited from Brazil for, y’know, to, to face, y’know, the music or whatever?

Gary France (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): Yeah, I don’t know what, I don’t know what the case law is on that. It happens occasionally where somebody disappears and we investigate it.

Russ Johnson (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): Especially if there’s fraud involved.

Dave Cawley: Steve quickly latched onto this idea of fraud, adding it to his Koecher conspiracy theory. He decided Susan must have been bankrolling her new life abroad by siphoning money from customer accounts she could have accessed through her work at Wells Fargo Investments.

That was baloney. There was no evidence to back up such a claim. Susan was not a white-collar criminal, just as she wasn’t abusing her children or plotting her husband’s death. To use a young Josh’s own words, Steve perceived these things to be true, because he wanted them to be true.

When West Valley detectives had talked to Steve in December, they’d finished by doing a quick search of his house. The special agents did something similar. They asked Steve for permission to review records for both his home and cell phone numbers.

Steve Powell (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): Be my guest. No, look at ‘em. I mean, uh, y’know, I mean Josh that, those two days used a prepaid cell phone. I mean, y’know, if you think there, there’s some chance that he maybe had that and God only knows, I mean, y’know, was communicating with somebody else or was doing something—

Russ Johnson (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): Yeah, it’s just to, it’s just to, just to make sure.

Steve Powell (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): —help yourselves. Yeah, let’s make sure. Y’know, I told you I would probably not say anything but, y’know, if I knew, if Josh confessed to me, which what’s the likelihood? Y’know what I’m saying? What’s the likelihood that Josh is going to come and say “oh, by the way, umm, just want to get this off my chest, uh, y’know, I, I threw her in a hole up on,” y’know, whatever. I mean—

Gary France (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): Mmhmm.

Russ Johnson (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): Yeah.

Steve Powell (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): —I mean it just isn’t, what’s the likelihood?

Dave Cawley: As they reached the end of their hours-long conversation, the agents again stressed to Steve the need for Josh to start talking.

Steve Powell (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): I, I would just, I would, I mean, if you guys, if you guys really want to have your day with Josh, you really do?

Gary France (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): Mmhmm.

Russ Johnson (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): Sure.

Steve Powell (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): Get his, get ahold of his attorney and tell him that. Just say “could we get him down here?” And then, pay for a plane ticket. Be ready to send a, put a plane ticket, because Josh doesn’t have any money and he’s not gonna, he’s not gonna pay his attorney to come up here to talk to you guys. They had ample opportunity down there and if you guys are late in the investigation, that’s not Josh’s problem. Y’know, don’t make him pay for something because they didn’t, they neglected to do their homework.

Russ Johnson (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): We’d, we’d, we’d pay for a plane ticket.

Steve Powell (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): Ok, good. Yeah, talk to his attorney, just tell him that.

Dave Cawley: Of course, none of that ever happened. It was an empty promise. And Steve, if he knew anything, wasn’t going to cooperate either. West Valley police would have to resort to other means.

[Scene transition]

Dave Cawley: A detective crept forward through the stillness of the early morning, shielded by the dark. It was quiet, after 3 a.m. on May 5th of 2010. Police were inside the community of Silver Creek. Two minivans sat in the driveway of a home at the corner of 186th and 94th Avenue Court East. The shadowy figure slinked up to one and then other, slipping a small device onto each vehicle. They were GPS beacons: court-approved tracking devices with transmitters that would allow the police to remotely follow the minivans, no matter where they went. One for Josh’s minivan, one for Steve’s.

It wasn’t the first time police had put a tracker on Josh’s minivan. They kept hoping he might unwittingly lead them to Susan. But the Powells felt the eyes of police on them. In his email to police in mid-January of 2010, Steve Powell had questioned if the cops had kept watch for suspects around the Sarah Circle house.

Ken Fall (as Steve Powell from January 15, 2010 email): Josh and Michael tell me there are some cameras watching the Powell house, mounted on the light poles. They did not know if it was your agency, the FBI or the media doing the spying.

Dave Cawley: Steve should have been more worried about his own house. The GPS trackers on the two vans, as well as on a third minivan Steve used for work, were part of a major operation. It involved round-the-clock eyes-on surveillance of Josh and Steve Powell during early May, 2010. A large group of West Valley detectives and command staff made the 15-hour drive up from Utah to take part.

Comically, some of them ended up heading right back. On the afternoon of May 5th, Josh drove to his storage unit and retrieved some stuff. At about 7 p.m., he started the long drive south and east toward Utah.

The West Valley team had to split up. Some remained in Puyallup to watch Steve, while the others tailed Josh. It was a grueling task. Josh drove until 3:30 a.m., finally exiting I-84 in Glenn’s Ferry, Idaho. He parked his van near the city pool and slept in the car for about five hours.

(Sound of traffic on I-84 in Idaho)

Dave Cawley: Josh was back on the road a bit before 9 a.m. on the morning of the 6th. He made a pitstop at the nearby Bliss Rest Area, then continued on to Tremonton, Utah, where he stopped for gas. Josh arrived in the Salt Lake valley early in the afternoon. He passed by Susan’s old workplace, then went to Aspen, the company from which he’d been fired in December.

Aspen’s HR manager was startled and a bit uncomfortable to see him since she was alone. Josh explained he was just there to return some IT books. Linda told him that wasn’t necessary, he could have just kept them. As Josh made his way out of the building, she told him not to come around again without first getting permission.

Next, Josh drove to the house on Sarah Circle.

Dax Guzman: He just showed up, he didn’t let us know.

Dave Cawley: Dax and Mindy Guzman had rented the house from Josh after he’d moved out in January.

Dax Guzman: And it was weird because, like, we knew what was going on with the investigation, so it was like “dude, you kind of, like if you’re going to come into the house there’s rules. You need to let your tenants know. You don’t, don’t just show up. … No, he was like, “oh sorry, it’s nothing. I’ve just got to grab stuff.”

Dave Cawley: The stuff he grabbed was leftovers that he hadn’t loaded up back in January. As part of their deal, Josh’d asked Dax to finish the house’s basement. He walked through that afternoon, showing the Guzmans where he wanted walls framed and where the doors should go.

Josh’s relationship with the Guzmans had never been great. They’d been friendly as neighbors, mostly because of Susan. But shortly after they’d moved it to the Sarah Circle house, Josh told Dax and Mindy he’d kill to have his wife back.

Dax Guzman: That was the one and only time that he made any kind of comment that had anything to do with his wife’s disappearance. For him, it was business, y’know, what’s happening, where the progress is, what he wanted with the stairs, that’s all it was.

Dave Cawley: At about 7:30 p.m., Josh left the house to grab some Chinese take-out. The detectives could see that the passenger compartment of his van was packed full of household items. A pair of plastic 50-gallon totes were also strapped to the outside of the van. They were the last of Josh’s Utah possessions.

He left the house again around 11 p.m., headed for the freeway. He stopped once along the way to make sure the load was lashed tight, then started back toward Washington. He’d been in Utah for less than 12 hours.

Josh drove into southern Idaho. At about 2:30 a.m., he left the freeway a bit east of Twin Falls and north of the Snake River. He parked and went to sleep.

(Sound of traffic passing on I-84 in Idaho)

Dave Cawley: The team of detectives tailing Josh had traded off shifts while he was in Utah. They had fresh eyes and kept a constant watch as he slept. The van didn’t move for a full eight hours. At 10:30 a.m. that morning, May 7th, he resumed the drive to Washington.

Josh went well below the speed limit, apparently concerned going too fast might cause the stuff strapped to the outside of his minivan to break loose. That meant that an already long drive was taking even longer.

Back in Washington, the rest of the West Valley surveillance team was keeping an eye on Steve. He hadn’t done all that much while Josh was gone, just going to work and the gym. The other Powell kids who were living in the house didn’t even set foot outside.

That afternoon, the team in Washington sent some detectives to relieve the group that was tailing Josh. Unfortunately, a major traffic jam had cars backed up for more than nine miles. The two groups of cops missed each other.

Josh finally made it back to his dad’s house just before midnight, more than 24 hours after leaving West Valley City. The next afternoon, he went to his storage unit and unloaded the van. His dad made a stop at a local landfill. On May 9th, they returned to the landfill together, then went to a thrift store and donated some items. Josh was getting ditching Susan’s stuff.

The morning of Monday, May 10th, Steve left home and caught a bus headed for Tacoma. He was on his way to pick up his work van after the weekend. While on the bus, he took out a pen and started to write in the spiral-bound notebook he used as a journal.

Ken Fall (as Steve Powell from May 10, 2010 journal entry): I wonder if Susan is missing me. … I have these images of Susan in mind, sunbathing and strolling on nude beaches in Brazil, letting everyone and anyone see what I have longed to see. I have also fantasized about being at a nude resort with her myself.

Dave Cawley: If Steve knew he was being watched, he didn’t let on.

Ken Fall (as Steve Powell from May 10, 2010 journal entry): Yesterday was Mother’s Day and I bought some plants with flowers for the boys to plant in Susan’s honor. The flowers were purple, which is the color her parents have chosen as her ‘favorite.’ I don’t know if that is true, but I went with it.

Dave Cawley: On Tuesday, May 11th, the West Valley team went and knocked on the door of Steve’s house. They were flanked by U.S. Marshal Derryl Spencer and FBI Special Agent Gary France.

Steve answered and allowed them to come inside. He and provided consent for them to look around. Special Agent France found a locked file cabinet in Steve’s bedroom. Inside were photos of Susan, including some voyeuristic shots in which she was dressed only in her underwear. There were other, more disturbing pictures, including pornographic images of women with their faces removed and replaced by Susan’s. France found pictures of Steve exposing himself and performing lewd acts while looking at pictures of Susan. France found women’s underwear — temple garments considered sacred by Latter-day Saints — which Steve had stolen from Susan’s laundry basket.

France confronted Steve about the pictures and asked where he’d got them. Steve said he’d take some of them. The others, he’d copied off of Josh’s computer without Josh’s knowledge.

Josh was at the house, too. In fact, he was sitting at his computer when the police entered. He’d quickly shut it down. When the police rebooted it, they discovered its contents were encrypted.

The FBI had placed a tracker of its own on Josh’s minivan. Legally, they were required to tell him about it, now that they were taking it off, so they did.

“So if you’ve been tracking me, then you know that I just went to Salt Lake City,” Josh said. “I wasn’t trying to hide anything. I made sure that I left my phone on. I used my cell phone and my credit cards.”

That remark got their attention. During his December camping trip, Josh had kept his phone off and not used his credit cards. He obviously understood they could be used to track his movements.

One of the detectives told Josh they wanted to take a look inside his storage unit and see what he’d brought back from Utah. The investigators drove to the storage unit. Josh moved opened it up and some stuff around so they could get a better look. The only noteworthy thing was a split geode. A long, single strand of hair clung to it. The geode and hair were probably from the camping trip Josh and Susan had taken with the boys to the Dugway geode beds in May of 2009, a year earlier. Police took them as evidence, just in case.

Steve wrote about the his interactions with the investigators on that day in his journal.

Ken Fall (as Steve Powell from May 17, 2010 journal entry): I had a sense that they had found her, even though they refused to acknowledge that. They wanted to check out our computers to find out if we had any contact with Susan since December 7. I think it was apparent to them that the answer to that question was negative.

Dave Cawley: Steve understood as well as the police did just what Josh’s final move out of the West Valley City home meant. Josh never expected or intended to be with Susan again.

Ellis Maxwell, West Valley City’s lead detective on the Powell case, knew Steve had not given up hope.

Ellis Maxwell: In his mind, she was still alive. And I’m sure at some point he probably thought she’s hiding from Josh for a minute and then she’s gonna come back and be with Steve. I mean, this guy’s so left of center it’s, it’s crazy.

Steve Powell (from song recording): I spent the whole day through waiting for you. I could be getting a mistaken impression each time you seem to gaze at me.

Here’s what Steve wrote in his journal on May 17, 2010.

Ken Fall (as Steve Powell from May 17, 2010 journal entry): Even if she is not into some deep do-do, she really no longer has a home. Josh has rented out their house. He really doesn’t want her back, and doesn’t particularly want her to be around the boys. I would take her into my home and bedroom in a minute, but I would have to deal with some very strong objections from my kids. I am sure none of them would be thrilled to have her shack up with me and become by default the “queen of the house.”

Dave Cawley: On the next episode of Cold.

Nancy: I just said, y’know, “why don’t you be a bigger man and not give those journals out to anyone. Those are childhood journals.” And he’s going “well you don’t know what I went through. You don’t know.”

Cold season 1, episode 8: Wearing a Wire – Full episode transcript

Dave Cawley: Josh Powell loaded his sons, Charlie and Braden, into their car seats on Saturday, December 19, 2009. He was leaving West Valley City, Utah for his dad’s house on the outskirts of Puyallup, Washington. He was headed home for the holidays. His wife, Susan, had been missing for 12 days. Ellis Maxwell, West Valley City’s lead detective on the case, was powerless to keep Josh in Utah.

Ellis Maxwell: It was frustrating at the most because this is a crime that we’re investigating here and the individual that we’re really focusing on is now leaving the state and going 12 hours away.

Dave Cawley: On Christmas Eve and Christmas Day, Josh dropped the boys with Susan’s parents. Each time, he refused to set foot inside his in-law’s home. Susan’s dad, Chuck Cox, had suspected from the beginning that Josh was responsible for his daughter’s disappearance.

Chuck Cox: I didn’t have anything to say to him other than, “what did you do, you creep?” Y’know? “You’d better get her, you’d better find her, find her and show us where she is and free her from wherever you have her stashed or whatever you’ve done.”

Dave Cawley: Between Christmas and New Years, West Valley police learned about Josh’s request to withdraw Susan’s retirement, using the power of attorney she had signed earlier that year. They couldn’t stop the distribution. The paperwork was air-tight.

At the start of the new year, Ellis learned Josh did not intend to come back. He was moving away from West Valley, permanently.

Ellis Maxwell: It was surprising to us but it wasn’t.

Dave Cawley: Remember, police had been keeping close tabs on Josh’s movements, including using a GPS tracker.

Ellis Maxwell: We’re eyes-on, we’re following him, we’re doing everything that we can to see if we can pick up on any cues and he’ll kind of screw up somewhere and we can be like “ok, there it is” or, y’know, and, and be able to locate her.

Dave Cawley: Word of Josh’s arrival spread fast though among the community in Puyallup.

Ellis Maxwell: It didn’t take long for Josh to kind of ruffle the waters up there and when people started learning that he was in the area and his kids were coming to church or whatnot, y’know, it caused some concern. And rightfully so, because I think everybody wanted to, to see an end in this investigation and probably wanted to see him sitting in jail and then obviously Susan to be found.

Dave Cawley: This is Cold, Episode 8: Wearing a Wire. I’m Dave Cawley. Right back after this.

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Dave Cawley: Members of the Gem Heights Ward were buzzing. Josh had suddenly shown up in their midst. He attended services at the church on the first Sunday of 2010, January 3rd, with his boys Charlie and Braden. It had been awhile since Josh had attended church with any regularity. When he and Susan had met, Josh was an every-Sunday kind of guy. His personal audio journals from that time often included what he called “spiritual entries.”

Josh Powell (from February 17, 2000 audio journal recording): I have many sore trials but I am exceedingly blessed and exceedingly blessed in the spirit and so much that I know what I have to do, that I have to live righteously in order to receive those blessings.

Dave Cawley: But of course, Josh had lost interest in religion just a few years after marrying Susan. That remained a source of friction in their marriage, right up until she disappeared. So it seemed odd that he would suddenly find faith again, right then. There was a logic to it. Josh needed help.

He introduced himself to the bishop of the Gem Heights Ward, a man named Dahl Johnson, as “the husband with the missing wife in Salt Lake City.” Then, he explained he was moving in to the neighborhood. He’d lost his job and couldn’t afford food. The bishop offered Josh food assistance and gave him the name and number of an employment specialist.

Josh had also brought the boys to church. Charlie and Braden attended Primary. That’s the church’s Sunday School program for young kids. While there, Charlie ran wild. (Laughs) He was rambunctious, just weeks shy of his 5th birthday, and surrounded by new, unfamiliar people.

The Primary teacher, Crystal Lewis, had no clue who Charlie was. She didn’t know if he was a visitor or if his parents were new members of the congregation. At one point during the class, Charlie flipped the light switch on and off. Crystal told him to stop. He just grinned, having discovered a new game. Then, he turned the lights out again.

Crystal warned Charlie that if he didn’t shape up, she would tell his mom and dad that he was misbehaving.

“My mom is dead,” Charlie said.

Lewis was stunned. Later that day, she learned Charlie’s last name was Powell. She realized he was the son of the missing woman from Utah, the son of the guy who’d been all over the news.

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Dave Cawley: Five days later, Josh was back in Utah. He and his brother Michael pulled up to the Sarah Circle house in West Valley with a U-Haul truck and trailer.

In spite of all that’d happened, Josh’s neighbors turned out to help him pack. They moved boxes, tools and furniture into to the truck. Josh stood around, watching and giving directions.

Wendy Trujillo: I helped pack the kitchen up, most of the kitchen, a little teeny bit in the bedroom. I felt uncomfortable in the bedroom ‘cause like, that’s your private space. I don’t want to be in there. (Laughs) And then a little bit downstairs and in the storage and…

Dave Cawley: Wendy Trujillio’s parents lived a couple of houses away from the Powell house. She’d heard rumors about trouble in Josh and Susan’s marriage, but wasn’t sure what to believe.

Wendy Trujillo: I’m like, “uh, she couldn’t have been starving or out of food. They have five gallon jugs of rice and peanut butter and corn and like all kinds of food storage that lasts for a long time.” And five gallons of peanut butter and more than one five gallon bucket is quite a bit, so… (Laughs)

Dave Cawley: There were other buckets in the basement though that Josh didn’t want anyone but his brother Michael to get near. After Josh and Michael had moved them out of the basement, Wendy noticed what appeared to be an odd chemical splashed on the exposed insulation of the cellar. Some of it also appeared to have spilled on the floor in the kitchen. Josh joked that it was blood and he’d better clean it up before the police arrived.

Wendy Trujillo: To me it was, you don’t joke about stuff like that when you’re in a situation like he was in.

Dave Cawley: When Josh wasn’t looking, Wendy pressed a piece of packing tape to the spot on the kitchen floor, collecting a sample. She did the same thing in the cellar. She eventually provided both to police, who tested the samples for blood. Both came back negative.

At one point, Josh quipped that he’d just loaded Susan’s head in the truck. Then, he laughed. Wendy didn’t respond, so Josh asked if she’d heard him.

Wendy Trujillo: I looked at him and I was like, looking, I turned away and looked down and finished packing. And I’m like, “did he really just say that? Are you serious?”

Dave Cawley: Josh wouldn’t give it up. Finally, Wendy asked him if he meant a mannequin head, something Susan would have used for cosmetology. Josh said yeah, then laughed again.

Wendy Trujillo: It was interesting because sometimes he’d crack those horrible jokes and then sometimes he’d be really emotional. Whenever he packed up in the bedroom, he’d get really emotional and he’d cry and he’d have to come out of the room and take a break and then he’d try to go back in and sometimes he was like “alright, I’m not going work on this for, y’know, until I need to say a different day.”

Dave Cawley: Word made it back to Susan’s parents in Washington that Josh was abandoning the house.

Chuck Cox: The fact that he was moving back just said he knows where she is and that she’s not coming back.

Dave Cawley: Chuck Cox called Josh’s sister, Jennifer Graves.

Jennifer Graves: We went over to help pack up not because we felt like that was the right thing for him to do — to leave — but because we wanted to, I guess, be a little bit more in the know. … Chuck had asked us to set aside a couple of Susan’s personal things that he didn’t want disappearing.

Chuck Cox: Uh, she had a, a graduation present which was a, a bench with uh, storage in it and uh, she had her journals in there. And we wanted her journals. They’re our daughter’s journals, we should have her journals. And uh, he wanted everything. He, he, what use would he have for her dresses? None. But he wanted them.

Dave Cawley: Michael saw Jennifer walking out of the house with some boxes, not toward the U-Haul but instead to her own van. He stepped in front of his older sister and told her to stop.

Jennifer Graves: So it just felt like a really strange situation. Why are you all covering up for him? Why aren’t you just pushing him to tell what he knows? Wouldn’t that be the right thing to do?

Dave Cawley: Josh told Jennifer she couldn’t take the boxes or the Deacons bench. She called Susan’s dad, then handed her phone to Josh. He argued with Chuck, but finally agreed to let Jennifer take the bench.

Chuck Cox: So, when he said we could have it, I said, she heard yes, we could have it, she took it and put it in the car and drove it away. So it was gone. And then later he changed his mind and it’s “oh no, I want it.” “No, you can’t, sorry, it’s gone.” So, then it was “oh, you stole it.” No.

Jennifer Graves: Because of pressure from other ward members that were in the room at the time, we were able to get that Deacon’s bench and, and some things. He wouldn’t give the, I don’t think he ended up giving the pictures.

Dave Cawley: …Or Susan’s journals. Under no circumstances would he allow the Coxes to have those.

Chuck Cox: Well his dad wanted the journals and he gives them to his dad. Really? What an idiot. Who would do that?

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Dave Cawley: If the move back to Washington was meant to be a clean break for Josh, it didn’t work out that way. He called the Gem Heights Ward leaders on January 11th, to let them know he’d need help unloading the U-Haul. Latter-day Saints tend to have something of a reputation when it comes to this kind of service.

The task of helping Josh fell to the ward’s Elder’s Quorum. The president of the Elder’s Quorum was a man named Rod Stephens. He explained to Josh it would take time to rally enough people, but they’d get the job done. Rod and about five other guys met Josh at his storage unit in the city Sumner on the evening of Wednesday, January 13th.

Rod Stephens: Yeah, it was a good-sized storage unit and they even built umm, a loft above it so we could put stuff up higher, even. … His father was there and his brother, his younger brother was there.

Dave Cawley: That would of course have been Michael. Rod and the crew started to unload the U-Haul.

Rod Stephens: He had some kids stuff, his stuff, but in fact I remember he didn’t have anything of Susan’s, really, which surprised me. There just wasn’t anything of hers but it was all just his stuff and the kids’ stuff.

Dave Cawley: Steve and Michael both pitched in, helping carry and stack boxes. Josh stood off to one side and watched.

Rod Stephens: Josh is lazy. Uh, one of the laziest people I’ve known. He was kind of aloof from us. He would kind of walk around and look at all of his, his goods but he didn’t help lift anything. He didn’t help his father. He didn’t help his brother. He ate Dorito chips and drank water. And he did that until I was so frustrated that I would grab boxes and put them right in Josh’s hands. Then he would take the box that I gave him, he would walk, set it down then he’d go back and drink his water and eat his potato chips.

Dave Cawley: Josh didn’t even bother with conversation during the two hours it took to stack the storage unit.

Rod Stephens: No, in fact he rarely said anything at all except to tell us thanks and that he was, ‘cause I kept handing him boxes, he told me, he says “well, I’m really tired and really thirsty” is what he told me. And I said “ok” and then I’d hand him another box. I didn’t care.

Dave Cawley: If Josh’d bothered to ask, he might’ve learned that Rod wasn’t just the Elder’s Quorum president. He was also a federal agent. Rod’s day job was with the U.S. Postal Inspection Service.

Rod Stephens: I work in law enforcement, so, my own thoughts were “I wonder if part of her body is in this bucket that I’m offloading” and he had so many buckets — I can’t recall now — but I want to tell you 50, 100 buckets of five-gallon buckets. So every time I pick up a heavy bucket I’m thinking “is part of Susan in this bucket?” Literally, I’m wondering that.

Dave Cawley: The barrels contained food storage, grain, mostly. Rod kept his eyes open though for any possible shred of evidence. He didn’t see any.

Rod Stephens: No, if I would have found something then, well I would have stopped it right then and I would have held it. I would have called West Valley, then I would have called the local agency out and we would have held it. Period. And then I would have backed myself off because, yeah this wouldn’t have been my jurisdiction or my, right. But it would have stopped right then.

Dave Cawley: Of course, that didn’t happen. When they were done, Rod contacted his boss, who just happened to be a former police officer for West Valley City. It was a crazy coincidence.

Rod Stephens: You’d probably win the lottery easier than saying “hey, I’m Josh Powell’s Elder’s Quorum president and I work in law enforcement.”

Dave Cawley: Rod’s boss reached out to some old contacts at the department and told them where they could find Josh’s storage unit. Detective Ellis Maxwell was already on the hunt for it. He’d traveled to Washington that same week and had visited several storage unit businesses in the area. At the time, police believed Josh, or possibly Steve, might be holding Susan captive in one.

Ellis also visited Steve’s work, Washington Correctional Industries.

Ellis Maxwell: We didn’t spend any time lallygagging around. We, we were interviewing friends and family, past old friends, high school friends all the way to the Sunday school teachers and putting together and developing plans as far as what our next step was going to be.

Dave Cawley: On the same day that Rod Stephens was helping unload Josh’s U-Haul, the Sunday School teacher Crystal Lewis was telling Ellis what Charlie Powell had told her: his mommy was dead.

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Dave Cawley: That wasn’t even the most dramatic thing that happened day. On January 13th, Josh’s estranged older sister Jennifer learned her husband Kirk was scheduled to fly to Seattle for work the following week.

Jennifer Graves: I suddenly had this idea that I needed to go, too. And that we needed to go and confront Josh, and see if we could get him to confess.

Dave Cawley: She called the West Valley police department to ask for guidance. At first, the response didn’t seem all that enthusiastic.

Jennifer Graves: They don’t know who to trust. They don’t know that I’m really, really there to help them.

Dave Cawley: But Jennifer had started to develop a rapport with the many of the detectives.

Jennifer Graves: I called Ellis and I asked him, “can you,” I mean, “can I do this?” I didn’t even know if they would be ok with that. Y’know, would that be ok? Would that be legal? Would that be, would that mess up what they’re doing?

Dave Cawley: Ellis warned Jennifer that confronting Josh could be dangerous, but he couldn’t stop her. The idea continued to stir in Jennifer’s mind.

Jennifer Graves: And we’re just bouncing some ideas off and I’m like, “what if I got wired? What if the police were like behind this and actually wired me and we, we got, like, evidence?” So I called Ellis again. I’m like, “this is, this is what I want to do, I think, y’know, what if we wired me and I went in?”

Ellis Maxwell: It was great. I’ll never forget when Jennifer came to me with that proposal. I, I’m not going to lie, I kind of got a smile on my face and I was like “I like this.”

Dave Cawley: But it wasn’t that simple. Utah is a one-party consent state. That means as long as one person in a conversation knows it’s being recorded, it’s all good. Washington, on the other had, is two-party consent. All people involved must be made aware of and agree to being recorded. Jennifer obviously wasn’t going to tell the rest of her family she was carrying a hidden microphone.

Ellis Maxwell: So, because of that, you really got to jump through a lot of hoops and your warrant needs to have the right language.

Ellis reached out to Detective Gary Sanders with the Pierce County Sheriff’s Office. They worked together to secure a warrant that would allow Jennifer to break the two-party consent rule.

Gary Sanders: I mean, when your own sister, your own sibling, your own blood is willing to turn and she knows that’s what’s going on, that speaks volumes.

Dave Cawley: Kirk and Jennifer arrived in Washington on January 21st. The following day, they went to the Pierce County precinct to meet the team.

Jennifer Graves: Got all wired up. I had a thing in my pocket and that was recording.

Dave Cawley: It was also transmitting a live feed of the audio to a police vehicle parked a street or two away from the Powell home. A helicopter orbited overhead. They didn’t anticipate violence, but the police gave Jennifer code words to use if the situation got out of hand. If that happened, Pierce County deputies would rush the house.

Ellis Maxwell: It was a little, uh, nerve-wracking simply because you just don’t know what’s going to happen. Right? Yeah, we know Jennifer. We know the Powells. But we all know emotions are hard to manage and so once she was in that situation it was, it was a little nerve-wracking.

Dave Cawley: Jennifer summoned her courage. She and Kirk pulled up to the curb outside her father’s house at about 5:30 p.m., stepped out of the car and knocked on the door.

(Sound of car door chime beeping)

Dave Cawley: The audio you are hearing now comes from the recording device Jennifer was wearing that evening.

Steve Powell (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): What’s happening?

Jennifer Graves (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): How’s it going?

Dave Cawley: For the first time in years, the whole Powell clan — Steve, Jennifer, Josh, John, Michael, Alina and the boys, Charlie and Braden — were together under one roof.

Jennifer Graves: Relations between my family and I were already strained. And so the fact that I would show up is probably a big red flag to them already. And so, are they on their guard? Yeah. For sure. They are on their guard.

Dave Cawley: Susan’s absence loomed over the gathering, but no one mentioned it.

Jennifer Graves: It’s the elephant in the room that you completely avoid. Except you have to skirt around it because it’s taking up so much room.

Dave Cawley: Charlie and Braden were excited to see familiar faces from their former home in Utah. Both boys had recently celebrated birthdays.

Charlie Powell (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): And it’s my birthday!

Jennifer Graves (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): It is, it’s your birthday Charlie. We brought you a present.

Dave Cawley: Susan hadn’t tried to contact her boys on Christmas or on either one of their birthdays, yet another sign that she was not only missing, but likely dead.

Charlie, now five, had a message for Jennifer about her recent appearances on the news.

Charlie Powell (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): I have one more thing to tell you.

Jennifer Graves (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): Yeah?

Charlie Powell (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): Quit, quit, quit umm, a media on.

Kirk Graves (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): (Laughs)

Jennifer Graves (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): Ok, quit on that media. Have they been too bothersome lately?

Josh Powell (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): Not even at all.

Dave Cawley: That last voice belonged to Josh. He chatted with Kirk and Jennifer about his trip with Michael in the U-Haul a couple of weeks prior.

Kirk Graves (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): Did Mike drive part of the way? Did he really?

Jennifer Graves (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): He was nervous about that.

Kirk Graves (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): He was telling me he didn’t want to drive. He was nervous to do it.

Josh Powell (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): Yeah, Mike shouldn’t be driving…

Dave Cawley: Josh seemed relaxed. He talked freely about birthday party plans for the boys and his efforts to find a new job. He hoped to land something in the IT field. If not, well, there was always unemployment.

Josh Powell (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): My only thought right now is it would be pretty stupid to take a pay cut, to go to work for a pay cut, compared to unemployment—

Kirk Graves (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): Oh, right. Well—

Josh Powell (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): —this early in the game. Now, a couple months from now—

Kirk Graves (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): Can you collect unemployment in the state of Washington?

Dave Cawley: The Sarah Circle house back in West Valley was also on Josh’s mind. He still had a mortgage to pay and with no income, the house was turning into an albatross.

Josh Powell (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): Probably going to have to go back, obviously, eventually.

Jennifer Graves (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): Oh really? Oh, you’re going to go back to Utah, you mean.

Josh Powell (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): Yeah. 

Jennifer Graves (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): Yeah, so—

Josh Powell (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): I don’t know when. I haven’t decided.

Jennifer Graves (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): Yeah.

Josh Powell (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): But…

Jennifer Graves (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): You’re going to work on the house?

Dave Cawley: Josh wasn’t sure selling was the best idea, though. The market was soft and the house still needed work, liking finishing the new back deck or completing the basement.

Josh Powell (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): I don’t know if I’ll rent it or sell it, you know?

Jennifer Graves (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): Yeah.

Josh Powell (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): I like the rental idea because I just don’t want to let it go. It doesn’t seem appropriate to let it go, y’know?

Jennifer Graves (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): Yeah.

Josh Powell (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): But on the other hand, if someone goes in there and trashes it, fails to make the mortgage, or make the rent—

Jennifer Graves (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): Yeah.

Josh Powell (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): —then it’s gone and there’s nothing I can do to save it at that point.

Jennifer Graves (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): That’s true.

Josh Powell (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): I just plain don’t have the money—

Jennifer Graves (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): Mmhmm.

Josh Powell (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): —unless I can get another job. Then, I could make the difference and sort of carry the black. If there is—

Jennifer Graves (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): Float it for awhile, yeah.

Josh Powell (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): —but I’m guessing if I were to rent it I’d have to pay the difference, I’d probably have a shortfall anyway.

Jennifer Graves (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): You think so?

Dave Cawley: Josh’s finances were tight. Not only had he lost his job, Susan’s income was gone, too. He had used the power of attorney to draw her 401k, but that money wouldn’t last long.

Josh Powell (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): Both of our credit is tied to that house and if we, if we lose it, then we’re, y’know, we’re  basically going to have a problem.

Kirk Graves (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): Yours is already not so great, right? You got a bankruptcy.

Josh Powell (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): I had a bankruptcy.

Kirk Graves (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): Oh, is it gone already? Wow.

Josh Powell (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): Oh, it’s over. I, no one denies me credit.

Kirk Graves (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): Wow, ok.

Josh Powell (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): I’ve never been denied credit because of the bankruptcy.

Dave Cawley: At no point during any of this did Josh talk about Susan as anything other than an asset. He didn’t lament her loss or complain about the straights she had put him in by leaving, something he might have been expected to do if she’d taken off with some other guy. In fact, he didn’t raise a single question about where she might be.

Jennifer Graves: Topic of Susan’s disappearance never came up until I brought it up. I had to force the subject. And it was. It was very strange and strained. Y’know, at least on my side, it felt very strained ‘cause I’m like, “this is so weird. We’re not even saying anything about it” and he doesn’t appear to be distressed at all about his wife not being here. Not knowing where she is.

Dave Cawley: The Powell family sat down to dinner. Josh, uncharacteristically, asked to say grace.

Josh Powell (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): Let’s just say a super fast prayer, ok? Here we go. Be done real quick. Dear Heavenly Father, thank you for this day, ask you to bless this food…

Dave Cawley: Jennifer’s heart raced as they ate. Behind a forced smile, she wondered how best to make her move.

Jennifer Graves: I just didn’t know how to go about it. Do you do this in a soft approach? Do you take a hard line? How do you approach someone when you know that they are guilty of a heinous crime and get them to admit that?

Dave Cawley: The pork chops disappeared from their plates. Dinner was soon done. While the rest of the family cleared the table, Jennifer pulled Josh aside into the office, closing the French doors behind them. In a hushed voice, she told her brother there’d been rumors that he’d soon be arrested soon.

Jennifer Graves (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): You’re going to be gone for a long time.

Josh Powell (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): I don’t—

Jennifer Graves (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): (Unintelligible)

Josh Powell (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): I understand what you mean.

Jennifer Graves (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): You don’t understand jail?

Josh Powell (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): No, I don’t understand why you’re, what rumors you’re talking about.

Jennifer Graves (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): I’m just, I’m just concerned. I mean, you know what, it doesn’t look good. From everything I’ve seen…

Dave Cawley: I know this is tough to understand, so listen close.

Jennifer Graves (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): Y’know what? I, I’ve, I’ve got this feeling like you need to step up now, like do a plea bargain.

Dave Cawley: Jennifer told Josh to take a plea bargain.

Josh Powell (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): Anyway.

Jennifer Graves (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): It will reduce your sentence Josh.

Josh Powell (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): No, no. Don’t be ridiculous.

Dave Cawley: Don’t be ridiculous.

Jennifer Graves (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): You want to go to jail for a long time? I don’t want to see that happen and you’re gonna, you’re not going to be able to see your boys for years.

Dave Cawley: Jennifer warned him if he goes to jail, it will be for a long time and he wouldn’t be able to see his boys for years. Jennifer pressed, questioning where he had gone in the rental car on December 8th and 9th, those mysterious 800 miles in 18 hours.

Jennifer Graves (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): What, what’s up with all this, this, you wandering around? They, think think that, that you were going for hundreds of miles on Tuesday. Where were you going with that? Tuesday night, that night after you got the rental car. They were talking about that. Where did you go?

Josh Powell (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): Nowhere.

Jennifer Graves (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): For hundreds of miles?

Josh Powell (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): Yeah.

Jennifer Graves (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): Nowhere where?

Josh Powell (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): I didn’t go anywhere in specific.

Jennifer Graves (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): You just drove around all over the place?

Josh Powell (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): Yeah. I mean, whatever, y’know. There’s no plea bargain, I mean, y’know.

Dave Cawley: “There’s no plea bargain.”

Josh Powell (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): I doubt the rumors but whatever. I mean, who knows. They do what they do. They think what they think. I don’t know what to tell you.

Jennifer Graves (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): Hmm. What do you think?

Dave Cawley: Josh’s response: I doubt the rumors but whatever, I mean, who knows. Jennifer tried another approach.

Jennifer Graves (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): So what happened on Sunday?

Josh Powell (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): My attorney has told me just don’t talk about it, about specifics.

Jennifer Graves (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): Who cares about your attorney, Josh?

Dave Cawley: “My attorney has told me: just don’t talk about it, about specifics.”

Jennifer Graves (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): What happened? What happened that night?

Josh Powell (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): I’ve already told. Y’know, I’ve sat down with the cops. I’ve told them everything.

Jennifer Graves (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): Well you didn’t tell me anything. I’ve asked and you haven’t said anything to me.

Ellis Maxwell: Josh’s, y’know, responses and his behavior and his actions when Jennifer approaches him kind, y’know, of similar to like the interview and interrogations that we conducted with him. Y’know, “I, I, I can’t talk about it.” Like, “I’ve gotta go through my attorney.” I mean, dude you’re not talking to a cop. You’re talking to your sister.

Jennifer Graves (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): Why not? Why don’t you, why won’t you tell me? Why don’t you put my mind at ease and tell me what happened? I’m your sister. Susan was my friend. She’s your wife for crying out loud. What happened?

Josh Powell (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): I don’t know what happened. I don’t know what happened.

Jennifer Graves (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): Well what did you do. What did you do that night? What do you know?

Dave Cawley: Jennifer’s appeals didn’t work. Josh wasn’t going to tell her anything.

Ellis Maxwell: You can only play that for a minute. You can only act, the way he was acting, you can only act like that for so long. And he never fell out of that which tells me that, y’know, he is who he is and he’s clearly responsible.

Jennifer Graves (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): It just doesn’t seem like you care at all.

Dave Cawley: “It just doesn’t seem like you care at all.”

Josh Powell (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): Honestly, I can’t believe that you’re, that you say that stuff.

Jennifer Graves (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): You walked away.

Dave Cawley: “You walked away.”

Josh Powell (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): What do you mean “walked away?”

Jennifer Graves (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): You walked away. You’re trying to get rid of your house. You’re walking away from it.

Josh Powell (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): The house I can’t afford.

Jennifer Graves (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): So? They’re not going to take it out from under you right now.

Dave Cawley: Josh and Jennifer’s youngest brother Michael had noticed them slipping away after dinner. He’d followed them, staying out of view but within earshot.

Jennifer Graves: For them to hear everything, I don’t know that they were hearing everything but they were probably concerned because it was a full glass wall with the glass doors and you can see everything that’s going on. And they were probably a little distressed.

Dave Cawley: In fact, Michael described that day in a court filing years later. He said he’d positioned himself just outside the glass doors, because that was standard practice in the family with people they didn’t trust. He heard what Jennifer was saying and relayed that information to his dad.

Steve swooped in to put a stop to it. He interrupted, telling Josh it was time to go pick up a birthday cake for the boys’ party. He told Jennifer it was probably time for she and Kirk to leave.

Jennifer Graves: But he was just, they were all just trying to play it cool. Pretend like nothing was happening and that they had nothing to do with it.

Dave Cawley: As soon as Steve left the room, Jennifer went back to work. She challenged Josh, asking what he was doing to aid the search. Josh replied, in typical form, that he was building a website.

Josh Powell (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): And I’m not gonna do anything in the public. I don’t care what anyone says about me. They can say what they want. That’s why I can’t really go out and—

Josh Powell (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): People are comparing you to Mark Hacking. He got up and walked away from his—

Josh Powell (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): I don’t even know who that is.

Jennifer Graves (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): —as soon as he killed her. As soon as he killed his wife. That’s the guy that killed his wife and put her in the dump.

Josh Powell (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): Ok, I did hear something about that.

Jennifer Graves (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): Yeah.

Dave Cawley: Josh was not being honest here. He knew the Mark Hacking case very well. Here again is Ellis Maxwell.

Ellis Maxwell: He made a comment to somebody about the Lori Hacking case and he said that Mark Hacking screwed up because he, he lied to the police too many times. He didn’t give them, he lied too many times and he didn’t give them reliable information.

Dave Cawley: A brief aside is necessary here. Mark Hacking shot and killed his pregnant wife Lori in their Salt Lake City apartment in July of 2004, just months after Josh and Susan arrived in Utah. Hacking tried to stage Lori’s murder as a disappearance. He took her car to a nearby park where she liked to jog and abandoned it there. He dumped her body and the mattress upon which he’d shot her in a dumpster, then went and bought a new mattress to replace the blood-stained one.

Hacking called 911 to report his wife missing, saying she’d failed to return from a morning jog. He went before news cameras and tearfully asked for help. The local community sprang into action, just as it had two years earlier when a young girl named Elizabeth Smart had been abducted from her bedroom.

Salt Lake City police detectives immediately spotted inconsistencies with Mark’s story, little details like the position of the driver seat in Lori’s car. Lori was short and wouldn’t have been able to reach the gas pedal, but the seat was set perfectly for somebody as tall as Mark.

They also learned Mark had not graduated from the University of Utah, as he’d claimed. Nor had he been accepted to a postgraduate program in North Carolina, as he’d led his family and Lori to believe. Mark Hacking had woven a web of lies that was stunning in its complexity. It had all came apart when Lori learned his secret, confronted him and demanded he come clean. That’s why he killed her.

Police recovered Lori’s decomposed remains from a landfill after a search that stretched on for several weeks. Detective Ellis Maxwell had a hand in that.

Ellis Maxwell: I was a part of that investigation. I was out at the landfill for I can’t even remember how many weeks looking for Lori. I haven’t been to the landfill since. (Uncomfortable laugh)

Dave Cawley: I, I was sitting on the other side of the fence a lot of those days—

Ellis Maxwell: Were you?

Dave Cawley: —just waiting. Yeah. Yeah.

Ellis Maxwell: Oh my. That was, it was horrible.

Dave Cawley: Yeah.

Dave Cawley: That wasn’t the only tie. Before her death, Lori Hacking had worked for Wells Fargo Investments, the same company where Susan was working when she disappeared. Some of Susan’s coworkers had known Lori.

When Susan disappeared in 2009, many people were quick to draw parallels between her case and that of the Hackings five years earlier. The sense in the community seemed to be that Josh would crack under the pressure and confess, just as Mark Hacking had and that the police would in short order locate and recover Susan’s remains.

Neither happened. Josh was a much better liar than Mark.

Ellis Maxwell: Josh clearly took something from that case. In all honesty, it was very good advice, right? You cannot offer too many lies but you also have to offer some truth. Ok? And he followed that fairly well.

Dave Cawley: The comparison didn’t phase Josh. He brushed off Jennifer’s comment, flatly denying that his situation was anything like that of Mark Hacking.

Jennifer Graves (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): So why were you having so many problems just before she disappeared then?

Josh Powell (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): We weren’t having a lot of problems.

Jennifer Graves (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): It’d been a few weeks but she was talking about stuff.

Josh Powell (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): We weren’t having problems.

Jennifer Graves (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): You weren’t having problems?

Josh Powell (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): No.

Jennifer Graves (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): I just don’t buy it. I talked to Susan myself, Josh. You can’t tell me that I didn’t hear it from her.

Dave Cawley: Josh’d had enough. He told Jennifer he was leaving to go get the birthday cake.

Jennifer Graves: I finally actually shoved him into the bathroom and was like, “come on, just tell me where her body is.”

Jennifer Graves (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): I think you just need to confess now and get it over with.

Josh Powell (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): Don’t be ridiculous. I’ve told you already.

Jennifer Graves (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): I see it in your face, Josh. I can see it in your face.

Dave Cawley: “I can see it in your face.”

Josh Powell (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): Then I don’t know what to say because I’ve already told you.

Jennifer Graves (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): Everything I’ve seen and now this.

Josh Powell (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): I don’t know what you mean “and now this.”

Jennifer Graves (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): And now this in your face.

Josh Powell (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): I don’t know what to say—

Jennifer Graves (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): If you, if you’re—

Jennifer Graves (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): —but I guess I’m going to go do what I’m gonna do. I’m going to go get ready for a party.

Dave Cawley: Josh left with his brothers, John and Michael. The operation, in Jennifer’s eyes, had failed. She and Kirk gathered their things and started making for the door. On the way, she shot a parting comment to her dad, Steve.

Steve Powell (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): So anyway…

Jennifer Graves (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): Well, he’ll have to enjoy it while he can, I guess.

Dave Cawley: “He’ll have to enjoy it while he can, I guess.”

Steve Powell (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): What? What do you mean “while he can?”

Dave Cawley: “What do you mean ‘while he can?’”

Jennifer Graves (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): I don’t think he’s going to be able to escape this much longer.

Dave Cawley: “I don’t think he’s going to be able to escape this much longer.”

Steve Powell (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): Escape what?

Dave Cawley: “Escape what?”

Jennifer Graves (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): It’s pretty obvious, he’s going to be—

Steve Powell (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): To who? What’s obvious?

Jennifer Graves (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): What he’s done.

Steve Powell (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): Excuse me? It’s not obvious to me. It may be obvious to you but you might be imagining things, Jenny. You’ve always had a hard time with reality. That’s a reality in your case.

Jennifer Graves (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): I don’t know what you’re talking about “hard time with my reality.”

Steve Powell (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): Yeah. You, you, you, you need to face reality—

Jennifer Graves (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): Ok—

Steve Powell (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): —yourself. In your own way—

Jennifer Graves (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): —I’ll face reality.

Steve Powell (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): Yeah.

Jennifer Graves (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): Let’s see, Josh went camping in the middle of the night and Susan’s gone now. Hmm. That doesn’t sound like reality unless he did something.

Dave Cawley: Steve told Jennifer to face reality and Jennifer said “I’ll face reality. Let’s see. Josh went camping in the middle of the night and Susan’s gone now. Hmm. That doesn’t sound like reality unless he did something.”

Steve Powell (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): Yeah. Anyway. Why don’t you, y’know I think, I think it’s time to, to go. I think it’s time to go. I think you’ve kind of worn out your welcome.

Dave Cawley: The pretense of civility that had cloaked the Powell family during dinner came off.

Steve Powell (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): You are, you are a [expletive] [expletive] [expletive] is what you are to talk about your brother and my son that way and to make things up.

Kirk Graves (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): And yet you’re willing to call your daughter that?

Dave Cawley: Shocked, Jennifer’s husband Kirk stepped in to defend his wife.

Steve Graves (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): Steve—

Steve Powell (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): Yeah.

Kirk Graves (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): —it’s been a month and a half and there’s only two scenarios.

Alina Powell (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): Hey, y’know what, Jenny’s the one who said the thing about the Elizabeth Smart thing.

Kirk Graves (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): She’s, she’s kidnapped, right? And somewhere out there maybe she’s still alive.

Alina Powell (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): She said that two days after it happened. A week.

Steve Powell (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): Right.

Kirk Graves (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): But after a month and a half, an adult female, odds are like zero. Or she’s dead. Those are the two scenarios.

Dave Cawley: They’re talking over top of one another there but Kirk told Steve, the odds were Susan was likely dead.

The other female voice you hear there belongs to Alina, the youngest of the Powell children. Jennifer questioned why Josh had spent the morning after Susan’s disappearance cleaning his house and doing laundry. Alina offered a full-throated defense of Josh.

Alina Powell (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): Do you know how hard it is to sit on your ass and do nothing when you’re in absolute horrible horrific [expletive] pain?

Jennifer Graves (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): Yeah, I do.

Alina Powell (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): And you feel your heart breaking?

Jennifer Graves (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): The last month and a half has been nothing but pain.

Alina Powell (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): And you’ve sat there and created a wall the whole time.

Jennifer Graves (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): Yeah.

Alina Powell (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): He is different than you. He works when he is in pain.

Jennifer Graves (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): That is exactly what has been happening.

Alina Powell (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): He goes around a works.

Steve Powell (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): Did you, did you hear her say?

Alina Powell (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): That is why he is going around doing everything that he does.

Dave Cawley: Alina claimed Josh dealt with his pain by working and accused Jennifer of doing nothing. Steve was irate. He seized on something Jennifer said, ignoring the talk about Josh.

Steve Powell (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): She said that I hated Susan.

Alina Powell (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): Yeah.

Jennifer Graves (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): Yeah, ever since you made a pass at her.

Alina Powell (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): Oh that is the funniest thing on the world.

Jennifer Graves (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): And she turned you down.

Alina Powell (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): Did she tell you that? No, hold on, hold on.

Steve Powell (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): No wait a minute, wait a minute. That’s what she told you?

Jennifer Graves (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): Oh yes.

Kirk Graves (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): Yes. Absolutely.

Alina Powell (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): Because she’s a lying [expletive] if she said that.

Steve Powell (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): That’s what she told you? She told you that.

Kirk Graves (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): Yes.

Jennifer Graves (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): Oh, so you’re saying Susan’s a lying [expletive] now?

Alina Powell (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): Apparently, she is.

Steve Powell (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): No, no, no. No, she is…

Dave Cawley: There is a lot going on here. Alina, it seemed, felt little care for Susan. But Steve, confronted by this idea of Susan hating him, rejected the thought.

Steve Powell (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): No, she didn’t tell you the whole story, and,  but I’m not going to tell it to you because you guys—

Alina Powell (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): The fact is, dad has always—

Steve Powell (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): —aren’t going to accept it anyway and I’m not trying to—

Alina Powell (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): Y’know what, if she lied to you, that’s fine.

Kirk Graves (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): You’re probably right.

Alina Powell (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): If she lied to you, that’s fine.

Kirk Graves (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): You’re probably right. We probably wouldn’t believe it.

Steve Powell (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): You wouldn’t believe it so—

Alina Powell (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): If she lied to you about it, it’s fine because—

Steve Powell (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): —the reality is, yeah, yeah.

Alina Powell (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): —the fact is, he has always spoken highly of her.

Steve Powell (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): Always.

Alina Powell (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): He has gotten her birthday presents every year.

Jennifer Graves (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): Well sure—

Alina Powell (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): He’s got her Christmas presents.

Jennifer Graves (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): —trying to buy her back.

Steve Powell (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): Y’know, just get off my porch. Get off my property.

Dave Cawley: Jennifer and Kirk retreated the car. As they drove away from the house, she filled in her husband on what Josh had said, or more accurately, hadn’t said.

Kirk Graves (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): So did Josh get like vocal or anything or did he calm right down.

Jennifer Graves (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): No, he got defensive but he was all more like “I can’t believe you do this, or you would think of this.”

Kirk Graves (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): You ok?

Jennifer Graves (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): No.

Dave Cawley: I know that’s tough to hear, but Kirk asked Jennifer if she was ok and Jennifer said “no.”

Kirk Graves (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): Was it most because of your dad just now or the just the lack of anything with Josh?

Jennifer Graves (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): Yeah, I guess that’s it. Well yeah, that’s (unintelligible) to talk to my dad but, he is so awful.

Dave Cawley: Kirk consoled his wife as best he could.

Kirk Graves (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): Honey, you did great. The fact you were willing to try to do that…

Jennifer Graves (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): (Laughs)

Dave Cawley: Then, Jennifer broke down over what she’d seen in her brother’s eyes.

Jennifer Graves (from January 22, 2010 wire recording): (Heavy breathing) My god, he killed her. My god, he killed her. (Jennifer sobs)

Dave Cawley: “My god. He killed her.” Josh had not confessed but Jennifer was more sure than ever that he had killed Susan.

Ellis Maxwell: What that brought to us and brought to the police department and would have brought to a trial is just, it was another piece. Another piece of Josh’s personality, lack of concern, consideration for Susan, lack of cooperation and, y’know, at the end of the day just his guilt.

Dave Cawley: Looking back, Ellis couldn’t help but praise Jennifer.

Ellis Maxwell: She went in, she did a phenomenal job in my opinion. … She probably felt like she didn’t do enough. She didn’t push hard enough. She didn’t get what we all wanted and, y’know, but at the end of the day… I hope she knows that there was nobody that was going to break Josh. Nobody.

[Scene transition]

Dave Cawley: Josh had told Kirk and Jennifer that he wanted to sell his house in West Valley City. That was complicated because Susan’s name was on the mortgage. Instead, he turned to his former neighbor Dax Guzman with an offer. Dax had helped Josh rebuild the deck on the back of the Sarah Circle house in the months prior to Susan’s disappearance. Josh then suggested Dax and his family move one street over and rent the Sarah Circle house.

Dax Guzman: He called us, asked us if we wanted to rent it, rent the house since they weren’t going to use it. And so we took him up on the offer and, umm, because he knew I knew how to build things and was good with my hands, he asked if I’d be interested in maybe a reduced rent and working something out if I finished the basement. So we agreed to that.

Dave Cawley: Life in the Sarah Circle house had its drawbacks, though. News crews continued to set up on the sidewalk. Their bright lights would keep the Guzman kids up at night.

Dax Guzman: For us it was just a house. Honestly, when we moved in and after he left, I tore into that house.

Dave Cawley: Dax, like so many others, wanted to know if Susan might still be on the property.

Dax Guzman: Tore into the ground. Tore up a little bit, some of the parts of the basement that looked like they had been redone but found out it was just more plumbing that had gone in, which is fine. … Tore up the back yard. The garden that was there, several feet down. I tore the whole thing apart, just seeing, just making sure that there wasn’t anything there. Looked through the shed. There was a whole bunch of 50-gallon, water gallons in there and made sure there was no body in there too. … It was just a lot of freaky stuff but you see things on TV, you see things on, on the news and in movies so I checked as many places as I could and she wasn’t there.

Dave Cawley: Josh had a hard time finding allies among the local church congregation in Washington. By that point, word had spread among members of the Gem Heights Ward and some were unnerved or outright fearful to see a suspected murderer sitting in their sabbath services.

Rod Stephens: He came to church for awhile and he would sit in the back of the Elder’s Quorum. He would open up his scriptures, never turn a page and then look blankly in them for the whole hour. It was, yeah, you could just tell. He was sitting there, but he wasn’t there.

Dave Cawley: Church members fell in love though with Charlie and Braden. The noisy, playful boys would run through the hallways of the church building on Sundays. Rod Stephens, the president of the ward’s Elder’s Quorum who’d helped Josh unpack his U-Haul, said it seemed as though Josh wanted to find them some friends.

Rod Stephens: But it caused a lot of problems because everyone liked his two sons but they didn’t want Josh around and nobody wanted to let Josh in their homes. So it was awkward, it was tough and you really felt bad for those two good-looking kids, but… yeah, and as much as you want to be involved in those kids and help those kids, you don’t want him by you. And you could just feel it, he just was just vacant.

Dave Cawley: Before long, Josh and the boys disappeared.

Rod Stephens: Maybe a month or two month, two months had gone by and he quit coming to church and then finally the executive secretary to the bishop, uh, he saw him at Lowes and said “hey, we haven’t seen you in church for awhile” and that’s when he told him, he said “I don’t believe in God any more.”

Dave Cawley: A few months later, Josh published a website explaining his decision to abandon The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints and investigate non-denominational Christianity as an alternative.

Eric Openshaw (as Josh Powell from susanpowell.org post “Mormons Mobilize”): The proficiency of the Mormon Church to organize and motivate people to action can be used for positive purposes, such as when church members help people with moving or with home repairs. However, this solidarity also motivates individuals to cover for fellow Mormons and attack perceived critics of Mormonism.

Dave Cawley: I’m not implying that there’s anything wrong with Josh choosing not to identify as a Latter-day Saint any longer. But this website was slap to the face of many of the people, both in Utah and in Washington, who had volunteered their time and effort to help Josh move, in spite of their own suspicions.

Rod Stephens: It was absolutely self-serving, in my opinion and I think he was there, two reasons. One, I think he needed the help of the church, which was ok. But I think he wanted to keep up appearances just long enough to where he thought it was ok and then after that he quickly left.

[Scene transition]

Dave Cawley: Josh’s move to Washington had taken Charlie and Braden away from the only members of the Powell family who were cooperating with the investigation: Jennifer and to a lesser extent, Josh’s mom Terrica.

During January, detective Kim Waelty placed a call to Washington State’s child services agency. She wanted to know if they could drop in on the Powell home and see how the boys were doing. A lawyer at the Washington Attorney General’s Office responded, saying their agency didn’t have the authority to perform welfare checks unless there was a specific accusation of abuse or neglect.

West Valley police did not have that. They also couldn’t speak candidly with Washington’s child welfare workers because their case was still under a court secrecy order. They were allowed to talk though to the local law enforcement agency. Pierce County Sheriff’s Detective Gary Sanders helped secure a warrant from a Washington judge, allowing deputies to go to Steve Powell’s house and seize the boys.

Gary Sanders: So basically, they were a form of evidence. Just to get their statement. And they just wanted them to be interviewed because now they’re in this home and they were kind of closed off with Steven and Josh and all of them living in the house.

Dave Cawley: They served the warrant on the morning of March 10th, 2010. Another Pierce County detective named Theresa Berg approached the boys.

Gary Sanders: She went in there and the boys ran to her, let her pick them up and they just glommed onto her, which was crazy, y’know? These strangers and stuff like that taking you out of the home. You would think there’d be a little bit, but she held them and, and then we interacted with them and I think it was kind of something they were missing. I was just, anytime we were in there it was cold. It was a cold environment.

Dave Cawley: As detective Kim Waelty carried Charlie out of the house, the five-year-old asked if he was being arrested. She assured him he was not.

The police drove the boys to the Mary Bridge Safe and Sound building. West Valley detectives — including Kim Waelty, who had performed the first interview with Charlie in December — going to get a second shot at it.

Repeat interviews of child witnesses were not usual protocol. Still, she had to try. She brought Charlie into a separate room and tried to talk to him. He wasn’t very cooperative. He told the detective he didn’t want to talk and walked out of the room. In a formal report, Waelty wrote “anything from this point on was not going to be the best case scenario.”

She tried again. She gave Charlie paper and crayons, hoping they would help him relax. Then, she started to ask about Susan. Charlie told her he did not want to talk about that. She asked if he’d been camping recently. Charlie said he only goes camping in Utah, a desert with rattlesnakes. She pressed for more, asking if Susan had gone camping with him. Charlie told her he didn’t want to talk about that stuff. He wanted to color, not talk. Then, he left the room. Again.

Ellis Maxwell: Little kiddos like that at that age, they’re they’re tough.

Dave Cawley: Waelty turned her attention to Braden. She started by asking if they could speak about his mom. Braden said something about his mommy, then trailed off into gibberish. If they were going to get any answers, it was clear, they would have to come from Charlie.

The Pierce County crew took the boys to their office a few blocks away for lunch. While they were away from the Safe and Sound building, Charlie told the deputies that he would talk. When they returned, detective Waelty asked what he wanted to talk about. Charlie said he wanted to work on his “homework” and needed a pair of scissors, but was afraid he might cut himself if she distracted him. Waelty suggested Charlie not use the scissors while they talked. He said it was ok, he’d just ignore her. Yeah.

Waelty again asked about Susan and camping. Charlie said he couldn’t talk about those things because they were secret. He said his mom was lost, but he did not see where. He said his Uncle John knew where. This was interesting.

Detective Waelty asked Charlie who told him these things were secret. He said his brain. Then he explained his mom had told him she was going to the North Pole and would not come back until it stopped snowing. Waelty again asked who had told him these things. Charlie said no one, then changed his answer. He said his dad told him that.

Ellis Maxwell: He had been exposed to all of that coaching and guiding and direction from Steve and Josh and so, y’know they’re young, right? And they pick up that and they see that behavior all day long when they’re in the house. They hear it and so they, y’know, start acting and walking the walk like everybody else in that house.

Dave Cawley: Charlie babbled about the Earth going crazy, about wanting his aunt Jennifer and uncle Kirk to die. He wondered what time it was and left to find out. When he popped back in to the room a few minutes later, he told detective Waelty he only guessed him mom was at the North Pole. The investigators got nothing useful out of the boys that day.

Ellis Maxwell: At the end of the day man, they’re locked up inside this Powell home and being coached and being directed to “you don’t talk about this” and “you don’t talk about that.” And that’s why we got nothing from Charlie when we did that second interview.

Dave Cawley: The police had no choice but to return them home. Pierce County Detective Gary Sanders told me the drive back to Steve Powell’s house was more telling than anything Charlie actually said in the interview.

Gary Sanders: It was weird. As I’m driving along, I’m driving along, Theresa’s in the back seat with both Charlie and Braden, Charlie’s talking along just, y’know, very talkative and stuff like that and then he noticed — I turned off Meridian I think it was and I was going down into their neighborhood — and it was like a, a switch. He just flipped. And all of a sudden he was like, he started looking around. He goes “well, I’m just going to tell them I was with friends.” And we’re like “what are you talking about, Charlie?” And he goes “no I’m just gonna, I’m just gonna tell him, I’m gonna tell him that I was with friends and that’s all it was.” And we’re like “what are you talking about?” He goes “well, I’m just going to tell my dad that I was with friends and nothing more.” And it was, it was the, weird, the transformation that as soon as he knew he was going back to the house, there was going to be some consequences for him speaking with us and being with us and stuff. And that was kind of scary at that point because how young he was. But he, he was adamant about that. And so we got bak there and right when he got in there, he ran up to Josh and was just like “oh yeah, I was with friends, dad” and, and tried to play it off like it was nothing. And I’d, I’d love to be a fly on that wall of what Josh talked to them about after we left.

Dave Cawley: On the next episode of Cold…

Russ Johnson (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): If he would kill his wife because he’s got something broken inside of him—

Steve Powell (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): Oh, you’re saying he would kill his kids.

Russ Johnson (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): He might, you know. Do we know that? I know, you’re just saying “he’d never do that.”

Steve Powell (from February 24, 2010 FBI interview recording): I don’t think so.

Cold season 1, episode 2: Wake Up, Little Susie – Full episode transcript

Dave Cawley: Josh was cash-strapped and still carrying debt from his time with his ex-girlfriend, Catherine. He had about a thousand dollars in savings, but owed about $400 a month just to cover his debts. He worked for Virco, the same company as his dad, but was afraid of being fired. In spite of this, he insisted on holding dinner parties at his apartment in Tacoma, hosting friends from church.

Josh Powell (from December 13, 2000 audio journal recording): People come over to my house and instead of eating what I’m offering them they look in my freezer and say ‘oh, I want to make orange juice to go with dinner and I want to put this with dinner’. Well, eventually when they start doing that it gets extremely expensive to have these dinners.

Dave Cawley: That is Josh’s actual voice, saved on a handheld audio recorder.

Josh decided the dinners were important, in spite of the cost. One in particular changed the course of the rest of his life. That’s because a young woman — just weeks past her 19th birthday — attended. Her name was Susan Cox.

Josh had just recently met Susan at Institute. That’s a religion class for college-age members of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints. He’d been competing for her attention with a mutual friend, but was demoralized and intended to give up the chase.

When the food was done that night, Josh asked his guests for help doing the dishes. Susan volunteered.

Josh Powell (from January 5, 2001 audio journal recording): She said that doing dishes together with me, at that very moment she decided that she loved me. And for me, doing dishes with her was the turning point for me when I thought “it’s not over.”

Dave Cawley: They shared their first kiss that night. Susan later wrote that’s when she knew that Josh was “the one.” Josh’d tried and tried and tried for years to get any girl to give him the time of day.

Josh Powell (from December 13, 2000 audio journal recording): Sometimes I feel like I can’t reach any girls anywhere, that for some reason or another they won’t give me even a chance to go out with them.

Dave Cawley: Susan was different. She thought Josh was hot. He was smart, too, and had his own place and a motorcycle. He was a Latter-day Saint, like she was, and appeared to live the church’s standards.

Josh Powell (from February 17, 2000 audio journal recording): I just wanted to say, to remind myself for the future, that I feel like I have been incredibly blessed because of my righteousness, because of my willingness to pay my tithing.

Dave Cawley: It also helped that Josh was five years older and more mature than the guys Susan’s age, or so she seemed to think. She met Josh while on the rebound from a break-up.

The couple marked November 11, 2000 as the start of their relationship. For their first official date, they went to see the movie “The Perfect Storm” and then ate sandwiches from Subway. They talked about getting married from that very day.

Josh Powell (from January 5, 2001 audio journal recording): I love this girl, Susan Marie Cox. Every day I love her more. I become more and more certain that I want to be with her. So I am slow to warm up, it has taken me awhile to realize that I do want to be with her forever.

Dave Cawley: This is Cold, Episode 2: Wake Up, Little Susie. I’m Dave Cawley.

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Dave Cawley: Real quick — you’re going to hear a lot in this podcast from Josh’s sister Jennifer Graves. She wrote a book about her experiences called “A Light in Dark Places.” I mention that because in this episode in particular, you are going to see some of that darkness up close. We’re putting it under a spotlight, in order to reveal truth. Just stick with me.

Susan wasn’t long out of high school when she met Josh. She’d started studying cosmetology at the Gene Juarez Academy of Beauty just eight days after graduation. Josh had actually encountered Susan before, years before, but claimed not to have realized it the day they met at a church Institute class. It happened when Josh was 18 and a high school senior. He’d followed his dad from Spokane to Puyallup after his parents’ divorce. That’s where he met Susan’s older sister, Mary. He went to the Cox house and saw Susan for the first time. She was 12.

Josh Powell (from January 5, 2001 audio journal recording): So we had met at her house and she remembered me as the person who came over and played piano. But she was much too young, relatively speaking, for me to consider dating. But as I think back, I think that I looked at her and thought “she is really cute, too bad she is too young.”

Dave Cawley: Josh and Susan were not an obvious match when they met again in October of 2000. They had few common interests, aside from each being a member of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints and knowing some American Sign Language. Susan’s friends wondered what she saw in Josh. His feelings for her seemed self-centered.

Josh Powell (from January 5, 2001 audio journal recording): I think that she is incredibly beautiful and a lot of that is because of the way she treats me, the way she takes care of me and my house. She comes in here and she is the one person that I can feel comfortable with in my house. She’ll start doing the dishes or dust something just because she is standing there for a minute and she doesn’t have anything else to do. And I know that this is a real part of her and it’s important to me to have someone who is, who takes care of me and my stuff and our space together.

Dave Cawley: That wasn’t the only thing Josh liked about Susan. She had clean credit. As I mentioned, Josh had racked up some serious debt in his early 20s.

Josh Powell (from December 13, 2000 audio journal recording): In the past it seems like I’ve had the goal of ‘have more now’. Have a computer now, have a TV and VCR and all these things now and forget about the future. Don’t worry about saving money. It’s okay to go into debt. I went into debt pretty heavily.

Dave Cawley: Josh had recently enrolled at the University of Washington Tacoma business school and needed to find about $1,500 to cover tuition. He failed to qualify for any kind of scholarship or financial aid, so he took out a student loan. Susan worked hard. She started her days at 7:30 a.m. at the cosmetology school, cutting and coloring hair. Then, she headed to her second job at the JCPenney jewelry counter. She worked there until late in the evening.

Josh Powell (from January 5, 2001 audio journal recording): I want her to make as every bit as much money as she possibly can and receive every compliment and tip for her hair cutting and the procedures she does. I want my sweet Susan to feel good about herself because she deserves to, she has a right to, because she is good.

Dave Cawley: Shortly after Christmas, Josh went to visit Susan at work. He told her he wanted to buy a gift for his mom. Susan showed him a number of rings. He found one that he liked and asked her to buy it for him using her employee discount. The ring wasn’t for Josh’s mom. It was Susan’s engagement ring.

Josh Powell (from January 5, 2001 audio journal recording): I don’t want her to have the most expensive looking ring the in world. I don’t want her to have a big rock to attract someone who would want to hurt her or mug her, or mug us as we’re together. I just want her to have a modest ring with the best quality diamond I can possibly find. Something that will tell her that I love her without necessarily acting like a magnet for the attention of the world. The wrong attention from the world.

Dave Cawley: They’d been dating less than two months.

[Scene transition]

Dave Cawley: On the evening of January 5, 2001, Susan went to Josh’s apartment after work, as she always did. He met her outside and covered her eyes by wrapping shirt around her head. Then, he led her inside the apartment.  Once inside, Josh took off the blindfold. Susan saw a dozen white roses in a crystal vase. A large drawing of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints’ Portland temple leaned against his futon, the one he’d bought while living with his ex-girlfriend Catherine. The church’s hymn “Families Can Be Together Forever” played softly on the stereo.

Josh sat Susan down on the futon, next to the picture, being careful to keep everything framed perfectly for the camcorder that was whirring quietly in the corner. He’d borrowed that from his dad. He asked Susan to read an LDS scripture — Doctrine and Covenants chapter 132, verse 19.

Kristen Sorensen (as Susan Powell): And again, verily I say unto you, if a man marry a wife by my word, which is my law, and by the new and everlasting covenant…

Dave Cawley: It was a production for the camera and it wasn’t done. Next, Josh read Susan a poem he’d written in 1994, when he was 18.

Eric Openshaw (as Josh Powell): Marriage is for the most in Love

For two so deeply in Love

they become the Love they

Sow within each other

Marriage can only suffice me

when Always True Love waxes

when her greatest Love and so she is solely for me

and me solely for her

Dave Cawley: Ok, ok it, it wasn’t Shakespeare. In fact, it was barely poetry. But Josh was working up to something. He kneeled and presented Susan with the ring that she had bought using her discount at work. He had paid her back, by the way.

Josh Powell (from January 5, 2001 audio journal recording): I leaned in to her and said her name and asked her “will you marry me” and she whispered “yes” and then we kissed and then we hugged.

Dave Cawley: Josh and Susan were engaged. Their friends were concerned. So were Susan’s parents.

Chuck Cox: So when they were going to get married in the temple, I called their bishop and said “I’m also in the bishopric here and y’know, I don’t think they understand what it means to be married for time and all eternity and what the vows are going to take. I don’t think they understand it.” And he said “well, it’s important I feel.” I said “okay, well you’re the bishop, but still I just want to let you know, I don’t think this is right. Something is not quite right here.”

Dave Cawley: Susan spent every waking moment either at work, or with Josh. She’d head to his apartment at the end of her shift and often fell asleep there. Her parents didn’t realize what was happening at first, because Susan was living with her sister Mary. Chuck Cox finally figured it out.

Chuck Cox (from January 3, 2001 voicemail message): Hello Josh, this is Chuck. Susan said she was at this phone number. Could you have her maybe, if you can, call back or come over so she can talk to her mom? Her mom wants to talk to her by herself for a few minutes. Anyway, talk to you later. Thanks, bye bye.

Dave Cawley: Susan confessed she’d all but moved in with the boyfriend she’d only known for weeks.

Chuck Cox (from January 3, 2001 voicemail message): Hi honey, I love you. I’m at my parents’ house right now. I told my dad that I’ve been basically living with you. He asked “sleeping there?” And I said “yeah.” And he asked “where?” And I said, like, he said “on the couch?” And I was like “yeah.” So he doesn’t know all of that but he knows that I’ve been staying there and that I don’t want to live with Mary because there’s liquor in the fridge and I feel unwelcome there.

Dave Cawley: This caused Susan’s parents a lot of heartburn.

Chuck Cox: But she would then get home at 12:30 or 1:00. But she’d drive home alone. I mean, it wasn’t that he was going to watch over, she would just leave later and finally get home. I said “well that’s not a good thing to do, let your fiancé be traveling home late at night, unescorted, all that kind of stuff.” He just, he didn’t care.

Dave Cawley: Josh didn’t see a problem with it.

Josh Powell (from June 22, 1999 audio journal recording): And the concept of curfew is not familiar to me because I normally don’t have a curfew. I’ve never really had a curfew in my life.

Dave Cawley: Josh’s sister Jennifer told me that growing up, he’d done pretty much whatever he wanted. That attitude carried over into his dating life.

Jennifer Graves: Boundaries. There are no boundaries.

Dave Cawley: Jennifer was living in Utah but started to hear about Susan from Josh.

Jennifer Graves: So I just had high hopes, you know. She came from a good LDS family that her parents seemed very good and I just thought, ‘maybe this is it. Maybe he’ll be alright. He’ll be alright because he’s got her now. And he’ll want to improve for her. What guy doesn’t want to put forth the effort and improve and be the best he can be for an awesome woman? And Susan was great.

Dave Cawley: Josh knew Susan’s parents were less enthused but figured he could win them over.

Josh Powell (from December 13, 2000 audio journal recording): It would seem that her dad likes me for the most part. It seems that her mom is starting to like me as well, although she’s been slower to warm up.

Chuck Cox: You look at it and if you tell your daughter “no,” that’s exactly what she’s going to go for. So we didn’t do that. But he was just so ridiculous to us that, but, but we can’t say “stay away from him.” But on the plus side, he had an apartment of his own that he was paying for, he had a job and he was going to college. So, y’know it seemed, “well okay.” It’s not my best idea but maybe he’s got something going we don’t see.

Dave Cawley: Josh pressed for a quick marriage — in March or April — as soon as they could receive clearance to have the ceremony performed in the Portland temple.

Josh Powell (from January 5, 2001 audio journal recording): Susan has been hesitant. She’s like “well, I always thought of an engagement as being nine months or a year. That seems awful fast.”

Dave Cawley: Josh had Susan on the hook. He wasn’t going to let her escape, the way his ex-girlfriend Catherine had. Just as he’d done with Catherine, he started to spend Susan’s money. She paid for new parts for his computer, among other things.

Josh Powell (from February 7, 2001 audio journal recording): Susan’s been putting out a lot of money on some of this stuff lately ‘cause I haven’t really had the money to do it and I need a computer to live, to get my classes done. So she’s been helping me out with some of it.

Dave Cawley: Susan’s generosity caught the attention of Josh’s sister, Jennifer.

Jennifer Graves: I don’t know, the boundaries weren’t quite where they needed to be at that point to, to help Josh realize that boundaries needed to continue. Like, he was starting to get that. Going back, moving in with my mom, going back to church, cleaning up his act a little bit. It seemed like he was starting to get that, realize that you can’t just do everything that you want to in your life. Y’know, you’ve got to, you’ve got to live within some rules.

Dave Cawley: There were even bigger warning signs. At the end of February, Josh and Susan prepared to submit their marriage license application.

Josh Powell (from February 28, 2001 audio journal recording): She miscopied one or two little things and I got frustrated with her and then she got mad at me and said she didn’t want to be in the same room with me, that she wanted me to take her home.

Dave Cawley: He didn’t take her home. He puttered around the apartment while Susan seethed.

Josh Powell (from February 28, 2001 audio journal recording): She was like “I asked you to take me home and you didn’t.” So then she jumped up and stood by the door for me to take her home and I kind of got mad at her again and I threw the marriage license across the room.

Dave Cawley: He at last conceded and started to drive her home, but not before making a stop. Josh drove Susan to a copy shop. He left her to sit in the car, alone, while he made the photocopies.

Josh Powell (from February 28, 2001 audio journal recording): And I was really hoping she would get over being mad at me by the time I get done making these copies.

Dave Cawley: Oh no, she was not. Josh next drove to the post office, where he mailed in their marriage paperwork. In his journal, he attributed Susan’s anger and his manipulative behavior to a “dark influence.”

Josh Powell (from February 28, 2001 audio journal recording): I feel a real disturbance within myself that I just can’t find peace. I’m afraid of something. I think Susan and I need blessings. We turned in our marriage license application. We mailed it tonight. I think we’ve angered Satan pretty deeply.

Dave Cawley: Thankfully, not every argument they had was so serious.

Josh Powell (from March 5, 2001 audio journal recording): We argued about whether or not we should put cake on each other’s face at the wedding. Of course, we resolved that one by realizing that of course we’re going to put the cake on each other’s face.

Susan Cox (from March 5, 2001 audio journal recording): No!

Josh Powell (from March 5, 2001 audio journal recording): Ok, Susan doesn’t seem to agree with that one, but she will.

Dave Cawley: They married the afternoon of April 6, 2001 in the Portland temple. It was the same place Josh’s sister Jennifer had married her husband, Kirk. The similarity wasn’t lost on Jennifer.

Jennifer Graves: And, you know it’s kind of interesting because I think there was some piece of Josh that really wanted what I had. He could see that I was in a better position and that I had extracted myself from the family situation and found happiness and had moved on from the crap that we’d gone through.

Dave Cawley: Josh’s own audio journals supported that. He envied Jennifer’s stability and independence.

Josh Powell (from December 13, 2000 audio journal recording): And I really want to emulate my sister’s marriage. She has a wonderful situation with her husband.

Dave Cawley: But the emulation started off pretty poorly.

Jennifer Graves: Josh was always running late. And that was a constant irritation to pretty much everyone around him. Trying to get him to move and follow through with stuff in a timely manner, it was just a constant battle. And so he was late to his own wedding.

Dave Cawley: Jennifer hadn’t invited her dad Steve to her wedding. Josh made to sure Steve was there for his wedding. But there was a problem. The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints only allows members who are in good standing to enter its temples. That’s true even for guests at temple weddings.

Now, Steve Powell had given up on trying to live the religion’s rules. He tried to walk into the temple, but was turned away. In fact, none of Josh’s siblings, aside from Jennifer, were able to witness the ceremony. They waited outside. So did Jennifer’s three young kids. They were too young to enter the temple. She worried what might happen.

Jennifer Graves: I was left with quite a bit of anxiety because I knew that, who was going to be with my children outside. My dad and my sister, who’s under the influence of my dad, heavily. And so, I said a lot of prayers and left them for that very short time with them. And I think, you know, they survived. They managed to make it through, mostly unscathed I think. (Laughs)

Dave Cawley: Jennifer reserved Josh and Susan a room on their wedding night at the Hood River Inn, a scenic spot on the south bank of the Columbia River. It’s where she and Kirk had spent their honeymoon.

It turned out, Josh was more interested in playing with his camera than spending time with his wife. Josh recorded his observations of that afternoon on his handheld voice recorder. He detailed the logistics of the day, never once mentioning how he felt about being married or remarking on his beautiful bride. He just wanted to play with his dad’s video camera.

Josh Powell (from April 6, 2001 audio journal recording): We got the pulling up to the hotel shot and walking into our room. A few scenes around the hotel room and the view from the hotel room.

Dave Cawley: The next day, they were back in Puyallup for the reception. Susan, feeling “giddy in love”, allowed her dad to drag her around the dance floor to the tune of Wake Up Little Susie.

(Song plays)

Dave Cawley: The choice of song was apropos.

Chuck Cox: That was in reference to her coming home late at night.

Dave Cawley: Did you pick that song to play at the wedding?

Chuck Cox: Oh yeah. (Laughs) Trying to say “hey,” y’know, “do you understand?” Not, kinda making fun of it that it’s fine now but whatever, yeah. Probably an important song. She should’ve woke up a little sooner, yeah.

Dave Cawley: Josh hovered over his dad, making sure he got video from all of the right angles.

Steve Powell (from April 22, 2001 home video recording): Let’s see that ring. Hold your hand up please. Mmkay. And this ring—

Susan Powell (from April 22, 2001 home video recording): And my nails that aren’t done, thanks.

Steve Powell (from April 22, 2001 home video recording): —let’s see, the ring has 2,000 backwards and forwards on it. That’s cool, in the band. Ok. Great. Now we will no longer look at your fingers.

Susan Powell (from April 22, 2001 home video recording): (Nervous laughter)

Steve Powell (from April 22, 2001 home video recording): We will look at you. (Laughs)

Susan Powell (from April 22, 2001 home video recording): Great.

[Scene transition]

Dave Cawley: So Josh and Susan entered their period of newlywed bliss. Josh believed it would last forever.

Josh Powell (from January 5, 2001 audio journal recording): Most people don’t have our friendship. We talk like most people don’t talk in their marriage. Even some people with incredible, awesome marriages, they don’t talk like we talk. We talk about everything.

Dave Cawley: Jennifer saw it differently. She saw Susan tolerating her new husband’s idiosyncrasies.

Jennifer Graves: I think there’s, you know, there’s a little bit of that honeymoon phase where you’re willing to put up with a little bit more because you think, “Well, you know, it’ll go away, right? It’ll go away, hopefully.” But it doesn’t.

Dave Cawley: Susan had all but moved in to Josh’s apartment before the wedding, but made the move official after the were wed. The young couple were evicted eight months later, after getting into dispute with the landlord. Susan wrote about it in her journal.

Kristen Sorensen (as Susan Powell from January 3, 2002 journal entry): We do not trust renting and are paying off Josh’s debts while he waits to take his last quarter in school for his bachelors in business management and get a job and for his credit to clean up so we can get a loan for a house. … I want a house to call mine and come home to so I can prepare meals for Josh and clean and decorate.

Dave Cawley: They were in no financial position to buy a house, so Josh did what he often did when his life went wrong — he turned to his dad for help. The young couple moved in with Steve Powell at the start of 2002.

The Powell family home didn’t have enough bedrooms for Steve, the other Powell boys John and Michael, as well as Josh and Susan. They all coped as best they could, sectioning off a piece of the living room by hanging sheets as dividers.

Life there was not comfortable. Josh and Susan had very little privacy. Steve, John and Michael came and went at all hours, making it difficult to get any sleep. Steve seemed to be ever-present with his video camera. Susan was his favorite subject.

Steve Powell (from undated home video recording): So anyway, we just don’t get too many, any, any women around here so— 

Susan Cox Powell (from undated home video recording): I’m it?

Steve Powell (from undated home video recording): You’re it. So you get the full treatment.

Susan Cox Powell (from undated home video recording): From head to toe?

Steve Powell (from undated home video recording): Mmhmm.

Dave Cawley: Susan tolerated Steve’s filming. She was usually friendly, even if a little annoyed. But watching those videos now, she comes across as terribly naive. As a cosmetologist, she pretty was proud of how well she could wax her legs. One time, she showed Steve how smooth her legs were after waxing, not understanding he perceived this as a tease.

Susan Cox Powell (from undated home video recording): This is a week after waxing. No hair. Woohoo!

Steve Powell (from undated home video recording): (Inaudible) …see any hair. No, no. It’s pretty clear.

Dave Cawley: On at least one occasion, Susan thought she saw a small mirror under a crack in the door while using the bathroom.

Steve took every opportunity to needle Susan in attempt to undermine her marriage. At one point, Josh wanted to sell his futon. Steve wondered aloud if Josh could rightfully do that, considering that he’d bought it while living with his ex-girlfriend Catherine.

Kristen Sorensen (as Susan Powell from December 16, 2002 journal entry): I didn’t realize she was considered a direct past owner of it or whatever so it irritated me that he wanted to point that out.

Dave Cawley: Susan called it a “dark time.” She started to see that Josh’s faith was not strong. She wrote in her journal about the struggle of having to be the “strong” one.

Kristen Sorensen (as Susan Powell from August 4, 2002 journal entry): I know the gospel is true. … I can’t pretend it’s not really that important and move on to more worldlier things.

Dave Cawley: It came as a relief when, by March, they were back in their own place. Josh got a job at Home Depot. Susan bought her first car. She got a raise at her job, while Josh was fired from his. They argued often.

Kristen Sorensen (as Susan Powell from Mary 18, 2002 journal entry): We drove to our storage unit. I didn’t want to waste a beautiful sunny day digging around in there but Josh did. One thing led to another and I walked off two miles down the road before Josh caught up. After an hour or so of discussion Josh got his way.

Dave Cawley: Josh finished his courses at U-W that June. His dad attended the graduation ceremony, but spent more time videotaping Susan than he did his own son.

Steve Powell (from June 14, 2002 home video recording): Turn around this way, ok? Just turn around to the, there we go. Well now, now turn back this way.

Susan Cox Powell (from June 14, 2002 home video recording): Oh geez, you lost your chance.

Steve Powell (from June 14, 2002 home video recording): Ok.

Dave Cawley: Chuck and Judy Cox gave Josh cash and some camping supplies as a graduation gift. Josh bragged to his dad about it.

Steve Powell (from June 14, 2002 home video recording): They did give you money?

Josh Powell (from June 14, 2002 home video recording): Yeah, I don’t know how much.

Steve Powell (from June 14, 2002 home video recording): They gave you money and the presents?

Josh Powell (from June 14, 2002 home video recording): Yeah, isn’t that nice of them?

Steve Powell (from June 14, 2002 home video recording): Wow.

Susan Cox Powell (from June 14, 2002 home video recording): My parents are really into giving presents.

Josh Powell (from June 14, 2002 home video recording): See, I married good, huh?

Dave Cawley: Finally free from school, Josh and Susan looked forward to paying off their debts and finding permanent work. Easier said than done. Josh couldn’t seem to keep a job. He always knew better than his bosses and coworkers, and didn’t hesitate to tell them so. His dream was to become a self-made millionaire.

Josh Powell (from December 13, 2000 audio journal recording): I was looking for other jobs. I looked into real estate. I went to a couple offices, checked out what it would take to get a license and start selling real estate. I think that would be a reasonable option, a reasonable thing to fall back on.

Dave Cawley: Josh’s youngest brother Michael enlisted in the Army midway through 2002. Josh briefly considered joining the military as well. In her journal, Susan listed some pros and cons. The pros: cheap living, free education and Josh being more healthy. The cons involved her husband going to war and possibly dying, leaving her a young widow, stranded on some Army base somewhere, far away from friends and family.

Instead, in early 2003, they took a job together managing a senior living center called Orchard Park in Yakima. At first, it seemed like a great fit. They put distance between themselves and Josh’s dad. They had a free place to live, in an apartment on-site. They hoped to stay there a couple of years, paying down their debt, building up experience and moving up the management ladder.

Steve Powell watched his son and daughter-in-law from a distance. He’d become deeply infatuated with Susan while she was living under his roof. He visited their Yakima apartment one night and offered to give Susan a massage. She allowed him to rub her feet and shoulders. He took full advantage.

Later that night, he put his camcorder on a tripod and filmed himself undressing while describing what he’d done.

Steve Powell (from February 1, 2003 home video recording): I just had what is probably the most erotic experience I’ve had in my entire life.

Dave Cawley: Most of this video is too explicit to share. Steve was convinced though Susan had consented in silence to what could very well be considered a sexual assault.

Steve Powell (from February 1, 2003 home video recording): I went back to her shoulder blades and I went up, up her sleeve and she didn’t even mind. She just, she seemed to enjoy it. I mean, I slipped my hand up inside of her sleeve and I had it over here and I was pushing, I was massaging her shoulder blade and I was right here, just above her breast.

Dave Cawley: Steve wanted Susan for himself. He wanted Josh, his son, out of the picture. Here’s what Steve wrote in one journal entry.

Ken Fall (as Steve Powell from April 17, 2003 journal entry): I have long known that they had a very unstable relationship, and that Josh was only using her as a means to a financial end. There is never any money for her to do nice things for herself because all their money goes to pay off debts Josh accumulated while he was single and living with Catherine.

Dave Cawley: The senior living center job went sideways soon after. Josh wrote in his journal that their managers were asking them to break policies and laws. He escalated it to regional management and human resources, but got nowhere. They considered transferring to another center, possibly in Colorado. That was complicated though, because Josh’d developed a bad reputation.

On the other hand, they’d made progress paying down his debts and started to discuss beginning a family. They bought a little green parakeet. Steve brought his camcorder to their apartment to meet “Verde.”

Steve Powell (from February 2, 2003 home video recording): This is—

Susan Cox Powell (from February 2, 2003 home video recording): What’re you doing?

Steve Powell (from February 2, 2003 home video recording):  Verd, the newest member of—

Susan Cox Powell (from February 2, 2003 home video recording): Verde.

Steve Powell (from February 2, 2003 home video recording): Verde, I’m sorry.

Susan Cox Powell (from February 2, 2003 home video recording): No, we’re not idiots—

Steve Powell (from February 2, 2003 home video recording): Yeah.

Susan Cox Powell (from February 2, 2003 home video recording): —we don’t butcher the Spanish language.

Steve Powell (from February 2, 2003 home video recording): You don’t. This is the newest member of Susan and Josh’s family.

Susan Cox Powell (from February 2, 2003 home video recording): This is our baby.

Steve Powell (from February 2, 2003 home video recording): This is their, your baby. Well do the cute little things. Y’know, kiss him, give him your, pet him.

Susan Cox Powell (from February 2, 2003 home video recording): (Kissing noises)

Dave Cawley: A little while later, they bought a mini-macaw parrot, which they named Triley. Susan’s unease around her father-in-law continued to grow. He seemed to visit a lot, even after they’d moved to Yakima. Steve dumped thousands of dollars into a home recording studio, convinced that his music would help woo Susan.

Susan’s picture was the desktop background on Steve’s computer.

[Scene transition]

Dave Cawley: Steve was a pressure cooker. His obsession for Susan continued to boil. A close friend told him to leave it alone, because pursuing a relationship with his daughter-in-law would tear his family apart. But he couldn’t contain himself.

On July 13, 2003, Steve drove out to meet Josh and Susan at a commercial trucking business in Kent. Josh was considering a yet another career change. He wanted to drive a big-rig.

Josh Powell (from July 13, 2003 home video recording): See you later.

Steve Powell (from July 13, 2003 home video recording): Ok, bye.

(Sound of truck driving away)

Dave Cawley: Steve brought his video camera, as he always did when Susan was around.

Steve Powell (from July 13, 2003 home video recording): So there’s Josh, taking off on his first drive in a truck.

Dave Cawley: Josh was going to be awhile, so Steve offered to give Susan a lift back to her parents’ house in South Hill. It was the opportunity he’d dreamed of for months. At last, he’d have Susan all to himself. He grabbed a quick video clip of Susan from the driver seat of his minivan, then crammed the camcorder into its bag just before she opened the minivan’s passenger door.

(Sound of car door closing)

Dave Cawley: He pressed the red button to stop the recording but it kept rolling.

Susan Cox Powell (from July 13, 2003 home video recording): Josh brainwashed me never to slam the doors…

Dave Cawley: The video was just black but the microphone caught the whole conversation. They started driving south on State Route 167. Susan talked about how she and Josh were considering a move to Colorado. It was the last thing Steve wanted to hear. He could not take it.

Steve Powell (from July 13, 2003 home video recording): I’m probably wrong but I’ve really fallen in love with you. And, y’know, I don’t know, I mean I, y’know, for the last year and a half, you’re about the only thing I can think about. And, and I don’t know where it began. It probably began when you were living with me and, and would come into my office and, y’know, y’know, let me feel your legs, smooth, waxed or whatever and, and then it just went from one thing to another. And, uh, y’know, that experience on the couch, your couch in Yakima six months ago was just I, I mean, I, I know that, I mean, it was a massage, right? But it, but just being with you for two hours and holding you and, and uh, y’know.

(Long silence)

Dave Cawley: That long silence spoke volumes. Consider the situation as well, the power disparity between them. Steve was in control, at the wheel. Susan was trapped in the car with him. She tried to change the subject. Steve wasn’t deterred.

Steve Powell (from July 13, 2003 home video recording): 

May, maybe, maybe I’m getting the wrong signals from you, maybe I’m, maybe I’m interpreting something that I shouldn’t be interpreting. Umm, y’know it just, like for example when we were sitting on the couch it just felt like you were very, umm, y’know, I mean I was extremely aroused and I think you were somewhat aroused at least I thought.

Susan Cox Powell (from July 13, 2003 home video recording): I don’t know where you’re going with this.

Steve Powell (from July 13, 2003 home video recording): But Susan, I don’t, I, I, my, yeah, well I’ll tell you what I’m, where I’m—

Susan Cox Powell (from July 13, 2003 home video recording): I mean, I’m married to your son and I should just be the daughter-in-law—

Steve Powell (from July 13, 2003 home video recording): I know.

Susan Cox Powell (from July 13, 2003 home video recording): —which puts me a step beneath your own children.

Steve Powell (from July 13, 2003 home video recording): Ok.

Susan Cox Powell (from July 13, 2003 home video recording): And that’s where I’m comfortable.

Steve Powell (from July 13, 2003 home video recording): Ok, ok.

Steve Powell (from July 13, 2003 home video recording): I was kind of meaning to talk to you about this because I realized the last time I came over that my own father — and not to be mean to him about it ‘cause everyone treats everyone differently — but my own father doesn’t kiss me.

Steve Powell (from July 13, 2003 home video recording): Mmhmm.

Susan Cox Powell (from July 13, 2003 home video recording): He, as of like six years ago maybe just started getting in the habit of saying ‘I love you’ and my mom also. My family is not that uh, vocal and physical with showing their emotion mainly as that you tease someone to show that you care about them—

Steve Powell (from July 13, 2003 home video recording): Mmhmm, yeah.

Susan Cox Powell (from July 13, 2003 home video recording): —y’know, which I think is what most, is the first level that most people use.  Y’know, your coworkers, you tease ‘em because you like hanging out with them. And I was just thinking about the last time that my own father doesn’t kiss me and you, and you kiss me and I didn’t like that.

Steve Powell (from July 13, 2003 home video recording): Ok. That’s fine. I won’t…

Dave Cawley: Ok. A few important points: first, Susan was clearly uncomfortable. Her voice was very guarded when she said “I don’t know where you’re going with this.” Second, she told Steve that she did not like it when he kissed her. He had taken to giving her a peck on the forehead whenever he visited. Also, remember their ages: Susan was 21, Steve was 53.

Steve Powell (from July 13, 2003 home video recording): Susan, I, y’know, I mean, as I say, I, I don’t know, y’know, when your, when your daughter-in-law walks into your office and, y’know, shows, shows you her legs and says, y’know, y’know what I’m saying? I, I don’t, y’know, I don’t know, I don’t know how—

Susan Cox Powell (from July 13, 2003 home video recording): Well I’m sorry I did that.

Steve Powell (from July 13, 2003 home video recording): Yeah ok, ok.

Susan Cox Powell (from July 13, 2003 home video recording): And I, y’know, can’t undo it.

Steve Powell (from July 13, 2003 home video recording): Ok, and that’s fine.

Susan Cox Powell (from July 13, 2003 home video recording): Let’s just try to forget, I guess.

Steve Powell (from July 13, 2003 home video recording): Ok, try to forget.

Dave Cawley: Steve’s fantasies were crumbling. Susan didn’t even want him to touch her. She changed the topic again. But Steve wouldn’t let it go.

Steve Powell (from July 13, 2003 home video recording): Are you upset at me for talking to you like that?

Susan Cox Powell (from July 13, 2003 home video recording): Uh, no it’s nice to answer your questions—

Steve Powell (from July 13, 2003 home video recording): I appreciate that—

Susan Cox Powell (from July 13, 2003 home video recording): —resolve.

Steve Powell (from July 13, 2003 home video recording): —I really do because I’ve been wanting to, are you (clears throat) are you gonna, are you going to talk to Josh about it?

Susan Cox Powell (from July 13, 2003 home video recording): Is there anything I don’t talk to Josh about?

Dave Cawley: After nearly an hour of awkwardness, Steve at last pulled up outside Susan’s parents’ house. He told her thank you for being so sweet before she stepped out of the minivan.

Susan Cox Powell (from July 13, 2003 home video recording): Alright.

Steve Powell (from July 13, 2003 home video recording): Bye.

Susan Cox Powell (from July 13, 2003 home video recording): Thank you much.

Steve Powell (from July 13, 2003 home video recording): You’re welcome.

(Car door closes)

Dave Cawley: That night, Steve wrote in his journal about their conversation.

Ken Fall (as Steve Powell from July 13, 2003 journal entry): I am in so much pain right now. I don’t know where to turn with it. I spoke to Alina, who has been very supportive of my infatuation or obsession. Her advice was to accept that Susan is a ‘player,’ and that is what players do. They lead guys on. … This will probably be one of the last entries about Susan, my desire and love for her.

Dave Cawley: It was not the last, not by a long shot. Steve went back to his video, to see if he’d captured any good shots of Susan. That’s when he discovered the recording of their conversation and went through it again, analyzing every word. He became convinced that Susan had not, in fact, rejected him. Here’s what he wrote

Ken Fall (as Steve Powell from July 14, 2003 journal entry): I was thinking awhile ago that maybe I should apologize. Maybe I will. But I don’t feel too much at fault. Maybe I’ve done irreparable damage. I don’t know. … So depressed. How can a woman do this to me? It’s insane.

Dave Cawley: Susan told Josh about what’d happened. He came unglued. Josh told his dad “I guess insanity runs in our family.” Steve worked his magic. He told Josh the insanity had started with Susan. He said she’d led him on. I mean, He was only reacting to her provocations.

Josh kept his distance, for a little while. He didn’t see his dad face-to-face for a couple of months. When they talked on the phone, Josh would make sure Susan was not in the room.

By September, Steve was writing in his journal that Josh had come around to his point of view.

Ken Fall (as Steve Powell from September 7, 2003 journal entry): It would seem that he has pretty much brushed the incident off. … It did not take much for me to convince Josh that she instigated my feelings for her by her little enticements. … The reality is, I don’t think Susan is upset at me.

Dave Cawley: (Laughs) Oh, no. Susan was very upset. Her father-in-law had propositioned her and her own husband didn’t seem to care. She wanted nothing to do with Steve. When he came to visit Josh and Susan’s apartment in October, she locked herself in the bedroom and refused to talk to him.

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Dave Cawley: That same month, Josh and Susan transferred jobs from the Orchard Park center in Yakima to another senior living community called Capital Place in Olympia. The move put them even closer to Steve than they’d been in Yakima. Enough was enough. Josh and Susan decided they needed to get away from Steve. They were going to move far away, to Utah. Josh asked his dad for help loading their stuff into the moving van. Here’s what Steve wrote in his journal.

Ken Fall (as Steve Powell from December 12, 2003 journal entry): I helped them clear out their apartment Wednesday. Now Josh doesn’t need me for awhile. It is interesting that he was upset at me for telling Susan I was in love with her, but needed my help too much to stay away.

Dave Cawley: Josh also grabbed his motorcycle. He’d given the bike to Michael to cover a debt. Steve was furious. From his point of view, Josh had cheated his younger brother, twice. He wrote in his journal that Josh was also cheating Susan.

Ken Fall (as Steve Powell from December 12, 2003 journal entry): She has in essence paid off his and Catherine’s debts … All I can say is that Susan deserves to walk away from their marriage with more than an empty wallet. That’s pretty much how Catherine was left.

Dave Cawley: Josh and Susan left Washington in December, 2003. When they arrived in Utah, they crashed with Josh’s sister Jennifer, her husband Kirk and their kids.

Jennifer Graves: Just watching them interact, I was concerned. I was already concerned. … Josh was very controlling and umm, by that point, Susan was starting to push back a little bit. She didn’t want to, y’know, just be controlled and have any choices in her life. And so she wouldn’t always handle it in the best way and she would bite back, y’know, verbally. Umm, she would, uh, she would definitely resist and, and say things that, you know, weren’t always in the nicest way. (Laughs)

Dave Cawley: Josh and Susan both signed up with a temp agency and landed jobs at Fidelity. They also found a realtor and started looking to buy a house. In late January, they toured a home on a cul-de-sac in the Salt Lake suburb of West Valley City. The house on Sarah Circle was about 2,200 square feet. Josh ran from room to room, giddy, imagining all of the space he’d have for tools, computers and RC toys.

They submitted a bid at what Josh called “the Lord’s appointed price,” about $500 above list, and prayed for a miracle. Their prayers were answered. Josh wrote about the experience, oddly referring to himself in the third person.

Eric Openshaw (as Josh Powell from January 27, 2004 journal entry): He had several misty-eyed moments as he contemplated the workings of the spirit. Also the greatness this house could bring to Josh and Susan. … No longer would they be transient and subject to whatever unsuitable shelter came available. No more clutter and lack of access to their property. No more getting angry every day because of these factors.

Dave Cawley: Yet, Josh’s other writings reveal that by that point, he’d already abandoned his faith. I found a text file among the thousands of documents police recovered from Josh’s computer must later. It was dated January 15, 2004. In it, he wrote…

Eric Openshaw (as Josh Powell from January 15, 2004 computer file): Where has the spirit gone today? He’ll never leave my side, they say. But now I need him so and I don’t know where to go. I am afraid but full of pride. I can’t believe. I know too much. My mind has overdriven my heart. I have been taught the untruth of my God.

Dave Cawley: Buying the Sarah Circle house put Josh and Susan in a precarious position. The financing only worked because nothing on their pay stubs revealed that they were working on a temporary basis. Had the lender known, they probably wouldn’t have qualified for a mortgage.

It didn’t take Susan long to make friends at work. She landed in the Fidelity call center, a natural fit for her outgoing personality. Josh, on the other hand, struggled. He was stuck doing data entry. Josh felt the job was beneath him. Not long after getting the home loan, Fidelity let him go.

Susan’s dad Chuck Cox couldn’t understand why they still moved forward buying the house.

Chuck Cox: So if it took two incomes to qualify for the house and now they know they don’t have one income, what’s your plan here? Why are you doing this?

Dave Cawley: Josh had bigger ambitions: to make a million dollars working as a realtor. Susan had to support him, as she revealed in her journal.

Kristen Sorensen (as Susan Powell from May 7, 2004 journal entry): Maybe Josh will get a client so he can start making an income, or we’ll get pregnant! Either would be great! I feel like I’m too stressed out because I’m in a temp job, supporting a mortgage and no prospects for Josh.

As she settled in to her new church congregation, Susan made fast friends with her neighbors, particularly Kiirsi Hellewell.

Kiirsi Hellewell: When she moved to Utah she was, I don’t know I guess I’d call her a little bit immature. When she became friends with my husband and I she said “I don’t know if this is going to work out because I’ve never been friends with anybody with kids before, but we’ll give it a try and see if we can hit it off.”

Dave Cawley: She also received a calling in her new church ward, or congregation, working with young women. In The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints, callings are volunteer positions held by members. Susan did her best to juggle work, home and church life.

Kiirsi Hellewell: Even though she had been raised in the LDS Church, she, she was very much in the newlywed, kind of teenage girl sort of still mentality… kind of had to grow up really fast with Josh as a husband.

Dave Cawley: Though they’d moved away, Steve Powell continued to loom over Josh and Susan’s marriage. He spent hours talking to Josh on the phone. Susan documented frustration over that in her journal.

Kristen Sorensen (as Susan Powell from April 21, 2004 journal entry): I’m trying to deal with forgiving my father-in-law of what he’s said/done. As I try, he continued to re-offend, which makes it even more difficult… I am to the point where if I had fur, it would bristle whenever I know Josh is talking to his dad.

Dave Cawley: In June, Susan applied for and received a permanent full-time position with Fidelity. Her pay worked out to roughly $33,000 per year. The job came with benefits that would cover medical care for her baby. Yeah. That’s right. Susan was pregnant.

Dave Cawley: While pregnant, Susan studied for, took and passed the tests necessary to obtain her stockbroker licenses. She became breadwinner for her growing family. Susan confided in her friend Kiirsi, saying she had misgivings about how Josh would fare as a father.

Kiirsi Hellewell: It was funny because when she was first pregnant with Charlie, she kept saying “I just can’t picture Josh as a dad. He’s just, I just don’t see how this is going to work. But then I look at how he acts with our pet bird and he’s really loving with the bird, so maybe it will work out for him to be a dad.”

Dave Cawley: Susan went into labor on January 19, 2005. Chuck and Judy Cox traveled to Utah for the event. They drove Susan to the hospital, because Josh was too busy tinkering with his computer. When he arrived an hour late, he sat on the window sill with his laptop.

Chuck Cox: So we were right in that little frantic phase where she’s in great pain and all that and the baby’s just about to be born everything and I say “Josh, Josh, come over here,” and he’s still nothing. So I went over and I took the laptop and I just closed the lid on it and I said “it’s time, you need to be with her.” And I set it down beside and kinda helped him up and he went over and took her hand and thats, then she shortly thereafter, y’know, she looks up and says “see dad, he’s here for me.” Yeah, “ok dear, yes dear. Of course it is.”

Dave Cawley: Chuck said Josh’s behavior changed once he held his son Charlie for the first time.

Chuck Cox: He had fear in his eyes in the sense of just “oh my gosh, what’s going on” as she’s squeezing his hand and, and as soon as the baby’s born and then he was “oh man, look what I got!” He says “this is a super thing. This is the best child in the world.” And then he’s a big proud daddy. And I’m going, “well good maybe, maybe there’s hope here. If it took that to wake him up, maybe he’s woke up. I don’t know.”

Dave Cawley: Susan took about five weeks of maternity leave before returning to work. She wrote in her journal that when she went back, being apart from Charlie tore at her.

Kristen Sorensen (as Susan Powell from March 3, 2005 journal entry): Bawled my eyes out while he ate and I rocked him. Can’t imagine giving up a son, it was hard enough to leave him for 12 hours. Did a lot of tearful praying as I cried. Somehow, made it through the day, but felt on the verge of tears all day long.

Dave Cawley: She considered quitting her job and working as Josh’s assistant in his real estate business. He continued to spend money they didn’t have, a habit he’d justified from the beginning of their relationship. Susan poured out her frustrations in an April 7, 2005 journal entry. Josh had failed to take any notice of their fourth wedding anniversary a day earlier.

Kristen Sorensen (as Susan Powell from April 7, 2005 journal entry): I’m depressed/stressed because Josh wants me to possibly go back to work again and doesn’t seem to want to focus on real estate … and the church is covering our utilities and our groceries and I feel like a mooch and like Josh just wants to take the easy way out and never get around to supporting his family.

Dave Cawley: She brought her frustrations to her bishop, the lay leader of their church congregation. She told him about her father-in-law, how Steve had propositioned her two years earlier. The bishop suggested Josh and Susan go to marital counseling. The bishop also talked to Josh, telling him to show his wife more affection. Josh dismissed him, saying  they couldn’t afford another baby.

Josh resented the time Susan spent on church obligations, feeling that she was neglecting him. He quit going to church himself. An awareness grew in Susan that something was fundamentally wrong with their marriage. She sometimes considered running away, back to her parents in Washington. But never did.

Kristen Sorensen (as Susan Powell from April 17, 2005 journal entry): So it’s just more of me changing me to hope it helps Josh. I love him and Charlie and no longer feel the need to hop on a bus to Puyallup like I did earlier when Josh was being so negative.

Dave Cawley: It was during this time she wrote in her journal about a dream in which her teenage ex-boyfriend saved her from a bomb. Susan didn’t want to get back with him, but realized something important was missing from her marriage.

Kristen Sorensen (as Susan Powell from August 31, 2005 journal entry): It’s been almost a year since Josh and I have been physically close, as in sex. Josh always seems to be stressed out, or busy on the computer or too tired by the time he gets to bed or he’s worried that he’ll get sick by kissing me or that we’ll get pregnant again. Despite the fact that you can’t get pregnant just by kissing.

Dave Cawley: In fact, this side of Josh stretched far back into his past. He’d expressed desire for Susan in his audio journals when they dated…

Josh Powell (from January 5, 2001 audio journal recording): I love resting with her sweet body next to mine. I love the way it feels. She is, she is soft but she’s not fat. Her body is soft in the right spots and more toned and hard in the right spots. I just think that she is incredible that way.

Dave Cawley: …but at the same time, Josh had struggled to do simple boyfriend things, like hold Susan’s hand.

Josh Powell (from December 13, 2000 audio journal recording): When it really comes down to it, I am not into any kissing and I’m really less likely to even be comfortable cuddling. I almost have to get away from a girl. I can cuddle for a second as kind of playing around, but then I have to get away from her in order to maintain my comfort zone.

Dave Cawley: I decided to ask Catherine Everett, the woman Josh had dated before Susan, about this part of his personality. Here’s what she said.

Catherine Terry Everett: In the beginning of our relationship, it was very much, y’know, we’d hold hands and, y’know, cuddle with each other and stuff like that. But then when we moved in together, it turned into he didn’t want to kiss me anymore. Because any time he kissed me, he would get sick. That’s what he was convinced of.

Dave Cawley: Sound familiar? Josh told Susan the same thing he told Catherine. Was he a germaphobe, or was it something else? In any case, Josh’s treatment of Catherine wrecked her self-esteem.

Catherine Terry Everett: I remember, y’know, thinking to myself, I’m like “is there something wrong with me?” Y’know? I couldn’t understand how it could go from one thing to him being like that. It just didn’t make any sense. But that’s what he would tell me, he’d be like, he goes “I want to kiss you but every time I kiss you, I get sick.”

Dave Cawley: So one can imagine how Susan must have felt when her husband refused to even give her a kiss. The growing physical distance only compounded the financial strain Josh and Susan were under. By Valentines Day of 2006, they were talking about the “logistics of divorce.”

Josh had been scarred when his parents split. He had no intention of allowing Susan to divorce him. After their talk, Susan wrote a pleading letter.

Kristen Sorensen (as Susan Powell from February 14, 2006 letter to Josh Powell): I want this marriage to work, not just for Charlie, but for us, because Charlie will grow up just like you did. And I still want to be with you after Charlie grows up. Just like how I’m sure your mom and dad wish they had a significant other in their lives, now that you kids are all grown up.

Dave Cawley: In the letter, Susan made several promises in the hopes of keeping her husband happy.

Kristen Sorensen (as Susan Powell from February 14, 2006 letter to Josh Powell): I will keep working at Fidelity, keep not spending money — only gas, only drive to and from work and daycare. I will not do hair or only do it when you tell me you won’t be home or if I can do it at someone else’s. I can continue to try to scan. … I can read scriptures out loud for us. … I can continue to say prayers and make a continuous effort to make our marriage work and us be happy in it.

Dave Cawley: Did you catch Susan’s mention of scanning in there? I’ve made a lot of references to Josh’s journals so far in this podcast. The truth is, many of Josh’s “journals” were just random scraps of paper. He’d write notes in the margins. If he went to church, he’d write down who with and what was discussed.

Josh kept everything — letters, receipts, notes, fliers — and made digital copies. All of his correspondence back and forth to high school friends like Jackie and Theresa survive because he or Susan scanned those letters and envelopes.

Josh also pressured Susan to edit her teenage boyfriend out of her journals. He wanted her to throw away pictures from the high school dances she’d attended. But Susan, she resisted this. She later told a coworker one day her own children would be mature enough to understand the mistakes their mother had made as a teen.

Susan quit Fidelity for good in May of 2007. They took out a second mortgage on the Sarah Circle house to get by as their incomes dwindled. Josh’s at-home realtor business, which had never really made it off the ground, started to collapse. Hoping to prop it up, he bought a full-page ad in the local phone directory. The directory publisher, Dex Media, did its part, but Josh was not happy with the outcome. He accused the company of misprinting the phone number and refused to pay. Dex sent the account to a debt collector, who in turn sued Josh in Utah state court. That lawsuit demanded more than $91,000 in unpaid costs.

In the middle of all of this, Susan learned she was again pregnant. This time, she desperately wanted a girl. There were signs early on the baby might be born with cystic fibrosis or Down syndrome.

Kristen Sorensen (as Susan Powell from September 2, 2006 journal entry): I worry that we won’t be able to support the needs of a CF or Down’s child, that Josh won’t accept it and get a divorce, that he’ll favor Charlie and ignore this child.

Dave Cawley: Susan delivered their second child, another boy, on January 2, 2007, just a few weeks shy of two years after Charlie’s birth. The baby weighed just 5 lbs., 10 oz. He’d had the umbilical cord wrapped twice around his neck and Susan in horror saw that he was blue. The delivery room staff used her oxygen line to help get the newborn breathing. To Susan’s relief, her second boy was born free of any disease.

Kristen Sorensen (as Susan Powell from March 31, 2007 journal entry): Josh was supposed to name him, he’s on the phone telling my mom and says ‘what about Brady?’ and I’m thinking ‘Brady Bunch? No.

Dave Cawley: They agreed on Braden, their miracle baby.

Then, more than ever before, she had her hands full. She was caring for two young kids. She wasn’t working and Josh’s adventure in the real estate business continued to worsen. They had only one car at that point, a 2005 Chrysler Town and Country minivan, which Josh rarely allowed Susan to drive. Debt had haunted Josh his entire adult life.

Josh Powell (from December 13, 2000 audio journal recording): That’s not to say that I’m, that I regret any of the purchases I’ve made. I’m happy with the way I am, with the way I’m living.

Dave Cawley: In April of 2007, Josh and Susan filed for Chapter 7 bankruptcy. Federal court records show at the time, he had more than $30,000 in credit card debt, nearly $59,000 in outstanding student loans, and roughly $100,000 owed to that botched phone book ad. He also owed his father-in-law Chuck Cox $3,000 and made sure to include that on the court filing.

The bankruptcy court didn’t exactly wipe the slate clean. Josh’s student loan debt persisted. He reaffirmed his mortgage and car loan, so those stuck around as well. But the credit card balances and the phone book debt collection lawsuit disappeared.

The nation was sliding toward what would come to be known as the Great Recession. Josh’s political and social views were also growing more extreme.  He often ranted about a coming environmental catastrophe, during which the world would run short of water. He warned Susan they might need to flee the United States on short notice. Susan was baffled but tolerated it all as best she could.

Kiirsi Hellewell: She learned to be really really self-reliant. She started growing a garden. She had fruit trees. She learned to can things and she had wheat storage. I mean she was, she kept saying “this is weird for me, I’m not really a homemaker type but I’m trying to learn how fit into this Utah mom and wife thing and learn how to do all these self-reliant things.” She learned how to bake bread, so she would come over and we could cook and watch movies and just talk.

Dave Cawley: Susan’s journal, emails and Facebook messages show those friendships helped her cope.

Kristen Sorensen (as Susan Powell from July 1, 2007 journal entry): I made dinner which I’m the only one enjoying and I’m sitting here reading a self-help book thinking nobody appreciates my efforts, or at least, not the people I’m closest to make an impact with, like Josh. I’m not suicidal or anything, just feeling alone and frustrated which is interesting because even as I write “feeling alone” I know I’m not alone and I’m aware how blessed I am and I almost feel selfish to want to pray for improvements but I still want things to be better than they are.

Dave Cawley: By the start of 2008, it was clear to Susan she could no longer depend on Josh to support the family. They had to get regular jobs again. Though Josh had legally erased the $3,000 he owed Susan’s dad through the bankruptcy, Susan insisted in her journal, she would repay it.

Kristen Sorensen (as Susan Powell from January 6, 2008 journal entry): We started job hunting about December 12th and I’m not telling my parents because I want to tell them in the form of handing them a check of pay them back for money we borrowed literally ears ago. Torture not to tell them.

Dave Cawley: She soon landed a position at Wells Fargo Investments, a call center, doing similar work to her old job at Fidelity. There were even some people she recognized from her old stockbroker study group. Susan again was breadwinning for her family.

Kristen Sorensen (as Susan Powell from January 23, 2008 journal entry): As I’m kneeling on the kitchen floor, cleaning up the food from the boys (all 3 of ‘em) eating, I had to make an effort to concentrate on why I’m better off being married as opposed to the single mother I often feel like I am. Had to stop and think about if Josh had died, if we were divorced, if he were the original guy I married … what would be different and how much better that would or wouldn’t be. Decided I don’t want him dead, like him around for the boys, occasionally he actually does what I need him to do.

Dave Cawley: Susan was finally awake, but mired in a terrible marriage.

On the next episode of Cold…

Debbie Caldwell: They were not doing well in their marriage and she was talking to an attorney and looking at getting a divorce.

Cold season 1, episode 7: Scouring the Desert – Full episode transcript

Dave Cawley: A crowd milled around tables in the banquet hall of a downtown Salt Lake City hotel. They munched on food and chatted about the latest workplace gossip. Susan loved it. She rarely had the opportunity anymore to rub shoulders with people outside of work and church. This fancy Christmas party with her coworkers felt like a big event. It was December of 2008: one year before her disappearance.

Most people there were dressed up. Susan had shown up in jeans. Still, she was having a good time. Josh seemed to be as well, to her surprise. He was engrossed in a conversation about programming — HTML, .Net — all that nerd stuff that went over Susan’s head. Her interest in computers only reached as far as her MySpace page or maybe Facebook. Josh though lived with his nose buried in a laptop. He didn’t read much, except for technical manuals and how-to books about programming. He was pestering the Wells Fargo Investments IT guy at the table, bragging about his websites.

Amber Hardman, one of Susan’s best work friends, sat with her husband Scott at the same end of the table.

Amber Hardman: Prior companies that we had worked for didn’t have work parties where our spouses were invited so it was nice to be able to bring our spouses and hang out and get to know each other, so…

Dave Cawley: The conversation turned to television. Josh and Susan had recently binged seasons of the show 24. They also loved crime dramas, like CSI.

Amber Hardman: They were obsessed with this one show and they’d actually watch it together. That was one thing I remember. Susan would talk about how her and Josh would actually watch that together and they liked that show. So, something they had in common. (Laughs)

Dave Cawley: True crime stories fascinated Josh. He liked to dissect the missteps made by killers.

Amber Hardman: Yeah, they were talking about it and I remember hearing him say “those shows are so dumb. Those people always put the bodies in the stupidest places. It’s always so obvious.” And that’s kind of where it turned to the conversation about the mines and the western desert. Josh was like “if it was me, have you ever been out to the West Desert? There’s mines everywhere. Nobody’s going to find anything out there.” And I thought that was crazy. (Laughs) Only because, who would think of that, like… (laughs) Who actually sits there and thinks about where they’re gonna hide a body that would be better than these TV shows? Y’know? “They’ve got it all wrong.” But, y’know, Josh…

Dave Cawley: This is Cold, Episode 7: Scouring the Desert. I’m Dave Cawley. Right back after this.

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Dave Cawley: So Josh had put some serious thought into the value of hiding a body in an abandoned mine. During the party, he explained old mine shafts are unstable and it would be difficult or impossible for anyone to find or retrieve a body from one.

Amber Hardman: That was a year before Susan disappeared. I just thought it was a odd conversation to even have. Like where would you hide a body? I think that’s why it kind of stuck with me because even then I knew Susan and Josh had problems and even then she had even brought things up like “sometimes he scares me, I don’t always feel safe.” Y’know.

Dave Cawley: It didn’t seem Josh understood just how his flippant talk about dead bodies affected other people. In fact, Susan had called attention to his tone-deaf conversation style in a letter just weeks before.

Kristen Sorensen (as Susan Powell from November, 2008 letter to Josh Powell): You seem physically incapable of having a conversation that doesn’t revolve around your interests. Whether it be politics, the economy, energy crisis, conserving, etcetera. … It’s like you have no ability to notice if your audience doesn’t want to talk about your topic. Or if heaven forbid, they disagree with you.

Dave Cawley: Josh’s habit of dominating conversations was a recurring theme in my interviews with people who knew him, like neighbor Dax Guzman…

Dax Guzman: And he talked a lot. He talked a lot. That guy could talk a lot.

Dave Cawley: …or Kiirsi Hellewell.

Kiirsi Hellewell: He was so talkative, all the time, like over the top, like if you had a conversation with him it would go on for six hours with him doing all the talking and you doing none because he just liked to talk. And he was loud. He talked at the top of his lungs all the time. Always wanted to push his opinion and his views and he didn’t like anyone to disagree with him.

Dave Cawley: Susan could see her marriage wasn’t like her friends’ marriages. She tried to talk Amber into arranging a sort of double-date with their husbands, hoping Scott Hardman’s example might rub off on Josh.

Amber Hardman: She kind of looked up to our marriage and idolized our, Scott and I’s marriage and friendship that we have and our closeness and…

Dave Cawley: But Scott wanted nothing to do with Josh. Amber tried and tried to talk Susan into leaving Josh. Susan wouldn’t do it.

Amber Hardman: I mean, she had at one point, and I don’t remember when it was between then and when she went missing, had said “if I go missing or something happens to me, if I end up dead, no I didn’t commit suicide. No, it wasn’t me. I would never do that.” I mean, she told me that outright and clearly so. I mean, that’s frustrating in and of itself.

Dave Cawley: About three months after that Christmas party, in March of 2009, Josh decided to take Charlie and Braden out for a camping trip in Utah’s West Desert. Susan wasn’t invited. Temperatures that night dropped below freezing. Josh and the boys weren’t equipped for the cold. Susan wrote this about it in an email.

Kristen Sorensen (as Susan Powell from March 16, 2009 email): Josh took the kids to the desert starting Saturday 5 p.m. to ‘go camping’ and showed up at 2 a.m. because the kids wouldn’t settle down and he was worried about them being cold. All Sunday they had fevers.

Dave Cawley: Susan had not wanted Josh to go, especially with the boys. She was consumed with concern the whole time they were away.

Kristen Sorensen (as Susan Powell from March 16, 2009 email): I was at a Mary Kay dinner thing until 10 p.m. Saturday night, trying not to worry about the kids and hoping I could politely say “I told you so.”

Dave Cawley: Six weeks later, Susan noted in another email that her tightfisted husband had developed a sudden new interest in the desert.

Kristen Sorensen (as Susan Powell from March 16, 2009 email): He just bought a $65 car rack, I assume for all the camping that we don’t do, and tells me “we need to stop spending money.”

Dave Cawley: I asked Susan’s friend Amber if perhaps Josh was doing reconnaissance, studying the landscape, looking for mines, a full 10 months before her disappearance.

Amber Hardman: You kind of wonder because he did have a fascination with going out to the West Desert camping all the sudden. And prior to that, they were going to other areas and that was kind of a newer thing for them.

Dave Cawley: Josh decided to try camping again in May, when temperatures were a bit warmer. Unlike in March, he asked Susan to come along as well. In an email, she asked him “do we even have a tent?” She knew the answer was no.

The prior summer, she’d emailed an old friend, saying she and Josh never really went on vacation. In fact, she’d never even visited any of Utah’s five national parks, even after living in the state for five years.

Kristen Sorensen (as Susan Powell from August 30, 2008 email): I’ve never been to Vegas and Josh and I have some lame gift certificate to stay in a hotel, if gas prices ever got under control we could visit. Or those arch rock things in southern Utah that I’ve never been to.

Dave Cawley: Susan’s friends suggested places she, Josh and the boys could go, including several Forest Service campgrounds in the mountains near Salt Lake City. Most charged a small fee and Susan knew Josh would never pay it. He had different plans, anyway. He didn’t want to go to the mountains. He’d learned about a place where he could play geologist with the boys in the desert.

(Sound of plastic bucket banging)

Dave Cawley: They were going to hunt geodes. Geodes are hollow rocks that, when you crack them open, contain mineral deposits. In Susan’s words, they were “crystal sparkly things.” Utah’s hottest spot for finding geodes is a place called the Dugway Geode Beds. Amateur rockhounds can dig there for free, keeping what they find.

Josh told Susan that’s where they were going. They headed out on Saturday, May 30, 2009. Susan described the drive in a journal entry.

Kristen Sorensen (as Susan Powell from undated journal entry): At some point you turn right and the road turns into dirt, keep driving, go over some type of mountain… Pass a lot of “Ponytrail Express” monuments, keep driving, if you are lucky and don’t mind the bumps and traveling about 50 mph max on dirt roads. … About 2 or 3 more hours at this point and my cell phone was in a “no service” range but had changed the time zone to an hour earlier.”

Dave Cawley: As you can tell, Susan was more or less lost. But I’ve spent some time in the West Desert myself and can interpret, based on her descriptions and the photos she later posted to Facebook.

Josh drove the Pony Express Trail over Lookout Pass and past Simpson Springs. From there, it’s a pretty straight shot to the geode beds. But he didn’t go to the geode beds. Instead, he turned off the Pony Express Road.

Kristen Sorensen (as Susan Powell from undated journal entry): We found this little turn off that I really wished we had an SUV for (Josh claims it’s all about the driver not the vehicle) where we were literally on a dirt path of maybe 2 tire tracks if we were lucky and all these huge rocks … Eventually, I told Josh that we weren’t going to make our van drive any more. It wasn’t safe.

Dave Cawley: Josh pressed on, driving south along the flank of the Thomas Range to the vicinity of Topaz Mountain.

Kristen Sorensen (as Susan Powell from undated journal entry): We found this white quarry and I found out later that it had real topaz in it.

Dave Cawley: It’s not clear if Josh knew where he was going all along, or if he stumbled upon Topaz Mountain by accident. Like the geode beds, it’s a spot where where people can collect crystals.

(Sound of of hammering on geode)

Dave Cawley: He gave the boys hammers, safety glasses and ear plugs. Then, they went looking for sparkly rocks.

I need to make a quick correction here. Since the release of this episode, I’ve have learned that the white quarry Susan described was actually on the northern end of the Thomas Range, not the southern end. It was in a draw just to the west of Dugway Pass, a short distance south of the Pony Express Trail. Thank you to Dave Stemmons for the tip, which I independently verified.

Kristen Sorensen (as Susan Powell from undated journal entry): There is a small hill of sand with huge black beetles in it that the boys got so excited over. … Since we were in the wrong place, we were very successful in finding other creatures.

Dave Cawley: Susan screamed at the sight and sound of a coiled rattlesnake. She clutched both of her boys. Josh, on the other hand, was fascinated. He talked to the boys about reptiles while casually flinging rocks at the snake. Daylight was fading, so the family returned to their minivan.

Kristen Sorensen (as Susan Powell from undated journal entry): We drove and found one lone light that was a place called Fish Springs National Wildlife Refuge Headquarters. We read about their visitor signs and by this time it was pitch dark so we decided to come back in the morning and drove about a half hour away and parked in a kind of deserted gravel quarry just to the side of the road.

Dave Cawley: They slept crammed into the back of the van. In the morning, Josh cooked a breakfast of pancakes, sausage and eggs.

Kristen Sorensen (as Susan Powell from undated journal entry): It was nice to have Josh cook breakfast, just unfortunate that I have to be camping in order to experience it.

Dave Cawley: They spent much of that day exploring Fish Springs before finally finding the geode beds. By then, the boys were getting fussy and dark clouds were gathering on the horizon. Susan said it was time to go home. The rocky desert roads had taken their toll though. One of the rear tires on the minivan went flat. Then, it started to rain. A passer-by stopped to help Josh mount the spare tire.

Kristen Sorensen (as Susan Powell from undated journal entry): We then had to basically limp home. No faster than 35 mph on dirt roads with pot holes, the entire time, with me worrying that if the spare can’t take it, we were out of service on our cell phones and there were not anymore cars passing us by.

Dave Cawley: Susan attributed her family’s safe return to divine intervention. She called their camping trip “freeing” for Josh. She was putting Charlie and Braden to bed a few weeks later when she overheard Josh in the other room, talking to his dad on the phone.

Kristen Sorensen (as Susan Powell from June 29, 2009 email): I heard him say “no, Susan didn’t go camping with us that time.” I heard him laugh (I assume at his dad joking that I wouldn’t enjoy it, or prefer church instead or I’m the party pooper or something). Then he said, “yeah, I just found some people and bummed off their campfire so I didn’t have to build my own.”

Dave Cawley: She told a friend in an email that what she heard sounded “suspicious.”

[Scene transition]

Dave Cawley: Even more suspicious were the words spoken by Charlie, the day after he returned home from the December camping trip with his dad. I’ve touched on this in a previous episode, but it deserves a closer look.

On Tuesday, December 8th, Charlie told Detective Kim Waelty that his mom had gone camping with him but stayed behind at Dinosaur National Park. Waelty asked him where at the park and Charlie said “where the crystals are.” He explained crystals are colorful and grow inside of rocks.

Sounds like he was describing geodes, right? It’s a tricky thing though, interviewing a four-year-old.

Ellis Maxwell: So challenging. I mean, I worked child sex offenses, child abuse cases and those are challenging when they’re that young.

Dave Cawley: Ellis told me kids can be unreliable. They’re too distractible, or too scared, or too easily led to deliver the answer an interviewer wants to hear. Detective Waelty had special training for these kinds of interviews and knew to use a light touch.

Now, the West Valley City police department released a transcript of this interview in 2013. They did not include the audio recording. I tried to get it using an open records request, which West Valley City denied. It turns out, recordings made at Children’s Justice Center locations in Utah are exempted from Utah’s open records law. That makes sense in most cases. Public release could cause additional harm to kids who witness or are victims of horrible crimes. I get that. There are special privacy concerns to consider, too. I get that, as well. But there’s a reason why I believed, and still believe, this audio’s important.

My thinking went like this: in this case, there is no privacy left to protect. Charlie is gone. Transcript is valuable, but it can’t convey all of the nuance of speech, especially from a young child. How Charlie responded to questions might reveal as much about his thinking as the actual words he used.

I appealed West Valley’s denial of my request. It was denied again. I then had some very smart lawyers look at the law and they told me, in so many words, that I couldn’t win. So, I dropped the appeal. Unfortunately, that means I can’t play you the audio of what happened. I’ll describe it instead, going off the transcript.

Detective Waelty asked Charlie what his mommy had said. Charlie replied mommy said she wanted to stay, so she slept where the flowers and the crystals grow. Waelty asked if Charlie saw that place. He said yeah and said there were a “whole bunch of red berries.” Then, he changed his mind and said the berries were blue.

Waelty asked if his mommy had been happy or sad. Charlie said happy. She wanted to stay because the crystals were so pretty. He said he stayed where there were no crystals, but where there were lizards, pythons that weren’t in the wild and snakes that live in Dinosaur National Park.

Charlie’s repeated references to a Dinosaur National Park seemed perplexing. There is no “Dinosaur National Park” in the United States. But there is a Dinosaur National Monument. It sits on the Utah-Colorado border, about a three-hour drive east of Salt Lake City.

The monument protects the spot where, in 1909, a paleontologist discovered the skeletal fossils of a large sauropod called Apatosaurus. Josh, Susan and the boys had visited Dinosaur that August, for the 100-year anniversary of the discovery. They camped near the Green River.

Kristen Sorensen (as Susan Powell from August 14, 2009 email): My coworker’s saying be very careful with the water in that area. I don’t know that we’d want to go swimming and deal with all that, maybe just wading up to our knees or something while in shorts. … Of course we will have the children glued to us.

Dave Cawley: They again slept in the minivan, just as they had on the Pony Express Trail in May. Around that same time, Josh pushed to get the boys into another dinosaur-themed attraction closer to home. Thanksgiving Point, a destination with flower gardens, museums and restaurants, was running a $2 Tuesday promotion. That meant Josh could take Charlie and Braden to Thanksgiving Point’s Museum of Ancient Life for a fraction of the normal cost.

Memories of these two dinosaur-themed outings were likely blurred in Charlie’s mind, muddled with recollections of the topaz, geodes and rattlesnake from the Pony Express trip.

Ellis Maxwell: You can’t put a lot of credit in the children’s sense of time at that age.

Dave Cawley: Ellis and the rest of the detectives weren’t able to make much sense of what Charlie had told them. His talk of crystals and berries and Dinosaur National Park were just too vague.

[Scene transition]

(Sound of idling ATV)

Dave Cawley: A cold January wind whipped across the landscape as the four-wheelers rolled over dirt, mud and snow. Louis Amodt and Tony Gallegos were riding with West Valley City police into the heart of the Great Basin, into the rugged recesses of remote mountain ranges. Into the West Desert. They were looking for mines. They were looking for Susan’s body.

Tony Gallegos: We were, y’know, sort of experts in this field. We knew what to do around mines. And Louis’ familiarity with some of the areas. So, “gee, we’ll help you find these mines and we’ll help you safely evaluate them” but then the goal of finding a, a body or clues, that, that was a little somber.

Dave Cawley: To look at the area on a typical street map, you’d see just a big, blank white spot. But Amodt and Gallegos knew the region better than most. At the time, they worked for the Utah Department of Natural Resources. They were the experts when it came to abandoned mines. That’s why police had asked for their help.

Louis Amodt: The area they had was, uh, the West Desert of Utah which could contain 5-10 thousand abandoned shafts, a few of those would be applicable to leaving someone there.

Dave Cawley: West Valley detectives made their first scan of some abandoned mines on December 16th and 17th, just a week and a half after Susan’s disappearance. It was like dipping a toe into the ocean. The task of searching all of those holes in the ground was gargantuan, a fact they were just beginning to grasp.

Detectives David Greco and Max Cook had drawn the assignment. Just after Christmas of 2009, they met with Louis and Tony to see what they were up against.

Tony Gallegos: I was surprised that they contacted us and said “hey, we’re looking at these mine openings, do you guys have any information?”

Louis Amodt: Mmhmm.

Tony Gallegos: That they were kind of open to that and we said “well, as a matter of fact, we do.” Then, once they saw the scope of it, they had to step back and narrow their parameters a little bit and say “ok, what do you know about these areas and what maps” and so on.

Dave Cawley: It was a bit of science and a bit of psychology. Police knew Josh’s minivan wasn’t capable of reaching mines high on canyon walls or at the end of rough, rocky trails, especially considering they’d been blanketed with snow on the day of Susan’s disappearance. They also knew Josh was a bit lazy and lacked the physical strength to carry or drag Susan very far.

Tony Gallegos: I remember that we had this search parameter of, uh, the Pony Express Road, kind of the loop around the back of the mountains and then south coming through the Tintics. So based on that road and access or time,  uh, from that they kind of came up with this zone and it went probably from West Valley down to Eureka and to the west a little bit.

Louis Amodt: From the Simpson Springs where they knew where he was, they put a three-hour driving time. And so the radius from, from there was what we looked at was the Tintics, the, the Oquirrh Mountains—

Tony Gallegos: Of course, yeah.

Louis Amodt: Clear out to the perimeter, the edge of it would have been the Gold Hill area—

Dave Cawley: Mmhmm.

Louis Amodt: —out in the Deep Creek Mountains would be the farthest, probably the farthest west. But then I know it also extended down towards Ely.

Dave Cawley: That’s Louis. He retired a few years ago, wrapping up a career that spanned more than 30 years. At the time police approached him in 2009, he was deeply involved with Utah’s abandoned mine reclamation program.

Louis Amodt: That was uh, for me personally, a very, very hard time because we wanted to help to get resolution to, to what was going on, but then uh, I didn’t really want to be there, I didn’t want to find anything. Where, you wanted to find something but you didn’t want to find it. So it, it was not for, for me personally a fun time but it was something I felt I needed to do and wanted to help.

Dave Cawley: They got ahold of a borehole camera.

(Sound of camera being lowered into mine shaft)

Louis Amodt (from January 6, 2010 borehole camera video): We’re almost on the bottom.

Dave Cawley: It’s kind of like the cameras plumbers sometimes use to look for clogs in pipes…

Tony Gallegos (from January 6, 2010 borehole camera video): Still plenty of light?

Louis Amodt (from January 6, 2010 borehole camera video): Yeah.

Tony Gallegos (from January 6, 2010 borehole camera video): Good.

Dave Cawley: …except on steroids.

Tony Gallegos: It has its own cable and lighting and camera system and it can record sound as well. It think it has a 1,000 foot range on it. It’s electric so we, it’s all portable. So we, Louis and I had used it before and then the detectives requested that we bring it so we could look at some of these shafts.

Dave Cawley: That’s Tony, formerly an engineer with the state. Neither Louis nor Tony has ever spoken publicly about their involvement with the effort to search for Susan in the mines of the West Desert.

Louis Amodt: It was never out in the public everywhere we looked and how soon after she disappeared that we spent time looking.

Dave Cawley: Police swore them to secrecy. They signed legally-binding non-disclosure agreements.

Louis Amodt: This is while Josh was still alive so you couldn’t really say anything or say “oh yeah, we’re out looking here, we’re out looking there.” ‘Cause they didn’t want to alert him of what was going on either.

Tony Gallegos: Because of the disclosure agreement, at the end of the day Louis and I could talk to each other about certain things but, yeah, you really couldn’t discuss it with your coworkers or your spouse or anything. So, and most of them were cooperative. “Oh, you guys were out in the field last week?” “Yeah.” They’re like “ok—”

Louis Amodt: Yeah, they understood.

Tony Gallegos: “—how was the weather?” Y’know, this sort of thing. We didn’t talk about the areas, didn’t talk about any of that.

Dave Cawley: Their secret search kicked off on January 4, 2010. They spent two weeks living out of borrowed barrack space at the U.S. Army’s Dugway Proving Ground, right on the edge of the search zone.

Louis Amodt: The day would start at 5:30 in the morning and you’d get up and you’d think “yeah, this could be an exciting day” but you’d work into the evenings, sometimes 10:30 at night trying to plot out things to, to see where you’re going to go next. So, it was very long days and a very difficult time.

Tony Gallegos: Yeah.

Louis Amodt: We expected snow and that our days would start well before daylight and end well after dark. We would still be out on the ground looking until the very last light and then find your way back in the dark.

Tony Gallegos: At least one instance we started out with some ATVs ‘cause we thought—

Louis Amodt: Mmhmm.

Tony Gallegos: —based on the snow conditions and the road access we thought “well, this will work.” And didn’t quite work. I think we ended up getting stuck. We had to dig out a couple of vehicles, shovel, and a couple of the ATVs. And then you needed, uh, extra winter gear, gaiters. Sometime later than that we switched to snow machines, snowmobiles just to get to some of those areas.

(Sound of snowmobile coming to a stop)

Dave Cawley: At each mine, they used high-intensity spotlights to probe the dark. Twice each day, the detectives called home using a satellite phone to report their progress. The work came with a whole host of hazards.

Louis Amodt: You have a, an opening there that’s not like a cave. A cave is stable, where these mines openings are totally unstable. The, the collar — the, the area right around the opening to, to the mine — is very unstable. Rocks fall down. And then also there are animals in there. I’ve had uh, rattlesnakes and cougars and things like that inside but then also a bigger concern is that we always carry an air monitor to monitor oxygen levels because you get back in these workings and there’s no air circulation and there’s a lot of times a lack of oxygen. So you could, y’know, pass out and wake up dead.

Dave Cawley: Tony told me these mines are no place for the public.

Tony Gallegos: They’re workings that were man-made and they haven’t been maintained for years so the rock is going crumble or fall from the roof, the timbers are going to rot, they may fill up with water. When you’re walking in there, you may have a flashlight but you really can’t see and you won’t have a instrument that tells you there’s oxygen or not. And then, there may also be explosives in some these—

Louis Amodt: Yes.

Tony Gallegos: —things like old sweaty dynamite or blasting caps that you wouldn’t even see or be aware of until it was too late.

Dave Cawley: The mines they searched ranged from shallow holes in the ground to complex networks of adits and shafts. An adit is a horizontal passage, a shaft is vertical. 

Louis Amodt: Typically in some of these old, old workings you go in 20, 30 feet and there would be a raise which is a, a shaft that goes down and it would be right in the middle of where you’re walking and if there’s water, sometimes there’s a veneer of, of dust on the water and so it looks like it’s solid ground and you step into it and it’s 45-degree water that you’re stepping into that’s in a filled shaft. And if, if you’re alone, everything is, is, is wet and slippery you’d have a really hard time getting out by yourself. Uh, but the main concern would, would be a lack of oxygen in these mines and things falling and timbers in these old mines are very rotten.

Dave Cawley: Under a federal law passed in 1977, the government can take over, clean up and close abandoned mines. Sometimes, they collapse the mine openings on purpose, or plug them up with rocks and dirt. Other times, they build steel grates to cover the openings, so bats can still come and go.

Louis, Tony and the detectives inspected the locks and metal grates, looking for signs of tampering. Police knew the acetylene torch Josh had bought just a couple of weeks before Susan’s disappearance could have cut through rebar.

(Sound of oxyacetylene torch starting)

Dave Cawley: At mine shafts too deep to inspect from the surface, the team broke out the borehole camera.

Detective Max Cook (from January 6, 2010 borehole camera recording): It is Wednesday, the 6th of January, 2010. It is 11:16 a.m.

Tony Gallegos: We’d anchor it off and then uh, start filming.

Tony Gallegos (from January 6, 2010 borehole camera recording): Alright Louis you’re, we’re good to go.

Louis Amodt (from January 6, 2010 borehole camera recording): ‘Kay.

Tony Gallegos (from January 6, 2010 borehole camera recording): So what we need to do is hold and move the pulley across on the rebar.

Louis Amodt (from January 6, 2010 borehole camera recording): Ok. So we need to come out.

Tony Gallegos (from January 6, 2010 borehole camera recording): Yeah. Max, or someone, I’ll need a hand here.

Tony Gallegos: The detectives would watch as we were going down.

Louis Amodt  (from January 6, 2010 borehole camera recording): ‘Kay. Can you see it on your display on, on the recorder?

Detective Max Cook (from January 6, 2010 borehole camera recording): Yes.

Tony Gallegos: If we did see something, we were supposed to stop and we could pan the camera around. It had its own lighting system.

Detective Max Cook (from January 6, 2010 borehole camera recording): Is your uh, camera light on?

Tony Gallegos: It was submersible and the camera could angle up and down to a certain degree and then rotate.

Tony Gallegos (from January 6, 2010 borehole camera recording): There you go, yeah. Rotate and then pan up and down on the other side.

Tony Gallegos: So we’d drop down so many feet and then move the camera around and pan around then drop down further.

Louis Amodt (from January 6, 2010 borehole camera recording): 150, actual depth.

Tony Gallegos (from January 6, 2010 borehole camera recording): I think we’re at the, yeah we’re at the bottom. We know we’re at the bottom or we can, we’re panning around. Looking up and down, different angles.

Louis Amodt (from January 6, 2010 borehole camera recording): Let me back up.

(Buzz from borehole camera motor)

Detective Max Cook (from January 6, 2010 borehole camera recording): Was there a side shaft or was this just straight down one?

Louis Amodt (from January 6, 2010 borehole camera recording): I didn’t see anything off to the side, but then…

Tony Gallegos (from January 6, 2010 borehole camera recording): It’s, without the camera turned to the side, you can miss it, some things.

Tony Gallegos: Our instructions were if we actually saw anything we were just going to hold off there and then let the detectives comment on the recording if they wanted to.

Detective David Greco (from January 6, 2010 borehole camera recording): Doesn’t look like there’s a big, large object that’s had dirt kicked over it either.

Detective Max Cook (from January 6, 2010 borehole camera recording): No.

Louis Amodt (from January 6, 2010 borehole camera recording): No.

Detective Max Cook (from January 6, 2010 borehole camera recording): Nope.

Louis Amodt (from January 6, 2010 borehole camera recording): Nope.

Detective David Greco (from January 6, 2010 borehole camera recording): So it’s clear.

Tony Gallegos (from January 6, 2010 borehole camera recording): You actually see the bottom? So what was down there?

Louis Amodt (from January 6, 2010 borehole camera recording): Looks like there’s some branches and things on the bottom. Looks like a rock, a white rock or something.

Tony Gallegos (from January 6, 2010 borehole camera recording): ‘Kay, hang on a minute. Let me turn this light on and it may make it better or worse.

Louis Amodt (from January 6, 2010 borehole camera recording): ‘Kay.

Louis Amodt: With the detectives that we were working with, to them, well and to us also, it was very personal what was going on and they felt, y’know, we all had a stake in it. There was a camaraderie.

Dave Cawley: In those first weeks, they cleared mines in the Oquirrh, Tintic, Dugway, Fish Springs, Lakeside and Deep Creek mountain ranges. Don’t worry if none of that makes sense. You can find an interactive map of the precise locations at thecoldpodcast.com. A word of warning though: these mines are very dangerous.

By February and March, the mine search expanded to the Simpson Mountains, the Thomas Range and Topaz Mountain. As the detectives became more comfortable and gained better knowledge of the land and the risks, Louis and Tony stepped back.

Tony Gallegos: As much work as we did, and the mine openings and the places we dropped the cameras, we did the best we could but even still some of those places, there could have been something in there that we wouldn’t have seen or discovered because it was remote or in the bottom of a shaft. And you still wonder, you still wonder what happened. Where is Susan Powell?”

[Ad break]

Dave Cawley: The detectives spent August and September of 2010 hunting down mines in the Silver City zone south of Eureka, Utah. That fall, while working on another project in the same area, Louis stumbled across a .357 magnum handgun. He turned it over to the police, who determined it probably belonged to a hunter and was not connected to the case.

By the one year anniversary of Susan’s disappearance, police had identified and visited hundreds of mines. They’d searched a wastewater treatment plant on the outskirts of West Wendover, Nevada. They’d followed up on a number of tips in the West Desert, even unearthing what turned out to be the remains of somebody’s family pet. The small dog had been wrapped in a blanket and buried in a shallow grave.

It’s important to remember this daunting task of cataloging and searching mines happened out of public view. The police didn’t talk about it. They didn’t go out in marked vehicles or wearing uniforms. They didn’t want Josh to know where they were looking. In the eyes of the public, it seemed the police were ignoring a huge lead.

Paulette Bennett: Most of us have been really glued to the whole thing since we were drawn, from the first news I heard about they were missing. Y’know, I still remember that.

Dave Cawley: That’s Paulette Bennett. More from her in a moment.

In March of 2010 a company called Strategic Tactical Group started making plans for a public search of the area around Simpson Springs. They recruited other organizations, like the Bridgerland Fire Company, and proposed blanketing the area with thousands of volunteers.

West Valley police wanted nothing to do with it, especially since they’d already scoured the area themselves. Besides, there were safety and liability concerns. In the end, the organizers invited only people with prior wilderness search and rescue experience. They told their teams to stay out of and away from mines. Search dogs walked grids, using their sensitive noses to sniff for any whiff of cadaver.

Paulette Bennett: There’s a whole lot of study on the scent and you see movies where they stick a, a bloodhound on a leash and off they go and here we are. Y’know it’s like, “mmm, not usually that cut and dried.” Maybe if you’re changing a runaway prisoner or something, y’know. Yeah, they can follow the scent pretty good that way.

Dave Cawley: Paulette Bennett, who you heard from a moment ago, was with a non-profit group called American Search Dogs. She brought her golden doodle, Murphy. Unfortunately, she didn’t have any way to introduce Murphy to Susan’s scent.

Paulette Bennett: Had we had a scent article of Susan’s they would have looked only for Susan. Because we didn’t have that, we had to rely on the cadaver command so they would be looking for human remains of some sort. And that can be, y’know, that doesn’t have to be a body. It could be fluids, it could be a lot of different things.

Dave Cawley: Paulette kept Murphy pointed into the wind as they worked their way through the low, brushy vegetation. They came across a surprising amount of garbage — a torn and weathered tent, a discarded sock — but none of it caught Murphy’s nose.

Paulette Bennett: They did find, we always found underwear when we were doing searches. It’s amazing the people that dump underwear in the wilderness. (Laughs) But, y’know you find those things and other things that the dogs would look at. The only thing we found was, there was — and my dog did not alert on it — was a, a piece of the spine and I, I did call their attention to it.

Dave Cawley: The bones appeared to have come from a deer, or maybe an antelope. Many of Susan’s friends were there for this search. Josh’s estranged sister Jennifer even made the drive out to Simpson Springs.

Paulette Bennett: ‘Cause everyone was totally intent on wanting to know what happened and finding her. At that point, everybody was, it was still new enough that you still felt like they might be able to find her and pin Josh. I mean, everybody quite frankly knew. You can tell from my notes, I’m pretty biased. But I don’t need to be unbiased, I’m not in the jury. (Laughs)

Dave Cawley: The volunteer search didn’t uncover any evidence. But it did draw a lot of attention. Reporters and TV news cameras were there. Tony Gallegos, the abandoned mine expert, saw the stories.

Tony Gallegos: You wanted to say “well, you don’t need to look there anymore. Look somewhere else where we weren’t able to spend time.” But then again, you really even didn’t want to encourage people to go into these mine openings that were really not safe. And you didn’t want someone being hurt while they’re out searching for someone. And, y’know, it could be families or kids, whoever. It was good that they were wanting to help, but didn’t really want to encourage people to go poking around the mine openings.

Louis Amodt: It is very dangerous

Tony Gallegos: Not a safe thing.

[Scene transition]

Dave Cawley: Josh and his family were also watching. A week later, Steve Powell wrote this in his journal.

Ken Fall (as Steve Powell from April 17, 2010 journal entry): I heard on the grapevine that cadaver dogs were employed, and some things were found, according to TV news, “not directly related to Susan Powell.” We all wondered what “indirect” relationship the finds had to her, since the comment implied that.

Dave Cawley: Steve and his sons mocked the effort from the safety of their home in South Hill, Washington.

Ken Fall (as Steve Powell from April 17, 2010 journal entry): Michael has joked that Josh should make a comment like Brer Rabbit, such as “search anywhere, in West Valley, in Simpson Springs, in Salt Lake City, but please, please, please don’t search near Rattlesnake Rock.” That is a sample of the morbid humor we indulge in from time to time. My contribution to the dark humor is, “it’s a good thing the Mormon Church did away with polygamy, because otherwise Josh would have had to dig more holes in the frozen-hard desert ground.”

Dave Cawley: Rattlesnake Rock? Where could he possibly have meant? Maybe it was the spot near Topaz Mountain where Susan had shrieked after hearing a rattlesnake in May. Or maybe it was some place far away, in Oregon or Washington. We may never know.

[Scene transition]

Dave Cawley: Murphy, Paulette’s big goldendoodle, wore a bright orange collar that was all but obscured by his long fur. A chill wind swept across the shallow, murky waters of Utah Lake. Murphy followed a trail toward the lake. Before reaching the water, he peeled away and walked to the decaying remains of a home. It was tucked into the thick wall of trees and bushes growing along the lakeside.

(Sound of breeze blowing through reeds)

Dave Cawley: Paulette could see it was little more than a concrete foundation with some sagging beams, full of shadow and who knew what else.

Paulette Bennett: Yeah, that was really creepy and the dogs were interested in it. I’m sure people have been down there in it. The dogs were showing interest in it.

Dave Cawley: Murphy continued through the brush to the edge of the lake. The ground was littered with garbage — broken office chairs, discarded fishing tackle, empty bottles of Mexican beer, chunks of concrete, the decaying remains of a dead animal — but Murphy didn’t seem to care much about any of that. At the water’s edge, he started to alert. He’d caught the scent he was looking for: cadaver.

Paulette Bennett: My dog walked into the water. The breeze was coming toward us, pawed the water. That’s what he would do when he couldn’t reach a source. He would paw at it. So I know he picked up something.

Dave Cawley: Murphy didn’t like to swim. His decision to wade out into the lake, up to his shaggy belly, was unusual.

Paulette Bennett: It’s really tricky, so even when you get some kind of a positive result from your dog, you still have to analyze the situation unless they’ve got their nose right on what you’re looking for.

Dave Cawley: Murphy was hitting on what Paulette called a “high air” scent. The wind out of the northwest seemed to carry it, maybe from the far side of the lake. Meanwhile, another dog named Lacy showed particular interest in a couch someone had dumped nearby. Paulette wondered if perhaps a fisherman had cut himself on that couch. Or maybe the scent came from the body of Susan Powell.

A man named Tim Oliver had reached out to Paulette’s organization, American Search Dogs, in March of 2010. He explained he was working with a group of psychics in the hopes of finding Susan. They’d received an impression telling them to search the northwestern shoreline of Utah Lake, around the community of Saratoga Springs.

The members of American Search Dogs were all volunteers, but they’d each spent significant time and effort training their dogs. They were well-known and well respected. They were also no strangers to receiving tips from psychics.

Paulette Bennett: For me on the psychics, I’m like, I don’t know. I don’t know if there’s something to it or not but it was just like every other search. I thought “well, it’s a good practice for the dogs, it helps validate for them if they think they’ve found something, so we’ll go ahead and see what we can find.”

Dave Cawley: After that blustery March day on the shoreline, Tim Oliver got in touch with Saratoga Springs police and told them what he’d seen.

(Sound of birds at Utah Lake shoreline)

Dave Cawley: Detective Bruce Champagne visited the site a few days later. He looked around, checking for any sign of blood or a body. He found only garbage and a pile if discarded men’s clothing. Champagne called Paulette, who described what she’d observed with Murphy. She told the detective her dog had caught the odor of cadaver. Of that, she was certain.

Paulette Bennett: Yeah, I’m sure there was something. But I’m not sure what it was.

Dave Cawley: West Valley police also caught wind of what had happened. Paulette shared her log from the search with the West Valley detectives, including the exact GPS coordinates.

The coordinates were right behind a new subdivision. Two of the new homes had been listed for sale on Josh’s real estate website at the time Susan disappeared. What’s more, the subdivision sat just south of the route Josh’d claimed to have driven on his way back from the Pony Express Trail. Detectives reasoned he might have stashed her, alive or dead, in one of those homes.

West Valley sent their own dog team down to search the shoreline, but came up with nothing. They knocked on the doors of the two homes. One was still vacant. A pair of roommates had just barely bought the other. Neither recognized Josh.

The police got permission to bring their cadaver dog into both houses, but the dog didn’t alert. But afterward, the roommates shared a story with the detectives. They said while house shopping in January, their realtor had shown them another house right next to the one they’d ended up buying. That house had reeked of rotten food or a dead animal or some other awful thing.

The smell was so strong, they said, they’d had to leave the house to avoid becoming sick.

(Sound of distant hammers and saws)

Dave Cawley: The property manger for the subdivision told the detectives there’d been several homes in the neighborhood under construction in December. A large dumpster full of building waste had been parked at one of the lots on the day Susan disappeared. Had Josh known that? Might he have left Susan there, hidden beneath scraps of shingle, lumber and drywall?

They dug into the paperwork and learned a waste disposal company had picked up the dumpster a week later, on December 14th. The contents eventually ended up at the Cedar Valley Landfill in the small town of Fairfield.

West Valley police descended on the landfill with a team of cadaver dogs. They’d identified where the waste from December had been dumped. It covered an area about as wide as a football field and as long as two and a half football fields placed end-to-end.

The junk pile was about 10 feet deep. Searching that volume of material, layer by decomposing layer, would take forever. It was just the kind of task where cadaver dogs could prove their worth.

Paulette Bennett: People have like five million scent receptors in their nose. Dogs have about 250 million scent receptors. So it isn’t even just that they can find this stuff, even buried or whatever, but they remember the scent that they are looking for.

Dave Cawley: That’s incredible.

Paulette Bennett: It is incredible.

Dave Cawley: American Search Dogs wasn’t involved in the Cedar Valley Landfill search. West Valley used its own people for that.

The dogs went over the huge pile of trash, alerting at one particular location. A track hoe rumbled over to the spot and began to dig. The police and dog handlers, wearing sweaty t-shirts, jeans and boots, all crowded around. The excavator unearthed a slimy, stinking mass of what might best be described as biological matter. Someone scooped it up with a shovel and put it onto a slab of plywood. Then, using a gloved hand, a detective poked into the mass. It turned out to be animal remains and excrement.

[Scene transition]

Dave Cawley: Susan’s dad Chuck Cox went for a drive with the West Valley police on March 18, 2010. A captain and lieutenant took him out to the Pony Express Trail, hoping to impress upon him just how difficult a task they faced in scouring hundreds of square miles of desert.

(Sound of tires on Pony Express Trail road)

Dave Cawley: They drove the dusty route from east to west, crossing wide basins full of salt and sage. Their roughly 170-mile trip from Faust, Utah to West Wendover, Nevada took more than four hours. They passed by Simpson Springs and Fish Springs, places Josh and Susan had visited. They drove through the Gold Hill ghost town, where detectives had two weeks earlier inspected a large number of abandoned mines.

Chuck Cox: It all made sense. It was, logically, what they were doing, but the part I don’t know about is what other leads — and it’s always bothered me —  what leads? Because we would get calls from people saying ‘I told the police this and they haven’t got back to me’ and it was a, a viable lead.

Dave Cawley: Chuck kept in close contact with the police.

Chuck Cox: Well, they were very cooperative and uh, accommodating to my wild ideas because, frankly, this happened in the middle of the night and uh, they really had no clue where to look.

Dave Cawley: In June of 2010, Chuck saw an online comment on a Salt Lake Tribune story about the case. A person using the screen name of “Lochkeeper” had reported seeing a silver-colored minivan parked by some ponds alongside I-15 south of Salt Lake City on the morning of Susan’s disappearance. The two ponds were on the west side of the freeway in the suburb of Draper. Detectives checked the ponds, but found nothing.

A few months later, in August, Chuck again provided police with the location of an urban pond in the city of West Jordan where he believed Josh might have disposed of Susan. There was no specific reason to think she might be there.

Chuck Cox: And so if I would get a feeling or somebody, no matter if it’s ridiculous, if it was a place that could be searched they were willing to go to search there.

Dave Cawley: West Valley assembled a dive team. They went out to the pond. Its water had the appearance of pea soup. The floor of the pond held a thick bed of silt. When stirred up, it made the water even more opaque. The dive team had to stand shoulder-to-shoulder and walk across each segment of the pond, feeling their way forward. They dredged up some garbage, but no sign of Susan.

Chuck was undeterred. He realized a surplus canal, an offshoot of the Jordan River, also flowed right near Susan’s work. Josh could’ve dumped Susan into the water or along the banks on his way out to the Pony Express Trail the night of his camping trip.

The canal crossed under Interstate 80 just south of Salt Lake City International Airport. Airport police allowed West Valley detectives into the secured perimeter of the airport with cadaver dogs in late September. They walked the dogs along the banks of the canal, all the way from the interstate to the spillway, where the water entered Great Salt Lake wetlands. The dogs showed interest at three locations, all on the south side of the airport.

A month later, in October, police put divers into the canal at each spot. The third location was right at the end of runway 34 L, at the very point where the canal curved around the southwestern tip of the airport grounds. The divers didn’t find anything suspicious there. But after leaving the water, they learned a large road sign, the kind you might see suspended over a freeway, was submerged nearby.

What if, they wondered, Susan’s body had been trapped, submerged, beneath that sign? Could that explain what the cadaver dogs had smelled? They’d have to dive again to find out. But West Valley City police records don’t indicate whether or not they ever did.

[Scene transition]

Dave Cawley: Paulette Bennett from American Search Dogs kept in touch with many of the people who’d been closest to Susan — friends like Kiirsi Helewell and Debbie Caldwell — as well as with the volunteers and self-described psychics who’d devoted themselves to finding her. Those friendships at last allowed Paulette to introduce her big, fluffy goldendoodle Murphy to an item carrying Susan’s scent. It was the pile of yarn Susan’d asked neighbor JoVanna Owings to help her untangle on December 6th, the last day she was seen alive.

Paulette Bennett: It wasn’t like a personal thing she’d worn where it was, her scent was the strongest, but it was something.

Dave Cawley: Paulette had become friends with many people involved in the search for Susan. She wasn’t alone.

Vickie King: But when you get more of a personal relationship with the families and friends, then you, you have a, a tendency to put even more time into these things.

Dave Cawley: That is Vickie King, another member of American Search Dogs. Vickie and Paulette both went on an outing to the West Desert in mid-October of 2010. They started by driving to Wendover and from there, headed south to pick up the Pony Express Trail. They rumbled eastward on the bumpy dirt road, past the tiny, isolated farming community of Callao, toward Fish Springs.

One of the people they’d befriended, a woman named Linda Osborne, was along for the ride. Linda had spent a lot of time studying Susan’s story. She’d already provided police with several tips. Linda didn’t consider herself a psychic, exactly, but felt “impressions.”

While on the drive across the desert with the American Search Dogs crew, she suggested places where they might stop and search. In one spot, they found some bones scattered across the ground. They gathered them up, to later turn over to the police. West Valley records show forensic anthropologists determined those bones were not human.

The desert environment was always hard on the dogs. Daytime heat dried out their sensitive noses. The dogs would become so focused on their work, they wouldn’t drink enough water. Rattlesnakes, black window spiders and tarantulas were a constant threat.

Tracking scent on the air also proved difficult. Breezes in the early morning and late evening tended to move scent around, which was good for the dogs. But when the air was hot and still in the middle of the day, scent climbed in a straight line.

In spite of this, the dogs showed interest in several possible campsites, places Josh might have been on his December overnighter.

Vickie King: We came across a couple of things that we said to ourselves “he’s been here. This is an area he’s been in.”

Dave Cawley: One of those spots sat just north of the Pony Express Trail, midway between the Dugway Geode Beds and Simpson Springs. All three of the dogs alerted there on a soft mound of earth. Then, they started to dig.

Vickie King: There was this, underground about six inches down, there is this tarp material.

Dave Cawley: Afraid of what they might find, the dog handlers called off their animals. They recorded the coordinates and reported them to West Valley police on the following day. Neither Vickie nor Paulette ever heard a word back from the police about their tip.

Paulette Bennett: I don’t know if anyone ever went back and checked on it. Our dogs all showed a lot of interest right there and they all noted it, but I don’t know if anyone ever really followed up to see if there was anything there.

Dave Cawley: In fact, they did. West Valley police records show the same officers who’d spent much of the prior year searching abandoned mines in the West Desert drove out to that spot on October 19th of 2010. But they didn’t find anything.

(Sound of shovel digging)

Dave Cawley: I even took a shovel out to that spot and poked around, but couldn’t find the buried plastic. Reflecting on the experience with me, Paulette couldn’t shake the sense they’d been looking in the wrong area.

Paulette Bennett: I don’t know. I always doubted that she was out there. Maybe if she was, it was for a short period of time. I don’t even know if he really went camping there. I don’t, never heard that there was any proof that he actually even really went there.

Dave Cawley: But he did. Remember, Detective Ellis Maxwell confirmed that by talking to the sheep herder who spotted Josh’s minivan on the Pony Express Trail on the day of Susan’s disappearance. Still, even Ellis doubts that Susan ended up somewhere near the trail.

Ellis Maxwell: I put a lot of weight that Susan did not go out to the West Desert with him. He did not take her out there. He took her somewhere else. And that’s the question. Where?

Dave Cawley: On the next episode of Cold…

Jennifer Graves: She’s your wife. For crying out loud! What happened?

Josh Powell: I don’t know what happened.

Cold season 1, episode 6: Josh in the Wind – Full episode transcript

Dave Cawley: Fumes pumped out of tailpipe of the idling cab. Dirty road slush coated the curbs outside of the West Valley City police headquarters. Josh Powell approached the taxi through the darkness. He opened the passenger door, slumped into the seat and told the driver to take him to Salt Lake City International Airport. It was about 10 p.m. on the night of Tuesday, December 8, 2009.

Josh had just been grilled for nearly four hours by Detective Ellis Maxwell about the disappearance of his wife Susan the day before.

Ellis Maxwell: He left his kids with uh, his mom and sister. When I reached out to them the following, well that evening and that following day, they didn’t know where he was. They hadn’t heard from him.

Dave Cawley: The ride to the airport didn’t take long. When the cab reached the terminal, Josh stepped out again into the sub-freezing cold. Roller wheels of suitcases clattered over the pebble-like pavement as airline passengers scurried through sliding doors to check their bags and board red-eye flights.

(Sound of airport exterior)

Dave Cawley: Josh didn’t have any luggage. He wasn’t headed to an airplane. As the cab pulled away from the curb, he walked over to the parking garage across from the terminals. He approached the Hertz rental car counter and pulled out a credit card. Josh left the airport in a silver Ford Focus. What he did next will probably never be known for sure. But he didn’t go home. Police were still there, serving a search warrant, and Josh knew it.

Ellis Maxwell: When I was in the interview they’d authored a search warrant for the house, a search warrant for the vehicle and then to put the tracker on his minivan. Y’know, there was enough evidence there and suspicion, right? Reasonable suspicion, that we could secure these just based on his lack of statements, his story, Susan not having any criminal history, no, no past of running off an abandoning her family, so you’ve got a lot of stuff like that can support the reasonable suspicion but you don’t have the probable cause to put the guy into jail. And that’s the challenge.

Dave Cawley: This is Cold, episode 6: Josh in the Wind. I’m Dave Cawley.

[Ad break]

Dave Cawley: On the morning of Wednesday, December 9th, 2009 — day three of the search for Susan — Detective Ellis Maxwell met two colleagues at Salt Lake City International Airport. They weren’t there to look for Josh’s rental car because at that point, they didn’t know he had it. It was coincidence that they were at the airport. They were going to the hangar where the Utah Department of Public Safety kept its helicopters.

(Sound of helicopter taking off)

Dave Cawley: The weather that day was perfect for flying: blue skies, with just a bit of high cloud. The chopper climbed in the brisk winter air, blades thrumming as it cruised south across the Salt Lake Valley. At the tip of the Oquirrh Mountains, the helicopter banked to the right and descended, dropping to follow Utah State Route 73 over Fivemile Pass.

From that point on, the detectives were skimming just 500 feet above the Pony Express Trail, where Josh claimed to have gone camping in the middle of a snowstorm two nights prior. Josh’d said his camp site was off to the side of the trail, about 20 miles from the end of the pavement.

Ellis Maxwell: He claimed he had a fire out there so I was hopeful I could find that black spot where he had this fire to corroborate his story and to get a general idea of where he was at because that West Desert is very vast.

Dave Cawley: The detectives could see tire tracks on the snowpacked trail. But none of them appeared to leave the road.

(Sound of helicopter hovering)

Dave Cawley: Rotor wash kicked up a fine mist of snow as the helicopter’s skids touched the ground at Simpson Springs, the one specific place Josh had mentioned visiting. The detectives checked the old Pony Express station building next to the trail. It was empty. They walked through the campsites, all of which were vacant. They even peeked into the pit toilets. Everything was as it should’ve been. No sign of Susan.

So the chopper lifted off again. They flew all the way out Fish Springs, another 35 miles distant. Still, no suspicious tracks, no signs of a recent campfire. But on the the return flight, they spotted something moving on the ground, just a few miles away from Simpson Springs.

Ellis Maxwell: But is what we found is this sheepherder and this sheep camp. … And we landed the helicopter and we approached the individual and he did corroborate that Josh was out there. Uh, we didn’t ask him any leading questions and he said that, y’know, he did see a, a blue minivan and occupied by a white male and he didn’t know if there, he couldn’t see that there was anybody else in there. And uh, so we did support and corroborate that he was out there.

Dave Cawley: Ellis had no reason to doubt it. Josh had actually made a point of mentioning the sheep during his interviews.

Josh Powell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): Had a bunch of sheep that we saw, apparently they were herding. The dog was herding them. Some kind of a big dog. Had to wait for those to get off the road, which was pretty cool.

Ellis Maxwell: He wanted me to know that he saw the sheepherder and these sheep interrupted his travel. Right? And he was kind of stuck on it for a minute. And I took that two ways. One, I took it like “ok, this guy’s got some ADHD issues or something.” Like, he gets stuck on something and he’s on it, right? Or, y’know, stepping outside of the box in that situation, it’s like wait, he wanted me to know that.

Dave Cawley: But why would Josh want to give away such a detail?

Ellis Maxwell: That’s his truth, right? He wanted us to verify that he was out there.

Dave Cawley: Meantime, back in West Valley, Ellis’ supervisors were taking stock of the case. They met with the Salt Lake County District Attorney’s Office and talked about what they’d seized from the house on Tuesday night. It became clear there were other pieces of possible evidence that’d been left behind, like most of everything that’d been in the back of Josh’s minivan when he returned from the Pony Express Trail on Monday. The police would have to go back to the house with a second warrant.

The D.A. also went to a judge and received permission to conduct an investigation. Basically, it meant prosecutors gained the power to issue subpoenas, which they used to go after Josh and Susan’s financial, medical and phone records. The court also swore the investigators to secrecy.

Ellis Maxwell: We moved to seal all of these affidavits and, and the subpoenas. Everything that we would collect was sealed under a court order.

Dave Cawley: Ellis told me there was a real risk Josh would find out what they were doing, what they knew, and take steps to cover his tracks. That risk only grew once the news media got wind of the story.

Jennifer Stagg (from December 9, 2009 KSL TV archive): West Valley City police say Josh’s parents called them for help when both he and Susan missed work on Monday. The children didn’t show up to daycare. Officers broke into the home, smashing in the front window…

Dave Cawley: The first reports about Susan’s disappearance appeared late Tuesday. The story gained real traction on Wednesday. West Valley police Captain Tom McLaughlan told reporters they had no suspects.

Nineveh Dinha (from December 11, 2009 KSL TV archive): Is he a suspect?

Tom McLaughlan (from December 11, 2009 KSL TV archive): No, he is not a suspect.

Nineveh Dinha (from December 11, 2009 KSL TV archive): Is he a person of interest?

Tom McLaughlan (from December 11, 2009 KSL TV archive): We have many people we are interested in.

Dave Cawley: But the secret warrant affidavits and subpoenas told a very different story. Josh was absolutely a suspect.

That afternoon, West Valley detectives returned to the Powell family home with their new search warrant. They streamed through the front door, shouting “police” and ordering anybody who might be inside to identify themselves. There was no need. The house was empty. They took Josh’s generator, gas can, humidifier, folding saw, circular saw, razor box cutter, two sleds, the tote of camping supplies and hand tools, the nitrile gloves — all the rest of the stuff that’d been in the minivan on Monday. They took more digital media, too — hard drives, a thumb drive, an SD card — as well as Susan’s checkbook.

But where was Josh while all of this was happening? He hadn’t talked to the police since late the night before. His sister, Jennifer Graves, wondered when he might arrive at her house to pick up his sons. He’d left them in her care when he went to meet with police on Tuesday morning, more than 24 hours before.

Jennifer Graves: And so I just continued to expect a phone call letting us know that he was coming or just him showing up. Honestly, I was dreading it. I really didn’t want him to come back and take the boys. I wanted the boys to stay here with us and, and felt like that was the safest place for them.

Dave Cawley: But Josh hadn’t gone to Jennifer’s house after leaving the police station and renting the car on Tuesday night.

Jennifer Graves: It was finally the next day that Josh said something about driving past our house at like 1:30 in the morning or something, and saying “well I didn’t want to bother you guys and, you know, and get you up.” And my light was on. I was not sleeping. And it would have been obvious because my room is on the front of the house. So if he’d actually really, in fact, driven by, he would’ve known.

Dave Cawley: Josh’s disappearing act concerned Ellis. He called Josh’s mom, Terrica, at about 4 on Wednesday afternoon to ask if she’d heard from him and she said no.

Ellis Maxwell: Eventually he establishes contact with Terrica and she calls me and I get his new phone number. I call him and he’s in Tremonton, Utah and it’s a fight with him over the phone to get him to come back to the police department.

Dave Cawley: Tremonton, Utah sits 80 miles north of West Valley City, right on the fastest route between West Valley and Josh’s dad’s house in South Hill, Washington. 

While in Tremonton, Josh activated a new cell phone. That was roughly 18 hours after leaving the airport with the rental car on Tuesday night. To this day, no one can say where he was or what he was doing during those 18 hours. Josh told Jennifer he’d driven laps around Salt Lake City, getting off and on the freeways at random. And in fact, Josh was still on the road when Ellis called him, telling him to come pick up his minivan.

Ellis Maxwell: He says he doesn’t trust me, I’m gonna arrest him and so I’ve got to go through this dog and pony show with him and convince him, “look I’m not going to arrest you, I’m not taking you to jail. If you didn’t do anything wrong, why do you have this guilty conscience? Get back here and get your van, otherwise I’m going to tow it.” … And I shared that with him because I know to this point that he doesn’t like to spend money on things that he doesn’t want to spend money on. He’ll spend money on acetylene torches and generators and, and stuff like, bipolar stuff, right? Bipolar purchasing but he was really upset we broke his window. He was more upset that we broke his window into his house than his wife missing.

Dave Cawley: Josh remained reluctant. Phone records would later show he drove past Susan’s work, just as if he were there to pick her up after her shift. Then, he drove past his own work, from which he’d been absent without leave for three straight days. Then, he went home. He called his dad and spent about an hour on the phone with him.

Steve Powell, like his oldest son, had dropped from view after Susan’s disappearance. Phone records showed he’d been in Washington that day. Then he’d called in sick for Tuesday and Wednesday.

Steve worked for Washington Correctional Industries, selling furniture built by inmates. He spent a lot of his time on the road, usually alone, and didn’t have any close friends in the organization. His phone records later revealed he did remain in Washington on those two days, but there was a gap of time during the same period of time Josh was missing with the rental car.

When Josh finished talking to his dad on Wednesday evening, he made his way over to West Valley police headquarters.

Ellis Maxwell: Eventually he does, he shows up, he gets his van on his time. I think it was at like 7 o’clock at night.

Dave Cawley: Mmhmm.

Ellis Maxwell: I was so upset ‘cause it was my daughter’s birthday, right? He would interrupt everybody else’s lives.

Dave Cawley: Ellis gave Josh the keys. Josh locked the minivan’s doors, then went back to his rental car. That’s when Ellis first found out about the Ford Focus.

Ellis Maxwell: And that’s when we learn. Y’know we, we get the plate off the rental car and we follow up with it and “ok, this is gonna be, this is gonna be our break, right?” Nah. And that’s this whole story, man. No breaks. Any time you think you might have something, nada.

Dave Cawley: More on the rental car in just a moment. First, Ellis asked if Josh would be willing to come in and take a CVSA test. That’s an acronym for computer voice stress analyzer, a kind of lie detector. Josh said he’d think about it. The next day, he told Ellis he’d do it. He would come in for the CVSA on Monday, December 14th, exactly one week after Susan’s disappearance.

[Scene transition]

Dave Cawley: Josh finally returned home Wednesday evening, only to find TV news crews camped out in his cul-de-sac.

Sandra Yi (from December 9, 2009 KSL TV archive): This afternoon, West Valley police served a search warrant at Susan Powell’s home because that was the last place anyone saw her.

Dave Cawley: He’d only had a few hours sleep since Sunday and was in no shape to face cameras, so he slipped over to the home of his neighbors, Tim and Crystal Peterson. It was an odd choice, because the Petersons were well aware of the troubles in Josh and Susan’s marriage. A few months earlier, Susan had asked Crystal in a Facebook message if Tim might be willing to speak with Josh about his faltering faith.

Kristen Sorensen (as Susan Powell from September 1, 2009 Facebook message to Crystal Peterson): I suggested if he did it through service then my husband would be more willing to listen.

Dave Cawley: She suggested Tim spend some guy time with Josh, helping him rebuild their deck or finish their basement.

Kristen Sorensen (as Susan Powell from September 1, 2009 Facebook message to Crystal Peterson): Everyone else at church has no clue how to interact with Josh and assume he hates the church and I guess it’s not that really, it’s just that it’s not convenient for him to attend it or be encouraging to me and the boys and obviously, very weak faith at the moment.

Dave Cawley: Susan had also confided in Tim. In an email, she’d said she was giving Josh until the end of the year to go back to church. He had until April to obtain a temple recommend. That’s a card that proves Latter-day Saints are following their church’s teachings.

So, it seemed surreal for Tim to find Josh in his living room that Wednesday evening in December.

Tim Peterson: And uh, y’know, he’s rubbing lotion on his hands because his hands are just wind-burnt. And uh, he’s talking about how he had to buy new shoes and “oh, you’re wearing the same shoes that I am.”

Dave Cawley: Josh complained about the missing carpet in his living room and the odd odor left behind from the blood-detecting chemicals. He wondered if the fumes would kill his pet parrot. He didn’t seem at all concerned about where Susan might be.

Tim Peterson: And he wasn’t asking any of those questions at all. He was just sitting there like a turd on my couch.

Dave Cawley: Josh asked Tim for a ride over to police headquarters, so he could pick up his minivan. As they sat in the cab of Tim’s truck, Tim asked Josh what he’d done with Susan. Josh didn’t answer.

Tim Peterson: I asked one more time and I asked about as plain as I possibly could and I said “damn it, Josh, you tell me, where the hell is Susan right now.” And he said “the police will find her.” And that’s when I said “I don’t like you no more. You are my enemy.”

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Dave Cawley: Susan’s friends, too, were finding it hard to give Josh the benefit of the doubt. They knew too well how poorly he’d treated Susan. Here’s Amber Hardman, one of Susan’s closest work friends.

Amber Hardman: I’d even sit and we’d have conversations and trying to figure out ways she could leave. Like, she was so worried he would track her down no matter what she did. And that would be the first thing she said. “I can’t. No matter where I go, what I do, he will find me.” That was all she could think about. It was like she had no way out and I was like “he doesn’t know where we live. What if you came to our house and we found somewhere for you to go in another state? He would would not know.” She was like “no, he will figure it out. He will find me.”

Dave Cawley: Stories like those only underlined the sense urgency for police. Ellis was starting to grasp the enormity of the task ahead, as he considered an all-out search of the vast West Desert. That job started at sunrise on Thursday. More than 20 investigators rolled into Simpson Springs, bringing with them ATVs and four-wheel-drive trucks. They brought dogs. The department’s lumbering mobile command unit, a huge RV, even braved the icy Pony Express Trail road.

They fanned out from Simpson Springs, looking for the spot where Josh’d made camp on Sunday night. A few of them drove 30 miles farther down the Pony Express Trail to the Dugway Geode Beds. That’s a popular rockhounding site Josh, Susan and the boys had visited earlier in the year. That is where they found nothing.

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Dave Cawley: Josh was getting a crash course in dealing with the media. Trucks and SUVs wrapped in TV station logos stalked the streets. KUTV reporter Chris Jones even ambushed Josh as he stopped by his sister Jennifer’s house in West Jordan on Thursday. In the video, Josh looked frazzled and sleep-deprived. He struggled to answer basic questions.

While Josh was avoiding the news cameras, Susan’s friends were doing their best to fill the void. Kiirsi Hellewell found herself thrust into the spotlight.

Kiirsi Hellewell: I mean, I was so surprised the first, the first day that someone knocked on my door and was sitting there with a camera. I was like “what in the world, who sent you here?” “Oh, well Susan’s neighbors said that you were a good one to talk to because you knew what was going on.” And that was the start of it.

Dave Cawley: People began to bombard Kiirsi as Susan’s story spread through the news. They called, texted and sent her messages on Facebook, hungry for information.

Kiirsi Hellewell: So yeah, somebody said to me within the first couple days “you guys need to have a candlelight vigil. It’s super important that you get the media involved and you plan events that they will come to to keep her name out there to get as many people looking for her as possible.” And I was completely clueless, I had no idea.

Dave Cawley: Kiirsi rose to the task, helping organize a vigil on Thursday night at West Valley City’s Centennial Park.

(Sound of crowd at vigil)

Kiirsi Hellewell: And I was like “ok, what do you do at a candlelight vigil? I’ve never been to one, I don’t know. I don’t know how to plan this.” And so we’d planned it and Josh showed up at it, but he didn’t talk to us. He didn’t talk to me. So I just caught a glimpse of him in the crowd and the kids. He kept them away from me.

Dave Cawley: Josh’s arrival caused the crowd to buzz like a plucked guitar string. JoVanna Owings, the last person besides Josh to have seen Susan alive, could sense it.

JoVanna Owings: The other people there weren’t as inclusive of him. Just because, I believe, by that point they were starting to suspect that he knew more than he was saying about Susan’s disappearance.

Dave Cawley: Dax Guzman, a neighbor who Josh’d hired to help rebuild his deck, sensed it as well.

Dax Guzman: The way people were looking at him, y’know, people knew. Y’know, just because you can’t prove something doesn’t mean you don’t know it.

Dave Cawley: Josh’s brother Michael was with him, having apparently come down from Washington. Debbie Caldwell, the daycare provider who’d first sounded the alarm about the family’s disappearance on Monday, noticed neither Josh nor Michael had bothered to put gloves on Charlie or Braden’s hands.

Debbie Caldwell: When I was talking to Charlie and putting gloves on his hands and he seen me talking to Charlie and he hurried and ran over and scooped him up—

Kiirsi Hellewell: So he couldn’t talk to you and tell you anything.

Debbie Caldwell: —so he couldn’t talk to me and tell me anything. And, and he said, umm, “we’re not going to be coming, coming back to daycare because, uh y’know, with everything that’s going on.” And I said “well Josh, you have to work. Why would that make a difference?” And he says “well, my family’s going to have to take care of the boys.” It was very odd.

Dave Cawley: Reporters gave chase as Josh moved through the crowd.

Jennifer Stagg (from December 11, 2009 KSL TV archive): Can you just tell us anything at all?

Dave Cawley: They tried to ask him questions, but he mostly ignored them.

Jennifer Stagg (from December 11, 2009 KSL TV archive): Josh, you said that you had gone camping. Is that right?

Josh Powell (from December 11, 2009 KSL TV archive): (Sniffles)

Jennifer Stagg (from December 11, 2009 KSL TV archive): A lot of people just want to know, y’know, what you know about her disappearance. Can you tell us?

Josh Powell (from December 11, 2009 KSL TV archive): Umm, I think I’m gonna take off.

Dave Cawley: As the vigil wound down, Josh loaded his boys into their carseats. He groused about the news crews who were staking out his house, doing live reports from his front lawn. So Kiirsi suggested he bring the boys to her place instead. The Josh Powell who showed up at Kiirsi’s house that night wasn’t the man she knew. He wasn’t loud, opinionated or overbearing. Instead, he spoke in broken sentences, stumbling over his words. He made odd comments, like saying he expected to see Susan standing at a bus stop.

At one point, Charlie open his mouth and started to say “I hate my daddy because—” Mortified, Kiirsi cut him off. Then, she looked up at Josh. He stood red-faced behind his oldest son, but didn’t say a word.

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Dave Cawley: The next morning, the GPS beacon Ellis had hidden on Josh’s minivan sent out an alert. It was moving, going west on Interstate 80.

Ellis Maxwell: I think everybody that was involved in the investigation up to that point was somewhat excited? I guess. I mean, ‘cause why’s he going out west? Why, why is he, umm, just out of the clear blue driving out west on I-80?

Dave Cawley: Detectives raced to their cars. Right away, Ellis noticed something odd.

Ellis Maxwell: He would clean himself.

Dave Cawley: (Laughs) He’s not talking about soap. This is counterespionage lingo.

Ellis Maxwell: He would be driving down I-80 and he would just take an exit. So he would get off say at Clive. Then he’d turn around and go back the other way, take the exit, get off, go around. I mean he would get on and off the freeway to see if someone was tailing him.

Dave Cawley: What Josh didn’t know is that West Valley police had called in help from the DEA, which put an airplane in the sky to watch him from above. The detectives kept their distance as Josh drove out past the last fringes of the city.

Ellis Maxwell: From there all the way out to Wendover, Nevada, it’s straight salt flats. There’s nothing out there. There are exits here and there but there’s really nothing to go visit.

Dave Cawley: Josh’s minivan cruised across the salt flats, past the famous Bonneville Speedway race course and into the casino town of West Wendover, Nevada.

(Sound of Wendover casino interior)

Dave Cawley: He drove to the far side of the casino town and parked outside of a Smith’s grocery store. It didn’t make sense… but maybe he was there to use a payphone or a burner cell phone the police didn’t know about. He stayed there for about 20 minutes, then returned to the freeway and headed back east.

(Sound of high-speed traffic on Interstate 80)

Dave Cawley: After about eastbound 30 miles, Josh took an exit at Clive. It’s a desolate spot, far from anywhere. The minivan rolled to a stop in a quarry on the north side of the interstate. Josh stayed there for the better part of two hours.

Ellis Maxwell: I think he personally did it to see if we were gonna follow him, if we had eyes on him. I think it was kind of one of his things to say “ok, let’s see what the cops do and if they are going to follow me.”

Dave Cawley: After Josh finally left, a detective managed to get a glimpse into the minivan. It appeared that Josh wasn’t alone, that maybe someone was with him, in the front passenger seat. The question was, who? It wasn’t clear.

The detectives monitored Josh’s movements as he drove all the way back to Salt Lake City and to the office of defense attorney Scott Williams. They broke off their tail and raced to the gravel pit.

Ellis Maxwell: That was a little exciting. As soon as he left, y’know, obviously we sent some guys over to kind of check it out. There was fresh snow on the ground so we could see where he’d walked and stuff like that. And, y’know, we searched that entire area. We used specialized dogs as well.

Dave Cawley: The dogs sniffed around but didn’t find anything. It’s worth noting, about two months later when the weather was warmer the police returned with 9 dogs. Four of them showed interest in a single spot within the Clive gravel pit. It was not a gravesite, but the investigators reasoned it might have been a place where someone had bled. Was that person Susan? They couldn’t say.

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Dave Cawley: News coverage of the case continued to crescendo. The story went national. Tips flooded the West Valley City police department. Detectives learned about Josh’s spending spree: how he’d dropped hundreds of dollars on an acetylene torch the day before Thanksgiving. They heard from the nursery worker who’d advised Josh not to buy a roll of plastic tree wrap because it wouldn’t help him mend a broken branch. Both purchases were suspicious in retrospect.

As detectives were tailing Josh to and from Wendover on Friday, others chased down these new leads. They went to the airport with the license plate number for the Ford Focus Josh had rented, only to learn it’d been rented out again. The rental company’s paperwork though showed Josh had put 807 miles on the car. Cut that number in half and you have a radius of just over 400 miles. That was the absolute farthest Josh could have driven and come directly back from the parking garage at Salt Lake City International Airport.

If you take a map and draw a circle centered on the airport with that radius, it covers an area of more than half a million square miles. It’s nearly twice the size of the state of Texas. The circle stretched almost from Phoenix, Arizona to Helena, Montana, or from Denver, Colorado to Reno, Nevada. In other words, the area Josh could have visited during his missing 18 hours was immense. But police did have areas of particular focus.

Susan’s work friend Amber Hardman told detectives Josh’d once said he knew where to hide a body, were he ever to commit a murder. His solution was dump it in an abandoned mine. A pair of detectives started probing abandoned mines just nine days into the investigation. Their effort blossomed into an operation that spanned more than year and covered hundreds of sites. You’ll hear much more about those mine searches in the next episode.

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Dave Cawley: JoVanna Owings spotted Josh at church on Sunday — exactly one week since she became the last person besides him to see Susan alive.

JoVanna Owings: And he had the boys with him.

Dave Cawley: JoVanna told Josh he ought to bring the boys back to daycare, to give them a sense of normalcy.

JoVanna Owings: He said he’d think about it. That’s all he said.

Dave Cawley: Their daycare provider, Debbie Caldwell, was a also member of Susan’s religion.

Debbie Caldwell: It was Sunday and I was at church and we had sung a hymn in church and I simply heard in my head “you will see her again.” But it was more of a spiritual prompting telling me this and I literally just broke down and just started sobbing and they had to go get my husband to bring, bring him in to me. And he’s like “so you know?” I, I knew that at that point in time that she was no longer here. She was a spirit.

Dave Cawley: Susan’s father Chuck Cox arrived in Utah. He met with the West Valley City police department on Sunday.

Keith McCord (from December 11, 2009 KSL TV archive): Jennifer Stagg spoke with him here at the KSL studios tonight. Jenn, how’s he holding up?

Jennifer Stagg (from December 11, 2009 KSL TV archive): Keith and Deanie, Charles Cox is frustrated and heartbroken over Susan’s disappearance. He flew into Salt Lake City tonight from his home in Washington to meet with police and all of Susan’s friends who are praying for her safe return.

Dave Cawley: Linda Bagley and Susan’s other work friends introduced themselves to Chuck at a gathering. They explained how they’d led detectives to Susan’s secret files.

Linda Bagley: Pulled him aside and we talked to him and let him know that we’d got this journal, that she’d had this journal and that uh, it did get to the police and everything. And he seemed to not know about the journal but, so he thanked us and everything but…

Dave Cawley: On Monday, Josh failed to show up for his lie detector appointment with Ellis.

Ellis Maxwell: He wasn’t gonna do it. Uh, his, his lawyer had told him, encouraged him not to.

Dave Cawley: West Valley police had eyes on Josh. Josh went to Debbie’s daycare and picked up all of Charlie and Braden’s things. He told Debbie they wouldn’t be coming back. The next day, Josh called Susan’s chiropractor and cancelled all of her future appointments. Then, he went back to West Valley police headquarters with his new defense attorney, Scott Williams.

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Dave Cawley: Josh had no choice but to return because Ellis had a new warrant. This time, for his blood. While they set up for the blood draw, Williams told Ellis he wanted to make sure police weren’t spreading rumors about his client not being cooperative. Ellis asked Williams about having him take the lie detector test.

Ellis Maxwell (from December 15, 2009 police recording): Yeah, I’m sure I know what your answer is on that but—

Scott Williams (from December 15, 2009 police recording): Yeah, but you’ve got to ask.

Ellis Maxwell (from December 15, 2009 police recording): Absolutely.

Scott Williams (from December 15, 2009 police recording): So we’re still talking. We’ll, we’ll, we’ll meet and it’s an ongoing thing.

Dave Cawley: Josh never did take that test. But the recording of the blood draw was interesting in its own right. It showed that Josh was very, very tense.

David Greco (from December 15, 2009 police recording): You going to be ok? Because your veins are sucking up, like they’re, as soon as I touch them. Are you a little bit nervous?

Scott Williams (from December 15, 2009 police recording): Breathe.

David Greco (from December 15, 2009 police recording): You just need to breathe or relax, ok?

Scott Williams (from December 15, 2009 police recording): Just relax, man.

David Greco (from December 15, 2009 police recording): Just relax.

Scott Williams (from December 15, 2009 police recording): He’s just taking blood. Just like going to the blood bank.

David Greco (from December 15, 2009 police recording): Just relax, there you go.

Dave Cawley: Josh walked out of the police station yet again that day, a free man. The media attention continued to intensify.

Tonya Papanikolas (from December 16, 2009 KSL TV archive): After days of denying Josh Powell was a person of interest in the disappearance of his wife, police now say he is. Thanks for joining us…

Dave Cawley: Josh turned to his neighbors, Bernard and Betty Trujillo, who lived a couple of doors away in Sarah Circle. The Trujillos had once been Latter-day Saints, but had changed churches. Josh had at times confided in them about his own conflicted feelings regarding his church. Bernard and Betty’s daughter Wendy had given birth to a daughter around the same time Susan had Charlie.

Wendy Trujillo: And they were kind of close so we would both walk our kids in strollers through the neighborhood after and it was interesting because we seemed to go out near the same time to walk around so we’d pass each other with our strollers and she says “oh, hi.”

Dave Cawley: One night after Susan disappeared, Wendy heard Josh complaining that he hadn’t even had dinner the night before because of the media. She invited Josh and his brother Michael over for dinner with her family. As they ate, Josh thanked Wendy for not judging him, as he felt others in the neighborhood had.

Wendy Trujillo: But I had reminded him, I says “well, y’know there’s a verse in the bible that tells you not to judge.” And I says “‘cause you’re going to be judged by God when you go there and he’s the one that gets to judge you, not us. And he’s the one that’s going to decide what happens with you. He’s your judge.” And he just got this really, looked, swallowed really hard and was like, kind of nodded his head and looked down at the floor. And the whole room got silent and, and my, after he left my dad was like “what did you say to him?” … He was like “that was weird and he looked like something was wrong.”

Dave Cawley: At that moment, Wendy suspected Josh knew something.

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Dave Cawley: Detectives kept busy. They finally got ahold of the rental car. They didn’t find any blood in it, but did see a brown Crayola crayon and a small silver handle, like from a toilet tank, in the trunk. They also spotted a quarter and a small, tan-colored rock beneath the trunk carpet, next to the spare tire. (Laughs) It was unlikely the crayon was a murder weapon, but the investigators took it and the rest as possible evidence.

They served subpoenas at Josh’s work, from which he’d just been fired, and at the Wells Fargo bank branch near Susan’s office. They found Susan’s safe deposit box. It was a goldmine. The box contained Susan’s handwritten will, in which she said if anything ever happened to her, Josh was probably responsible. It also held financial documents, $500 in U.S. Savings Bonds and the DVD Susan had made showing her assets.

Susan Cox Powell (from July 29, 2008 home video): Hope everything works out and we’re all happy and live happily ever after as much as that’s possible.

Dave Cawley: Susan’s divorce prep was proof of her fears. Ellis and the team kept talking to Susan’s coworkers, both past and present. Several shared stories about her recent bout of unexplained nausea. Coworker Amber Hardman said she’d told Susan to get a blood test. It’d been a month since Susan’s blood draw. The police went to the hospital lab, hoping they might still have her sample on hand. But, it had been discarded. Ellis needed a good sample of Susan’s DNA. The only other good place to get it was at the house.

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Dave Cawley: So, West Valley police went back to the Sarah Circle house early on the afternoon of Thursday, December 17th with yet another warrant, the third for the house. Josh’s younger brother Michael answered the door and said Josh wasn’t home. Ellis said they were coming inside — he didn’t ask — and told Michael he was free to leave. Michael chose to stay. He was babysitting Charlie and Braden. He ushered the boys into a back bedroom, where they remained as the cops poured in, flanked by forensic specialists.

The house looked a lot different than it had 10 days earlier, when Ellis’d first walked through it. Clothing and trash were scattered about, as if the only person who’d been picking up the clutter was no longer around. The police went into the master bath and found Susan’s hairbrush and toothbrush, both items likely to hold her DNA.

A pile of papers and unopened mail sat on the bed in the master bedroom. One of the detectives noticed a Comcast phone bill in Josh’s name at the top of the stack. This was an unexpected break, an opportunity to see who Josh had been speaking with, without having to pry it out of the phone company.

In spite of having been through the house with warrants twice before, they continued to find computers, hard drives and memory cards. They took two laptops from the bedroom and even found Josh’s new cell phone, the one he’d activated in Tremonton.

They found the acetylene torch Josh had bought the day before Thanksgiving on a cart in the garage. They took it. They also took attachments for the Rug Doctor that were tucked away in the basement. They’d apparently been missed during the earlier searches.

The working theory at that point was Josh had somehow poisoned Susan. It would explain her mysterious illness, as well as her drowsiness after eating the pancakes Josh made her for lunch on Sunday, December 6th. Detectives went to the medicine cabinet in the kitchen pantry. It held six full shelves of dietary supplements. Susan was big on homeopathic remedies. She drank probiotic shakes and swallowed handfuls of vitamin capsules every day. The police pulled out papaya enzyme, cod liver oil, omega-3, calcium, magnesium, chlorophyll, vitamins A, C and D, echinacea, black walnut husk, colloidal silver, sage, yarrow, oregano and more. There was even a brown glass bottle with a handwritten label that read “anti-plague.”

But in the middle of all these supplements were two green plastic prescription bottles. One was labeled phenazopyradine and the other cyclobenzaprine. The first bottle was all but empty, with just three pills inside. On the other hand, the cyclobenzabrine bottle contained 32 white, round, 5 milligram tablets.

I reached out to Doctor Barbara Insley Crouch for information about these two drugs. She’s Executive Director of the Utah Poison Control Center. She said it’s hard to draw any conclusions just from knowing Susan had felt nauseous.

Barbara Insley Crouch: That’s a pretty common thing with any medication and you take more than you’re supposed to.

Dave Cawley: Earlier in 2009, both Josh and Susan had dealt with urinary tract infections. That’s where the phenazopyradine, also known as Pyridium, came from. An overdose of phenazopyradine could lead to some interesting symptoms, like red or orange-colored sweat.

The other drug, cyclobenzaprine, goes by the brand name Flexeril. It’s usually prescribed for back pain and is classified as a muscle relaxant. It doesn’t actually relax muscles, though. It’s more of a sedative, meant to get people off their feet. A doctor at Granger Medical Clinic in West Valley had prescribed the cyclobenzaprine to Josh after another driver crashed into the back of his minivan on September 2nd of 2009. Josh had complained of whiplash symptoms.

I asked Dr. Crouch if a large enough dose of cyclobenzaprine could kill a person.

Barbara Insley Crouch: It would require a whole heck of a lot or in combination with something else that depresses the central nervous system and then they sort of were left alone and not found. It’s potential that it could be lethal, I don’t want to say that it’s not a lethal medication.

Dave Cawley: Ultimately, Doctor Crouch said neither medication seemed a likely cause of a fatal overdose.

Barbara Insley Crouch: Most of these situations are not going to put somebody out and immediately cause a fatality. If they were found within a period of time, there’s reasonable care that can be provided to reverse the effects of those medications.

Dave Cawley: After that car crash in September, Josh’d used his neck and back pain to justify buying a massage chair. You might remember I made brief mention of that in episode 3. I didn’t tell you the whole story. What I’m about to explain, has never been reported before. Police didn’t know about it. This is brand new and I believe relevant information uncovered as part of my investigation.

Josh Powell told his auto insurance company, American Family, on the day of that crash that he’d been rear-ended on Bangerter Highway in West Valley City. He snapped some pictures of the damage, which was pretty minor. The tailgate on the minivan was dented, but that was about the worst of it. The airbags didn’t even deploy. He did not report the crash to law enforcement.

Josh went to the clinic, got that prescription for cyclobenzaprine and started seeing a chiropractor for his neck and back pain. For some reason, he didn’t use the same chiropractor Susan was already seeing. Josh billed all of this to his auto insurance, as a personal injury claim connected to the low-speed crash. As such, it didn’t end up on his health insurance, which West Valley police later reviewed.

More than three months went by. Susan disappeared Then, on December 17th of 2009 as police were puzzling over the prescription pill bottles in his house, Josh showed up at Meier and Marsh Professional Therapies in West Valley City. He complained again of pain from the crash. This time though, the pain was in his shoulder. An examination revealed Josh had a rotator cuff strain, possibly even a partial tear .

Doctor Peter Chalmers with University of Utah Health is an expert on shoulder injuries. In fact, it’s his speciality. He said it would have been very unusual to have a low-speed rear-end car crash cause a rotator cuff strain and for that pain not to present for three months.

Peter Chalmers: It’s really, really, really uncommon from that mechanism. In fact, when I see on my schedule a rotator cuff injury and the mechanism is a motor vehicle accident, my first thought is that the motor vehicle accident has caused some whiplash and maybe a pinched nerve in the neck that’s causing some shoulder pain that’s been mis-diagosed as a rotator cuff injury.

Dave Cawley: He said it’s far more likely for rotator cuff injuries in younger people — like Josh — to come from “major traumas.”

Peter Chalmers: And by major traumas I usually mean, y’know like “I crashed my helicopter” or, right “I fell off of a cornice skiing.” It’s less commonly with minor things because in younger individuals the tendon is quite strong.

Dave Cawley: So that raises the question: how did Josh injure his shoulder? Susan weighed about 130 pounds. Josh lived a very sedentary lifestyle and wasn’t in great shape. Might he have overexerted himself, perhaps attempting to lift or drag Susan’s body? And how would he have managed caring for his kids after the injury?

Peter Chalmers: Certainly with someone who has a 2-year-old, I mean that’s someone who wants to be picked up all the time and having a rotator cuff injury can make that really difficult. Because like getting into and out of the bath and getting into and out of the crib and getting into and out of a high chair, that kind of thing is really hard if you have a rotator cuff injury.

Dave Cawley: Josh can sometimes be seen carrying one of the boys with his left arm during the weeks following Susan’s disappearance. But he also left Charlie and Braden with family members, including his older sister Jennifer and younger brother Michael, for extended periods during that same stretch.

Unfortunately, there’s no way to know just how bad Josh’s shoulder injury was or if it was even properly diagnosed without more detailed records. I wanted to get those, but medical records are private and protected by federal law, even after a patient’s death. Susan’s dad Chuck Cox has legal authority over Josh’s estate through the trust that Josh and Susan formed in early 2009. His attorney, Anne Bremner, made a request for the records but was told they’d been destroyed after seven years, as allowed by Utah law. If anyone still has a copy, perhaps American Family Insurance kept one, for instance, I would love to see it. I imagine West Valley City police might as well.

On the same day as his visit to the physical therapist, Josh took the power of attorney he’d made Susan sign the prior February to her work. He demanded they transfer the entire balance of her retirement into his direct deposit account. Josh may have lost his wife, but he did not intend to lose her money.

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Dave Cawley: Susan’s neighbor and friend Kiirsi Hellewell couldn’t shake a feeling of dread.

Kiirsi Hellewell: I was just, I don’t, I just felt nauseous all week. I couldn’t sleep. I couldn’t eat. I was just constantly eaten up with worry. We were picturing him having left her out in the wilderness somewhere to freeze to death because he didn’t want to kill her something.

Dave Cawley: She kept talking to reporters and funneling information to the West Valley police department, telling them to look at Josh. She also suspected Josh might not have acted alone.

Kiirsi Hellewell: Yeah, and a few days into it, my husband and I were just lying in bed and it was something like 12 or 1 or 2 in the morning and we were just lying there and neither of us had said anything for a long time and I didn’t even know if he was still awake and I was just lying there thinking “oh where is she? Where is she? What could have happened? We’ve got to find her. It’s so cold.” And my husband said out of the blue “what if it’s Josh’s dad? He’s been obsessed with her for so long. What if it’s Josh’s dad? What if he convinced Josh to take her and give her to him? And that would get her out of Josh’s hair and then he’d finally have the wish that he’d wanted for all of these years.”

Dave Cawley: Josh’s own sister Jennifer shared a similar fear. Susan had told Jennifer all about how Steve Powell had confessed his love for her back in 2003. Jennifer told the police her dad was a “slithering snake with a slick tongue” and could not be trusted. She also told Detective Ellis Maxwell she believed her brother was responsible for Susan’s disappearance.

Ellis Maxwell: For me it just kind of summed it up like “this guy’s definitely involved. He’s definitely responsible.”

Dave Cawley: As Ellis was serving the third search warrant at the house and Josh was draining Susan’s retirement, a pair of detectives were in Washington State. Gavin Cook and John LeFavor had gone there to speak with Josh and Susan’s families as well as their old friends. They were especially interested in talking to Steve. He agreed to meet with the detectives at the South Hill Library.

The detectives recorded their conversation.

Gavin Cook (from December 17, 2009 police interview recording): Basically why we’re here today Steve is to just get an idea of, of, umm, your thoughts, your uh, y’know, relationship with Josh and, and your knowledge of Josh and Susan’s relationship and just kind of build this puzzle—

Steve Powell (from December 17, 2009 police interview recording): Yeah.

Gavin Cook (from December 17, 2009 police interview recording): —and put it together just so we have information.

Dave Cawley: Steve described Josh and Susan’s early marriage struggles. He said he thought Susan was conflicted about her faith. He confessed his own falling away from their religion and claimed Susan being a Latter-day Saint led to her repressing her sexual desires. Steve said there were times he could sense a vibe from Susan, an almost electric current.

Detective Cook pressed for specifics. Steve made reference to 2002, when Josh and Susan were living in his home.

Steve Powell (from December 17, 2009 police interview recording): I mean she just seemed very happy to be around me you know among other things, umm, which always pleased me because I mean she’s the mother of my grandchildren, she’s umm, she’s, she’s a beautiful young lady, y’know. Umm—

Gavin Cook (from December 17, 2009 police interview recording): Did she make, ever make ever comments to you specifically or—

Steve Powell (from December 17, 2009 police interview recording): No, not at all.

Gavin Cook (from December 17, 2009 police interview recording): —was, physically did she touch you or y’know, y’know that way that goes along with those, uh, I mean the dynamics or, or vibes that you were getting?”

Steve Powell (from December 17, 2009 police interview recording): Umm, (pause) umm. Y’know, we actually, umm, well I’m not going to, that one’s a tough one to really talk about. I mean I really umm, umm, I don’t know, I think I’m going to pass on that question—

Gavin Cook (from December 17, 2009 police interview recording): Ok.

Steve Powell (from December 17, 2009 police interview recording): —if you don’t mind.

Dave Cawley: So Steve didn’t want to talk about it. But Detective LeFavor circled back a few minutes later.

John LeFavor (from December 17, 2009 police interview recording): There was some talk about a possible, some kind of relationship between you and Susan and so obviously we want, we want to talk about that and see if there’s a possibility whether she, well Gavin was kind of pushing on it, there’s a possibility that she may have left for another, another man that we don’t know about or that there’s a relationship between you and Susan that there’s some kind of possibility of her leaving Utah and coming up here to spend time with you—

Steve Powell (from December 17, 2009 police interview recording): Yeah I’d, I’d love that. Seriously, y’know John. Uh, I loved her dearly as a daughter. I loved her dearly as a woman. I mean she’s, she’s beautiful and yeah. She, she, I, I, I was conflicted about her too. I will admit that.

John LeFavor (from December 17, 2009 police interview recording): Uh huh.

Dave Cawley: Steve could help but admit his sexual desire for Susan, his missing daughter-in-law. Once that was in the open, he gushed. It was as if a dam had burst.

Steve Powell (from December 17, 2009 police interview recording): I was conflicted about her and, and it was because of all that stuff that started when she moved there, right? I had never had any interest in her. When she moved in with me, that’s when that kind of thing started. She started that whole thing with the, y’know, “feel my legs” and sitting there on the chair like that, y’know, with her, y’know what I mean? And it was a pretty constant barrage. I mean, pretty constant. Umm, and uh, and, and it continued and it, and it got, it peaked and that’s when, I’d rather not talk about that— 

John LeFavor (from December 17, 2009 police interview recording): Uh huh.

Steve Powell (from December 17, 2009 police interview recording): —but eventually after it peaked, umm, I, y’know I actually uh, I actually confessed to her that I loved her because they were planning on moving to Utah and I did not want her to go to Utah and I hoped that there was enough feeling there that she would stay and, and she got really upset at me. She would not talk to me for months. It was, it was a, it was the worst thing I ever did. It was so troubling. And after those three or four months or whatever it was, then finally when they, when they got ready to actually move, uh, out of state or whatever, I don’t remember all the details, then I went over there to help them move and she finally came out of her room and, and she really didn’t even talk much after that but she, she was at that point friendly but it was a, a, a, it was still obvious to me that the, that the electricity was there, you know what I’m saying? I mean I could see things she was doing. You know what I mean? It’s not like you can ignore things like that. I mean I’m a, I’m a, I’m a male. She’s a female. Y’know. And when she, one job she worked at, she used to introduce me to, they worked at a retirement home, she would introduce me as Josh’s brother of all things, so…

Gavin Cook (from December 17, 2009 police interview recording): Well, y’know—

John LeFavor (from December 17, 2009 police interview recording): (Laughs)

Gavin Cook (from December 17, 2009 police interview recording): —we’re all guys.

Steve Powell (from December 17, 2009 police interview recording): We’re all guys.

Gavin Cook (from December 17, 2009 police interview recording): We’re all guys here and, and, y’know, I think we can all understand—

Steve Powell (from December 17, 2009 police interview recording): Yeah.

Gavin Cook (from December 17, 2009 police interview recording): —exactly what you’re saying. We’ve probably all been in a similar situation so—

Steve Powell (from December 17, 2009 police interview recording): Yeah, yeah. Ok.

Dave Cawley: All of the chatter the police had heard about Steve from Susan’s friends suddenly came into sharp focus. Steve told the detectives Josh was unaware of the chemistry between himself and Susan.

Gavin Cook (from December 17, 2009 police interview recording): And again, I don’t mean to embarrass you but, uh, we’ve talked a little bit about the chemistry, the infamous confession—

Steve Powell (from December 17, 2009 police interview recording): Yeah.

Gavin Cook (from December 17, 2009 police interview recording): Was there any sexual contact or any sexual relationship between you and Susan? I’ll, I’m sorry to be blunt, but you know, what other way to ask.

Steve Powell (from December 17, 2009 police interview recording): We never had, we never had actual, y’know, like vaginal sex or anything like that. No.

Gavin Cook (from December 17, 2009 police interview recording): Ok. Any kissing or touching or—

Steve Powell (from December 17, 2009 police interview recording): Oh yeah.

Gavin Cook (from December 17, 2009 police interview recording): Ok.

Steve Powell (from December 17, 2009 police interview recording): There was some of that, yeah.

Gavin Cook (from December 17, 2009 police interview recording): What was that, I’m sorry. But—

Steve Powell (from December 17, 2009 police interview recording): Well, y’know, umm, y’know, one night she wanted me to, umm, umm, massage her feet and her legs and so on because she was, she’d kind of been standing up a lot that day and I, I, y’know I did it. And uh, y’know I of course moved her feet to my crotch so she could feel—

Gavin Cook (from December 17, 2009 police interview recording): Uh huh.

Steve Powell (from December 17, 2009 police interview recording): —y’know, what she was doing to me and that went on for about an hour.

Gavin Cook (from December 17, 2009 police interview recording): Ok.

Steve Powell (from December 17, 2009 police interview recording): So, that kind of touching and feeling. Umm, and then uh, then she asked me to do her back and I, and I sat behind her, umm, and rubbed myself against her for about an hour or two. That went on for about an hour.

Gavin Cook (from December 17, 2009 police interview recording): Ok.

Steve Powell (from December 17, 2009 police interview recording): She got up at one point and I, I don’t know what she was doing but uh, I also handled her, her breasts and so on. I went under her shirt and handled her breasts.

John LeFavor (from December 17, 2009 police interview recording): Was she, she’s not opposed to this, then?

Steve Powell (from December 17, 2009 police interview recording): Nuh uh.

John LeFavor (from December 17, 2009 police interview recording): Ok.

Dave Cawley: Steve said Susan did once ask him what he was doing putting his hands on her. He’d pulled away, but told the detectives he should have ignored her comment, since she hadn’t actually said the word “no.”

Gavin Cook (from December 17, 2009 police interview recording): During this back-and-forth did she reciprocate, did she touch you with her hands?

Steve Powell (from December 17, 2009 police interview recording): No, no—

Gavin Cook (from December 17, 2009 police interview recording): Ok. She just let you—

Steve Powell (from December 17, 2009 police interview recording): —no. She just let me enjoy her, y’know, curves, her curves and whatever. Y’know, that was about it.

Gavin Cook (from December 17, 2009 police interview recording): Ok. Did you guys kiss, or did you kiss her?

Steve Powell (from December 17, 2009 police interview recording): No.

Gavin Cook (from December 17, 2009 police interview recording): Ok.

Steve Powell (from December 17, 2009 police interview recording): No.

John LeFavor (from December 17, 2009 police interview recording): Was this was a single time?

Steve Powell (from December 17, 2009 police interview recording): That was, that kind, that was of the peak of our, that was a single time and uh, after that, that was some other things, umm, that were just tamer than that. Let’s put it this way, tamer than that. And a lot of it had to do with, y’know, my taking pictures of her. Clothed, clothed.

Gavin Cook (from December 17, 2009 police interview recording): Uh huh.

Dave Cawley: Steve told the detectives he’d encouraged Josh to move back to Washington after Susan disappeared 10 days earlier. He’d suggested Josh sell the Sarah Circle house. The detectives though were more interested in Steve’s house.

John LeFavor (from December 17, 2009 police interview recording): I think it would be irresponsible if we didn’t at least ask your permission to double check with you to make sure Susan isn’t with you, you know what I mean?

Steve Powell (from December 17, 2009 police interview recording): Umm, John, she is not with me—

John LeFavor (from December 17, 2009 police interview recording): Oh, I understand.

Steve Powell (from December 17, 2009 police interview recording): —y’know, and I think if you talk to my friends they know that I’m—

John LeFavor (from December 17, 2009 police interview recording): Right.

Steve Powell (from December 17, 2009 police interview recording): —practically despondent about—

John LeFavor (from December 17, 2009 police interview recording): Uh huh.

Steve Powell (from December 17, 2009 police interview recording): —her, her disappearance.

John LeFavor (from December 17, 2009 police interview recording): Right.

Steve Powell (from December 17, 2009 police interview recording): Worried sick. No she’s, I would love, John, I’d love, if she were with me, I would not do this to my son. If she were with me, uh, it wouldn’t happen. I would have said “she’s with me.” Y’know?

Dave Cawley: Steve’s word wasn’t going to do it. They wanted permission to take a look inside his home themselves.

John LeFavor (from December 17, 2009 police interview recording): We, we, we go to the house, we, we look, verify that she’s not there and that allows us to close this door—

Steve Powell (from December 17, 2009 police interview recording): Let’s go. Let’s just do that. That makes sense to me. I mean, I—

John LeFavor (from December 17, 2009 police interview recording): You’ve been great, very cooperative, very cooperative. I think that would be very beneficial to us and I think that, again I don’t want you to think that we think that’s what happened because I don’t, I don’t think that that’s the case. Ok? You need a minute?

Steve Powell (from December 17, 2009 police interview recording): (Sobbing)

John LeFavor (from December 17, 2009 police interview recording): Just, just so you understand…

Dave Cawley: In case you can’t tell, Steve is crying here.

Steve Powell (from December 17, 2009 police interview recording): I just don’t…

Gavin Cook (from December 17, 2009 police interview recording): No, you’re fine. You’re fine. This is emotional—

John LeFavor (from December 17, 2009 police interview recording): We don’t mean to stir up old feelings here. That’s not our intentions.

Steve Powell (from December 17, 2009 police interview recording): —‘cause I’m still wishing she was there.

Dave Cawley: Between sobs, Steve said he wished that Susan were at his house. He invited — practically urged — the detectives to go search. Cook and LeFavor were, it seemed, surprised by the candor.

Gavin Cook (from December 17, 2009 police interview recording): I just, I, I’m almost putting myself in your shoes. Umm, and I’ll be frank with you. Uh, you’re in love with Susan and I think you have been for awhile. And I think when you feel that way toward somebody, you would do anything to help them, no matter where they’re at or what might have happened to ‘em. I mean, you have feelings that are deep for her and I can feel that from you. Umm, and I, I can appreciate that. Umm, and those feelings, uh, might be able to help us. I mean—

Steve Powell (from December 17, 2009 police interview recording): Yeah, if they can help you, if there’s something I can do, I will help.

Dave Cawley: They had one last favor to ask: could Steve please ride over to the house with them, not in his own minivan. They didn’t want to give him a chance to call ahead, warning Susan or someone else from the family to get her out sight. But it didn’t matter. Susan wasn’t there.

On the next episode of Cold…

Amber Hardman: Josh was like “if it was me, have you ever been out to the West Desert? There’s mines everywhere. Nobody’s gonna find anything out there.”

Cold season 1, episode 5: 10 Minutes – Full episode transcript

Dave Cawley: Morning dawned on day two of the search for Susan Powell with more cold, icy weather over West Valley City, Utah. The storm that’d painted the western U.S. white with snow the day prior was still pushing on to the east, the back edge just clearing the Rocky Mountains.

Detective Ellis Maxwell hadn’t slept much. West Valley’s lead detective on the case had stayed up late the night before, following his frustrating first interview with Susan’s husband, Josh. Josh’d returned from an unexpected winter camping trip with this sons Charlie and Braden on Monday afternoon, claiming to have no idea where Susan’d gone.

At about 8 on Tuesday morning, Ellis called Josh. He wanted to confirm Josh planned to come in for a follow-up interview at 9 a.m. He also wanted to make sure the boys weren’t there, as they’d been on Monday night.

Ellis Maxwell: The kids were there and it made it very challenging because he used that opportunity to avoid answering questions. And they were also a distraction as well.

Dave Cawley: The phone rang and rang until it went to voicemail. Josh was dodging him. Not a promising start to the day. Next, Ellis called Josh’s sister, Jennifer. She said she hadn’t heard from her brother that morning.

Jennifer Graves: We were already on our way, but the weather was pretty bad and the roads were eh, pretty, pretty scary and we were moving pretty slow. And so there was no way were gonna make it by the time he needed to leave in order to be on time for that appointment either way. But we said we would be as quick as we could. And, and we would be happy to take the kids while he dealt with that appointment. And we were, y’know, I was happy, I don’t know how my mother was feeling. I’m sure she was not happy about the situation at all, in any way. But I was happy that he was going in; that he had that appointment. Because I felt like, “ok now, now they are gonna get to the bottom of it. They’re going to figure out what happened and maybe he’ll, he’ll come clean.” And no matter what’s happened — it’s gonna be a crappy situation no matter what’s happened — but if he comes clean, than we can at least move forward.

Dave Cawley: This is Cold, Episode 5: Ten Minutes. I’ve Dave Cawley.

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Dave Cawley: Josh’d also got up early on that Tuesday morning. Neighbors saw his minivan backed into the driveway at 8 a.m. He’d opened all the doors and was busy cleaning out the interior. Dax Guzman, one of those neighbors, had heard Susan was missing. He dropped by to check on Josh.

Dax Guzman: I drove up, he was, he was getting in their van with the boys and I stopped by and I just parked behind him. He asked me if I wanted to go inside and I felt kind of weird about the whole situation and maybe it’s me being paranoid — but not anymore but — I didn’t go in. He asked me if I wanted to go into the house and I felt kind of weird about it. Still do, ‘cause that was the day after she disappeared and umm, yeah, that was, that was strange.

Dave Cawley: Now by that point, Josh was already overdue for his police interview. When his sister Jennifer arrived, she learned he’d had other priorities that morning.

Jennifer Graves: We got there and Josh wasn’t even kind of close to being ready. Just wandering around the, the house doing things. He, y’know, I kind of peeked out into the garage. He’d, he’d come out from the backyard into the garage with this big armful of, it looked like kind of wet rags and stuff, and umm, he came in. He, I mean he was doing lots of different, it looked like a lot of cleaning. And he put in a load of laundry. Like, “why are you doing that? Your wife is missing.” And y’know these aren’t the kind of things that people do when you are not guilty. 

Dave Cawley: Jennifer suspected Josh’d done something horrible. She felt if she could just get her brother out the door and to the police station, the nightmare of the previous 24 hours might end. Shards of glass from the window the police had smashed still glittered on the living room carpet. Josh asked her to vacuum them up, so the boys wouldn’t cut themselves.

Jennifer Graves: Y’now, he’s listing off a, y’know, dozen — and change the laundry — different things. He wants us to do all these things. And I don’t feel comfortable with this. I really don’t. But what am I supposed to say, you know? Like, agree with anything he says at the moment, (laughs) first of all. Finally, finally he gets through and finishes his shower and leaves. … And I just, I tell my mom, “I don’t like this situation. I don’t think we should be cleaning anything. I, I think that this isn’t right.” And so she called the police and asked them about it. And what are they supposed to say? “Don’t touch anything.” I mean they don’t know where we’re at with our loyalties, how much we’re going to be doing to help him and try to cover up problems and things that he’s done. They have no idea. So of course, they’re going to play it cool. And we didn’t find this out until, I can’t remember exactly how much longer that, before they show up, and my heart just sank. They show up at the door and I’m like, “I knew it. I knew we shouldn’t have been doing anything.” But what can you do?

Dave Cawley: Josh finally made it to the West Valley police headquarters just after noon, more than three hours late. A black knit cap sat on his head, tugged down low over his ears. He wore dirty white sneakers, denim pants, a t-shirt and a black leather jacket. At a quarter to 1, Josh and Ellis entered an interview room. Cameras were rolling. This is the actual recording.

Josh Powell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): Now on, on the way over here, I actually did call my attorneys and they said I should definitely have an attorney.

Ellis Maxwell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): What’s that?

Josh Powell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): I called my attorneys, which is Prepaid Legal—

Ellis Maxwell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): Ok.

Josh Powell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): —and they said that I should definitely have an attorney.

Josh Powell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): Dude, I didn’t read you your Miranda Rights, have I?

Josh Powell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): That’s what they said.

Ellis Maxwell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): Ok. Well, let me ask you this then, ok?

Josh Powell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): Ok.

Ellis Maxwell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): This is, do you feel like you’re under arrest?

Josh Powell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): (Sniffling) I, I don’t, I don’t know. I didn’t even think it was that, it didn’t even sink in yesterday but I don’t know where she’s at and she ain’t back yet.

Ellis Maxwell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): ‘Kay.

Dave Cawley: Josh’s behavior and body language were much different than they’d been on Monday night. He sniffled a lot. His voice wavered, as if he might break out in sobs at any moment. He kept looking at the backs of his hands, which were dry and wind-burned. Ellis’d taken pictures of Josh’s hands the night before, documenting a few small nicks in his skin. The scrutiny seemed to really spook Josh.

Ellis Maxwell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): What are you worried about? What are you concerned about?

Josh Powell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): You guy, y’know, have implied some things and so it concerns me.

Ellis Maxwell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): We’ve implied what?

Josh Powell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): Well, you’ve implied that my hands have some kind of defensive wounds on ‘em just because they’re all cut up and that’s just, that’s just the way they are.

Josh Powell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): So that shouldn’t be anything you need to worry about then. Right?

Dave Cawley: You can see pictures those of Josh’s hands at thecoldpodcast.com

Josh said he wanted to leave. Ellis wanted him to stay, but not if Josh planned to call a lawyer.

Ellis Maxwell: If they request a lawyer, you’re not gonna get the answers you want. You’re not going to get those direct answers. They’re going to consult their attorney or their attorney’s gonna tell ‘em not to answer. And they’re gonna, it’s just, there’s no, there’s no win when you get a defense attorney that’s gonna answer questions for a suspect.

Dave Cawley: They sparred for the better part of a half an hour, until Josh finally caved.

Josh Powell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): Yeah, go ahead and ask the questions.

Ellis Maxwell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): Ok, you understand, you don’t have to be here, alright?

Josh Powell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): Ok.

Ellis Maxwell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): And you need to understand that. If you want to leave, you can leave at any time.

Josh Powell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): Alright.

Ellis Maxwell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): You’re not under arrest. I’m not detaining you, ok?

Josh Powell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): Ok.

Ellis Maxwell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): If you don’t want to be here, you can leave. If you don’t want to talk, you don’t have to talk—

Josh Powell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): Well I want to talk but—

Ellis Maxwell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): I’m just simply saying that I want to find your wife.

Josh Powell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): I just want to talk but I’m getting scared. (Sniffling)

Ellis Maxwell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): Well, I mean if you haven’t done nothing wrong Josh, if you didn’t do anything wrong there’s nothing to be scared about. Right?

Josh Powell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): Well I’m scared (sniffling) about the possibilities—

Ellis Maxwell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): ‘Kay.

Josh Powell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording):  —of what’s happened.

Ellis Maxwell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): Well I’m, I’m worried about the possibilities of what happened too because I have no idea where she’s at and you don’t either. And that’s why I need your help.

Josh Powell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): Alright. Yeah, go ahead and ask the questions.

Dave Cawley: A subtle shift occurred in Josh’s demeanor. His posture relaxed. The sniffles disappeared. The tone of his voice flattened. Ellis settled in as well and started asking questions. He probed Josh and Susan’s background: when they married, why they came to Utah, their friends, their work histories, their finances, their daily routines.

Josh took long pauses before speaking, only to then offer one or two word answers. Ellis’d move on, then Josh would then suddenly interrupt with some insignificant detail. At one point, he even bragged about how little he could spend feeding his family.

Josh Powell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): It’s also cheaper sometimes because we go to DelTaco—

Ellis Maxwell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): Yeah.

Josh Powell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): —for Tuesday and we can eat our whole family for $5.

Ellis Maxwell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): Really? Wow.

Josh Powell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): $4.70.

Dave Cawley: Ellis tried to keep the conversation on track. He asked about the weekend leading up to Susan’s disappearance. Josh said on Saturday, they’d gone to Home Depot and Lowes with the boys for the free children’s activities. Susan usually didn’t attend those events because of her work schedule but had taken the morning off for a church breakfast and decided to come along. Around noon, she left in the family’s minivan, their only car, on her way to work. When she came back that evening, they had neighbor JoVanna Owings’ son watch their boys.

Ellis Maxwell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): Tell me everything you did that night. (Long pause) What you guys talked about, what you argued, you’re sitting here thinking, I know you’re thinking—

Josh Powell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): We didn’t, we didn’t uh, we didn’t, we weren’t arguing. We had a babysitter. I think her son Alex was babysitting and I can’t remember what, can’t remember what we were doing with the babysitter there.

Ellis Maxwell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): Ok. So you don’t remember what you guys did from 6 o’clock until you went to bed on Saturday night?

(Pause)

Josh Powell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): I just don’t remember what activity we were doing.

Dave Cawley: That’s very unlikely. They’d attended a company Christmas party for Josh’s work, Aspen Logistics. Ellis moved on, asking about Sunday. Josh told the same story he had the night before, with some subtle differences. He said Susan’d gone to church with the boys while he stayed home. Around noon, he went to the grocery store, then he came back and fixed lunch.

Josh Powell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): Umm, so I made an omelet and some kind of pancakes and I put cream cheese in ‘em. (Pause) I think that was all. Oh, and then she called JoVanna. Umm, (pause) anyway JoVanna came over.

Ellis Maxwell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): Mmhmm.

Josh Powell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): She had some pancakes, too.

Dave Cawley: Josh again described Susan getting sleepy and taking a nap, JoVanna going home, Susan waking up to eat hot dogs, and then Josh taking Charlie to go sledding.

Josh Powell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): I was talking to my son about s’mores. He was just super excited about cocoa and s’mores. (Laughs) “There’s snow, you gotta eat cocoa, it’s Christmas.” (Pause) Then we watched a movie. Well no, then we, umm, no she wanted the couch cleaned so I did the Rug Doctor. We try to do something each week, y’know. Umm, it’s too hard if it’s all wet and once and it dries slow. So we, (pause) umm, then we watched a movie. And I think that was probably Santa Claus 3.

Ellis Maxwell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): Mmhmm.

Josh Powell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): Umm, (long pause) then we, uh, finished up the movie and I talked to her about uh, about taking the boys to do s’mores and to try out the new generator, y’know.

Ellis Maxwell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): Mmhmm.

Josh Powell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): And she went to bed and I finished packing and loaded them up.

Dave Cawley: Ellis wanted to know, had Susan raised a stink about Josh leaving in the middle of the night on a Sunday, with a blizzard bearing down, with the boys, in their only car, when they both had to work the next morning?

Ellis Maxwell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): Did you make arrangements, uh, did you guys talk arrangements for her getting to work?

Josh Powell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): I was thinking it was going to be Sunday and I didn’t even think about work.

Ellis Maxwell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): And her?

Josh Powell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): I guess it didn’t cross her mind at the time.

Ellis Maxwell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): Ok. And then what time, what time did you say that she went to bed?

Josh Powell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): Probably 12:30ish.

Ellis Maxwell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): Ok. (Pause) Was there anything said before she went to bed? Any, did you guys talk about anything else before she went to sleep?

Josh Powell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): We just hugged and said goodnight. That’s about it.

Dave Cawley: Ellis asked Josh what he’d packed in the minivan. Josh said the generator, heater, humidifier, extra clothes, camping supplies and a bunch of other stuff.

Ellis Maxwell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): And what’s the bunch of this other stuff?

Josh Powell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): I don’t know, I mean—

Ellis Maxwell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): Oh c’mon Josh, you remember putting—

Josh Powell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): (Nervous laugh) There’s—

Ellis Maxwell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): —cream cheese in a pancake and you tell me you can’t remember what you put in your car?

Josh Powell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): I mean, that’s basically all the significant stuff.

Dave Cawley: Josh said he’d left the house with the boys sometime around 1:30 or 2 a.m., driving directly out to the Pony Express Trail. He had a full tank of gas and made no stops or detours.

Josh Powell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): But it was also snowing and so it, I was pretty focused on the road—

Ellis Maxwell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): Mmkay.

Josh Powell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): —looking for a turn-off. Like I say, I just found a trail and—

Ellis Maxwell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): Weren’t you concerned with the snow, knowing that there was a snow storm coming in?

Josh Powell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): Umm, yeah I was—

Ellis Maxwell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): In a minivan?

Josh Powell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): Actually, the minivan handles like a four-by-four.

Ellis Maxwell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): Ok.

(Both chuckle)

Josh Powell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): Umm, yeah you can get on some serious off-roading with that minivan.

Ellis Maxwell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): Ok. So I mean, wasn’t that a concern with the storm coming in and it was already snowing?

Josh Powell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): It wasn’t already snowing when I left.

Ellis Maxwell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): No, it was snowing when you got out there.

Josh Powell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): It was, yeah. And so I was watching the road and I’m going “how thick is this gonna get?”

Ellis Maxwell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): Mmhmm.

Josh Powell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): And y’know “are we going to get stuck?” Then I thought, “well,” y’know, “what are the odds that it’ll be anything that will get us stuck out there?”

Ellis Maxwell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): Mmhmm.

Josh Powell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): Y’know and we have the generator and the heaters and so it’s like “well, we can risk it.”

Ellis Maxwell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): Yeah.

Josh Powell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): We’re already here, what the heck, y’know?

Ellis Maxwell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): Ok. So about how far do you think you went west on the trail if you had to guess?

Josh Powell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): I don’t know, maybe 20 miles or who knows.

Ellis Maxwell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): Mmkay. So maybe 20 miles.

Dave Cawley: It was the same vague answer he’d given on Monday night. Josh had Ellis at a disadvantage here. The detective, he didn’t know the geography.

Ellis Maxwell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): Honestly, I’ve gotta be honest with you, I’ve never been out there. I need to make a trip—

Josh Powell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): I haven’t been out there too often. It’s a nasty road. But—

Ellis Maxwell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): So I don’t know if, ok. So I don’t know if there’s like any landmarks—

Josh Powell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): There’s not.

Ellis Maxwell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): If there’s campgrounds all along the road.

Josh Powell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): I don’t think so.

Dave Cawley: In fact, there’s only one formal campground along the old Pony Express route in Utah’s West Desert. It’s at Simpson Springs. Most of the land along the trail is public and open to primitive camping, meaning people can set up wherever they want, for free. That’s Josh’s kind of trip. And it’s exactly what he said he did. He claimed to have reached his campsite sometime around 4 a.m. on Monday.

Now, that timeline does work. I personally retraced the route he described by driving it myself in early December of 2017. You can read about that trip at thecoldpodcast.com.

Considering the time necessary to set up the generator, heaters and humidifier, Josh wouldn’t have made it to sleep until about 4:30 a.m. He told Ellis he’d come awake with the sunrise, even though the sun was obscured by the storm, at about 7 a.m. That would have been a very short night of sleep. After waking, Josh said he made a camp fire and roasted marshmallows. He and the boys kicked around their campsite for a couple of hours, then drove aimlessly along various dirt trails. Around noon he turned for home.

Ellis Maxwell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): So where’d you stop and wash the car at?

Josh Powell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): Just uh, just the first car wash I saw.

Ellis Maxwell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): Where’s that at?

Josh Powell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): In, I guess it’s in Lehi.

Ellis Maxwell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): What road were you on?

Josh Powell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): Couldn’t tell you. That one that comes through Lehi.

Ellis Maxwell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): Ok. What was the carwash like? What kind of a carwash was it?

Josh Powell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): Umm, well it was a self-serve.

Ellis Maxwell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): Self serve?

Josh Powell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): Yeah.

Ellis Maxwell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): Ok. What was the name of it?

Josh Powell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): I have no clue.

Ellis Maxwell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): How did you pay it, for the services?

Josh Powell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): With cash.

Ellis Maxwell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): ‘Kay. So when you say self-serve, is that umm, describe what it looks like.

Josh Powell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): Just garages that you can pull into and wash.

Ellis Maxwell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): Ok.

Josh Powell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): You just get your pressure washer and—

Ellis Maxwell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): No attendant that’s there, no gas station? Ok.

Josh Powell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): No, there—

Ellis Maxwell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): How many bays are there?

Josh Powell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): I don’t even know. There’s, there’s a handful.

Ellis Maxwell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): What side of the road is it on?

Josh Powell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): North.

Dave Cawley: And on and on it went. I wanted to know if Josh might have made up this car wash, so I kept an eye out for it during my re-enactment trip. There are two car washes on the north side of Lehi’s Main Street between Redwood Road and I-15. One is attached to a gas station, so that wasn’t the right one. The other has four self-serve bays, just as Josh described.

Cell service was, and still is, spotty to non-existent in the West Desert. But I checked my phone at the car wash. It had full bars. Josh hadn’t bothered to turn on his phone while he was there.

Ellis Maxwell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): Did you have any voicemails on your phone from her? I’m sure she was probably concerned for—

Josh Powell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): Umm, y’know what—

Ellis Maxwell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): —you and the boys.

Josh Powell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): —I was making calls this morning and I didn’t realize, I guess my phone has been just bugging out, so—

Ellis Maxwell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): What do you mean?

Josh Powell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): Umm, (pause) it just cuts out and—

Ellis Maxwell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): Ok.

Josh Powell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): —and dies, y’know.

Ellis Maxwell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): Ok, but that doesn’t stop your voicemail.

Dave Cawley: The interview was getting ridiculous. When Ellis asked Josh where officers ought to look for Susan, he suggested beauty supply stores. Then, he added something he’d not said on Monday night. He told Ellis Susan had been suicidal.

Ellis Maxwell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): How did that affect your guys’ relationship?

Josh Powell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): Umm, well, we started seeing a counselor. Oh and she was depressed that I wasn’t going to church.

Josh Powell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): Ok.

Josh Powell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): Umm, so, umm, things been going good, y’know?

Dave Cawley: I should point out here that in all of the materials of Susan’s I’ve read — her emails, her adult journal — I’ve not seen anything that would corroborate the claim she was suicidal.

Ellis decided it was time for a break. He’d been talking to Josh for nearly three hours. He stepped out of the room to check with the rest of his team. Another detective, Tony Martell, came in to keep Josh from leaving. The sniffles and sobs immediately returned.

Tony Martell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): Well tell me how you’re feeling right now. Just see if I can help you out. What’s going on?

Josh Powell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): (Sniffles) Umm…

Tony Martell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): I mean, let me help you out man, ok? Seriously.

Josh Powell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): (Sniffles) Umm, (pause) I’m honestly kind of confused and distracted and pretty worried.

Tony Martell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): What are you worried about?

Josh Powell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): I just don’t think she would — it’s okay. (Josh waves off tissues) Umm, I’m just worried about what the possibilities are, y’know? And, umm, I’m not getting more encouraged over time.

Tony Martell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): Right.

Josh Powell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): (Sniffles) I mean there’s obviously a little bit of worry about y’know, what, y’know, what’s gonna to happen to me or my boys, y’know? But…

Tony Martell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): Right. What can I do to help you with that?

Josh Powell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): I, I don’t know.

Tony Martell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): Then that’s what I’m here for. I want to—

Josh Powell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): Just have to take it one, one day at a time.

Tony Martell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): Right.

Dave Cawley: Martell didn’t buy it. Here’s Ellis Maxwell.

Ellis Maxwell: Yeah, he was, he was taking advantage of, y’know, a new person being in the room. He was, he was taking that opportunity to, yeah, literally put on an act, saying “oh, my wife.” Which was all nonsense. At the end of the day, is what he’s doing is trying to take advantage of the detective. What he didn’t know is the detective had already watched and had been monitoring, right, the entire time — I mean we’re not dumb — and uh, y’know, so it wasn’t going to go anywhere.

Dave Cawley: Josh kept up the emotion.

Josh Powell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): Are you a grief counselor or something?

Tony Martell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): No, I’m a detective for West Valley. I am. Y’know, it’s just uh, come in here to say hi while he’s on the phone so you’re not here by yourself wondering what’s going on.

Josh Powell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): Well I appreciate it ‘cause every time I sit in here by myself I just want to leave.

Tony Martell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): Yeah, I don’t want you to do that ‘cause we got to get, y’know, figure out what can help you, y’know?

Dave Cawley: When Ellis returned, Josh switched back to the blank, emotionless stare.

Ellis Maxwell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): I need you to tell me what you think has happened to her.

Josh Powell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): I don’t think she would leave on her own.

Ellis Maxwell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): Ok, that’s a start. You don’t think she would leave on her own. What do you, what do you think has happened?

Josh Powell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): I just don’t know. I mean, y’know, you can sit and speculate but I don’t have any clue.

Ellis Maxwell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): Ok. What do you think I’m speculating?

Josh Powell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): I don’t know.

Ellis Maxwell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): Well something must have crossed your mind for you to say that to me.

Josh Powell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): Well, you guys, y’know, I mean, it’s a fact, y’know? The closest people to a person is always the top suspects, so—

Ellis Maxwell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): Ok. They’re not suspects. I mean, you have to, I mean there has to be some type of involvement to be a suspect. I mean, uh maybe, I mean so it’s not always like that.

Dave Cawley: Josh clearly understood the cloud of suspicion that surrounded him and the risk he’d taken showing up at the police station. Ellis reassured him he was not under arrest. But at the same time, he needed to turn their conversation into an interrogation.

Ellis Maxwell: Obviously, I felt he was responsible. It’s very clear that he’s responsible. And the last thing I wanted to do is to get some information and then later be in court and it be all redacted because, y’know now I, I illegally obtained this information and I violated his civil rights.

Dave Cawley: He needed to ask why Josh had had Susan’s cell phone in the minivan and why its SIM card was missing.

Ellis Maxwell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): And we need to get this figureds out. I have other questions, I have a couple of other questions that I want to ask you, ok?

Josh Powell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): Ok.

Ellis Maxwell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): Umm, and in order for me to ask you these questions and then ask you to do something else, I have to read you your Miranda Rights. Ok?

Josh Powell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): Why?

Ellis Maxwell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): The reason why is because it’s a—

Josh Powell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): What, what does this mean “read me my—”

Ellis Maxwell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): —ok, let me explain to you.

Josh Powell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): I’m not sure what you’re getting at.

Ellis Maxwell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): Ok, let me explain to you.

Ellis Maxwell: That’s probably one of the most challenging things in police work and in investigative work is when you have a suspect or person of interest and you’re interviewing them and moving into an interrogation, you’ve got to read them their rights. Right? And you’ve gotta do that in a fashion that you want them to talk to you still.

Ellis Maxwell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): You’re not under arrest, you’re not going to jail. Ok?

Josh Powell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): ‘Kay.

Ellis Maxwell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): I’m not going to cuff you up. Like I said, again, you’re not under arrest. You came here on your free will, you can leave at any time. You already knew that, you still know that, right? Although I want to ask you more specific questions and umm, and I want to see if you say that you’re willing to help us out, then what do we need to do? We need to eliminate you as being a person of interest. There’s nobody else out there for me to go and talk to and to clarify. So I need to clarify your story. I need to verify your story—

Josh Powell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): I guess—

Ellis Maxwell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): —right?

Josh Powell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): I guess at that point then I need to—

Ellis Maxwell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): So I need to verify—

Josh Powell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): I probably need to consider—

Ellis Maxwell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): So I need to—

Josh Powell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): —a lawyer, y’know.

Ellis Maxwell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): And if that’s the case then that’s just going to prolong the, umm, well whatever. I, I’m, what I’m going to do is I’m going to read you your rights, ok?

Josh Powell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): Well I’ve told you everything that I know.

Dave Cawley: Josh would not crack. The time had come for Ellis to make a gambit.

Ellis Maxwell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): I’m going to read you your rights. Ok? We have your house. You’re not going to be able to go back to your house. ‘Kay?

Josh Powell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): What do you mean?

Ellis Maxwell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): Your house is ours for right now. We’re not going to let you back into that house.

Josh Powell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): Ok.

Ellis Maxwell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): Your car is ours. We’re not going to let you have your car. Ok? We need to find her, right? Isn’t that what your goal is? I’d hope that our goals are the same.

Ellis Maxwell: The look on his face was great and the feeling was wonderful for me and I was very hopeful that we would find something in his van or inside the home that would support that he was responsible.

Dave Cawley: Ellis read Josh his Miranda rights, not once but twice, and asked if he still wanted to talk. Josh wouldn’t give a straight answer.

Ellis Maxwell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): It’s yes or no.

Josh Powell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): I don’t know if I’m ready to do that.

Ellis Maxwell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): It’s yes or no.

Josh Powell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): (Unintelligible)

Ellis Maxwell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): It’s yes or no. Do you want to have a minute to think about it?

Josh Powell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): No, I was, y’know, I was already a little bit concerned.

Ellis Maxwell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): Well, I’m concerned about your wife not being around. So, let me step out for a second. I’ll come back and grab you. ‘Kay?

Josh Powell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): Grab me for what?

Ellis Maxwell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): Well if you don’t want to talk…

Josh Powell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): Then what?

Ellis Maxwell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): Then I guess you’re going to leave.

Josh Powell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): Ok.

Ellis Maxwell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): I mean, you could leave any time anyways.

Dave Cawley: Josh stood, a look of relief on his face.

Josh Powell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): I, yeah, I mean, let me think about it for a couple days and—

Ellis Maxwell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): (Chuckles) Your wife is missing, Josh—

Josh Powell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): Yeah but, I’ve already—

Ellis Maxwell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): —and you want to think about it for a couple of days?

Dave Cawley: Ellis left the room. Just as Josh was about to follow, Detective Martell appeared again. He coaxed Josh back into his seat. There were no sniffles this time.

Ellis Maxwell: When I go out, that’s when I learn that uh, y’know, we have the children and we’ve got them at the Children’s Justice Center and another detective had done a, a fabulous job doing a forensic interview, as best as she could.

Dave Cawley: Remember, Josh’d left Charlie and Braden with his mom and sister. In her brother’s absence, Jennifer had tried to prove to the police that her loyalty was to Susan and to the truth.

Jennifer Graves: So, I just told them. I tried, I tried to, y’know, off, off to the side where my mom couldn’t hear so much, y’know, I tried, I just, I told them, “hey look, this isn’t a good situation. I think that there’s something going on here, and I don’t know exactly, but I’m willing to help. Whatever you need. Whatever you need me to do, I’m wiling to help.”

Dave Cawley: The police asked Jennifer to take the boys to the South Valley Children’s Justice Center, so she did. Charlie was four going on five, so not the most reliable witness.

Ellis Maxwell: Y’know, you can’t put a lot of credit in the children’s sense of time at that age.

Dave Cawley: Still, he said enough. Charlie said mommy’d gone camping with them, but stayed in the place with the shiny rocks and pretty flowers. To Ellis, that sounded a lot like the West Desert.

Ellis Maxwell: So, it’s some information. Is it the information we need that’s going to get us what we want? No. But I, I take advantage of it and I go back in.

Dave Cawley: Josh was making a move for the door when Ellis reappeared.

Ellis Maxwell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): Well have a seat. You might want to sit down for this one.

Josh Powell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): Ok.

Ellis Maxwell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): Umm, I just spoke with some of — sorry, this chair’s screwed up — I just just spoke with some of our other detectives. Umm, and you’re gonna have to wait here with us. You’re not gonna go anywhere. Umm, one of our detectives just, uh, interviewed your children and uh, your children are telling our detectives that uh mom went with you guys last night and that she didn’t come back.

Josh Powell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): She did not go with us.

Ellis Maxwell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): ‘Kay. Well, with that, just getting that information, you’re not gonna go anywhere. I’m not gonna let you leave. I’m gonna detain you. You sit right here. If you want a lawyer and you want to talk or you want to change your mind and talk or take a CVSA test, umm, then we can do those things, but…

Tony Martell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): ‘Kay, now with that in mind—

Josh Powell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): They know that she didn’t go with us.

Dave Cawley: Ellis admitted to me that he’d entered dangerous territory here.

Ellis Maxwell: I told him he wasn’t going to leave and, y’know, maybe violated his rights for 10 seconds but it was frustrating. Y’know, I’d never in my career experienced, uh, an individual like that before.

Dave Cawley: Josh was literally and figuratively in a corner, under the withering stares of two detectives who obviously believed he was responsible for his wife’s disappearance. Suddenly, every assurance he’d received that he could leave whenever he wanted evaporated.

Tony Martell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): Let’s go back to the rights really quick, you’re not leaving either way. ‘Kay? So what I want to do is I want to have you answer some questions for us because you can’t leave either way. But what I want you to be aware of is that you have rights. ‘Kay? And it would probably be to your best interest to listen to these rights—

Josh Powell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): Well, ok—

Tony Martell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): —that he’s going to read to you.

Josh Powell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): —but I do want the lawyer. Because at this point, I definitely want a lawyer.

Tony Martell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): Ok.

Josh Powell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): So where is, where do I get the, in fact…

Dave Cawley: Ellis took Josh’s phone, then he and Detective Martell left the room. They were gone for three full minutes. During that time, Josh sat almost perfectly still, his ankles crossed, head high and fingers interlaced. He didn’t cry. He didn’t fidget. Ellis couldn’t believe it.

Ellis Maxwell: I don’t think I was frustrated to the point that I botched the interview. I’m not the greatest detective that’s out there by no means, however I think that I have a, a, a pretty good skill set and the ability to read individuals and get them to speak with me. Josh and uh, his type — these sociopaths — are an exception.

Dave Cawley: If Josh wasn’t going to talk, Ellis needed something else.

Ellis Maxwell: There has to be some sort of physical evidence or forensic evidence that’s going to support whatever criminal charges.

Dave Cawley: Short of that, he had to let Josh walk.

Ellis Maxwell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): So before I call, I just want to make sure. If I call an attorney, do you want to talk more—

Josh Powell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): Umm.

Ellis Maxwell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): —or no?

(Long pause)

Josh Powell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): Honestly, I’m already feeling sick. I’m, I wanted to go a long time ago and at this point I’m—

Ellis Maxwell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): Ok, if you want to leave, you can leave.

Josh Powell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): I can leave?

Ellis Maxwell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): Yeah, if you want to leave, you can leave.

Josh Powell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): Ok, now, and you’re keeping my phone?

Ellis Maxwell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): I’m going to keep your phone.

(Sound of door closing)

Dave Cawley: After nearly four hours, the interview ended.

[Scene transition]

Dave Cawley: Listening to the recording now, it’s hard to understand why Ellis let Josh leave. I asked him to explain his thinking in that moment.

Ellis Maxwell: Y’know, it’s all kind of circumstantial, right? You can’t tie it to a specific crime. You can’t say that Josh is responsible for her disappearance based off of any of that because we don’t have any witnesses, we have no confession and we have no body.

Dave Cawley: To use a chess analogy, he’d put Josh in check, one move away from game-over. But Josh kept moving his pieces just enough to stay out of check-mate. The police needed to trap Josh. The rest of the major crimes team had been at work drafting warrants while Josh and Ellis were talking.

Ellis Maxwell: Y’know, there was enough evidence there that, and, and suspicion, right, reasonable suspicion, that we could secure these just based off, y’know, of his lack of statements, his story, y’know, Susan not having any criminal history, no, no past of running off and abandoning her family. So you’ve got a lot of stuff like that can support the reasonable suspicion but you don’t have the probable cause to put the guy into jail.

Dave Cawley: Two detectives had also gone to Susan’s work that afternoon. Now, during both of Josh’s interviews with police, he mentioned a coworker of Susan’s named Linda. The two detectives who went to Wells Fargo Investments wanted to find Linda. But Linda Bagley wasn’t there. It was her day off.

Linda Bagley: Tuesday I had off and my other coworker sent me a message saying “have you seen Susan or talked to Susan?” And I said “no.’ And she says “she’s missing.”

Dave Cawley: Linda’s mind raced. She thought about all of their conversations, all of Susan’s frustration with her marriage and talk of divorce, how she’d said “if something ever happens to me, make sure they look at Josh.” Linda knew Susan kept a set of secret personal files in her desk drawer.

Linda Bagley: I told my coworker to make sure she gave this information file folder to the police because I wasn’t there. I’d seen it like in my drawer though a week or two beforehand and thought “oh yeah, I remember Susan told me about this folder” and uh, and then she disappeared, so…

Dave Cawley: The detectives recovered the documents including a journal, a typed description of a trip Susan had taken with Josh and the boys to Simpson Springs the prior May, notes about divorce attorneys and significant fights with Josh as well as copies of emails in which she described extreme unhappiness with the state of her marriage.

The detectives also checked in with the Wells Fargo security team. They confirmed Susan’s badge hadn’t been scanned since she left the building at the end of her shift the afternoon of Saturday, December 5th. Security cameras had recorded her walking out to the garage and driving away in the family’s minivan.

[Scene transition]

Dave Cawley: Back at the station, Detective David Greco finished writing a search warrant for the house and minivan. In it, he explained a need for police to seize property — including at least two computers officers had seen at the house on Monday. The warrant made clear they expected to find evidence of crimes, possibly including obstruction of justice, unlawful detention, kidnapping and murder.

Josh left the interrogation room at about 4:15 p.m. on Tuesday afternoon. While he was technically free to leave, he had no car and no phone with which to call for a ride. Ellis had assured him he could have the van back that night, once he finished searching it.

Ellis Maxwell: And we wanted him to stick around, I mean obviously. We want him to stick around and get back in his minivan and we want to see where he goes, right? Hopefully he returns to the location wherever he disposed of her.

Dave Cawley: But it was going to take some time. The judge didn’t sign the warrants until about 7 p.m. Ellis led the search of the minivan. First, he had a forensics expert scan the tailgate, cargo area and front seats for blood. He found nothing. A cadaver dog also sniffed the minivan but didn’t show any interest.

The inside of the van looked very different than it had the night before. All of the clutter was gone. The camping supplies, the tools, the generator and the rest had all been removed. Ellis found a camera, a flash drive and a white plastic trash bag sitting in the open. 

The garbage appeared to have come from the kitchen of the house. The bag held all the slimy refuse one might expect — banana peels, orange rinds and fast food wrappers. Of more interest were a pancake, a breakfast pastry, a used paper plate and an empty container of orange juice concentrate. Now, these were presumably from the lunch Josh had prepared on Sunday, just before Susan started feeling drowsy.

Ellis Maxwell: So clearly we took it. We analyzed everything out of there. It was a theory that he poisoned or sedated Susan. Y’know, whether if it was with prescription medication or whatever but we felt that he’d like put something in her food because he’d cooked her some food, y’know, that Sunday.

Dave Cawley: Tests on the garbage would later come back negative for any drugs. Still, it seemed odd for Josh to have placed the kitchen trash in the minivan.

Ellis Maxwell: Both of his garbage cans outside of the residence were empty so he could have easily thrown that garbage sack in the garbage cans at his residence but he chose not to. He chose to put it in his van and he was going to dispose of it elsewhere. I don’t think expected us to take custody of his van.

Dave Cawley: Ellis found something else in the van, too — another trash bag, hidden behind the driver seat.

Ellis Maxwell: In the floorboard there’s a storage space and when you open that, there was another garbage sack and it contains several pieces of heavily burnt drywall, sheetrock, whatever you want to call it. And if you put it all together, you can see that — ‘cause it was broken, so it’s in several pieces — you can see that umm, he had sheetrock piled. So he had a few pieces on top and then he put it, some sort of an object on there and destroyed it with some heavy heat.

Dave Cawley: Ellis couldn’t make sense of the burned object. Whatever it’d been, it was beyond recognition.

Ellis Maxwell: He did have an acetylene torch in the garage so it’s very likely that he used that torch to destroy whatever this item was. And this item was also in there as well but it was just like a, just a black hard, almost like a rock the size of your palm. And, y’know, there was a couple of wires as well.

Dave Cawley: West Valley eventually sent the item to a special FBI lab, but tests were inconclusive. They showed it was largely steel, which would seem to rule out small electronics, like a cell phone, GPS unit or hard drive. To this day, Ellis can’t say what that object was.

Meanwhile, at the house, a team of seven detectives paid special attention to the area where the two fans had been pointed in the living room.  They wanted to know if Josh had used his Rug Doctor to clean blood from the couch or carpet. Forensic specialists applied a product called Blue Star on and around the couch. Blue Star can help reveal the presence of blood by reacting with hemoglobin, the iron-rich protein in blood that carries oxygen throughout the body. A series of small spots on the tile floor between the couch and the front door started to glow blue: a clear indication.

Ellis Maxwell: That’s not something that was obvious when you first entered the residence. It wasn’t a significant amount of blood.

Dave Cawley: These spots themselves were very small.

Ellis Maxwell: This blood is just tiny, like probably even smaller than the end of a ballpoint pen. And they just, they look like little droplets on the tile that’s adjacent to the carpet and the couch.

Dave Cawley: Ellis said it wasn’t as if someone had been shot or stabbed there.

Ellis Maxwell: This is how I interpreted it when I saw it. I would describe it as if you were to lean over to your left and cough or sneeze and you had some sort of blood, y’know, in your nasal cavity or in your throat or mouth, that’s what I would compare it to.

Dave Cawley: The forensic team swabbed each spot, collecting samples to be used for DNA analysis. It would later prove to be Susan’s blood. The Blue Star also revealed a small blood swipe mark on the upper headrest of the couch, about where your shoulder would be when sitting. Again, it wasn’t a lot of blood but it did turn out to be Susan’s.

Ellis Maxwell: Y’know, that’s our evidence. We have a heavily destroyed object that we can’t identify. We have a sack full of garbage that we can’t find any clues as to why he would want to dispose of it elsewhere other than his own garbage can and we have some minor, tiny blood droplets in the front room and a blood swipe, a small blood swipe on the couch and that’s it.

Dave Cawley: They tried Blue Star on the circular saw and plastic sled that had been in the minivan the night before. Neither reacted. The Scooby-Doo onesie and most of the blankets that had been in the van on Monday night sitting in a laundry basket in the master bedroom. They appeared to have been cleaned. In the bedroom closet, they found a letter to Susan from Josh’s dad, Steve.

Ken Fall (as Steve Powell from October 30, 2009 letter to Susan Cox Powell): Dear Susan, happy birthday. Sorry it’s so late. In the little sack is a necklace I though would look nice with a casual outfit. If you don’t like it, don’t make a special trip to return it, since it was not that expensive.

Dave Cawley: Susan had kept that necklace, reluctantly. In an email on November 10th, just shy of a month before she disappeared, she asked a coworker how she looked that day.

Kristen Sorensen (as Susan Powell from November 10, 2009 email): The necklace I’m unsure of, the wicked father in law mailed it to me.

Dave Cawley: Also in the closet, the detectives spied a small notebook in Susan’s handwriting. It contained 26 pages written in one sitting — it was the letter Susan had written to Josh a year earlier while praying for guidance about her marriage at a temple. It seemed damning from the very first page.

Kristen Sorensen (as Susan Powell from November, 2008 letter to Josh Powell): I am not threatening divorce, but what you ask of me is too great to bear. You must understand that my religion is a part of me. You can’t ask me to pick and choose only certain parts of it to live and expect me to be happy.

Dave Cawley: Detectives grabbed Susan’s purse from the bedroom dresser. In it, they found her driver license, her checkbook, her credit and debit cards, various store cards and receipts, a temple recommend for The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints, photos and a pocket calendar. Several events were marked on the calendar for the days that week. They included a potluck dinner, a church choir practice and a concert Susan’d planned to attend with Josh’s sister, Jennifer.

She’d even made elaborate plans to overdress for her work’s black-tie Christmas party on December 10th. It was supposed to be a big joke, because she and a coworker had gotten into trouble for showing up in jeans the year prior. She wrote this about it in an email.

Kristen Sorensen (as Susan Powell from December 4, 2009 email): So I’m wearing an old formal this year. It’s maroon velvet rose pattern on black. … I’m trying to get a hold of a child’s dress-up crown and I’ll do my hair in an up-do to continue the overstatement. Dark, smoky eyes and any other big, shiny jewelry I can get my hands on. I’m way excited.

Dave Cawley: These were not the plans of a woman who intended to disappear.

The detectives took the Rug Doctor and the bag from the Kirby vacuum cleaner, both of which were still sitting in the master bedroom. From the living room, they took the entire couch, a white yarn blanket and they even cut up a big patch of the carpet. In the laundry room, they retrieved eight clean washcloths, which the day before had been soggy, sitting wet in the bathtub.

In the garage, they found some but not all of what had been in the minivan on Monday night: two blue tarps, one of them muddy, the shovel, the broom and the rake. Inexplicably, they left behind much more, including the generator, gas can, sleds, camping supplies and hand tools.

They took five computers out of the house, along with seven hard drives or thumb drives. They didn’t realize it then, but Josh’s digital devices would eventually become a key part of the story. Remember, Ellis even wrapped their second interview by taking Josh’s cell phone.

Tony Martell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): Don’t come out.

Josh Powell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): I thought you said you were going to give me the phone.

Ellis Maxwell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): Mmm, I don’t know.

Tony Martell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): I think, I think what we’ll do is—

Ellis Maxwell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): We’ll hang onto it.

Tony Martell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): —we’re gonna hang onto it for evidence at this point.

Ellis Maxwell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): Yeah.

Tony Martell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): ‘Kay?

Ellis Maxwell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): We’re going to keep it.

Tony Martell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): And it’s gonna be part of the case.

Dave Cawley: Investigators hoped to pull data from the phone’s SIM card, but Josh had anticipated the move. While sitting in the interrogation room, he had managed to surreptitiously slip the SIM card out of the phone before Ellis could take it.

Modern smartphones rely almost exclusively on internal storage or removable memory, like SD cards, to hold information. Older cell phones, like most of those available during the mid-2000s, came with little onboard data storage. Instead, they often saved stuff like contacts, text messages, call histories or cellular network tower information on their SIM cards.

In 2009, GPS functionality was just finding its way into smartphones. Budget phones like the one Josh owned didn’t include GPS receivers, meaning they couldn’t self-locate. Police could only determine cell phone locations if they knew which towers a particular device had contacted. Josh understood all of this. By removing his SIM card, he effectively tried to block the police from seeing where he’d been or whom he had called.

Detective Darrell Dain immediately sent a letter to T-Mobile, Josh’s cell phone provider, asking them to preserve records as evidence of a possible crime. That crime, according to the letter, was aggravated murder. The records did confirm Josh’s claim that he had called his father at about a quarter after noon on Sunday. After that, his handset went dark. It didn’t connect to any towers until just after 3 p.m. on Monday, when JoVanna’s son Alex called him.

Ellis Maxwell: It’s interesting because he takes that phone call for whatever reason — I don’t know if he accidentally answered it, maybe it doesn’t have JoVanna’s number — I, I don’t, I don’t know. I don’t know why he answered but he answered it and he’s in West Valley.

Dave Cawley: Think about that. Josh was in West Valley at 3 p.m., just a few blocks north of home near the city’s family fitness center. But he told JoVanna that he was down south, just off the Pony Express Trail. After speaking with JoVanna and learning police were waiting at the house Josh turned around and left West Valley. A half-hour later, he dialed his voicemail and retrieved his messages. Two minutes after that, he called Susan’s phone, the one that was right next to him in the van’s center console.

Josh Powell (from December 7, 2009 Susan Powell voicemail recording): Hello Susan, we are on our way back and umm, anyway I can’t believe that somehow my brain missed a day. I thought today was Sunday. Umm, that was really, really stupid but umm, anyway. Hopefully you got to work ok and umm, of course, give me a call or I guess we’re planning on picking you up but let me know ‘cause, umm, if you have plans after work or whatever. So, anyway we ran into every conceivable problem and anyway it was kind of a nightmare but oh well, I mean, there was some fun aspects. Alright, I’ll talk to you later, okay, bye.

Dave Cawley: Both of those outgoing calls went through cell towers near Point of the Mountain. That’s about 20 miles south of West Valley City. Now, Point of the Mountain is back in the direction Josh said he had come after leaving the Pony Express Trail. He’d intentionally gone out of his way to backtrack before leaving that message on Susan’s voicemail. To Ellis, that’s a clear that sign that Josh realized he’d made a mistake.

Ellis Maxwell: ‘Cause he did slip up there, right? Y’know those, those, that voicemail, checking it and making the phone calls should’ve been done when he passed through that area. But his phone was off. His phone was off so that we couldn’t track him. We couldn’t ping his phone, we couldn’t see where his location was.

Dave Cawley: Josh’s sister Jennifer believes he was attempting to build an alibi.

Jennifer Graves: He’s attempting to paint a picture, but the picture is turning out really badly.

Dave Cawley: Ellis told me he believes JoVanna’s son had unwittingly ruined Josh’s plan. Next, Josh drove north, past West Valley to Salt Lake City. The phone records show he went to Susan’s work, where he left her another voicemail.

Josh Powell (from December 7, 2009 Susan Powell voicemail recording): Hello, I’m out here so I’m—

Charlie Powell (from December 7, 2009 Susan Powell voicemail recording): Right now! Right now.

Josh Powell (from December 7, 2009 Susan Powell voicemail recording): —just waiting for you. So anyway I’m, umm, in front. ‘Kay, talk to you soon, bye.

Dave Cawley: In neither police interview did Josh described his movements quite that way. The cell tower records proved that Josh had lied.

Ellis Maxwell: When you look at those facts and you see his movements and his actions and his behavior, uh, he had a tentative plan and we foiled it. And because of his personality, he can’t deviate too far off of his plan, right? So he follows through with it because he has no option. No other options. He didn’t plan for a Plan B or a C.

Dave Cawley: Unfortunately, Ellis had no way of knowing that on the night of December 8th. Josh kept waiting in the lobby of the West Valley police station as the detectives performed their searches. A couple of patrol officers gave him a lift across the street to the Valley Fair Mall, so he could buy some dinner. Then, they drove him back. Jennifer waited as well.

Jennifer Graves: I thought that he was gonna come back that night after the uh, interview that he had with that, with the police on Tuesday morning. And so I just continued to expect a phone call letting us know that he was coming or just him showing up. Honestly, I was dreading it. I really didn’t want him to come back and take the boys. I wanted the boys to stay here with us and, and felt like that was the safest place for them. But time just drug on and it was kind of a nightmare of a, of an evening.

Dave Cawley: Josh didn’t have a cell phone anymore, but there was a phone in the lobby of the police station. He didn’t use it. Police staff reassured him, saying they’d release his minivan soon. Just wait a little bit longer. The judge had given police permission to hide a GPS tracking beacon on the minivan, which they did. Ellis had set a trap. He was hoping Josh would fall for the trap and, in a panic, lead him right to Susan.

Ellis Maxwell: Unfortunately we didn’t get that opportunity. Once again, he doesn’t cooperate, (chuckles) uh, which he never did.

Dave Cawley: Ellis walked into the lobby with Josh’s keys at about 9:40 p.m.

Ellis Maxwell: I go to release the vehicle and he’s gone and patrol officers don’t know where he left and went to. He didn’t say anything, he just up and left.

Dave Cawley: He’d missed Josh by only about 10 minutes. No one could say where Josh had gone. He was, as they say, in the wind.

On the next episode of Cold…

Nineveh Dinha (from December, 2009 news report): Is he a suspect?

Tom McLaughlan (from December, 2009 news report): No, he is not a suspect.

Nineveh Dinha (from December, 2009 news report): Is he person of interest?

Tom McLaughlan (from December, 2009 news report): We have many people we are interested in…

Cold season 1, episode 4: Find Susan – Full episode transcript

(Sound of snowplows clearing snow)

Dave Cawley: Snowplows were out in the pre-dawn darkness. A significant winter storm was sweeping across much of the United States on the morning of Monday, December 7, 2009. It dropped snow from the Sierra Nevada to the Great Lakes. A few inches had already fallen on the floor of Utah’s Salt Lake Valley during the overnight. 

Debbie Caldwell was up early, as she always was, preparing for the arrival of her daycare kids. They trickled in, shedding coats and caps, some still rubbing sleep from their eyes. They arrived with red, snotty noses from the sub-freezing cold, in the care of anxious parents who were bracing for a workweek that was starting off with a bad commute.

Debbie marked the time of each arrival on her log. Two of the kids — Charlie and Braden Powell — usually arrived like clockwork at 6:40 a.m. on Mondays, Tuesdays and Fridays.

Pick-ups in the afternoons were another matter. Josh, their dad, made a habit of showing up late or not at all. That could be blessing because he made the other parents uncomfortable. They had a nickname for Josh. They called him “rocks for brains.”

Debbie didn’t much care for Josh herself. She also didn’t care for clients who showed up late, but a little delay made sense that morning in light of the weather. She continued with the Monday routine, expecting Charlie and Braden to arrive at any minute. The clock ticked past 7 a.m., then 8. Still no sign of the Powells.

Debbie Caldwell: I was thinking “this is not like Susan” so I, umm, called the house and then, umm, when I didn’t get any phone call at the house I thought “well maybe she was running late to work or something and so Josh dropped her off and he’s running doing something else.” So I called her direct line at her job and didn’t get any answer there. And so then I called his work and they said he hadn’t shown up and so I became a little concerned because the week before, Susan had talked to my husband about how to fix the furnace and change the filters and get the furnace ready to go for the season. And so I became a little concerned that something was wrong and maybe they were in the house and they were suffering from carbon monoxide.

Dave Cawley: Debbie had her hands full, though. Even minus Charlie and Braden, six other kids needed her attention. Some were due at school. She loaded them into her van and hit the road. But concern nagged her. She decided to detour from the school rounds to Josh and Susan’s house. She pulled into the cul-de-sac, her van rolling partway up the driveway of the Powell house, making first tracks in the virgin snow.

Debbie Caldwell: There was no tire tracks coming out of the garage, there was no—

Kiirsi Hellewell: Footprints.

Debbie Caldwell: —footprints. So I pounded on the door and pounded on the door. I didn’t get any answer. So I was on a school run, I had other children that I was caring for and that I needed to get to school so I went back to, to my van and pulled up her emergency contact — it’s on the form. So I called the emergency contact, which was Jennifer Graves and then I went to uh, drop the kids off at school.

Dave Cawley: Jennifer Graves was Josh Powell’s sister.

Jennifer Graves: I woke up kinda feeling a little bit relieved and happy and looking forward to the future because we’d had a really hard year. We’d closed a business that was failing. We’d had some other significant issues with other family members. And that was just very difficult. And we felt like those things were being handled and behind us and we’d, we’ gone through the worst of it. And, and so I was pretty optimistic about the future. And then we got that phone call from Debbie and it was just devastating. Completely threw us for a loop again.

Dave Cawley: Jennifer told Debbie she hadn’t heard from her brother or sister-in-law that morning. She grabbed her kids and her mom, Terrica, and started driving the snowy roads north toward Josh and Susan’s house. Jennifer lived in West Jordan. That’s about a 15-minute drive away on a good weather day from Sarah Circle.  While on the way, Terrica dialed 911. It was 9:53 a.m.

Terrica Powell (from Dec. 7, 2009 police dispatch recording): Umm, the, my son and his wife and their two children haven’t, uh, responded to anything this morning. They normally would go to work and take their children to the daycare two or two and a half hours ago. And they’re not responding to calls and they’re not responding to people pounding on their door and there’s no tracks coming out of their driveway, or there wasn’t a this morning, a little while ago when the daycare lady went over there.

Dispatcher (from Dec. 7, 2009 police dispatch recording): Are they out of town?

Terrica Powell (from Dec. 7, 2009 police dispatch recording): Uh, I haven’t had any, anything from them saying that they’d be out of town and it’s not like them to not call their daycare lady. They’re very dependable. They both work.

Dave Cawley: Like Debbie, Terri worried a furnace malfunction might have filled the house on Sarah Circle with carbon monoxide gas.

Terrica Powell (from Dec. 7, 2009 police dispatch recording): Uh, I’m about five minutes from the house now.

Dispatcher (from Dec. 7, 2009 police dispatch recording): Ok. Alright, I have them notified. They’re going to be enroute. They’re responding to 6252 West Sarah Circle, which is 3935 South.

Jennifer Graves: We arrived before the police and tried to see if we could get into the house. I sent my kids around into the back. Umm, no doors were open, we couldn’t get in.

Dave Cawley: West Valley City patrol officers Jerry Brady and Matt Rhodes were the first to arrive in response to the 911 call. They showed up within minutes, at 10:02 a.m. to find Terrica, Jennifer and her kids out front of the house.

They pounded on the door and shouted. No response. The officers checked all of the doors and windows. All were locked. They attempted to peer into the garage through a window there, only to find it blocked by a blanket. In fact, all of the windows were covered. The blinds in the large bay window on the front of the house seemed to sway, as if blown by hot air rising from of a furnace vent. More evidence of possible carbon monoxide poisoning.

Meantime, Jennifer was going door-to-door in the cul-de-sac, trying to find someone who might have recently talked to Josh or Susan. One neighbor gave Jennifer the name and phone number for Kiirsi Hellewell.

Kiirsi Hellewell: I didn’t have her in my contacts in my phone, I didn’t know who it was but I decided to answer it. And she said “this is Jennifer Graves, Josh’s sister. When’s the last time you talked to Susan?” And I was instantly, had this feeling of dread come over me and I was like “what do you mean? I just talked to her yesterday, we walked home from church together.” And she said “well she’s missing, they’re all missing, there’s no tracks at their house, none of us can find them, they’re not at work.”

Dave Cawley: Kiirsi and Susan were both members of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints and belonged to the same ward, or local congregation.  Kiirsi told Jennifer about a Facebook post Susan had made on Sunday morning. It mentioned how Josh had won a Flip video camera from his work Christmas party on Saturday night.

Kiirsi Hellewell: And so we were afraid that since he loved taking pictures, maybe he had driven them up to the canyon and they’d gone of a cliff— 

Debbie Caldwell: Or they’d slid and they were stuck in some ravine with the snowstorm.

Kiirsi Hellewell: —or were stuck somewhere and been there freezing all night.

Dave Cawley: The patrol officers were growing more concerned, too. They figured Josh, Susan and the boys were either unconscious in the house or hadn’t been home since the storm started during the night. They called for backup. A sergeant arrived and tried to use a device called a bump key to unlock the door but it didn’t work.

Short of options, the police turned to Terri and asked her permission to break a window. It took some convincing, but she finally agreed. It was 11:39 a.m.

Jessica (from Susan Powell voicemails): Hi Susan, it’s Jessica calling from Back to Health Chiropractic. I did have you scheduled with the boys today at 8:40. We haven’t seen or heard from you so we were just concerned. Hope nothing tragic has happened…

Richard (from Susan Powell voicemails): Hi Susan, Richard Grennan at Aspen. Uh, just looking for Josh and to make sure you guys ok. Uh, we have received a phone call from Josh’s dad I guess…

Mary Estep (from Susan Powell voicemails): Hey, it’s Mary. Umm, Josh’s sister is kind of freaking me out and I’m kind of stressing not hearing from you either so, give me a call…

JoVanna Owings (from Susan Powell voicemails): Hey Susan, it’s JoVanna…

Judy Cox (from Susan Powell voicemails): Hi Susan, it’s mom. It’s Monday in the afternoon, so, December 7th.

Montage (from Susan Powell voicemails): Susan, we’re all worried sick, we need to hear from you… Susan, it’s 10, 5 to 6… Hey Susan, I’m just uh, worried about you and thinking of you… Y’know a lot of us are worried about you. We love you. I hope, I really hope everything turns out ok. If you are ok, please do call me. And I’ll talk to you soon.

Dave Cawley: This is Cold, Episode 4: Find Susan. I’m Dave Cawley.

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Dave Cawley: Those voices you just heard came from messages left on Susan’s cell phone the day she disappeared: December 7th. Let’s go back to that day and to the house on Sarah Circle. West Valley police Sergeant Terrence Chen wriggled through the broken window and found himself in the front room of the Powell house. The first thing he noticed were two fans aimed at wet spots on the carpet and couch. They were what was causing the blinds flutter, not hot air from the furnace.

(Sound of small box fan)

Dave Cawley: A stereo had been left on. It blared a broadcast from a local radio station. Toys were scattered around the floor. Stepping over the mess, Chen came around a loveseat to the front door. He unlocked it, allowing the rest of the officers to enter. They began searching room by room. The upstairs bedrooms were all empty. So was the basement. Checking the garage, the officers noticed the family’s minivan was gone. Terrica and Jennifer came inside to see if anything looked amiss.

Jennifer Graves: While I was at the house I’d had this overwhelming feeling that he’d done something to her already. Because I’d seen her purse there, I’d gone through it.  Her driver’s license, her Sam’s Club card, her temple recommend, they were all in the purse. Why would she walk away without that? Y’know, that just seemed like a very abnormal thing for her to, to do for any significant length of time.

Dave Cawley: Jennifer called Susan’s dad, Chuck Cox.

Jennifer Graves: I don’t know how he felt about that, you know. I was trying to be calm, but I’m not sure if my panic was a little bit apparent or not.

Chuck Cox: I got a call from Jennifer, Josh’s sister, wanting to know if I’d heard from her — Susan. And I said “well no.” “Has she called you? Ok.” And she told me “well, we can’t find her right now.” They don’t know, haven’t heard from the family for Sunday, Monday, whatever. They hadn’t heard from them. I called my wife and asked her if she’d, if Susan’d called her. No, she hadn’t. “Ok.” But I was sure that just, somehow the phone died or whatever it was, something simple. Or they had to take a child to the doctor and we’ll hear from ‘em later today. Of course, that never came.

Dave Cawley: Officer Brady went back to his patrol car and radioed dispatch, asking them to look up a plate number for the missing minivan. They verified it hadn’t been involved in any crashes that morning. Dispatch also contacted local hospitals, to see if Josh, Susan, Charlie or Braden had been admitted. Nothing.

Josh’s mom told police she’d called both Josh and Susan’s workplaces. She gave them the phone numbers. Both Aspen Logistics and Wells Fargo Investments confirmed Josh and Susan had been scheduled to work but both were absent, no-call, no-show.

Brady called both Josh and Susan’s cell phones. Each went straight to voicemail. It seemed less likely with each passing minute that the disappearance was an accident. So, at about half past one in the afternoon, the officers decided to call in a detective.

[Scene transition]

Dave Cawley: Ellis Maxwell had always wanted to be cop, at least as far back as he could remember. He’d grown up hearing stories about the job from his father’s dad. He saw the uniform and heard tales of heroism. Even as a boy, he’d wanted to be a part of it.

Ellis Maxwell: At the beginning of my career, I was dead-set working for West Valley City police department. A couple of reasons: I had a lot of interaction with them, uh, living in West Valley, good and bad. Y’know, I was a juvenile. I got in trouble a couple of times.

Dave Cawley: Like what?

Ellis Maxwell: I got arrested for possession of alcohol one time. Jesse Cassanata was the officer. He was my school cop and I learned a lot from him. He was a great school resource officer and I learned a ton from him and he’s probably a big contributor as to why I got into police work as well.

Dave Cawley: None of the offenses were serious enough to derail his ambitions. In 1995, while Josh Powell was attending community college, Ellis enrolled in the police academy. He paid his own way, hoping to make himself marketable to a department. If that ended up being his home town of West Valley, all the better. But he knew the odds were against him.

Ellis Maxwell: Because in the academy they told us, ‘look, you may or may not get a job. Like, it’s tough.’ And it was like that. I mean, you’d go interview, or go test somewhere and you’d have hundreds of applicants, at times thousands.

Dave Cawley: Ellis graduated the academy, cleared his certification exams and prepared to enter the world of law enforcement. He sent out job applications. The job market, as the academy had warned, was ver tight. Ellis saw West Valley was hiring. Not the police department, but instead in the city’s code enforcement division.

Ellis Maxwell: So I put in for that thinking ‘hey, get in, get my foot in the door,’ right? Get my foot in the door, do a bang-up job, apply for the police department, transfer over. (Laughs) Sounds pretty easy. Not the case.

Dave Cawley: Code enforcement was not glamorous work. Ellis had to chase down abandoned shopping carts and issue citations for junky yards. But the job kept his certification active. Before long, he took a second job as a reserve officer in the mountain resort town of Park City, home to world-famous ski resorts and the Sundance Film Festival. Working the equivalent of two full-time jobs put a huge strain on Ellis and his young family.

Ellis Maxwell: We had our first child in December of ’97 and so I think it was around the spring of ’98 that uh, they still wanted me to work these hours and I couldn’t and so I quit.

Dave Cawley: His dream remained getting a gig as an actual officer in the West Valley police department. He applied again and again and again. The persistence did lead to an interview, which ended without Ellis getting the job. He reached out to a friend in the department, who told Ellis he was just too soft-spoken.

Ellis Maxwell: So then the next time I interviewed, I didn’t get the job. And so I went to him again. I said “hey, what did I do wrong? How can I become better?” And he told me the same thing, “you’re too soft-spoken.” And I said “that’s what you told me last time.”

Dave Cawley: He applied a third time and cleared the interview, only to be washed out by an out-of-state contractor’s psych evaluation.

Ellis Maxwell: At that point, I was done. I was just, three strikes. I’m fed up. Fed up with the government, the way they operate. I mean, this is just ridiculous.

Dave Cawley: Around that time, Ellis learned Park City was hiring again. He’d enjoyed his time as a reserve officer there and figured joining the active duty force would be a good step up from the drudgery of code enforcement. He quit West Valley, took the Park City job and prepared to move on from his dream of wearing the blues in his boyhood hometown.

Ellis Maxwell: So I was there and, (laughs) well West Valley’s hiring again. So, I was like “alright, give this one more chance,” right? So I put in. I passed the interview but administration in Park City knew I had an interview before I did. (Laughs)

Dave Cawley: Word, it appeared, tended to get around among Utah’s police brass. One of Ellis’ superiors at Park City advised him to tell the chief about his upcoming interview with West Valley. Ellis thought that was a bad idea.

Ellis Maxwell: I’m not going to go to the chief and be like “hey, thanks for hiring me but just to let you know, I’m looking at West Valley and I’ve got an interview with them.” That’s just ludicrous. And so I didn’t and I guess the chief was very upset and from that point forward, my short stint at Park City full-time, it was uh, not good.

Dave Cawley: The chief asked Ellis to resign. He couldn’t understand. He’d done good work for Park City. So he refused.

Ellis Maxwell: And he just, he got pissed and he stood up and he slammed his fist on the desk and “you’re fired!” And I was like “wow, I’ve never been fired before.” So I left and I was driving down the canyon of Parleys and my wife at the time was pregnant and was due in two or three months and I don’t have a job. She was not working. I own a house and, y’know, got all this. I’m like “this is nuts.” And ironically, West Valley code enforcement hires me without a bat of an eye. They give me my pay, they give me my seniority.

Dave Cawley: The experience left Ellis disillusioned. He figured it was time to change course, to go back to school and learn a new trade. Maybe, he thought, he’d go into construction. Then a friend, a retired officer, put a bug in his ear.

Ellis Maxwell: He said “hey, West Valley’s hiring. You should apply.” And I said “I’m think I’m done.” Like, I’m done.

Dave Cawley: No, he wasn’t.

Ellis Maxwell: He talked me into it. And I went into that interview, I didn’t care. Like, I didn’t wear a tie. I wore jeans. I wore a button-down shirt. I didn’t shave. I didn’t do anything polite, like what you’re supposed to. “Please have a seat.” No, I sat down when I wanted to sit down. I answered their questions and then when they said “do you have any questions for us,” I said “no.” I got up and walked out.

Dave Cawley: This was not the same soft-spoken young man who had three times applied and three times been rejected.

Ellis Maxwell: I came out and I was in City Hall and I passed one of the sergeants and they’re like “don’t tell me you just interviewed.” And I was like “yeah.” I said “I don’t care. I mean, a lot of you folks know who I am, my work ethic. If you want to hire me, hire me. If not, screw it.” And I left and I got the job.

Dave Cawley: At last, Ellis had achieved his dream. He was a West Valley City police officer. He made a plan: stay in West Valley and spend long enough on the job to qualify for his police pension.

Ellis Maxwell: So the whole goal was to get in, do 20 years, retire, experience as much of police work as I could. Work as many assignments as I could and uh, if I was still sane, alive, get out.

Dave Cawley: It was September of 2001. As the dust of the Twins Towers settled in New York City, Ellis hit the streets on patrol in West Valley. A year and a half later, he joined the investigations division and became a school resource officer at Granger High. In 2006, the department moved him onto child sex abuse cases.

Ellis Maxwell: So I wasn’t really too thrilled but it was an opportunity to take on a new challenge and I did. And I did that job for almost two years. I left there in 2008.

Dave Cawley: Ellis faced a crossroads. He’d spent enough time in the trenches by that point to qualify for a promotion. He didn’t particularly want to become an administrator, but figured he could make sergeant and ride that rank to retirement. On the other hand, a colleague told him the major crimes division was shorthanded.

Ellis Maxwell: And he’s like “hey, why don’t you come over and join the team?” And I was like “no, absolutely not. I know what you guys do.”

Dave Cawley: Major crimes handled violent cases: robberies, shootings, that kind of stuff. They were also the homicide squad. Ellis’d done enough work over the years supporting major crimes to know it was a stressful gig.

Ellis Maxwell: So I knew what they did, I knew they were busy and I told him “absolutely not.” One, I don’t like the smell of dead people. Two, I like my time off, right? I’m like “I have no desire.” And he kind of kept talking to me about it and talking to me about it. And I kind of thought about it and I thought “maybe, maybe it is a little too early to promote.”

Dave Cawley: Ellis moved to major crimes in May of 2008. He was still there on the morning of December 7, 2009, when a family of four turned up missing.

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Dave Cawley: The commute to work that morning was a doozy.

Ellis Maxwell: It dumped at least, I don’t know, eight inches of snow. Started snowing probably about three o’clock in the morning and, and snowed into the commuting hour and uh, there was a lot of snow. And a lot of people, anybody that watched the news, stuff like that, knew this storm was coming in.

Dave Cawley: Ellis made it to work in spite of the weather.

Ellis Maxwell: The morning was just like any other morning. I went into the office, I sat down, I believe I was reviewing a robbery case, a bank robbery case.

Dave Cawley: He hadn’t been at it for long when he was interrupted.

Ellis Maxwell: The sergeant at the time, kind of a boulstery Philadelphian individual, right, opens up the squeaky door, walks in and you can already smell him coming, right? The cologne he wore. And he comes up behind me and he’s like “eh, yo Ellis, what are you doing?” It’s like, “just doing my job, man,” right? “Working on this robbery case.” “Alright, well I need you to go out and help patrol on a missing family.”

Dave Cawley: Ellis picked up the phone and called the patrol officers who were out at the Sarah Circle house. They gave him Josh and Susan’s names, the address and briefed him on what’d happened so far. He spent about an hour just doing research.

Ellis Maxwell: I look and I can’t find anything on these people, right? There’s no criminal history. There’s nothing in our report database. I think there was like a traffic accident like awhile back but nothing serious, right?

Dave Cawley: No signs of prior domestic violence, no 911 calls from the house, no criminal history for either Josh or Susan. Nothing. So, Ellis headed to the house.

Ellis Maxwell: So when I get out there, umm, y’know it’s frigid cold and there’s, y’know, patrol officers everywhere. And there’s, there’s family and friends and neighbors.

Dave Cawley: The patrol officers shared what little they knew. The last anyone had heard from the Powells was about noon the day prior. They hadn’t said anything to anyone about taking a trip. Ellis took a walk inside the house.

Ellis Maxwell: There was no sign of a struggle inside the residence, so there wasn’t like tipped-over nightstands and broken lamps or broken dishes or anything like that. Like, any signs of a domestic violence, like a physical domestic violence. There was no sign of a robbery.

Dave Cawley: All of the doors and windows were secure, with the exception of the glass the patrol officers had smashed.

Ellis Maxwell: There was two box fans that were set up in the front room. One was at one end of the front room, the other was at another end and they were in operation.

Dave Cawley: One of the fans sat across the living room from the couch, against the west wall that separated the living room from the kitchen. The other was by the north wall, near the entertainment center. The two fans were 90-degrees off-axis from another but pointed at the same spot: the foot of the couch.

Ellis Maxwell: Some believe that it was blowing on the carpet. But the reality was it was blowing on maybe the carpet but also the couch. It was very obvious that the couch had been cleaned, where the love seat hadn’t.

Dave Cawley: Ellis poked around a little more. He noticed a Flip camera on a shelf, still sealed in its packaging. It was the prize Josh had won from his work party on Saturday night. There went the theory that the family had gone out to test their new toy. He moved down the hallway to the master bedroom.

Ellis Maxwell: There was a vacuum sitting in the middle of the floor. There was a steam cleaner and more importantly, Susan’s purse is sitting in there and undisturbed. Right? Like, her wallet’s in there, her ID’s in there, her keys are in there. Y’know, after we looked through it you could tell there’s no credit cards missing or anything like that. No cash is missing. She had jewelry in the bathroom and in the bedroom. None of that appeared to be missing. If somebody was going to rob the place, they’re not going to pick out jewelry and then put it back nicely, right?

Dave Cawley: It was all very odd. Ellis called dispatch and had them place Josh, Susan, Charlie and Braden, as well as their van, on NCIC. That’s the FBI’s National Crime Information Center database, a system cops from across the nation use to share information about cases. If officers anywhere in the country encountered the Powell family, he’d hear about it immediately. He made other calls.

Ellis Maxwell (from December 7, 2009 Susan Powell voicemail recording): Hi Susan, this is detective Maxwell with West Valley City police department. If you could give me a call back, I’d appreciate it. You can call…

Ellis Maxwell: I’ve called Susan’s phone, I called Josh’s phone. They both go directly to voicemail. They don’t ring so that’s a clear indication we all know the phones are off.

Dave Cawley: Terri, Josh’s mom, told Ellis she and Jennifer were Josh and Susan’s only relatives in Utah. She alluded to some friction in their marriage but glossed over the details. Kiirsi Hellewell offered a more damning account. As one of Susan’s closest friends, she was privy to more of the couple’s private life. She told Ellis how Susan had struggled to make peace with her husband over his falling away from their religion. She described Josh as controlling and verbally abusive.

Ellis talked to Debbie, the daycare provider, who described how she’d kicked off the whole thing that morning. He talked to Susan’s mom and Josh’s dad, both of whom were in Washington. Judy Cox hadn’t heard from Susan since the prior Thursday. Steve Powell said he’d last spoken to Josh the day before at around noon, when Josh had called asking for a pancake recipe. Both confirmed the couple had not made any plans to visit family in Washington.

One of the neighbors approached Ellis as he sat in his car talking to Josh’s dad.

Ellis Maxwell: And she came and walked over to my car and I kind of had to give her the one finger, like “hold on.” And I finished my conversation with Steve Powell, rolled my window down and uh, she shares with me that she just talked to Josh Powell. … And I thought to myself “ok, I don’t know who you are” for starters, right? And, y’know I’ll be honest with you, I don’t know how much credibility to give this gal. Right? Like, I mean, you’ve got family, friends, the police that have called and left messages and you’re the one that’s talked to Josh Powell. (Laughs)

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Dave Cawley: JoVanna Owings didn’t want the spotlight.

JoVanna Owings: I don’t want to be famous for being the last person to see Susan Powell alive, you know.

Dave Cawley: Like it or not, she was. JoVanna’s son Alex had babysat for Josh and Susan the night of Saturday, December 5th, when they went to Josh’s work Christmas party. The next afternoon, on Sunday the 6th, Susan called JoVanna after church.

JoVanna Owings: The blanket that she was working on for one of her boys, the yarn was all messed up and she asked if I could come over and help her with, you know, untangling it. And I said, “sure.” And then, in the background, I could hear Josh saying, “well she could stay for lunch, but we just have enough for her.”

Dave Cawley: JoVanna accepted the invitation. She went over to the Powell house at about 2:45 in the afternoon and sat with Susan in the living room. Josh had Charlie and Braden in the kitchen, where he was making pancakes. When they were ready, he brought Susan and JoVanna their individual servings.

JoVanna Owings: And while Susan and I ate and were talking, he then cleaned up the kitchen, put all the dishes in the dishwasher.

Dave Cawley: Susan noticed her husband doing the chores without being asked — a rare occurrence.

JoVanna Owings: He may have very well been putting on a really good show for me, that uh, he was a loving, caring husband. And I bought it.

Dave Cawley: At one point, Josh even came and draped a blanket around Susan’s shoulders.

JoVanna Owings: I thought that was nice, but you know I’ve seen husbands that act that way, so I didn’t realize that that was not a normal thing for Josh.

Dave Cawley: Susan told JoVanna she believed she’d miscarried the month prior. JoVanna didn’t want to press and decided to ask her about it later, when the boys were out of earshot.

JoVanna Owings: Then she said she was, she was feeling tired. And I thought, “well that’s perfectly natural.” She’s going all week long and if she did miscarry then she’ll be a little tired-er. Anyway, so she said she was going to go, umm, just lie down for a little bit in, in the bedroom. And I was like “ok, that’s fine.”

Dave Cawley: It was about 4:30. JoVanna kept working on the tangled yarn. Josh told her he was going to take the boys sledding. JoVanna was focused on the knot and didn’t take the hint.

JoVanna Owings: And then he says, “well I really need to lock the front door when I leave.” And then I got it and was like, I should probably leave then. So I cut the yarn and took the uh, messed up yarn home to untangle. And I said, “well, I should have this finished by this evening.” And, and he said, “well, there’s no hurry just give it to her on Tuesday, on her day off.” And I was like “ok, fine.”

Dave Cawley: At about 5:30, JoVanna watched Josh pull out of the driveway in his minivan with both Charlie and Braden in their carseats. Then, she went home. JoVanna received a text message from her neighbor Kiirsi Hellewell the following afternoon, on Monday, December 7th. It said no one had seen or heard from Josh, Susan or the boys since noon on Sunday.

JoVanna Owings: I knew that that was wrong because I’d been there that afternoon and had left early evening.

Dave Cawley: JoVanna had Josh’s cell phone number because her son Alex sometimes babysat the Powell boys.

JoVanna Owings: So I called Josh on my phone and he didn’t answer. And then my son called him on his phone and Josh answered. And he, my son immediately hung up. And I said, “why did you do that? Everyone is worried about where they are. Call him back.”

Dave Cawley: Cell phone logs would later show it was 3:02 p.m.

JoVanna Owings: He called him back and Josh answered and he handed the phone to me and I said, “Josh, where are you? Everybody’s worried. Nobody’s seen Susan. They said she didn’t go to work. You need to get home.” And so he said he was out south and he’d be home soon. And I was just like, “ok whatever.” And we hung up and that was that.

Dave Cawley: JoVanna shared all of this with Detective Maxwell, letting him know Josh and the boys were back.

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Dave Cawley: But there was no word about Susan. Josh’s mom and sister Jennifer had left Sarah Circle and gone home by that point.

Jennifer Graves: We were just honestly a little bit in shock, numb, not knowing what to do, and we just sat around waiting.

Dave Cawley: Jennifer’s phone rang just before 5:30 p.m. The caller ID showed it was Josh. She answered and shouted into phone, asking Josh where he’d been and if Susan was with him. Josh said he was at work and he had the boys. They were fine. Jennifer said she knew that wasn’t true. He wasn’t work. Ok, alright. Josh admitted he’d taken the boys camping but said they’d been stranded by the snowstorm.

Jennifer asked again “where’s Susan?” Josh said she was at work. Again, Jennifer challenged the lie. She told Josh Susan had not gone to work. Her voice climbed and she shouted “where is she?”

“I don’t know,” Josh shouted back. Then, he asked “what do you know?”

The question caught Jennifer off guard. She was afraid her brother had done something terrible.

Jennifer Graves: So that feeling had just come over me while I was at the house. And when he’d called that night, it was disturbing. Disturbing to talk to him and to realize that that premonition was actually valid.

Dave Cawley: Jennifer lowered her voice, fighting to keep her composure.

Jennifer Graves: Ok, I don’t actually want him to run. He has two innocent little babies with him. And I, y’know, I wanted them to make it back. Y’know, we wanted them. And so I backed off. I calmed down (laughs) and I just kind of gave him a little bit of the gist of the situation: “there’s a cop at your house, we broke the window, they’re guarding the house.” Basically, I wanted to make it sound as benign as possible. And so “let’s meet there” y’know and uh, and “we’ll see where to go from there.”

Dave Cawley: Josh agreed to return home. Jennifer grabbed her coat, went to the car and drove back to Sarah Circle. Along the way, she called Ellis and told him what’d happened. They met outside of the Powell house, expecting Josh to join them. Minutes ticked by with no sign of the family’s blue minivan. Ellis dialed Josh’s number but he didn’t answer.

Jennifer Graves: We’re all sitting in that circle in our vehicles just waiting, and finally Ellis comes over and is like, y’now, is like “why don’t you just give him a call?” (Laughs)

Dave Cawley: Jennifer did, then handed her phone to Ellis. It was 5:48 p.m.

Ellis Maxwell: And he answers and I tell him, y’know identify myself and tell him “Josh, you need to come home.” And I verify with him, “is Susan with you?” “No, she’s at work.” “Ok, well you need to come home. We have been at your home now for eight hours, nine hours, whatever. You need to get here.” … Josh replies “I need to go feed my kids, we need to go get” — and then he ignores me and starts asking his kids, “kids what do you want? Do you want pizza, do you want hamburgers?” And at this point I’m really frustrated because he is, he just has that “I don’t care attitude,” right? And so I tell him, I said, and I was more I guess forceful with my words and I told him “you need to come to the house.” Like, “you need to come here now, your kids can eat here, but you need to get here.”

Dave Cawley: Josh said “ok.” Ellis asked how soon he’d arrive and Josh said he wouldn’t be long. But Josh didn’t show up until about 6:40 p.m., almost an hour later.

Jennifer Graves: So, Josh is just taking his sweet time. I think uh, I don’t even know what was going through his head. But he, y’know, he was getting the kids food. And I, y’know, bbut how long does that take? Stop at McDonald’s and grab them a bite to eat so they aren’t starving and screaming. And there are cops at your house. Doesn’t that feel a little urgent?

Dave Cawley: More than three hours had elapsed since Josh had first made contact, answering the call from JoVanna’s son. Ellis met the minivan as it rolled to a stop in the cul-de-sac.

Ellis Maxwell: He clearly can’t get into his driveway with all the cop cars and everything and I approach the passenger side of the, the vehicle and he rolls down the window and I ask him, y’know, “where the hell have you been” right? Like, “I talked to you an hour and a half ago.”

Dave Cawley: Ellis caught a whiff of grease and pepperoni.

Ellis Maxwell: He’d stopped at Little Caesar and bought ‘em pizza. … I asked him why he hadn’t returned anybody’s phone calls, why he hadn’t been answering his phone. He told me it was off and I asked why his phone was off. He said he was trying to preserve the battery ‘cause he didn’t have a charger. And at this time as I’m talking to him looking in his vehicle, there’s a charger that’s plugged in. So, there’s a couple of cues, y’know, that are there but at the end of the day, it’s not enough that you can put handcuffs on him and say “ok, we’re going to jail.”

Dave Cawley: Ellis told Josh they needed to talk. He asked him to drive over to the police department’s west side substation, just a few blocks up the road. He didn’t want to give Josh any other opportunity to delay.

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Dave Cawley: At the substation, Ellis set out a digital audio recorder and got right to the point.

Ellis Maxwell (from December 7, 2009 police interview recording): Do you know where Susan’s at?

Josh Powell (from December 7, 2009 police interview recording): Hmm.

Ellis Maxwell (from December 7, 2009 police interview recording): No?

Josh Powell (from December 7, 2009 police interview recording): No.

Ellis Maxwell (from December 7, 2009 police interview recording): When’s the last time you seen her?

Josh Powell (from December 7, 2009 police interview recording): Probably about midnight of last night.

Ellis Maxwell (from December 7, 2009 police interview recording): Where at?

Josh Powell (from December 7, 2009 police interview recording): At home.

Ellis Maxwell (from December 7, 2009 police interview recording): What was she doing? What was she wearing? Where was she at in the house?

Josh Powell (from December 7, 2009 police interview recording): Umm. (Clears throat) She was wearing… (long pause) …she was just wearing something comfortable.

Dave Cawley: That’s the actual recording of the interview. As you can hear, Josh wasn’t very forthcoming.

Ellis Maxwell (from December 7, 2009 police interview recording): And obviously, everybody’s concerned. Everybody’s worried about all four of you. I mean we started getting phone calls at 10 o’clock this morning.

Josh Powell (from December 7, 2009 police interview recording): I apologize. I didn’t even know that was happening, I apologize. That, umm, like I say, we got snowed in and there’s just no cell service so it killed my phone, y’know?

Ellis Maxwell (from December 7, 2009 police interview recording): Mmhmm.

Josh Powell (from December 7, 2009 police interview recording): It just tries harder and it dies, y’know?

Ellis Maxwell (from December 7, 2009 police interview recording): Mmhmm.

Josh Powell (from December 7, 2009 police interview recording): Umm, in fact, I actually turned it off to try to save the battery.

Dave Cawley: Ellis made note of the “battery” excuse again, but didn’t call attention to it. Instead, he asked Josh to describe everything that’d happened over the last 48 hours. Josh said Susan had gone to church with the boys on Sunday, then returned home around noon. He went to the grocery store to buy stuff for lunch. Susan invited JoVanna to come over while he made pancakes and omelets.

He said Susan had taken a nap after lunch. JoVanna stuck around until about 5:30. Here, Josh’s and JoVanna’s stories diverged. Josh claimed he remained home when JoVanna left, contradicting her eyewitness account that Josh left the house at the same time with both boys.

He told Ellis he was home at about 6:30 when Susan woke up, ate a hot dog dinner and then settled down for another nap with Braden. At that point, Josh said he took only Charlie sledding.

They came back at about 8, at which point Josh read a book to Charlie and put him to bed. Then Susan gave him a chore to do, at 10 p.m. on a Sunday night.

Josh Powell (from December 7, 2009 police interview recording): She wanted me to clean the couch, so I did and then we watched…

Ellis Maxwell (from December 7, 2009 police interview recording): What do you mean by clean the couch?

Josh Powell (from December 7, 2009 police interview recording): Just get rid of all the kid’s goobers and stuff.

Ellis Maxwell (from December 7, 2009 police interview recording): So like, what? With a washcloth or something or an upholstery cleaner?

Josh Powell (from December 7, 2009 police interview recording): Umm actually, I have a Rug Doctor.

Ellis Maxwell (from December 7, 2009 police interview recording): Ok, so you used the Rug Doctor and cleaned the couch?

Josh Powell (from December 7, 2009 police interview recording): Yeah.

Ellis Maxwell (from December 7, 2009 police interview recording): ‘Kay.

Dave Cawley: The Rug Doctor, the same one Ellis had seen in the master bedroom that afternoon. Josh said he’d set up the fans in order to dry the couch after cleaning it, to keep mildew from forming. Ellis wanted specifics about the camping trip. Josh told him Susan had known about it and was okay with it.

Ellis Maxwell (from December 7, 2009 police interview recording): ‘Kay. And where did you drive to, you said Pony Express?

Josh Powell (from December 7, 2009 police interview recording): Umm, well I started heading south through Tooele and just turned onto the Pony Express.

Ellis Maxwell (from December 7, 2009 police interview recording): Mmhmm. And that’s, how far down the Pony Express did you go?

Josh Powell (from December 7, 2009 police interview recording): Not very far. (Pause) Maybe 20 miles, I don’t know.

Ellis Maxwell (from December 7, 2009 police interview recording): Twenty miles on the Pony Express?

Josh Powell (from December 7, 2009 police interview recording): Maybe.

Ellis Maxwell (from December 7, 2009 police interview recording): Ok, did you just stop on the side of the road or stay on the road when you went down there? Is that where you just drove straight to from your house?

Josh Powell (from December 7, 2009 police interview recording): Pretty much, yeah.

Ellis Maxwell (from December 7, 2009 police interview recording): Pretty much. Where’d you stop in between?

Josh Powell (from December 7, 2009 police interview recording): Well, I mean no, that’s it.

Ellis Maxwell (from December 7, 2009 police interview recording): Well, pretty much I mean that’s—

Josh Powell (from December 7, 2009 police interview recording): Sorry. (Nervous laugh)

Ellis Maxwell (from December 7, 2009 police interview recording): —I mean “pretty much” means you stopped somewhere else. So—

Josh Powell (from December 7, 2009 police interview recording): No, I, I, I don’t, I just went straight there.

Ellis Maxwell (from December 7, 2009 police interview recording): You drove straight to the Pony Express? Ok.

Dave Cawley: Josh’s answers were all but useless.

Ellis Maxwell: Any time I would ask him certain questions, the answers I got was “I don’t know,” “I don’t remember” or it was silence or he would try to deter the conversation a different direction. Such as when we sat down in the west side precinct there and he would turn his attention to his kids to avoid questioning.

Dave Cawley: Charlie and Braden continually interrupted.

Ellis Maxwell: Yeah, it was definitely a mistake on my end. I should have left those kids with Jennifer and Terrica.

Ellis Maxwell (from December 7, 2009 police interview recording): Stuff like that.

Charlie Powell (from December 7, 2009 police interview recording): Daddy, do you have paper money?

Ellis Maxwell (from December 7, 2009 police interview recording): (Clears throat followed by annoyed chuckle)

Josh Powell (from December 7, 2009 police interview recording): Charlie, we’re not going to buy pop out of that machine.

Ellis Maxwell: We did get a domestic violence advocate to eventually sit down and kind of entertain the kids but Josh was not pleased with that and it diverted his attention even more.

Dave Cawley: But what else could they do? Josh wasn’t under arrest and didn’t have to be there. Forcing the issue with the boys might have ended the interview.

Ellis Maxwell: The last thing I want is him to not talk to me.

Dave Cawley: So Ellis dealt with the situation as best as he could.

Ellis Maxwell (from December 7, 2009 police interview recording): So when you got to your destination 20 miles, possibly 20 miles down the Pony Express, what uh, did you stay on the road, did you pull off on the side of the road?

Josh Powell (from December 7, 2009 police interview recording): No, they have trails that you can drive on. And—

Ellis Maxwell (from December 7, 2009 police interview recording): Mmhmm.

Josh Powell (from December 7, 2009 police interview recording): I mean, I just found one. And—

Ellis Maxwell (from December 7, 2009 police interview recording): How far off the trail did you go?

(Long pause)

Josh Powell (from December 7, 2009 police interview recording): I don’t know, a mile or something, I don’t know.

Dave Cawley: Josh told Ellis he’d mixed up the days in his head, that when he’d left on Sunday night he thought it was Saturday. He realized the mistake only after waking on Monday morning. By then it was too late to call his work and beg forgiveness.

Upon realizing the mistake, he drove around aimlessly for hours, to exactly where he couldn’t say, only stopping to make a fire so the boys could roast marshmallows.

Josh Powell (from December 7, 2009 police interview recording): Well, we drove further out the Pony Express—

Ellis Maxwell (from December 7, 2009 police interview recording): Mmhmm.

Josh Powell (from December 7, 2009 police interview recording): —umm to that campground—

Ellis Maxwell (from December 7, 2009 police interview recording): ‘Kay.

Josh Powell (from December 7, 2009 police interview recording): —and we turned around.

Ellis Maxwell (from December 7, 2009 police interview recording): ‘Kay.

Josh Powell (from December 7, 2009 police interview recording): Umm, when it got old, we drove back.

Ellis Maxwell (from December 7, 2009 police interview recording): When what got, when what? When it got old?

Josh Powell (from December 7, 2009 police interview recording): Yeah, I mean when we’d had our fill, when we were done. Well, the boys weren’t done but I was done.

Ellis Maxwell (from December 7, 2009 police interview recording): Mmhmm.

Josh Powell (from December 7, 2009 police interview recording): So, then we drove back.

Ellis Maxwell (from December 7, 2009 police interview recording): What time was that at?

(Long pause)

Josh Powell (from December 7, 2009 police interview recording): I don’t know, maybe 2.

Ellis Maxwell (from December 7, 2009 police interview recording): That’s when you started coming back home?

Ellis Maxwell (from December 7, 2009 police interview recording): Yeah.

Dave Cawley: On the way home, he stopped at a carwash in the city of Lehi. That didn’t make a whole lot of sense. The roads were still covered in salt, slush and grime from the snowstorm. Ellis wanted to know which carwash but Josh said he wasn’t sure. After washing the car, Josh said he drove north to Susan’s work.

They only had the one car so Josh typically took Susan to work each morning and sometimes picked her up in the afternoon. They only had the one car. He couldn’t explain how she might’ve made it to work that morning, considering that he had the minivan out in the desert.

Ellis asked Josh about his marriage.

Josh Powell (from December 7, 2009 police interview recording): I mean, y’know, it’s pretty good. I mean… (Pause) We sometimes have disagreements but—

Ellis Maxwell (from December 7, 2009 police interview recording): ‘Kay.

Josh Powell (from December 7, 2009 police interview recording): —y’know.

Ellis Maxwell (from December 7, 2009 police interview recording): Everybody has disagreements, right?

Josh Powell (from December 7, 2009 police interview recording): I think so.

Ellis Maxwell (from December 7, 2009 police interview recording): So nothing—

Josh Powell (from December 7, 2009 police interview recording): It’s not like, it’s not like we get into screaming fights or anything.

Ellis Maxwell (from December 7, 2009 police interview recording): Yeah?

Josh Powell (from December 7, 2009 police interview recording): Well, not usually. It’s happened a couple of times—

Ellis Maxwell (from December 7, 2009 police interview recording): Yeah.

Josh Powell (from December 7, 2009 police interview recording): —but, y’know, it’s very, very rare.

Dave Cawley: Oh come on. That was not true. Ellis held his cards close, not revealing the stories he’d already heard from Kiirsi, Jennifer and others.

Ellis Maxwell (from December 7, 2009 police interview recording): You guys only have one—

Josh Powell (from December 7, 2009 police interview recording): We see a counselor.

Ellis Maxwell (from December 7, 2009 police interview recording): What do you see a counselor, the, what do you see a counselor for?

Josh Powell (from December 7, 2009 police interview recording): Umm…

Ellis Maxwell (from December 7, 2009 police interview recording): Like a marriage counselor?

Josh Powell (from December 7, 2009 police interview recording): Yeah, just a marriage counselor. Just, y’know, working out issues.

Ellis Maxwell (from December 7, 2009 police interview recording): What kinds of issues are those?

Josh Powell (from December 7, 2009 police interview recording): Umm. (Pause) Well uh… (Pause) I mean, frankly she has kind of a temper.

Ellis Maxwell (from December 7, 2009 police interview recording): ‘Kay.

Josh Powell (from December 7, 2009 police interview recording): Umm, and I guess sometimes I’m lazy.

Ellis Maxwell (from December 7, 2009 police interview recording): ‘Kay. So that led you guys to marriage counseling?

Josh Powell (from December 7, 2009 police interview recording): Yeah, and I wasn’t going to church. Apparently it bothered her a lot so, so I’ve been going to church.

Dave Cawley: Ellis asked Josh to name his wife’s closest friends. His first answer was Debbie, their daycare provider. He offered a few other names, including Linda from Susan’s work. He didn’t know, or didn’t want to offer, Linda Bagley’s last name.

Ellis Maxwell: Which makes it challenging, right? ‘Cause you can’t challenge his answers ‘cause he’s not giving you too many lies, if any, just “I don’t know, I don’t remember.”

Ellis Maxwell (from December 7, 2009 police interview recording): Let me tell you something. I mean, you’re kind of being helpful but you’re not being helpful ‘cause I’ve been married and I know who, I mean I could tell you who my wife’s closest friends are.

Josh Powell (from December 7, 2009 police interview recording): Umm, she’s talked to—

Ellis Maxwell (from December 7, 2009 police interview recording): You know what I’m saying? And I actually know who her closest friends are and you’re telling me that you can’t tell me?

Dave Cawley: Ellis’ reserve of patience had run dry.

Ellis Maxwell (from December 7, 2009 police interview recording): First we’re taking a report at 10 o’clock—

Josh Powell (from December 7, 2009 police interview recording): Well, I think she would go to work.

Ellis Maxwell (from December 7, 2009 police interview recording): Alright, well she didn’t go to work, dude.

Josh Powell (from December 7, 2009 police interview recording): I mean, I think she would try to go to work.

Ellis Maxwell (from December 7, 2009 police interview recording): ‘Kay well, she didn’t even try to go, well I don’t know. She didn’t go to work. She wasn’t at work. She didn’t go to work at all today. So…

(Long pause)

Josh Powell (from December 7, 2009 police interview recording): Seems like she would have gotten up, gotten ready.

Ellis Maxwell: It was super frustrating because as a detective, you obviously want them to answer truthfully, ideally. You want them to answer truthfully, you want ‘em to confess. Those are the things you want. It doesn’t happen. They’re gonna lie. And when they do provide those lies, you tuck it away and you later bring it back up. Right? You let ‘em tell their story and then bring it back up and go “ok, look this answer doesn’t fit and this is why.” And he wouldn’t allow that.

Dave Cawley: Ellis had never encountered someone quite like Josh in his career. Nothing he tried seemed to shake him.

Ellis Maxwell (from December 7, 2009 police interview recording): Where’s her cell phone at?

Josh Powell (from December 7, 2009 police interview recording): I don’t know.

Ellis Maxwell (from December 7, 2009 police interview recording): You don’t know where her cell phone is? Ok.

Dave Cawley: Did you catch the doubt in Ellis’ voice there? Remember that, it will prove important in just a moment.

Ellis Maxwell (from December 7, 2009 police interview recording): So what are you thinking? What do you think I should, where should I start looking? What should I start doing? What do you think I should do?

Josh Powell (from December 7, 2009 police interview recording): Do you have a, do you have a line to the hospitals?

Ellis Maxwell (from December 7, 2009 police interview recording): It’s already been done.

(Long pause)

Josh Powell (from December 7, 2009 police interview recording): I don’t know, I’ve never dealt with this.

Dave Cawley: That was about the closest Josh came to expressing emotion. But he didn’t ask for Ellis’ help finding Susan. He didn’t offer any ideas on where she might have gone, either. They were getting nowhere. Ellis cut to the point.

Ellis Maxwell (from December 7, 2009 police interview recording): You didn’t take her out to Pony Express with you guys?

Josh Powell (from December 7, 2009 police interview recording): No.

Ellis Maxwell (from December 7, 2009 police interview recording): And the last time you seen her was at midnight last night.

Josh Powell (from December 7, 2009 police interview recording): It was after midnight, yeah.

Ellis Maxwell (from December 7, 2009 police interview recording): And you haven’t seen her or talked to her since.

Josh Powell (from December 7, 2009 police interview recording): No.

Dave Cawley: Straight answers, at last. But were they the truth?

Ellis Maxwell (from December 7, 2009 police interview recording): Ok, well I want to check, I want to check your van. Can I check your van? Can I search it?

Josh Powell (from December 7, 2009 police interview recording): Search it? Like—

Ellis Maxwell (from December 7, 2009 police interview recording): Mmhmm.

Josh Powell (from December 7, 2009 police interview recording): I guess so.

Ellis Maxwell (from December 7, 2009 police interview recording): Well, it’s yes or no. That’s why I’m asking.

Josh Powell (from December 7, 2009 police interview recording): I mean, you’re just saying look through it?

Ellis Maxwell (from December 7, 2009 police interview recording): Mmhmm.

Josh Powell (from December 7, 2009 police interview recording): Yeah, I mean, I think so.

Ellis Maxwell: He’s reluctant, he’s hesitant. Y’know “what are you looking for, why do you need to do this?” And y’know, I explain to him “look, it’s just protocol, man.” Like, “your wife’s missing. You’ve been gone and you don’t know where she’s at. We need to look in your van.”

Dave Cawley: Ellis gave Josh a consent form, which he signed.

Ellis Maxwell: He does with the agreement that he will stand by and stop us at any time. So, you gotta do what you gotta do. And uh, so he signs and we go out and we start looking through his van.

Dave Cawley: Ellis and his partner Gavin Cook lifted the tailgate and opened all the doors. Josh plopped down in the driver seat. A blue plastic tarp was spread across the floor in the back, as if to keep the carpet clean. On the left, were tools, including a wood-handled shovel, a rust-flecked metal rake and a yellow-bristled broom. Next to those sat a humidifier and a dusty plastic tote…

Ellis Maxwell: Totes that have just ridiculous amounts of unopened camping equipment that you would find in Kmart or Walmart.

Dave Cawley: In the tote were a poncho, a mylar emergency blanket, a tablecloth, tent stakes — but no tent— toilet paper, a mosquito coil and a multi-tool, among other knick-knacks. You can see a picture of all this at thecoldpodcast.com.

To the right of the tote was a blue plastic toboggan. Stacked inside it were an orange heavy-duty extension cord, an electrical circular saw, a razor box-cutter and a folding hand saw. By the sled and in front of the tote were a red, five-gallon plastic gas can and a Yamaha gas-powered generator.

Ellis Maxwell: This guy has all kinds of stuff back there.

Dave Cawley: In the rear passenger seats, the detectives found a comforter from a queen-size bed and other blankets, as well as extra clothing for Charlie and Braden. A storage compartment behind the driver’s seat held a box of blue nitrile gloves.

The front passenger seat was covered with clutter. A half-empty box of graham crackers sat in the footwell, along with a scarf which Susan had likely crocheted. A red onesie covered with Scooby-Doo characters was draped across the center console, between the two front seats, along with a camera bag.

Ellis Maxwell: But the most interesting thing that was discovered is in the console. … So when you open the console in this minivan, there’s like a tray, right? So you can put some change or small items. Well if you remove that tray, the console goes much deeper and you can put bigger items in there. … And we find a pink Motorola cell phone.

Dave Cawley: “Who’s phone is this?” Detective Cook asked. He held it up for both Josh and Ellis to see.

Ellis Maxwell: And he looks and he is like a deer in the headlights and he, he just, he can’t speak. And he says, he doesn’t say anything. And then I say to him, I’m like “Josh, why do you have Susan’s cell phone?” And he’s like “umm,” and he starts stumbling. He’s like, he says something to the effect of “well, I borrowed her phone, I borrowed her phone yesterday because I needed cell phone numbers, I needed cell phone numbers out of it and I must have put it in my pocket and forgot.” (Laughs) Just the most ridiculous answer ever.

Dave Cawley: Why was it ridiculous?

Ellis Maxwell: Hypothetically, if this is truthful, you would have known that you had it and you put it in the console. So if you did leave it in your pocket, at some point you pulled it out of your pocket and you put it, and you buried it in the console. Like, you didn’t just set it on top, you didn’t just leave it sitting in the car, you didn’t put it in the jockey box. You buried it in this console.

Dave Cawley: Not only that, but Josh had twice called Susan’s number just that afternoon to leave her voicemails. Why would he do that if he knew he had her cell phone? Josh said he’d forgotten it was there.

I asked Ellis why he didn’t arrest Josh right that moment.

Ellis Maxwell: Yeah, why isn’t that enough? Umm, y’know, you can’t, you can’t go into a courtroom and, and stand on the bench and tell, uh, the defense attorney that “hey, we have a no body situation here. We have her cell phone. The husband was in possession.” Nah, it’s not gonna fly. There’s no way. You’ve gotta be able to prove that he is responsible for either murdering her or kidnapping her or he’s responsible for her disappearance. And being in possession of a cell phone, y’know, just not gonna fly.

Dave Cawley: He said it’s different with two strangers. Having some random person’s cell phone after they disappear could well be enough evidence. But Josh and Susan were husband and wife. A defense attorney could spin any number of scenarios to explain away Josh having the cell phone.

Ellis Maxwell: Also, you’ve gotta take into consideration that they had one vehicle.

Dave Cawley: Frustrating as it was, Ellis handed Josh the keys to the van. Josh gathered the boys, loaded them into their carseats and drove home. Ellis followed him to the house and had him do a walk-through to make sure nothing was missing. Josh said everything looked fine.

It was about 9:30 p.m., nearly 12 hours since Josh’s mom had first called 911. Looking back, Ellis regrets not writing a search warrant for the house and minivan that night.

Ellis Maxwell: Myself and the sergeant and my partner that was assisting at the time, y’know, we discussed it. It’s like, y’know, “can we get a search warrant right now?” And the decision was no. Let’s have him come back in the morning and do another interview and go from there.

Dave Cawley: It was a judgement call, arguably the wrong one. To this day, Ellis isn’t sure serving a warrant that night would have changed anything.

Ellis Maxwell: But it was a learning experience as well because I’ll tell you what, from that day forward if I questioned if I needed a search warrant for a residence or a home, I wrote it. And I submitted it. We’ll let the judge make that decision.

Dave Cawley: Ellis handed Josh his card, told him to find a babysitter for the boys and meet him at police headquarters for a follow-up interview in the morning. Josh said “ok” and agreed to be there by 9 a.m.

Ellis had learned his lesson about Josh using his sons as a distraction. He repeated that Josh should make immediate arrangements with Terri or Debbie, the daycare provider, to take the boys. But Josh did neither. Debbie, it turned out, had stopped by the house while Josh was at the substation.

Debbie Caldwell: I went back and there was a police car in the driveway just sitting there. And I guess what happened is that they were, they, once they broke the window, they had to keep the property secure. And so they hadn’t said anything to me so I contacted Jennifer the next day and she was the one that told me Josh had come back with the boys. And I said “oh, they’re ok then” and she said “well, I’m not sure, Susan wasn’t with them.” And I’m like “what do you mean, Susan’s not with them?”

Dave Cawley: Susan’s friend Kiirsi could not believe it, either.

Kiirsi Hellewell: And I found out sometime around 9 or 9:30 Monday night because a neighbor of his called me and they said “Josh is back.” And I said “oh thank goodness, are they ok” and she said “well, he and the boys are there but Susan isn’t” and I immediately said “what did he do?” That was my first thought, what has he done.

Dave Cawley: On the next episode of Cold…

Ellis Maxwell (from December 8, 2009 police interview recording): Your children are telling our detectives that, uh, mom went with you guys last night and that she didn’t come back.

Cold season 1, episode 3: Faith and Finances – Full episode transcript

Dave Cawley: Susan Powell’s 27th birthday was, by most any estimation, a disaster. She arrived home from a long day at work at 10:30 p.m. to find her house a mess. Toys and clothes belonging to her two young sons were scattered about the living room. Dirty dishes — measuring spoons and sippy cups — decked the kitchen counter. The cake her husband had baked sat unfrosted next to them. Batter splattered onto the vinyl floor was slowly drying into a crust.

Josh Powell sat at his computer watching Saturday Night Live clips on the internet. The 2008 presidential election loomed in less than a month. He loved the sketches that lampooned GOP running mates John McCain and Sarah Palin. He took pride being blue in the red state of Utah and often started political arguments with his conservative neighbors.

When his wife came through the door, exhausted from a 10-and-a-half hour shift on the phones at Wells Fargo Investments, he suggested she go into the kitchen and finish frosting her cake. Instead, Susan cleaned. She wiped up the spills. She put away the toys. At least, she reasoned to herself as she plunged her hands into soapy dishwater, her good-for-nothing husband had managed to put the kids down to bed.

The next morning, Susan took three-year-old Charlie and one-year-old Braden to a small neighborhood carnival put on by her church. She returned home to find the cake, at last, frosted. Josh presented her with the gifts he’d purchased. He handed one to Charlie to give to Susan, and mumbled “you better not complain because I spent money on this.”

She opened the present and was instantly disappointed. It was a small white board calendar, the kind of thing you hang on the refrigerator and fill in with appointments and reminders using a dry-erase marker. It had a lavender background, emblazoned with flower graphics. The edges were finished with a plastic that’d yellowed to the color of custard, as if it had sat for months in a bargain bin.

Deflated, Susan handed her toddler a $25 gift card she’d won at work and told him to give it to Josh. Instead of receiving gifts on her birthday, she was giving them.

“Happy birthday, from mommy to daddy and the house,” Charlie said. 

Resentment festered in Susan. Her husband never hesitated to spend money on himself but he nitpicked every dollar she spent. He’d even locked her out of their joint bank account.

Linda Bagley: If she went to the store and bought some yogurt and he’s like “oh it’s $.50 less here or $.05 less here,” he’d chew her out and be upset and then he’d change the passwords so she couldn’t get back in there. Just things like that. And so she did things behind his back.

Dave Cawley: That’s Linda Bagley, one of Susan’s closest work friends. She’s never shared her story publicly before now.

Linda Bagley: They had bought this case of chili because it was such a good price but she was so tired of eating chili for lunch. So, I came in and I had the, the little $.33, $.50 cup of noodles. She had taken one out of my drawer and put a can of chili in there. It says “trade.” The can of chili was probably more expensive of the little cup of noodles but she was just so tired of the chili because they got a good deal on it and they had so much, they had to eat it, y’know? (Laughs)

Dave Cawley: Two days after Susan’s letdown of a birthday, she and Josh paid a visit to the home of Josh’s sister, Jennifer Graves. Josh’s mom, Terrica, gave Susan a bath robe, of which she already owned three. Josh handed her another small present as well, raising her hopes. Maybe, just maybe, he’d secretly held something back to make it a surprise.

She tore off the gift wrap and found a pair of DVDs. They were religious videos, available for next to nothing through their church. A few days later, Susan vented to a friend about the letdown in a Facebook message. Here’s what she wrote.

Kristen Sorensen (as Susan Powell from October 20, 2008 Facebook message): Cheap white board and the DVDs probably cost a buck each! I actually asked him why he liked to torment me by acting like it’s not important and dragging things out – HUGE letdown.

Dave Cawley: Over the years of their marriage, Susan had become quite used to receiving underwhelming gifts.

Kristen Sorensen (as Susan Powell from October 18, 2008 Facebook message): He’s given me chocolate, stuffed animals, a glass vase with fake flowers… a peridot necklace for Christmas 2006 (I know it must have been on clearance/cheap – who buys that unless you have an August birthstone)… I think the cake mix/frosting cost the same as my actual present. … Wow, I’m bitter.

Dave Cawley: She had good reason to be. Yet, she swallowed her hurt and mounted the white board calendar on the side of the refrigerator. Susan excelled at making the best of a bad situation.

Susan Powell (from February, 2001 audio journal recording): Josh is mean to me but only because I was mean to him and then he was mean back to me so I was mean to him more. And now he’s being mean to be again. But I still love him, even though he won’t kiss me. Maybe I’ll be nice and make dinner. Maybe. Maybe I’ll let him take pictures of me with his new Maxxum 7 he’s getting. Maybe. And maybe he’ll deserve and earn and actually get his Valentine’s Day gift. Maybe. Depends what he does for me. (Pause) I love him.

Dave Cawley: This is Cold, Episode 3: Faith and Finances I’m Dave Cawley.

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Dave Cawley: Bubbling bitterness in Josh and Susan’s marriage went from a slow simmer to a full, roiling boil during 2008. Case in point, this October entry in Susan’s journal.

Kristen Sorensen (as Susan Powell from October 5, 2008 journal entry): I feel like a prisoner in my own family, fighting to practice my own religion and beliefs in my own home. … I can’t believe our marriage deteriorated so quickly! I feel so blind and naive and foolish. I cherish my boys but realize they’ll grow up and move on.

Dave Cawley: Josh found a part-time job doing web development for a trucking company called Aspen Logistics. Though he had no formal training in the field, he’d taught himself enough to do the work. He dabbled in web design in his free time as well, even forming a company: Polished Marketing, LLC. When his younger brother Michael ran for a seat in the Washington State legislature in 2008, it was Polished Marketing that built the campaign website. Mike ran as a Democrat and actually made it through the primary before losing in the general election.

Josh’s company didn’t do much business. The only item listed on the Polished Marketing website’s portfolio was a site Josh’d built for a community Cinco de Mayo celebration. In other words, his side hustle was a flop.

Susan brought home the lion’s share of their income. Josh insisted her paycheck be deposited into a joint account, to which he alone controlled access. She’d gone along with this approach throughout their marriage, but started to push back in 2008. She set up a personal account in secret and started diverting small portions of her check there. She used that money to pay tithing, to buy food for her boys and to pay down a debt owed her parents.

Josh and Susan frequently fought over faith and finances. She had a quick temper and often sniped at Josh. She urged him to help care for their two boys or to help clean up around the house. She nagged him about not living up to his religious vows. Josh and Susan were members of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints. Josh had quit attending church meetings three years earlier. Susan had kept on, only to have her husband mock her faith.

He called her names, chastised her for spending money and refused to touch her for months at a time. Susan complained about Josh to anyone who would listen. Here’s what she said in one Facebook message to a friend.

Kristen Sorensen (as Susan Powell from August 15, 2008 Facebook message): He is mainly emotionally, verbally, and financially abusive… Basically, I’m a single mother with this guy that lives with me and dictates to me what I can do in my spare time and takes my paycheck and spends the money.

Dave Cawley: Susan wondered if she was going crazy. At times, she thought Josh might be bipolar, like his brother John. Johnny was at that time living in a group home in Washington State. Other times, Susan questioned if she might be experiencing a clinical depression. She sought counseling, but felt it wouldn’t do much good if Josh wouldn’t agree to take part as well. He went once or twice and then gave up.

They argued about everything, like which kind peanut butter to buy because of a price difference of a few pennies per ounce. Their disagreements tended to explode into shouting matches. They fought in public, in front of friends or even the babysitter. Susan sometimes coped by walking away. She’d go to a friend’s house and spend a few hours cooling off, but that approach didn’t always work.

During one argument, she slapped Josh. He didn’t strike her back, but warned it would be the only time he’d restrain himself. Susan told a friend in a Facebook message that she took the threat of violence seriously.

Kristen Sorensen (as Susan Powell from August 15, 2008 Facebook message): He’s justified that if I’m yelling in his face or hitting him that he thinks no matter what other men of authority say, that it’s okay to hit me back, so yes, that’s always in the back of my mind. But lately I’ve even picked up the phone and said, “I’m calling 911” and he takes the phone out of my hands, or immediately backs away and then tries to make me look like the crazy, irrational one.

Dave Cawley: During another fight, Susan locked herself inside a closet and refused to respond to anything Josh said. It was the same coping strategy Josh’s ex-girlfriend Catherine had used when she’d experienced his rage a decade a before.

[Scene transition]

Dave Cawley: To look at Susan then, you wouldn’t have labeled her a victim of abuse. She didn’t wear tell-tale bruises on her skin that would have branded her as a battered wife. Her parents knew better. During a trip to Washington in June, Chuck and Judy Cox gave their daughter a cell phone, one she could keep secret from her husband. They told her to use it if she ever needed to escape in the middle of the night with the boys.

Chuck Cox: I was there, was able to attend one of the sessions with her counselor. … And she said “well, yeah you are abused.” And said “dad, is that right?” I said “yes it is, I believe so, I think she’s right on.”

Dave Cawley: Chuck told Susan she should never have married Josh.

Chuck Cox: It was clear that she was abused, being abused, emotionally and verbally. Physically, in the extent of not providing the food, the needed food, ‘cause she wouldn’t eat so the kids could eat. ‘Cause it was a choice she had to make.

Dave Cawley: Susan told friends in emails and Facebook messages that she was bracing for a divorce. Here’s just one example, from August of 2008

Kriststen Sorensen (as Susan Powell from August 21, 2008 Facebook message): I am so tempted to just find a lawyer, write up some papers and change the locks and have a police officer with me when he comes home from work. … Either he is that scared of counseling and I need to deliver the unspoken “counseling or divorce” or he thinks he can weasel his way out and I’ll stupidly endure this miserable marriage. Well he is wrong.

Dave Cawley: Susan did contact a divorce attorney, in secret, for advice. But she worried Josh would turn a divorce against her, leaving her with no home, no car and no access to her boys. Friends offered to shelter Susan if she needed to disappear. Susan knew that for all his faults, Josh was very clever and very calculating. She said he would find her, no matter where she went. She also feared he might run off with Charlie and Braden, taking them to live with the father-in-law she despised or even skipping the country with them.

Worse yet, she thought he might try to have her killed. Josh’d maxed out Susan’s credit cards before declaring bankruptcy in 2007. He’d bought toys and tools, then used the court to wipe away the debt. Afterward, he ran up her credit again, figuring he could just declare bankruptcy again if needed.

Josh’d bought a car for Susan to drive, but financed it in his name alone, using the excuse of needing to rebuild his credit.

Kiirsi Hellewell: They had two cars but he got rid of the second car, supposedly claiming that is was going to save on gas but I think now it was very much a way to control where she went and who she did anything with.

Dave Cawley: Susan’s friend Kiirsi Hellewell said that meant Susan had to make her 15-mile round-trip commute by bicycle. Her daily ride ran along 5600 West, a busy road that cuts through an industrial park. For long stretches of the route, Susan had to ride in the narrow space between the fog line and the edge of the pavement, with semi-trucks blowing past her at 50 miles per hour.

(Sound of highway traffic)

Dave Cawley: Though they had almost no assets to speak of, Josh pushed Susan to obtain five-year term life insurance. He first purchased her a half-million dollar policy with New York Life in June of 2007. In March of 2008, he bumped it up to a full million. He was, of course, the sole beneficiary.

Josh also took out a million dollar policy on himself and added a quarter-million for each of his boys. Susan later confided to a coworker in an email she feared for her safety.

Kristen Sorensen (as Susan Powell from September 22, 2009 email): I was worth a million dollars dead and biking to work. You tell me how easy it would be to have an “accident.” I guess our main problem is I feel like I’m just an asset to be controlled. I make money, I take care of the house and kids and put up with his crap, he could easily take me out. So yeah, I was worried.

Dave Cawley: With both Josh and Susan working, they needed to put the boys in daycare. Josh searched online and found Debbie Caldwell, a woman who ran an in-home daycare in their area.

Debbie Caldwell: Oddly enough, I had taken a week off and I was up at LDS girls camp with the girls and when I came back down I had something like 30 messages on my phone from this Josh Powell on my phone.

Dave Cawley: Josh wanted to meet Debbie.

Debbie Caldwell: We did schedule an interview, to which he showed up an hour and a half late.

Dave Cawley: Susan came along as well.

Debbie Caldwell: She asked me, specifically, if she had to change her work schedule, would that be a problem and I said no, when I take children in, the slot’s there … she said she may have to change her schedule because they were not doing well in their marriage and she was talking to an attorney and looking at getting a divorce. So she even told me that straight upfront the first day I met her and I assured her that the spot would be hers, no matter what her schedule was, that I would provide the care for the boys.

[Scene transition]

Dave Cawley: Susan took out a blue pen and started writing on a sheet of college-rule lined paper while at work on a Saturday in late June. Across the top margin she wrote the words “Last will and testament for Susan.” What then followed was an indictment of her domestic situation.

Kristen Sorensen (as Susan Powell from June 28, 2008 last will and testament): I bike to work daily and have been having extreme marital stress for about three or four years now. For mine and my children’s safety I feel the need to have a paper trail at work which would not be accessible to my husband. … I want it documented somewhere that there is extreme turmoil in our marriage, he has threatened to “skip the country” and told me straight out “if we divorce, there will be no lawyers, only a mediator, and I will ruin you. … Your life would be over and the boys will not grow up with a mom and dad.”

If something happens to me, please talk to my sister-in-law Jenny Graves, my friend Kiirsi Hellewell, check my blogs on Myspace… check my work desk, talk to my friends, co-workers, and family. It is an open fact that we have life insurance policies of over a million if we die in the next four years. Co-workers, family and friends hear me say this occasionally.

If I die, it may not be an accident, even if it looks like one. Take care of my boys. I want my parents Judy and Chuck Cox very involved and in charge of their lives. … I love my boys, I live for them and I choose not to cheat or do drugs because I wouldn’t want to risk losing them.

Dave Cawley: Susan added her signature at the bottom and then, in the margin, added a note to her boys.

Kristen Sorensen (as Susan Powell from June 28, 2008 last will and testament): I love you Charlie and Braden and I’m sorry you’ve seen how wrong and messed up our marriage is. I would never leave you!

Dave Cawley: Susan folded the page in thirds and slid it into a makeshift envelope formed out of another sheet of lined paper. She stapled the whole thing closed, then spelled out a special set of instructions on the outer face.

Kristen Sorensen (as Susan Powell from June 28, 2008 last will and testament): For family, friends of Susan, all except for Josh Powell, husband, I don’t trust him! Josh Powell is not allowed to possess this.

Dave Cawley: The night before, Josh and Susan had gone through the worst fight of their marriage to date. It was a doozy. It’d rocked Susan so badly, she dictated the blow-by-blow to her friend Kiirsi.

The result was a document titled “The Deposition.” It said Josh complained because Susan sometimes spent more on groceries than promised. He ordered her to memorize the weekly supermarket ads and only buy the cheapest items. She asked why he was able to spend money freely when she could not. He told her it was none of her business what he spent.

Kiirsi wrote that Josh had called Susan a religious freak for wanting to pay tithing and sing in the church choir. When she pushed back, he offered to give her a $50 monthly allowance out of her own paycheck, from which she could make a $5 tithe.

Susan kept both the deposition and her last will and testament in a drawer at her work. About a month later, she added something else.

Susan Cox Powell (from July 29, 2008 home video): I am documenting all our assets just in case of any emergencies, fire, flood, damage, disputes.

Dave Cawley: While Josh was away from home one day in July, Susan took a camcorder and walked through their house.

Susan Cox Powell (from July 29, 2008 home video): So, we’ve got this treadmill…

Dave Cawley: What you’re hearing is Susan’s actual voice.

Susan Cox Powell (from July 29, 2008 home video): Charlie, say “hi.”

Dave Cawley: She documented Josh’s extensive collection of power tools.

Susan Cox Powell (from July 29, 2008 home video): This is all stuff bought in a year or less through Home Depot on my credit. Josh bought a lot of stuff and then he had to bankrupt it. And then he bought a little bit more on my credit.

Dave Cawley: She catalogued his toys.

Susan Cox Powell (from July 29, 2008 home video): Alright, Hover Storm. He bought a stupid hovercraft remote controlled toy. … Oh there’s his RC car. It’s pretty pimped out, you can see that stuff. I think he’s got probably three-thousand worth of supplies in the RC car world.

Dave Cawley: She walked through the garden, showing obvious pride in the variety of food growing there.

Susan Cox Powell (from July 29, 2008 home video): Our peach tree, our cherry tree. Smaller one’s a pluat tree. Apple, pear. We got pumpkin and watermelon and cantaloupe. Squash and zucchini. Eggplant, cucumbers, ochre, peppers, radishes, the peas I planted didn’t grow. Those two rows are empty. It’s being watered right now. More peppers, tomatoes, corn, raspberries out in the back. All of those, the tomatoes. Those are weeds or some type of plant that transplanted.

Dave Cawley: Through much of the recording, Susan’s voice carried a defeated, almost ominous tone.

Susan Cox Powell (from July 29, 2008 home video): And tools galore, more tools galore. (Sound of drawers opening and closing) These are all the paperwork for all the tools he bought. (Heavy sigh)

Dave Cawley: But she never mentioned the word divorce.

Susan Cox Powell (from July 29, 2008 home video): Uh, this is me. July 29th, 2008. It is 12:33 Mountain Time. Umm, covering all my bases, making sure that if something happens to me or my family or all of us that our assets are documented. Hope everything works out and we’re all happy and live happily ever after as much as that’s possible.

Dave Cawley: A week later, Susan obtained a safe deposit box at a Wells Fargo bank branch down the street from her work. She made sure Josh wasn’t allowed to access it. Into the box, she placed copies of social security cards and birth certificates for herself and her boys, U.S. savings bonds, receipts showing bank account balances and other documents that could prove critical in the case of a divorce.

Susan’s nightmare birthday, the one with the unfrosted cake and underwhelming gifts, came and went in October. Still, she dreamed of expanding their family, adding a baby girl. Here’s what she wrote about it in a Facebook message.

Kristen Sorensen (as Susan Powell from October 18, 2008 Facebook message): When Josh bought the cake/frosting there was pink and I asked “oh! Is this for when I have a baby girl?” Still feel like I’m dreaming in that aspect but I am starting to play my cards and get my way so I’m not so celibate anymore at least.

Dave Cawley: Josh’s older sister Jennifer couldn’t understand why her brother seemed so fixated on controlling Susan.

Jennifer Graves: I mean they were married for quite a while and he didn’t ever come to that realization that she could be a strong, wonderful, independent woman and still be a wonderful, loving wife and mother. … She was so amazing. They would have gone far if he had embraced that. But he wouldn’t recognize that.

Dave Cawley: That November, Susan spent an entire day at a temple praying for guidance. Latter-day Saints believe their temples are sacred spaces where individuals who are worthy can receive inspiration directly from heaven. They are also where the faith’s most sacred rites are performed, like the marriage “for time and all eternity” into which Josh and Susan had entered in April, 2001.

But Josh no longer had a temple recommend. That’s a card that grants Latter-day Saints access to their temples. They’re only issued to members who affirm they’re obeying church doctrine. So, Susan went to the temple alone. While there, she had chance interactions with two single men. She later wrote to a friend, saying those episodes had left her with a peaceful feeling.

Kristen Sorensen (as Susan Powell from November 17, 2008 Facebook message): I think the Lord was telling me there are other righteous men out there for me if my husband chooses not to be.

Dave Cawley: But she also had the impression that Josh remained her eternal companion. She told another friend on Facebook that she felt it was her duty to guide him back to the light.

Kristen Sorensen (as Susan Powell from November 4, 2008 Facebook message): My parents are just gung-ho ready to help pay for a divorce attorney and everyone thinks its so easy to leave and magically start from scratch… I fear everyone will be disappointed in me if I stay.

Dave Cawley: While sitting in the temple, Susan pulled out a pen and a small notebook. She started to write.

Kristen Sorensen (as Susan Cox Powell from November, 2008 letter to Josh Powell): I am not threatening a divorce, but what you ask of me is too great to bear. You must understand that my religion is a part of me. You can’t ask me to pick and choose only certain parts of it to live and expect me to be happy. … When we got married the gospel was the center of our marriage and our family. … I have to ask myself now, was this an act? Were you just pretending? In my heart I think this answer is no. But you’ve chosen to forget all of this and have been influenced to a negative outlook in life.

Dave Cawley: When she arrived home, Susan typed the message into the computer. It was about 2,000 words — the equivalent of three typed paged. She printed out the letter and handed it to Josh. In a Facebook message, she told a friend he didn’t take it well.

Kristen Sorensen (as Susan Powell from November 14, 2008 Facebook message): We had a two-hour screaming fight last night. I got him to see some of my perspectives and he said he might be willing to start going to church but it really seems like he’s digging in his heels on not paying tithing.

Dave Cawley: Obviously, Josh did not intend to change. Susan no longer intended to compromise. But she couldn’t bring herself to file divorce papers. In early 2009, Josh told Susan they needed to make sure the boys would be covered if something bad were to happen. Instead of divorce papers, they signed paperwork establishing the Joshua S. Powell and Susan M. Powell Revocable Trust on February 4th. It’s a day that sticks in the minds of Susan’s friends Kiirsi and Debbie.

Kiirsi Hellewell: The day that I met Debbie [Susan] called me and she said “We’re at a lawyers setting up this life insurance thing in a trust for the boys and I need you to go pick them up at Debbie’s house because Josh is taking forever arguing about every detail and trying to put illegal things into this agreement and the lawyer keeps telling him ‘No you can’t, no you can’t—’”

Debbie Caldwell: It’s not legal.

Kiirsi Hellewell: “‘—you can’t do that, no you can’t say that.’ So can please go get ‘em for me and keep them until I get back.” And that was the day I met Debbie.

Dave Cawley: If Susan were to die, the trust gave control of her assets to Josh. If they were both killed, Susan’s dad and Josh’s brother Michael would co-manage the trust on behalf of their boys, Charlie and Braden. But in the case of Susan’s death alone, Josh would receive the power to erase Chuck Cox as a trustee.

Josh also had Susan sign forms granting him power of attorney for her retirement accounts. He gained full authority to buy or sell investments in her name, or cash them out, without needing her permission. Debbie couldn’t believe it.

Debbie Caldwell: I said “Susan, that’s ridiculous. You guys do not need that kind of life insurance. Why are you doing that?” And she says “well, because Josh wants to.”

Kiirsi Hellewell: And you looked at her and you said “Susan, you’re worth more dead than alive.”

Debbie Caldwell: I did. I did say that to her.

Dave Cawley: Susan told a coworker in an email that Josh could “pull the plug” if she were ever on life support. Her work friends like Linda Bagley were aghast.

Linda Bagley: She mentioned one time about him having, insisting that they open the accounts, IRA accounts, and fund them fully, borrowing against their credit cards and umm, that he have full power of attorney and he wanted to make sure that that full power of attorney meant that he could take money out without her signing anything. That he had the authorization to do that. And so that’s what he had.

Dave Cawley: The legal framework for Josh’s life post-Susan was falling in place. Still, she held on to that handwritten last will and testament, hidden in a drawer at work. She later told a coworker in an email that their family trust obviously overrode her old will.

Kristen Sorensen (as Susan Powell from September 22, 2009 email): Now I feel like I should/could get rid of this stuff but [I’m] reluctant to do it because I guess I don’t feel totally in the clear yet.

Dave Cawley: Coworker Linda Bagley told me there was good reason for that.

Linda Bagley: She came to me and she told me at one point at least six to ten months before she disappeared — it was probably sometime in 2009 — she said “if Josh, if something ever happens to me, make sure they look at Josh,” basically. And I said “what do you mean?” (Nervous laugh) Y’know, “has he threatened you,” or whatever. And she said “no, it’s just the way he talks.”

Dave Cawley: One time, Linda went to visit Susan at home and found Josh in the living room. A news report about a recent murder was on TV. Josh made a comment about how he’d be able to get away with murder. All he’d have to do is make sure police couldn’t find the body.

Linda Bagley: The next day she came to me and she said “see, see he makes these kinds of comments and that,” y’know, “and that kind of,” so she was concerned that maybe he would do something and she had a folder at work and a journal at work that she kept some of these suspicions — and she wanted to make sure that I knew that it was there and she told a couple of other coworkers about it.

Dave Cawley: Two days after signing the trust paperwork, Josh, Susan and the boys headed out for a nearly month-long trip to Washington. They’d been on the road for about nine hours and had just braved a snow squall on I-84 when they stopped for gas in the town of Pendleton, Oregon. The station attendant told them their tire was flat and called for a tow. Thankfully, they were able to patch the tire and continue on through a thick fog, arriving safely in Puyallup a few hours later.

The drive home at the end of February proved even more eventful. They spent one night at a motel in the Tri-Cities area of eastern Washington, sharing the room with Josh’s dad. Susan didn’t want to be anywhere near Steve, so she later wrote that she spent the night alone in the minivan.

Kristen Sorensen (as Susan Powell from 2009 vacation to Washington document): It wasn’t too bad, but about the last four hours I awoke every hour to check my watch and had weird dreams that people were outside my van window (like police or Josh’s brother) and I know that didn’t happen; so I finally went in at 5:30 a.m.

Dave Cawley: Steve Powell wrote in his own journal that he believed Susan remained outside that night because she was afraid of her overwhelming sexual attraction for him.

The Washington trip seemed to recharge Susan, in spite of that bad night of sleep. She’d reached a grudging deal with Josh: he would attend church meetings one Sunday a month, while she would miss church once a month.

She did damage control with her friends and family after getting back to Utah, telling them in emails and Facebook messages that her marital situation had improved. 

Kristen Sorensen (as Susan Powell from April 6, 2009 Facebook message): Today is our 8 year anniversary. In my soul and heart I know that Josh and I will stay married. He’s putting forth efforts to change when I push him and even when I don’t.

Dave Cawley: Josh also re-engaged with his wife physically, sort of.

Kristen Sorensen (as Susan Powell from April 6, 2009 Facebook message): We are getting a bit better as far as affection goes, but unfortunately it’s only in the bedroom, he’s still too afraid to ever kiss and hug me or hold hands so that’s still annoying.

Dave Cawley: That hint of physical intimacy kept Susan’s dreams of having a daughter alive.

Kristen Sorensen (as Susan Powell from April 6, 2009 Facebook message): I want to have that third pregnancy. Notice I didn’t say 3rd child because I’m still holding out that I’ll have twins. … I feel like I’m being selfish to put off another just because I don’t have the perfect marriage yet but I know overall, it’s good, it’ll work.

Dave Cawley: She expanded on that in an email a week later.

Kristen Sorensen (as Susan Powell from April 14, 2009 Facebook message): Things really are better than before, but just about every time I say or thing that, my husband says or does something that still manages to blow me out of the water and I question if I want to add another child to this.

Dave Cawley: In fact, Susan’s messages show she suspected several times through 2009 that she might be pregnant. She made no secret of it with work friends like Linda Bagley.

Linda Bagley: She was also talking about maybe trying for another child and I think maybe she thought that would make a little bit of a difference in keeping together the marriage as well. And umm, but Josh was always super against the idea and so finally one day she came to me and said “he said, okay let’s try.”

Dave Cawley: Josh’s little concessions were bait that kept Susan on the hook. There were ample signs throughout 2009 that he hadn’t made any significant personal changes. He reneged on the go-one-week, skip-one-week church agreement within just a couple of months.

Kristen Sorensen (as Susan Powell from April 14, 2009 email): We used to go to the temple weekly in Washington and now he’s annoyed if I want to say prayer for dinner… and it’s not all religious stuff, his character and personality has really swung to an extreme to I’m constantly reminding him to reign it back.

Dave Cawley: Josh continued to show little regard for his wife. When weather kept Susan from riding her bike to work, he would drop her off or make her carpool with coworkers. Rarely was Susan allowed to take the minivan herself. Josh frequently failed to pick her up from work in the afternoon, or get the boys from Debbie Caldwell’s daycare.

Debbie Caldwell: When umm, Josh wouldn’t show up to pick up the kids, she’d phone and I would load the kids up after all the other kids were gone. Course, ‘cause I wanted to get on with my day and my night, so I’d go get her from work and bring her and the boys home. … And that was quite a normal occurrence.

Dave Cawley: Coworkers like Linda also gave Susan rides home. Sometimes, they’d stop at Deseret Industries, a thrift store chain operated by their church. 

Linda Bagley: I’d look for knick knacks and she’d look for things she could use around the house, potty training stuff, stuff for the kids, toys for the kids, book for the kids, she’d look for stuff like that.

Dave Cawley: Donated items, used stuff, was the bulk of what was on the shelves at the Deseret Industries store. They were sold at just a fraction of retail prices. Still, Susan joked about not being able to afford the trips. She and Josh were spending money elsewhere, though. Josh had made full-time at his work, giving them a bit more disposable income.

In September, she told a coworker in an email that she wished Josh would cheat on her to make ending their marriage easier.

Kristen Sorensen (as Susan Powell from September 22, 2009 email): We keep making major purchases andimprovements like we will stay married. I don’t think he’d ever leave me (he’s spoiled) and the other woman thing is practically impossible for him so I doubt I’d be motivated to actually leave him.

Dave Cawley: Together, they dropped $4,500 on a vacation subscription deal, which Susan insisted was not a timeshare scam. It soured almost immediately. The subscription was supposed to provide huge discounts on travel and lodging, but a promised “free” seven-day cruise never materialized. Feeling angry and cheated, they took their dispute to the Better Business Bureau. That got them nowhere.

Josh sent an email to Susan in October, suggesting they threaten the company with bad publicity.

Eric Openshaw (as Josh Powell from October 23, 2009 email to Susan Powell): I also could easily throw together a website to slam them. Even if I don’t make it live yet (I could even host it on the web, but on a temporary domain), they may start to get the picture.

Dave Cawley: Susan normally enjoyed reading Mary Higgins Clark murder mysteries, but found herself instead focused on titles from the self-help category. She became enamored with “The Color Code” by Taylor Hartman. The book’s general premise is that personalities can be categorized by one of four colors — red, blue, white or yellow — using a multiple-choice test. She scored herself as blue, a loyal, long-suffering creative type driven by emotion who also felt insecure and moody. She thought Josh was red, a confident, logical thinker who had a strong need to be right and who put work ahead of relationships. Susan made Josh read the book too, calling it the only form of counseling he’d tolerate.

More and more, she exerted her independence. She started to organize “girl’s nights” with friends and coworkers like Amber Hardman. This is the first time Amber has told her story publicly.

Amber Hardman: So it worked out good. We would just go right after work.

Dave Cawley: They’d go to movies, usually at the dollar theater, or out to eat. Susan made Josh stay home and watch the boys.

Amber Hardman: She kind of didn’t give him much choice. She started standing up for  herself a little more, which is good. She said “they’re your kids, you can take care of them for a couple hours while I go out.” She would try to lay it out and just go.

Dave Cawley: She also started buying Mary Kay products and lying to Josh about it. She froze their Capital One credit card to prevent him from running up more debt. She wrote this in an email.

Kristen Sorensen (as Susan Powell from April 14, 2009 email): He doesn’t know I spend $50 to my parents every paycheck and $25 to my team member account that he doesn’t know is still open. I make sure I hang out with girl friends and force the occasional date on him.

Dave Cawley: So, what qualified as a date in their fractured relationship? On a Friday night in May of 2009, Josh took Susan to a bargain Mexican food joint, then drove her out to a spot on the muddy south shore of the Great Salt Lake.

(Sound of waves at Great Salt Lake shoreline)

Dave Cawley: She emailed her friend Amber about the date the following day.

Kristen Sorensen (as Susan Powell from May 16, 2009 email to Amber Hardman): [He] literally parked near all the graffiti junk to “watch the sunset” and asked if this was good. Maybe I was too harsh, I said “to be honest, there are bug guts to look through the window and I’m afraid we’ll get stuck in the mud or cops will come thinking we are connected to vandals.” We had left-overs that he wanted to put in the fridge so we were home by 9:30.

Dave Cawley: Susan had worksheets from a self-help book they were supposed to fill out prior to these dates. She told her sister-in-law Jennifer in an email that Josh refused to complete them.

Kristen Sorensen (as Susan Powell from July 27, 2009 email to Jennifer Graves): It’s an obligation to him that he seems to hate, [he] wants to go as cheap as possible. I’m talking $5 pizza, grabs pop from our house, parks at the local park, we eat, he barely answers on the questions and discussions we were supposed to have on our date book and rushes home so as not to have to pay the babysitter anymore.

Dave Cawley: Their dates sometimes led to what Susan described as “frisky” activity. In June, she believed she might have conceived. She used some of the money she’d set aside in a personal account to buy a pregnancy test. It came back negative. Friends like Amber Hardman couldn’t understand why Susan seemed so set on having another child.

Amber Hardman: I’m like, “why do you want a baby so bad if you’re having such a hard time in your marriage?” She’s like “oh, things are getting better.” That was always her answer, especially around that time. And no, I knew things weren’t getting better because we’d have a conversation a week prior about another fight her and Josh had had. So…

Dave Cawley: Through the summer, Susan pressed Josh to rebuild the deck on the back of their house. He qualified their time together digging post holes in the yard as a “date.” He’d made little progress by the end of September, only getting the framing in place. The lumber sat stacked in their garage, preventing them from parking the minivan there.

Susan told a friend by email that a driver had rear-ended Josh around Labor Day. He had whiplash and couldn’t do physical labor.

Kristen Sorensen (as Susan Powell from September 22, 2009 email): So instead he was on muscle relaxers. … We probably acted a little stupid and bought a massage chair. … I think this will motivate Josh to finish the deck and move on on to the basement.

Dave Cawley: Josh hired out much of the deck-building work to his neighbor, Dax Guzman.

Dax Guzman: My 11-year-old daughter could lift more than he could. He’s just physically useless.

Dave Cawley: Dax thought he and Josh would be working together, side by side.

Dax Guzman: Like a simple 6 or 8×2, whatever we were using, even a 12-footer, he couldn’t lift. So, we’d have to use braces and jacks to hold things up on one end because I was working on the other ‘cause he couldn’t hold them up and “just get out of the way man, just let me do this. I can do it by myself easier.”

Dave Cawley: Dax and his wife Mindy lived one street over from Josh and Susan. They’d become friends with Susan through church. Josh paid Dax for his work on the deck, but it was hardly worth Dax’s time.

Dax Guzman: Took longer than it should have just because, I mean I’m okay with measuring twice, cutting once but he just would go over the plans and over and over and I’m like “dude, I’m the one doing this, I’m the one doing the work. … Just let me do it.” And we would have to stop so that he could plan stuff.

Dave Cawley: That wasn’t the only annoyance.

Dax Guzman: He’d sit there and want to chat with you about something. I’m sitting there either laying wood down or putting up one of the walls or, y’know, chiseling rocks out of the ground … and he’d just sit there and try to chat. And like, “stop.”

Dave Cawley: Dax couldn’t help but notice the extent of Josh’s tool collection.

Dax Guzman: He had like, DeWalt everything. His compressor, his saws, his screwdriver set. Everything that he had was just top of the line. It was nice.

Dave Cawley: Josh told Dax he’d obtained most of his tools before declaring bankruptcy, essentially getting them for free.

The summer ended. Susan and Mindy watched the kids play in the yard one Friday in mid-October, as Josh and Dax worked on the deck late into the afternoon.

Dax Guzman: We were gonna leave. They, y’know, Josh asked if we wanted to stay for dinner and umm, then it came up that it was Susan’s birthday. And so we, my wife and I, my wife initially, she offered to take care of the boys that night if they wanted to go out to dinner or something and he said “no,” like, “no, she’ll cook.” And we’re like “wow.” I mean like, we insisted, we’re like “really, we’ll watch the boys and,” y’know, “you guys can go out on a date” and he just wouldn’t have it. I thought that was kind of messed up.

Dave Cawley: Susan confided in Mindy, as she had so many others, that her marriage was in trouble. She and Josh continued to argue, often telling one another to “shut up” in front of the boys. Hearing this, Charlie would tell them “hush.”

Susan told a coworker in an email she worried her sons might turn out like her husband or, worse yet, grandpa Steve.

Kristen Sorensen (as Susan Powell from July 6, 2009 email): I’m already watching my kids for warning signs because of Josh, his brother, his dad, his grandmother because all of this didn’t come out until a couple years into the marriage.”

Josh spent much of his free time either reading technical manuals or on the phone, talking to his family back in Washington. Susan told her friends she hated the way he acted after those phone calls. Here’s just one of those emails.

Kristen Sorensen (as Susan Powell from June 29, 2009 email): If he has them on the phone (often speaker), he has to warn them if I (or I hope the kids) walk into the room because they will be swearing or talking inappropriately… and it’s always an hour-plus conversation. … He basically has the phone on so they can be included in the room but they may not speak for minutes at a time.

Dave Cawley: Susan said she saw a significant change in Josh’s behavior, for the worse, when Steve was on the phone.

Kristen Sorensen (as Susan Powell from June 29, 2009 email): Any time he’s talking with his dad I’m irritated. Even if it isn’t his dad, I assume it is and I’ve caught myself trying not to get angry and assume he’s talking to him again. He “accidentally” swears or slips snide negative comments about me, the church, my family it seems when talking to me. … I think a lot because he’s talking to his dad so often, who truly thrives on negative and seems to encourage it with Josh.

Dave Cawley: Her friend and coworker Amber Hardman remembered one particular conversation. Susan overheard Josh talking to his dad, while Charlie and Braden were sitting on his lap.

Amber Hardman: And she walked in on him and he’d been telling how mommy was evil for making them go to church and she was just an evil person and they didn’t need to listen to her and they didn’t need to go to church and that all these things are happening with Josh’s dad on the phone. So it almost seemed like Josh’s dad was directing the conversation.

Dave Cawley: Susan was furious.

Amber Hardman: She quickly got mad and took the boys out and said “how dare you talk to our kids this way about me and with your father on the phone. This is just not an okay situation.” And she actually took them on a drive and left for an hour to calm down because she was so upset and didn’t know what else to do. And she told me she felt worried about just leaving for that hour, that she was afraid what Josh would do for her just leaving to cool off and calm down. I said “Susan, it’s your vehicle. It’s your children. You’re trying to better a situation which was obviously not a good one. It’s ok to do those things. You’re not taking the kids.” But that was her concern, that Josh would call the cops on her, that she was kidnapping the children and leaving without him when she was just going to cool off and she clearly had told him that. But she was still worried that he would twist the story.

Dave Cawley: During the fall of 2009, Susan at last succeeded in getting Josh to join her in marriage counseling. His condition: it had to be free. No copays and no insurance. He said any paper trail could impact their credit rating.

Their bishop referred them to LDS Family Services, a nonprofit counseling service administered by their church. They made it through several sessions before the exasperated counselor threw up her hands. She told them to take a month off from counseling. During that time, Josh was to focus on living his religion with a good attitude. She told Susan to keep her temper in check.

In her head, Susan set a date. She would give Josh until their anniversary in April. She told a friend by email that the clock was ticking.

Kristen Sorensen (as Susan Powell from September 18, 2009 email): At this point, I feel like he’s had eight years of marriage, about four years goofing off religiously and marital … I don’t expect an overnight change but I also don’t think I should waste another couple of years or until the kids grow up to wake up one day and he is saying never mind, and we’ve got nothing left in common.

[Scene transition]

Dave Cawley: There weren’t many customers in the West Valley City Lowe’s hardware store. Most were at home, spending time with family or preparing for the turkey feast to come. It was November 25, 2009, the night before Thanksgiving. Staff were setting up displays for the upcoming Black Friday sales. Less than half an hour remained before closing time. That’s when Josh Powell walked through the door.

(Sound of sliding doors)

Dave Cawley: He was alone — no Susan, no Charlie or Braden — and in no hurry. He clutched a paper ad in one hand, along with a length of hose for an acetylene torch. Josh had bought the torch earlier that afternoon from a welding supply company called Airgas. He’d told the salesman at Airgas he wanted a torch capable of cutting through steel, but didn’t know much about the mechanics or chemistry. He’d peppered the salesman with questions.

Airgas had been closed for half an hour by the time Josh swiped his credit card to buy the torch. He spent about $400, getting the torch, two lengths of hose, a brass regulator and two gas tanks: one containing oxygen and the other acetylene. The kit, he was assured, would cut through metal up to half an inch thick.

Josh tried to put it all together after leaving Airgas, but couldn’t get the hoses to attach to the tanks. He couldn’t take it back because Airgas was closed. So that’s why he went to Lowe’s. The staff at Lowe’s asked Josh what he intended to do with the torch. He said it wasn’t for any job in particular, he just wanted to play around with it and see what it could do.

The workers took a look at what he had and told him the hose was the right one. There wasn’t really anything they could do about his problem. Announcements on the store’s overhead speakers counted down to closing time. He looked at paint sprayers and grabbed some batteries. Lowe’s had been closed for a half an hour before he wandered up to the checkout stand. He bought a bucket with a pour spout, which he figured would help him more easily fill the Rug Doctor he’d convinced Susan they needed to buy a couple of weeks earlier.

Josh took his torch back to Airgas after Thanksgiving. An employee told him the hoses wouldn’t work because Josh’s tanks had the wrong fittings. But he could get used tanks with the right fittings and have them refilled. That’s what Josh did. By the start of December, he had a working steel-cutting set-up that could fit in the back of his van.

(Sound of oxyacetylene torch starting)

Dave Cawley: The people who helped Josh at both Lowe’s and Airgas would later tell police the encounters were odd. They weren’t alone. A couple of days before buying the acetylene torch, Josh had gone to Western Gardens. That’s a nursery just up the street from his home in West Valley City. Late November is not typically a busy time for gardeners in Utah, not much grows outside in the depths of winter, but Josh said wanted to mend a broken tree branch.

He grabbed a roll of Dewitt-brand tree wrap. A Western Gardens worker told him it wouldn’t do the job because the branch he wanted to mend was dead. It couldn’t be brought back to life just by wrapping it in place with a $3 sheet of plastic. Josh insisted, even becoming emotional about the broken bough. He ended up buying a 50-foot roll of the tree wrap.

Josh’d always liked hardware stores. He’d even briefly worked at a Home Depot in Puyallup about a year after marrying Susan. He’d started taking Charlie and Braden to the free workshops on Saturdays at both the Lowe’s and Home Depot stores in their neighborhood.

Other parents were not so thrilled. Josh usually showed up late. He had a tendency to yell at his boys and be overbearing, making them recite instructions for the projects out loud. He frightened the other kids. At the same time, Josh wouldn’t step in if the boys misbehaved. Store staff had to scramble after Charlie and Braden as they ran wild with scissors or nails.

As Josh was on this shopping spree through November, Susan was dealing with more personal matters. She suspected again she’d at last become pregnant. In a November 9th email with the subject line “what the heck is going on with me?”, she described a bout of nausea lasting from Friday to Monday. She had no other symptoms to suggest a viral or bacterial bug and figured it had lasted too long to be food poisoning.

Kristen Sorensen (as Susan Powell from November 9, 2009 email): I’ve also read that when you are pregnant, your stomach may not handle foods as well. But I’m not ever puking or dehydrated or anything and I’m still hungry and having cravings despite being nauseous.

Dave Cawley: She’d also felt body changes like milk letdown and ligament stretching, familiar indications of pregnancy. On the other hand, she’d recently experienced menstrual-like bleeding, which would seem to rule out pregnancy. So what the heck was going on? The problem persisted on Tuesday, November 10th.

Kristen Sorensen (as Susan Powell from November 10, 2009 email): Last night I had some leftover pizza Josh brought from a computer geek thing and I felt fine until about 9:30 or so and I just snacked a little on nuts and went to bed. Got up a couple times in the middle of the night with a hurt tummy and nausea.

Dave Cawley: On Wednesday, Susan went to a clinic for a blood test.

Kristen Sorensen (as Susan Powell from November 12, 2009 Facebook message): I’m to the point that I won’t believe them if they say it’s negative. I’m still nauseous, can almost set my watch to it. If it’s been about three hours and I haven’t eaten a huge meal or had a bunch of snacks, I’m nauseous and moody. How does a solid seven day stretch be pinned to anything but? I just hope it’s a girl!

Dave Cawley: She was disappointed again. The results came back negative, though with some confusion.

Kristen Sorensen (as Susan Powell from November 17, 2009 email): Yesterday the doctor’s office left me a message asking to call back about the results. I called back and a nurse wasn’t available to speak to me, but I told them I already got the results on Friday unless they told me wrong. They were all confused and said they’d try to have someone call me back and suggested I should blood test again. … I just hope nothing is wrong if I’m bleeding and pregnant.

Dave Cawley: Something was seriously off with her body. She wondered if a spider bite could be to blame. Her coworker Linda Bagley suggested she get another blood test and have the lab check for conditions other than pregnancy.

Linda Bagley: She asked me for a recommendation for a doctor so I gave her one that was where I went and I said “tell ‘em this is, this is not normal and they should check your blood for other things that might be going wrong because this is like the second time, and y’know, so if it’s negative ask them to check your blood, too.” But she didn’t. They just did the pregnancy and said “nope” and sent her on her way. And they didn’t do any blood test as I understand later.

Dave Cawley: Another of Susan’s work friends, Amber Hardman, gave her similar advice.

Amber Hardman: She’d asked me about it and she thought she was pregnant and she’d do a test and it’d say it’s negative. And I told her several times, “if you feel that way, go get a blood test.” But I told her not just for pregnancy. And I kept telling her that. I said “don’t just get a blood pregnancy test. Have them run your blood and see if something else is going on if they can. Might as well while they’re drawing blood, because if you’re not pregnant, something is going on. You shouldn’t feel sick and nauseous.” Like, “something is triggering this. If you’re feeling this way and you’re not pregnant, it’s something else.” And she’s like “no, no, I’m pregnant.” She was like determined she was pregnant. She wasn’t pregnant.

Dave Cawley: Susan conceded she’d not conceived the day after Thanksgiving.

Kristen Sorensen (as Susan Powell from November 27, 2009 email): Period started, I think I miscarried so early it looked like a normal period. No more nausea (still craving food but that could be PMS related), no more milk letdown and ligaments stretching etcetera and good thing too, that’s why I felt it was ok to get drugs.

Dave Cawley: Josh did something very unexpected right in the middle of Susan’s unexplained illness. He told her he loved her while dropping her off at work on November 16th. Coming from him, the words were so unusual, so unexpected, that Susan emailed several of her friends to tell them about it.

Kristen Sorensen (as Susan Powell from November 16, 2009 email): He said it as I was out the door, I almost missed it. I smiled and said it back and he had a cute, childish smile about him. I think it was because of everything yesterday.

Dave Cawley: The day before, Josh’d actually gone to church. Susan rewarded him by slaving through the afternoon staining wood for their long-overdue deck, doing a mountain of laundry and working on a crochet project Josh was eager to have done.

In fact through November, Josh attended church on three consecutive Sundays. It was the most time he’d spent at church in years. His sudden reappearance at church caught neighbors like Dax Guzman by surprise, especially because he showed up in a polo shirt and black leather jacket.

Dax Guzman: He’d go to church and he’d still be wearing that jacket. (Laughs) Still be wearing the jacket. Oh my goodness.

Dave Cawley: Latter-day Saint men typically dress for church in a suit or at least slacks, a white shirt and tie. Susan kept counting down to their wedding anniversary, hoping for a sustained change in her husband’s attitude. That single uttered “I love you” made her think maybe he’d really change.

Kristen Sorensen (as Susan Powell from November 16, 2009 email): He’d pretty much have to beat me or cheat on me, or beat the children or something I think everything else can be worked out.

Dave Cawley: On the other hand, Josh continued being Josh. After blowing hundreds of dollars on a massage chair in September, then the carpet cleaner and gas torch in November, he started December by telling Susan to stop spending their money. Here’s the email Susan sent.

Kristen Sorensen (as Susan Powell from December 1, 2009 email to Josh Powell): As far as not spending money, I guess assume our ‘Christmas presents’ to each other will be in the form of watching the joy on our kid’s faces as they open and play with the toys.

Dave Cawley: And Josh’s response?

Eric Openshaw (as Josh Powell from December 1, 2009 email to Susan Cox Powell): May as well be.

Dave Cawley: On the next episode of Cold.

Phone call: Hi Susan, it’s Jessica calling… I did have you scheduled with the boys today at 8:40. We haven’t seen or heard from you. So we were just concerned. Hope nothing tragic has happened.

Cold season 1, episode 1: To All the Girls I’ve Loved Before – Full episode transcript

Dave Cawley: Apprehension knotted up Catherine Terry’s insides on the drive over Snoqualmie Pass. It was late November, 1999. Catherine’s boyfriend Dennis was at the wheel of his Mitsubishi Gallant, heading west toward Seattle.

(Sound of rain on windshield)

Dave Cawley: Rain pounded the windshield, making it hard to see the mountain road. The wipers swept back and forth at what seemed a frantic speed.

(Sound of windshield wipers)

Dave Cawley: Catherine was ready for the drive to be over, but she wasn’t looking forward to what awaited her in Seattle: her ex-boyfriend, Josh Powell.

Catherine Terry Everett: He could be so good, he could be so sweet and loving and then if things weren’t going his way, not so much.

Dave Cawley: Catherine dated Josh long before he became the subject of a murder investigation. In fact, the story she’s about to tell happened almost exactly 10 years before Susan Powell vanished. She’s never told it to anyone aside from friends and family — not police, not reporters, not anyone.

Catherine Terry Everett: I wonder, and I do wonder in the back of my mind, I’m like “I wonder if Josh thought that I would resurface and blow his whole cover.” But I’m just like, “I don’t want to deal with him. I don’t want to deal with the repercussions of him sic’ing his family on me.”

Dave Cawley: I found Catherine by scouring thousands of files recovered from Josh’s computer. He mentioned her by name only a couple of times, having intentionally erased almost every trace of her from his journals. Catherine’s broke her silence with me for the very first time. But back to the story. In November of ’99, Catherine hadn’t yet told her new boyfriend Dennis much about Josh. She’d only told him Josh’d been very controlling.

Catherine Terry Everett: Yeah, I didn’t realize at the time of course how isolated I had become because I think I’d built up in my mind that I was happy and that things could only get better. And eventually we’d get married and things would be better after that and…

Dave Cawley: It was afternoon before they made it to Seattle, but already starting to get dark. They found a hotel a few miles north of downtown. Catherine called Josh to arrange a time and place to meet. She’d broken up with him over the phone months earlier, in March, during a trip home to Utah.

Catherine Terry Everett: He didn’t, he didn’t yell or anything like that. He was just really quiet, he goes “what do you want to do with your stuff?” And I’m like, “well, go ahead and stick it in storage and I’ll come up and get it.”

Dave Cawley: So that’s what Josh had done. In the meantime, she’d met Dennis. They’d fallen in love. Catherine knew she needed to go back to Washington at some point to get her stuff. When she called Josh to let him know she was coming up in November, she told him her fiancé would be with her. But Dennis and Catherine weren’t actually engaged.

Catherine Terry Everett: I think it was better that we told him that we were engaged instead of “oh, this is my boyfriend.” ‘Cause then he would have been like “insert Josh, let me see if I can break this up.”

Dave Cawley: Josh insisted he needed to see Catherine that very night. He said he wanted to give her a pass to the Pacific Science Center.

Catherine Terry Everett: I do remember telling him “I don’t think we’re going to use it.’ But he’s like ‘I’m going to come drop it off anyways.”

Dennis Everett: “Just in case you change your mind.”

Catherine Terry Everett: But no I really, I really think it was his way of checking out the situation.

Dave Cawley: Josh showed up at the hotel around 11 p.m. He knocked on the door. It swung open, revealing a tall, broad-shouldered man — Dennis Everett.

Dennis Everett: I just, I stood in the doorway. I’m six-one, he was about five-ten and he was a lot smaller than I am. I stood in the doorway like this and she’s peeking over my shoulder, like kind of standing on her tiptoes and peeking over my shoulder—

Catherine Terry Everett: And I was like “hey.”

Dennis Everett: Just taking in the whole conversation.

Catherine Terry Everett: Yeah.

Dave Cawley: Josh’s eyes grew wide. He said “well you must be Dennis.”

Dennis Everett: He was being all cool and cordial. He didn’t seem anything like what she had described to me. And still I didn’t know half the stuff that came out later.

Dave Cawley: Josh handed over the science center pass as promised. Then, he and Catherine agreed to make the handoff of her belongings the next day.

We’re gonna get back to Dennis and Catherine in just bit. First though, we need to talk about Josh. Josh had a long history of failing to connect with girls. His written journals are full of entries about struggles in dating. His audio journals are even more telling. Here he is, in his own voice, reacting to one rejection.

Josh Powell (from 1999 audio journal recording): To lose such a good friend, I didn’t want it to end. I know you’re in a better place but it still broke my heart. I know when you hugged your brother you sent him to me and he filled me up. He replaced my broken heart with incredible joy. Some of the greatest joy you could possibly imagine. You taught me so much about where I want to be and especially how to take care of people and also who I am and who I want to be. I’ve never met someone so full of love. Your example was so powerful that it didn’t take months or years. The footprints you’ve left in my heart are some of the deepest I’ve ever known. They’re here to stay. Losing you was so hard and yet how could I be so selfish to ask for more than you’ve given me which was more than I ever thought possible. You are one of my best friends ‘cause you taught me love.

Dave Cawley: This is Cold, Episode 1: To All the Girls I’ve Loved Before. I’m Dave Cawley.

Let me take just a second here. That voice you just heard belonged to Josh Powell. He recorded that sometime in 1999, part of a series of audio journals he kept during his early 20s. Those recordings have never been public — until now. It’s almost a foregone conclusion that Josh killed his wife, Susan, in December of 2009. He told police he’d taken their two boys out for a desert camping trip, in a blizzard, after midnight. When they returned the next afternoon, Susan was nowhere to be found. Her body has never been located. Nearly two years later, as police closed in, Josh killed himself and his sons.

This podcast is the result of an investigation spanning more than three years and five western states. It’s involved the review of tens of thousands of pages of police reports, warrants, emails, social worker notes, psychological evaluations, personal journals and more. Everything you’re going to hear has been carefully sourced. Where possible, I will bring you the actual voices of the people involved. In some cases, narrators will stand in for they key players.

We’ve identified three themes in this investigation:

First, Susan did see warning signs, but chose to ignore them. She, like so many women, stayed in an abusive relationship. Why? We can learn from her experience.

Second, it seemed obvious to almost everyone that Josh killed Susan yet police never arrested him. Why not? We’re going to dissect the investigation to find those missed opportunities.

And third, why did Josh do what he did? In order to answer that question, we have to look deep into his past and at the manipulative father who helped mold his monstrous actions.

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Dave Cawley: Steve and Terrica Powell gave birth to their second child — their first boy — on January 20, 1976. Little Josh had an older sister, Jennifer and was soon followed by a younger brother, John. When he turned 5, he decided he hated his kindergarten teacher because she failed his finger painting.

Steve Powell baptized Josh into The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints when Josh turned 8, even though he wasn’t worthy to perform the rite, or to hold the Mormon priesthood. Steve’s own journals and an outline for his autobiography confirm he’d secretly gone apostate. By that point, Steve and Terri had bought a relatively spacious 2,700 square-foot home in the Spokane, Washington suburb of Veradale. It sat on a one-acre lot, giving their kids plenty of space to play. That was even more important as they added another child to the mix: Michael.

Josh attended Franklin Elementary School. He was a bright kid who developed a love for robots, remote controlled toys, electronics and architecture. In the 4th grade, he figured out all by himself how to calculate the volume of the school’s sand box. The next year he explained long division to a friend, even though no one had actually taught him how to do it. Yet Josh struggled with school, especially math. He didn’t do well with the structure of the classroom.

Life at home wasn’t great, either. When Josh was in the 5th grade, his mom discovered a secret journal that Steve had been keeping. Steve’d written hundreds of pages about the wife of another man. The journal entries represented two years of Steve’s explicit sexual fantasies about that woman. Terri confronted her husband about the journal. Steve said if the woman’s husband were to die, he would take her in as a plural wife and raise her kids.

Terri was 8 months pregnant with her youngest child, Alina, at the time. In divorce papers filed years later, she would claim she feared Steve intended to bump off the other woman’s husband in order to live out his fantasies. Steve showed no remorse for the hurt he’d caused, but promised to change when Terri threatened to leave him.

From the outside, the Powells still looked like a typical Latter-day Saint family. They went to church on Sundays and did stuff together. Steve though started to feed his kids some decidedly different beliefs. He told the boys people were just animals and should be able to have sex with anyone at any time. He also kept porn magazines in the house.

Worse yet, he found himself attracted to his oldest daughter, Jennifer. Many years later, Steve would write about those feelings in his journal.

Ken Fall (as Steve Powell, from May 18, 2005 journal entry): I remember many times sitting at the breakfast bar in our home when she would come into the kitchen in the morning dressed in a t-shirt and panties. That would drive me nuts. … We went on a trip one time, just the two of us and she wandered around our hotel room in nothing more than a bra and panties.

Dave Cawley: Steve wanted to tear Jennifer away from The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints. When she became a teen, he told her the church’s scripture — the Book of Mormon — was false. Terri found out about that conversation and was so upset, she moved out of the house.

Jennifer Graves: When I was about 14, my mom pulled me aside and she had a conversation with me. And she said, “look at this path that your father is going on. Look at the path that our savior wants you to go on, that the gospel will lead you down. Compare them. Where do you want to end up?”

Dave Cawley: Jennifer told me that was turning point.

Jenifer Graves: That was the moment where I finally made a hard and fast decision, and my mind was made up. I didn’t want to be like my dad. I could see that he was going down the wrong path. And he was making some bad choices. And he was treating his family badly. And treating my mother badly. And I didn’t want to be like that.

Dave Cawley: The other kids were younger and more impressionable. Josh’d discovered a love for the Boy Scouts. He reveled at earning merit badges and enjoyed going on campouts with his troop. Steve didn’t like it because the troop was sponsored by the church. He mocked his son until Josh, in shame, quit.

Steve also sought out other anti-Mormons.

Jennifer Graves: He had left the church and he was actively fighting against it. He was writing for anti-LDS magazines and was campaigning big time in his own little ways against the church. And so, and he was doing this with his children, too.

Dave Cawley: When Michael turned 8 and became eligible to be baptized, Steve refused. The family turmoil took a toll on Josh. Divorce court records show that around 1989, when Josh was 13, he threatened his mom with a butcher’s knife. He also killed his four-year-old sister Alina’s pet gerbils, then made her touch their blood. Even worse, Terri said she once caught Josh and John “examining” Alina.

Josh tried to hang himself when he was 14. The suicide attempt left him with a rope burn on his neck. Terri pushed him into counseling.

Steve and Terri tried to work out their marriage. They entered counseling. Terri moved back home and things did seem to get better for a time. It didn’t last. One night, Jennifer was working on a project using the family’s sewing machine. It took longer than expected, so she decided to return to it in the morning. Her brother John wanted to use the sewing machine that night. Steve started to tear Jennifer’s work out of the machine. When she protested, he smacked her in the face.

Around this time, Josh became involved with a youth folk dance group called Silver Spurs. He met a girl named Sarah there. They spent a lot of time together in the spring of 1992, after Josh turned 16. For the most part, it was just innocent teenage stuff. They had long talks and snuck out of their homes at night to hang out together.

Sarah was a couple of years older. She thought of Josh like a kid brother. His intentions skewed more to the romantic. He pressured her to be his girlfriend. Sarah explained in no uncertain terms she not interested. Not only that, she’d be leaving at the start of summer, moving to Wyoming with her mom. It did’t make sense to start a relationship. But Josh persisted. One day, shortly before Sarah left, he kissed her. She didn’t like it, but hoped that by letting it happen Josh would let her go gracefully.

One night in May, Josh wanted to attend a youth get-together at church. Steve refused and grounded him. Defiant, Josh went anyway. That night, he wrote his dad a letter explaining he intended to move out and live in his car.

Eric Openshaw (as Josh Powell from May 6, 1992 letter to Steve Powell): You said that I’d probably be more unhappy, but I’m going to find out. … I think it’s going to work out. Maybe we can be better friends this way.

Dave Cawley: Josh didn’t stay out of the house for long. That summer, he got a job working at a neighborhood car wash. One day while on shift, money went missing from one of the cars. Josh swore he didn’t take it, but even his own dad didn’t believe it. Josh was fired. It was the first of what would turn out to be a lifetime of failures in business.

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Dave Cawley: Josh could tell something was wrong. He looked over at his dad from the passenger seat of the car. Steve didn’t look like himself. He seemed preoccupied, distant. The car rolled up Progress Road, past homes with Halloween decorations taped into the windows.

“Have you and mom been talking about divorce again,” he asked.

The question hung in the air. The car kept moving north, toward I-90 and the Spokane River.

“She filed for divorce today,” Steve replied.

That answer flattened Josh like a punch from a prizefighter. He knew his parents’ relationship was bad, but wasn’t privy to all of the dirty details of his father’s private life. He went to school that day, going through the motions while attempting to process what his dad had said. A bitterness started to grow. He wondered why his mom would do such a thing. The only reason he could think of was her religion.

When Josh returned home from school that afternoon, he found his mom and uncles sitting in the living room. The bishop of their Latter-day Saint ward — their congregation — was there as well.

“Your dad and I are getting a divorce and I’m keeping the house,” Terri said.

She told her oldest son he was welcome to keep living there, but would have to abide by some new rules. She handed him a sheet of paper. No swearing or crude talk. No R-rated movies. Curfew at 11 p.m. At the bottom, Josh read “if you break any of these rules, mom reserves the right to throw you out.”

A rising sense of fury made his hands shake. Terri wanted him to sign the paper, indicating he understood. Josh looked around the room, from his mom to his burly uncles to the bishop.

“I don’t care about your rules because I’m living with dad,” he said.

Then, Josh ran up the stairs to his bedroom.

“I don’t care where I live, I’m not living with you,” he shouted.

Josh left the house that evening with his brother John. They were going to a friend’s birthday party. As they walked out the door, Terri warned her boys to be back by 11. Josh said they wouldn’t be able to do that.

“You’d better be back by then or the doors may just be locked,” Terri said.

Josh resented his mother’s newfound sense of authority. He had no intention of abiding by her curfew. He and John caught a bus uptown.

As the party started to wind down that night, Josh started to wonder whether or not the threat his mom had made bore any teeth. At 10:30 he called home to ask if the door would, actually, be locked by the time he made it home.

“Why don’t you just come home and we’ll see,” Terri said.

“Well I guess I won’t come home then,” Josh said and slammed down the phone.

He didn’t go home that night, or the next day. Instead, he crashed with a friend for a few days. His dad finally tracked him down. Through tears, Steve told Josh he’d been worried sick. Steve said he’d rented an apartment. Jennifer, Michael and Alina were still at home with Terri, but 15-year-old John was living with him. Steve wanted Josh to come stay in the apartment as well. Josh agreed.

Steve didn’t take the divorce gracefully. He lashed out at Terri in court filings, calling her a religious freak. He claimed her faith had crossed over into the occult. And he used the loyalty of his sons to his advantage. Steve took Josh and John to his paralegal and had them file declarations supporting him.

This is what Josh wrote:

Eric Openshaw (as Josh Powell from November 4, 1992 divorce declaration): We also seem to do an awful amount of arguing over religion and where and when we have to go to church and what we have to believe. … I feel that it is a lot of scare tactics and brain washing and think the younger kids should be protected from that.

Dave Cawley: Steve even had Michael — then just 10 years old — file an affidavit. The judge was not impressed, calling the involvement of the boys in the case “concerning.” Even more concerning were the claims Josh’s older sister Jennifer offered the court.

In early November, Steve, Josh and John came over to the house. Terri was gathering some legal papers when Steve tried to grab them out of her hand. Terri resisted. The confrontation turned physical. Jennifer felt afraid and called 911. Steve, seeing her on the phone, told her to hang up. Jennifer dropped the phone, but grabbed the folder and ran out of the house. She headed for her car, where she intended to lock the court papers out of her father’s reach.

She didn’t make it to the car. Josh tackled Jennifer on the front lawn, wrapping his arms around her and overpowering her. Steve reached the front door and saw his kids wrestling and shouting at one another, in full view of the neighbors. It looked bad. He yelled at Josh to let go of Jennifer and come back inside the house.

Terri and Jennifer told the court that Steve and the boys were trying to brainwash Michael and turn him against his mom. Josh said the house was segregated, girls versus boys. Terri said both Josh and John had hit her in the past. Steve told the court that his wife and oldest daughter were just telling stories.

Jennifer Graves: He totally had them convinced that my mom was just twisting the facts when in reality it was my dad that had everything twisted out of shape. And you’d, he was amazing at that.

Dave Cawley: At first, the judge allowed Steve access to the home because it was where he kept his office. Steve used that permission as cart blanche to do whatever he wanted. When Terri put a padlock on her bedroom door, Steve tried to cut it.

Steve flew into a rage one day when Jennifer stopped him from taking a chair out of the house. He grabbed her by the hair, pulling so hard some strands separated from her scalp. In light of the violence, the judge granted Terri custody of both Michael and Alina. Josh and John were allowed to choose where they wanted to live. Both decided to stay with Steve.

Josh wrote a journal entry around that same time. He called his mom a “treasure seeker” who wanted to bleed Steve for all he was worth. He called his sister Jennifer a “witch.” Now, all of this was going on while Josh was an 11th grader at Central Valley High School. He did his best to keep up with his classwork in spite of the chaos. In the journal entry, he wrote:

Eric Openshaw (as Josh Powell from November, 2011 journal entry): Last week I took a test in Algebra and I couldn’t concentrate. I couldn’t even figure some of the problems. Algebra is my best subject.

Dave Cawley: Josh wrote that his mother was the reason he’d had to see a shrink more than once in the past, but didn’t go into detail about his self-harm or threatening behavior.

His personal relationships also suffered. Just a few weeks after learning of his parents’ divorce, he responded to a letter from Sarah, the girl he’d surprised with an unwanted kiss earlier that year. Sarah had gone off to college in Wyoming and wrote to Josh about how different college life was from high school. Josh felt she was talking down to him. He was livid.

Eric Openshaw (as Josh Powell from November 12, 1992 letter to Sarah): I’ve never said anything before when you offended me. I assumed it would stop. It will stop! If you have to keep saying other people are better than me, then don’t. Say it to someone else.

This was a major shift in tone. Josh’s prior letters to Sarah had been meek, almost puppy-doggish. He seemed to recognize that his emotions were running out of control.

Eric Openshaw (as Josh Powell from November 12, 1992 letter to Sarah): Sorry if I seem like a jerk. I’m just mad. I’m tired of you patronizing me. I’m better than most of the people I know. I’m not being conceited either. It’s just a fact. It’s about time you realize it.

Dave Cawley: For all of this anger, there were also hints of an internal conflict. Terri told the court there were times when Josh seemed troubled by the way Steve and John acted. She wrote in one declaration that Josh’s anger seemed to flare and subside. He was capable, she said, of thoughtfulness and cooperation.

In April of 1993, Josh wrote a letter to Sarah’s sister, Theresa. He complained about the divorce and in particular, his mom.

Eric Openshaw (as Josh Powell from April 13, 1993 letter to Theresa): I would kind of like my mom to be dead. Sshhh.

Dave Cawley: Steve kept pushing the boundaries. He repeatedly showed up at Michael and Alina’s school. He would take them off campus for lunch, even though he didn’t have legal custody. Steve told the kids it was their mom — not the courts — that kept them apart.

One time, Steve kept Michael for a full week beyond his court-authorized visitation. Terri worried Steve might try to kidnap the younger kids. She told the court Steve’s own parents had played what they called ‘the kidnap game’ with Steve when he was a child.

Jennifer Graves: There’s a pattern of abuse there that escalated through generations. My dad’s parents divorced when he was pretty young and then they played this game of kidnapping each of the children from each other. They would just see how long they could hide the children from the other parent.

Dave Cawley: Jennifer told me that didn’t happen with her siblings, at least not exactly.

Jennifer Graves: My dad didn’t physically kidnap the children, but he did that in a, in this mental way with this game that he would play mentally, where he would twist all the facts and make them believe that my mother was terrible. And so, in a sense, he was kidnapping them mentally.

Dave Cawley: Steve told the older boys Terri’s home was their home, too. They should come and go as they wished. Terri didn’t see it that way. On Mother’s Day, Josh and John went over the house and tried to force their way inside. Terri called the police.

Steve moved to Puyallup at the beginning of 1994. Josh by then was a high school senior and turning 18. He, John and Michael made the move to western Washington as well. Josh had only a few months to go to graduation but the move to Puyallup sapped him of motivation. He ended up at Rogers High School, where he didn’t know anyone and had no friends. He’d left a girlfriend behind in Spokane but any idea of maintaining a long-distance relationship disappeared when he met a girl named Mary Cox. Mary also attended Rogers High. Josh wanted to date Mary, but she wasn’t interested.

Josh managed to graduate high school. Afterward, he took a job working at a cabinet shop in the nearby city of Kent. He also tried to promote his own woodworking business, Powell Custom Furniture, which he operated out of a storage unit. That fall, Josh started classes at Pierce College.

Steve’s move to Puyallup didn’t bring calm to the Powell family. He chafed against the judge’s orders and found himself in contempt of court for not paying the bills and child support. Steve reported Terri to child protective services, claiming she’d neglected Michael and Alina. The state launched an investigation and decided Steve’s accusation was unfounded. 

The Powell family reunited in August of 1994 when Jennifer, the oldest of the kids, married Kirk Graves in the Portland, Oregon temple of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints. Steve was absent. Jennifer refused to invite her dad, a slight which he never forgave. Kirk and Jennifer had been together for roughly six months before tying the knot. Josh said he didn’t expect the marriage to last in a letter to his friend Theresa.

Eric Openshaw (as Josh Powell from January 6, 1995 letter to Theresa): If I were to place a wager on the outcome of their marriage I would have to bet against longevity. Who knows, maybe they will beat the odds.

Dave Cawley: In March of 1995, Josh bought a motorcycle. The bike was nothing too flashy — a Yamaha Radian — but it did make getting around between home, school and work a bit easier. It was cheaper than a car and Josh liked the speed.

Josh disliked living with his dad. Steve encouraged arguments among the kids, especially over religion. The house was a hostile place, not somewhere Josh wanted to bring friends. Not that Josh had many friends to hang out with — he didn’t really meet anyone at Pierce College. Mary Cox wasn’t the only girl to spurn him, either. He struck out over and over again in his efforts to find a girlfriend.

In the fall of 1995, he met a girl named Becky in his macroeconomics class. They hit it off, but Josh was reluctant to get too attached. He later wrote:

Eric Openshaw (as Josh Powell in undated note about past relationships): Becky liked to go dancing at the club with her girlfriends — I think dancing is an intimate activity to be shared with a loved one. I tend not to see the point in dancing with strangers. Becky also enjoyed the occasional drink. She went to bars with her girlfriends. One time while I knew her she went by herself since her friends weren’t available. I think this is not a ladylike activity. I have decided to direct more energy to finding a girl who has similar attitudes on love, intimacy, time, education, alcohol, and such issues.

Dave Cawley: Josh did well in school, keeping a GPA just below 4.0. That was impressive, considering he frequently slept through classes. The one exception was a course on American Sign Language, which he loved.

After completing his associates degree at Pierce College, Josh enrolled at the University of Washington in Seattle. His goal: become an architect.

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Dave Cawley: Josh rented a dorm at Stevens Court for the fall semester of 1996. He was thrilled to find an ethernet jack in his room. It was a much faster internet connection than his dial-up modem at home. He connected his computer, set up his first email account and marveled at the ability to access an entire encyclopedia on CD.

His excitement for the university experience didn’t last. On his 5th day on campus, Josh’s dorm mates decided to throw a back-to-school bash. About 75 people crammed into the small apartment. They passed around beer and bud, encouraging Josh to drink and smoke pot with them. He refused. At one point, an inebriated roommate slammed Josh to the ground. The blow did more to damage Josh’s pride than his body. But the bullying wasn’t just physical. During another party, Josh’s roommates told him that one of the guests was gay and wanted to have sex with him. They were explicit in their description. Josh brushed it off but they continued to heckle him.

‘Isn’t that why you’re in college,’ they asked, ‘to experience new things?’

Josh didn’t quite know how to handle their taunts. He requested a room transfer, but it took weeks for the university to approve. Meantime, he fell behind in his classes.

In November, he wrote a letter to the University.

Eric Openshaw (as Josh Powell in November 6, 1996 email): Throughout my stay in that first apartment, I was bombarded with loud noises at all hours of the night. I was the subject of a sick joke that became sexual harassment. … My personal belongings were stolen by my roommates or their guests. And I was the victim of assault and battery.

Dave Cawley: The transfer finally came through. Josh found his second apartment at Stevens Court quiet and clean. His new roommate was an international student from India. They became fast friends. Josh joined a yacht club and took a drama class. On some nights, he let off steam by walking a couple of blocks down to the edge of Portage Bay.

Josh was living on his own for the first time in his life. It brought things into focus. He confided to his friend Theresa that his dad was a bad influence.

Eric Openshaw (as Josh Powell from November 26, 1996 email to Theresa): My dad seems to always get mad at me when he sees me. … My brother and I concluded that my dad resents me. He often says rude things to and about me. Actually the things he says are not true. He perceives them because he wants to. I try not to get mad, but it is hard sometimes.

Dave Cawley: A month later, Josh told Theresa he’d heard a story on the radio about depression. He believed he was depressed.

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Dave Cawley: Josh’s mom was also in school. Terri had married Steve right out of high school. She’d never gone to college, instead staying home to raise her five kids. After the divorce, Steve repeatedly refused to pay child support or his portion of the bills. Terri had to make a living, so she enrolled in college.

It wasn’t enough. She actually had to ask the LDS Church for financial assistance. Steve took notice. He demanded she pay him child support, even though his earnings far outpaced hers. He also renewed his efforts to gain custody of Alina.

At the start 1997, Josh abandoned his ambitions in architecture. He decided to go all-in on drama, which he’d really enjoyed in high school. He signed up for a theater class at UW and tried out for a play, winning a part in a production of Lil’ Abner. His role was a crony. I mean, it wasn’t even a speaking part. Friends told Josh they were excited for him, but it must have come as a blow to his ego. He abandoned any aspirations of pursuing a career as an actor. His feelings of apathy and depression did not go away.

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Dave Cawley: One experience at the University of Washington changed Josh more than any other. One day during the spring of 1997 he walked by a window and saw a pretty young woman sitting on the other side of the glass. She glanced up at him. Josh smiled. The woman smiled back. So, Josh dropped what he was doing and went to introduced himself.

Understand, Josh was never shy around girls. He overflowed with confidence and felt no apprehension about approaching total strangers. This time, he discovered the woman was a member of a group called Campus Crusade for Christ. She invited Josh to spend time with her friends, who were all Born Again Christians. Here’s what Josh wrote about the experience in a later letter.

Eric Openshaw (as Josh Powell form undated personal letter): One of their celebrations was in a big lodge where whole families were invited. Many of us were sitting on the floor. A cute little black baby boy came up to me and sat on my lap. He said, “I love you.” I knew he did and in my heart he was the only one who did love me at the time.

Dave Cawley: Remember, Josh was feeling secretly depressed and he was moved. He asked his new friends to make him Born Again.

Soon, the semester ended. Josh moved out of his campus apartment and back in with his dad in Puyallup. They didn’t get along, especially as Josh began to question the absence of religion from his life. His turn inward also revealed to Josh just how poorly he’d treated his mom as a teenager. Instead of returning to school that fall, he went back to Veradale to patch up his relationship with Terri.

The escape from Steve’s orbit had a profound effect on Josh. He examined his life, questioning why it always seemed so hard for him to connect with people, especially girls. Here’s what he wrote about it that September.

Eric Openshaw (as Josh Powell from September 19, 1997 journal entry): I think certain aspects of my character can use improvement. I may be in much easier person to be around with these minor adjustments. For instance, I say what I think. Sometimes I need to remember that people don’t want to hear some things.

Dave Cawley: Josh reconnected with cousins on his mother’s side of the family. They, like the little boy at the Campus Crusade for Christ retreat, showed him unconditional love. Terri encouraged her oldest son to attend some of the events for young adults put on by the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints.

Eric Openshaw (as Josh Powell from undated personal letter): My mom suggested that I go to Family Home Evening. I decided to go hang out there ‘until I could make some ‘real’ friends at Eastern Washington University.’ But as I went each week, I found my old friends from junior high school. They were nice to me. And I made real friends in spite of the fact that I told them all I was not at all interested in their church.

Dave Cawley: Josh’s entire demeanor seemed to change. His sister, Jennifer, saw it.

Jennifer Graves: I don’t know what it was. It seemed like for just a little short time there was a little bit of a, y’know, a glimmer of light that came into Josh’s mind and heart.

Dave Cawley: That November, Josh’s old friend-turned-pen pal Jackie wrote him a letter asking about his sudden spiritual awakening.

“Kind of shocked me when you started talking about it,” Jackie wrote. “You used to be so rebellious about it. Mostly because of your mom.”

But Josh no longer resented his mom. He forgave her for the divorce and even started patching up the bruised relationship with Jennifer.

Jennifer Graves: He started going back to church and just overall, I would talk to him occasionally too. He just sounded like he was doing better. On a better path.

Dave Cawley: At the start of 1998, Josh enrolled in school again, this time at Eastern Washington University. He didn’t plan to stay there very long. He wanted to move to Utah, just like Jennifer had. Before that could happen, Josh met a young woman named Catherine Terry.

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Dave Cawley: You heard a little bit from Catherine at the start of this episode. Here’s the rest of her story.

Catherine had grown up in Utah. She’d only moved to Spokane after graduating high school. Her aunt and uncle had invited her up to live with them, knowing she was coming off a bad break-up and was in need of a fresh start.

Catherine was an active member of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints. In Spokane, she started attending a singles ward. That’s a congregation for unmarried church members. And that’s how she met Josh.

Catherine Terry Everett: The first time I met him was an activity that we went to and of course he immediately came up to me and introduced himself and of course at the time I was young and naive and quite smitten by him. Y’know and, he was really odd about the beginning of our relationship because he was like “I just want to be friends,” y’know, “nothing more than that. I’m not looking for anything more than that.” And so it’s like, ‘cause I was interested in him and obviously he was interested in me. And it just, it kind of, it went from, from there to a relationship.”

Dave Cawley: When Josh left to visit Jennifer in Utah for a few weeks, he spent every night talking to Catherine on the phone. It all moved too fast for Josh, though. At one point, he told Catherine they should break up. She was crushed. Josh returned from Utah a short time later and told her he still wanted to be friends. Catherine sucked it up and agreed. But Josh soon decided he wasn’t happy just being friends. He went to work re-establishing the relationship. Catherine was hesitant, but caved to pressure. She was 19. Josh was 22.

From that point, their relationship progressed very quickly. Josh asked Catherine to move in with him. Catherine’s uncle told her that shacking up with Josh was a bad idea. He said she needed to stay well away from Josh Powell. She ignored that advice.

Josh and Catherine spent the summer of 1998 living with Steve Powell in Puyallup. Josh was spending money freely, buying CDs and DVDs, kitchen appliances, a futon and all manner of other things. When he ran out of money, no problem. He spent what little Catherine had. When his old friend Jackie invited him to her wedding in North Dakota, Josh found he couldn’t afford the price of a bus ticket.

Eric Openshaw (as Josh Powell from July 24, 1998 letter to Jackie): I went to the Greyhound station Sunday to buy tickets, but my credit card was rejected. At the moment, I have absolutely no cash. I guess I’ve been spending more than I thought since I met Catherine.

Dave Cawley: Catherine met the rest of Josh’s family, with the exception of his older sister Jennifer who had moved to Utah. Josh’s kid sister Alina seemed to live on her computer, but she and Catherine got along pretty well. John was “standoffish.” Michael, Catherine thought, was quiet and sensitive.

Catherine Terry Everett: Mike he kind of, when we were there, he kind of followed Josh around like a puppy dog, y’know. But yeah, any time I, y’know, even hung around I think mainly his brothers on a one-on-one basis, Josh would come unglued and he’d be like “I don’t want you hanging out with them.” Y’know, I’m pretty sure he probably told me a bunch of stuff, y’know, that wasn’t true to get me to not have anything to do with them.

Dave Cawley: Josh didn’t talk to Catherine much about his family’s history. He didn’t go into detail about the divorce. As far as Catherine could tell, Josh’s dad was a nice guy. Steve was almost a father-figure, very kind to her and understanding.

Catherine Terry Everett: He and Josh they, they clashed a lot. They butted heads a lot and I don’t know if it’s just because Steve expected more of Josh hut yeah, there were times where they would get into it, yelling at each other about this that and the other.

Dave Cawley: Josh and Catherine didn’t stay in Puyallup more than a few months. They soon found an apartment in Seattle. Josh re-enrolled at UW for the fall semester. He encouraged Catherine to do the same, but she didn’t qualify for in-state tuition. So instead, she signed up for classes at a nearby community college.

Catherine had no job and no money for tuition. Josh told her to get a student loan, so she did. When the check came, Josh took it and deposited it into his own account. Catherine never saw that money. In fact, get this: she still owes on that debt to this day, 20 years later.

Josh picked up a job installing furniture for his dad. Catherine occasionally pitched in as well.

Catherine Terry Everett: I just remember every time I got my check, he’d have me sign it and then he’d stick it in his account.

Dave Cawley: Their apartment was tiny. Any time it rained — which was often in Seattle —  the roof leaked. Josh wanted to sue his landlord and started reading about the law.

Eric Openshaw (as Josh Powell from November 22, 1998 letter to Brenda Martin): I may as well be a lawyer. It is so easy.

Dave Cawley: In November, Josh wrote a letter to his aunt Brenda about his problems with the apartment. It turned into a rant about the legal system.

Eric Openshaw (as Josh Powell from November 22, 1998 letter to Brenda Martin): I am considering becoming a lawyer because I have no respect for that ilk. I would not be afraid to slaughter my opponents. … I would go after bad people of all sorts. Especially lawyers and judges.

Dave Cawley: This was the old Josh, not the young man who’d had the spiritual awakening. Still, he and Catherine continued to attend LDS Church meetings. They joined a congregation for families, even though they weren’t married.

Catherine Terry Everett: It was weird to me because he’s just like “if anybody asks if we’re married, don’t say no.” And, I mean, I even remember wearing just a band on my finger.

Dave Cawley: Josh told Catherine he didn’t want to get married and really never wanted to have kids. Catherine felt very uneasy about the situation. She knew they were not living the religion, but Josh wanted others to think that they were.

Catherine Terry Everett: We were active but I do just remember just feeling so out of place and like “this is not what we should be doing.” Y’know, “if we’re living together and we’re not married, we shouldn’t be going to church together like this and making people think that we’re married.”

Dave Cawley: Those church meetings should have acted as a social outlet for Catherine, but it didn’t work out that way. Any time she started to make friends, Josh would intervene.

Catherine Terry Everett: It was basically his family, him and school. That was it.

Dave Cawley: They had a landline phone in the apartment, but no cell phones. Josh rarely allowed Catherine to use his computer.

Catherine Terry Everett: The only think I ever really did on it was to email my friend. And of course, he sat right next to me as I emailed my friend, reading everything that I wrote, okaying it basically before I sent it.

Dave Cawley: Josh also made sure to read her journal. The only transportation they had was Josh’s motorcycle or the city bus. Catherine didn’t know how to drive a motorcycle and Josh never offered to teach her.

Catherine Terry Everett: He came up with this idea when we’d go grocery shopping to ask the grocery store for a large plastic bag. And we would put all of our groceries in it. He would put it in front of himself on his bike and then he’d be on his bike and I’d be on the bike and we would, we would go back home. And I’m, I can’t remember how many times we did that but I’m just like “this is insane.”

Dave Cawley: Y’know, in effect Josh made Catherine a prisoner. Yet, she kept telling herself she was happy. She was lying to herself.

Catherine Terry Everett: I remember one time getting into a fight with him and there was nowhere to go but the bathroom. And I went and locked myself in there and I remember putting my feet up against the door and him unlocking the door and pushing with all of his might to get in to me.

Dave Cawley: Josh’s control over Catherine wasn’t always so physical. One time, while they were living together, Catherine went to have her nails done. She felt pretty and proud of herself.

Catherine Terry Everett: And then he noticed that I had gotten my nails done and told me how stupid it was and how much he hated it. And I remember him being gone to do something and ripping these nails off of my fingers in order to appease him, only to have to go back to the salon to fix the damage that I had done.

Dave Cawley: That damage was worse than Catherine understood at first.

Catherine Terry Everett: I remember a night where, it was like right after I’d had them fixed and I could feel an infection in one of my fingers and waking up just crying and him not doing anything about it. He didn’t care. Just laying there and being like “you did it to yourself,” basically.

Dave Cawley: Catherine’s uncle in Spokane died while she was living in the Seattle apartment. Her whole family gathered for the funeral. Josh refused to let her go. Steve Powell even came to Catherine’s defense, offering to pay her way to Spokane. Josh wouldn’t hear of it. Catherine told me Josh hated her uncle for having tried to keep them apart.

Catherine Terry Everett: I was so devastated ‘cause I was just like, no matter how much I tried to persuade him to be like, “just let me go,” y’know. “I’m gonna come back.” He was like “no.”

Dave Cawley: In March of 1999, Catherine decided to take a trip home to Utah to visit a friend. Josh’s school schedule prevented him from joining her.

Catherine Terry Everett: It was when I got away, y’know, from him and I didn’t realize how much control he had over how I was and what I did and what I didn’t do and stuff like that.

Dave Cawley: Catherine realized how unhappy she’d become living with Josh. She decided not to return to Washington. She made a phone call to Josh and told him she would not be coming back. Josh put her stuff in storage until she could come up and get it. She made that trip the weekend before Thanksgiving. Josh insisted on seeing Catherine the night she and her new boyfriend, Dennis, arrived in Seattle. You heard how that played out at the beginning of this episode.

When Josh got home from that face-to-face with Dennis and Catherine at their hotel, he scribbled a short note on a scrap of paper. Here’s what he wrote.

Eric Openshaw (as Josh Powell from November 20, 1999 journal entry): Her fiancé was a jerk. He seemed like a possessive freak. Like a bouncer.

Dave Cawley: That was one of the few clues that led me to Catherine. I met she and Dennis at their house in Utah on a hot summer afternoon in 2018.

Catherine Terry Everett: C’mon in.

Dave Cawley: Thanks.

Dave Cawley: The window-mounted air conditioner droned as we talked. I’d printed out a copy of the note and showed it to them.

Dennis Everett: Holy smokes, this is when we were there. This is the weekend we were there.

Dave Cawley: Dennis and Catherine are married now.

Catherine Terry Everett: I don’t want to read it. I’m good. You can tell me about it later because I’m pretty sure he will. He’ll be like “hey, we need to talk about this.”

Dave Cawley: Let’s jump back again to 1999. The day after Josh dropped off the science center pass was Sunday. Dennis and Catherine drove around Seattle together. She showed him where she’d lived. He took her out to the suburbs, where he’d served a two-year mission for The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints. Josh went to church himself that day. Then, he drove his dad’s minivan to the storage unit where he’d stashed Catherine’s things.

They all met that evening in the parking lot of a Petco store just off the I-5 freeway, not far from the University of Washington campus. It was also near the apartment Josh and Catherine had shared for about six months. Josh was wearing what he always wore — a white t-shirt, denim pants, sneakers and a black leather jacket.

Dennis Everett: And he shows up in I guess his dad’s van, a Windstar or something like that. And we got all the stuff out and he’s being really helpful again. He was helping us get everything to fit.

Dave Cawley: It was a challenge, but they managed to cram it all into Dennis’ car. When they were done, Catherine told Josh goodbye, for good, and sat down in the passenger seat. Dennis put the car in drive and pulled out of the lot, keeping an eye on the side mirror.

Dennis Everett: I looked back at him and I think he was waiting for a little while to leave because I think he was just kind of taking it in because I think there was just still that small hope that he might be able to pull something off ‘cause I don’t think he was over her completely yet, even though he wanted to give the impression that he was. But that was that.

Dave Cawley: The feeling of apprehension bled out of Catherine on the drive back to her home in Utah. A different emotion replaced it: relief. She’d escaped. She would never have to see Josh Powell’s face again.

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Dave Cawley: Josh took some time to reflect on the implosion of their relationship. He decided it’d fallen apart because he’d stopped living his faith. Josh wanted to stay in Seattle but couldn’t afford his own place, so he recruited a couple of roommates from among his church friends. They moved into a place just west of the UW campus. Josh was not an easy guy to live with. He insisted doing all of the grocery shopping himself, but became upset when his roommates ate any of the food.

In May of 1999, Josh met a girl at church. Let’s call her Cindy. It’s not her real name, but I’m using it to protect her privacy. She had two sisters, I’ll call them Stella and Jamie — also not their real names.

Cindy was half-Brazilian and spoke fluent Portuguese. Josh started listening to audio tapes in an effort to learn the language. He started pressuring Cindy to date him. He showed up at her family’s house unannounced late one Tuesday evening. Here’s Josh’s own voice, from his audio journal.

Josh Powell (from June 22, 1999 audio journal recording): My general experience is that most girls hate that. But then, that’s the way I am. That’s the way I’d like to be.

Dave Cawley: He asked Cindy to step outside so that they could talk. And then he droned on and on, keeping her out past her 11:30 curfew.

Josh Powell (from June 22, 1999 audio journal recording): But I think I will need to be more careful in the future because I really don’t want to get her into trouble. I think it would be too bad to add stress to our relationship unnecessarily.

Dave Cawley: The next day, Josh wrote Cindy a long letter, describing his time with Catherine and his brief fall away from faith.

Eric Openshaw (as Josh Powell from June 23, 1999 letter to “Cindy”): After I came to the church, I had one big struggle and I lost hold for a while. I think even that was for my good though. The sun went down and I was alone. Only when I returned again was I free again.

Dave Cawley: He wrote another a few days later, confessing the turmoil of his parents’ divorce. He said he finally understood his sister Jennifer’s split from the rest of the family.

Eric Openshaw (as Josh Powell from June 27, 1999 letter to “Cindy”): She endured the second worst thing in the world. She made a choice to distance herself from my dad. … So now I will face the second hardest thing in the world. It is up to my dad when I will see him and how much.

Dave Cawley: Cindy didn’t have romantic feelings for Josh. She asked him not to show up at the house without calling. He kept finding excuses to visit though, liking dropping off some CDs or bringing over a pot for a plant. Again, this is Josh’s audio journal.

Josh Powell (from June 30, 1999 audio journal recording): I hadn’t really scheduled it. I just called her like an hour before I arrived and I just left it on the voicemail. So I had done what she asked me, in my own little way.

Dave Cawley: Cindy finally had to make it clear — she was not interested. Josh told her he wanted to remain friends. Then, over the next few months, he shifted his interest down the line to Cindy’s sister Stella. Josh’s journals reveal he knew it was abnormal behavior. This is from Josh’s written journal.

Eric Openshaw (as Josh Powell from October 8, 1999 journal entry): If there was a girl who is interested in my brother, and then she got interested in me I would probably be very cautious with her too. I might feel like I was her second choice.

Dave Cawley: It didn’t stop him. Josh’s feelings for Stella grew into a raging fire he just couldn’t seem to control. He continued to show up at her house or at her work, sometimes carrying a video camera. It made Stella uneasy. Josh meanwhile was dealing with feelings of jealousy and isolation.

Eric Openshaw (as Josh Powell from October 6, 1999 journal entry): Sometimes I feel like no one wants to be around me. … It is as though I am not allowed to feel sad sometimes. … I think a lot of people don’t understand that I have the same feelings as everyone else.

Dave Cawley: In early October, Josh confronted Stella. He brought her flowers and told her he wanted to be her boyfriend. He asked her to pray about him.

Eric Openshaw (as Josh Powell from October 5, 1999 letter to “Stella”): Ask your Father about me. And if there is any chance I might be good for you then please don’t start dating anyone else.

Dave Cawley: Stella, like her sister, felt put off by Josh’s high-pressure approach. She told him they should stay friends. Josh did back off for about a month. He tried dating around but struck out, again. He began to blame his dating troubles on his roommates, who he saw as freeloaders.

Eric Openshaw (as Josh Powell from December 4, 1999 journal entry): They don’t seem to appreciate all the things I do for them. … I owe them nothing. It makes me want to unshare and get rid of them.

Dave Cawley: In December, Josh poured his heart out to Stella in an email. As he’d done with Cindy, he described how his mom and dad’s divorce had scarred him. He talked about finding his way back to religion. He made a veiled reference to Catherine, his ex-girlfriend, calling her the first girl he’d ever really liked “deep down.” At the end, he told Stella she was then the sole object of his attention.

Eric Openshaw (as Josh Powell from undated letter to “Stella”): I want you to love me, [Stella]. I love you. When you said you wanted to be friends I tried to get over you, but no other girl comes close. The only thing I don’t love about you is that I can’t reach you.

Dave Cawley: But one of Josh’s roommates had secretly warned Cindy about what he was really like. Cindy talked to Stella. Word got back to Josh. He was furious over what he called his roommate’s “indiscretion.”

Eric Openshaw (as Josh Powell from December 10, 1999 journal entry): I just want them gone so I don’t mind being a nuisance to them. Boy will I be happy when they aren’t wearing out my nice things any more. … I probably shouldn’t get too mean with these guys, because it could affect my reputation.

Dave Cawley: In January, Josh executed his plan. From the audio journal.

Josh Powell (from February 17, 2000 audio journal recording): I let go of my apartment and I packed up all of my stuff. … I had a feeing I did not need to be in Seattle anymore. I had a feeling and it got stronger and stronger until I finally moved out of there.

Dave Cawley: Before leaving Seattle, he made a half-hearted attempt to woo Cindy and Stella’s cousin. It didn’t go well.

Josh Powell (from February 17, 2000 audio journal recording): I got away from a complicated situation with roommates and friends and complicated relationships criss-crossing every which way.

Dave Cawley: Josh moved back down to his dad’s place in Puyallup.

Josh Powell (from February 17, 2000 audio journal recording): It is kind of difficult living with my dad at times because of his attitudes against the Church. I have thought about it and it and realized that it is even more difficult for my little brother and sister who have never tasted the gospel.

Dave Cawley: In March, Josh took a road trip to his sister Jennifer’s house in Utah. He was there to attend the biannual general conference of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints. He was also there to meet a young Mormon woman he’d found on a website for Latter-day Saint singles.

Josh Powell (from December 13, 2000 audio journal recording): I went down there to Utah to see her. Spent a couple weeks and a few thousand miles. Furthest I’ve ever driven for a date. That was a great experience although obviously it didn’t work out.

Dave Cawley: That’s an understatement. Let me explain why. Josh made just a couple of references to this woman in his writings. I found her full name buried in the thousands of files police later retrieved from his computer.

Now, during our first conversation this woman had told me something about Josh had given her the creeps. She couldn’t put her finger on what. Josh’s own journals may shed some light on it. After their date, Josh wrote about visiting the Provo, Utah temple. He saw young married couples there, with happy expressions on their faces. He thought it was the same look he’d seen on the face of the girl he’d driven so far to meet.

Eric Openshaw (as Josh Powell from March 31, 2000 journal entry): We have had that understanding that when we are together, it is about each other. … Even if I may not marry [her], I was thinking about how sweet she is toward me.

Dave Cawley: He barely knew this girl. He bought her a rose and wrote a letter confessing his feelings. Are you seeing a pattern here? It was the same approach he’d used — unsuccessfully — on the sisters in Seattle. He completely failed to understand she thought he was a weirdo.

Josh didn’t tell his sister Jennifer about those dates, even though he was staying at her house at the time. Jennifer wasn’t surprised when I told her about it.

Jennifer Graves: He has always been just a little bit odd. During that period, I think that the oddness was maybe less pronounced, but it was still there. And we knew it.

Dave Cawley: Josh went back to Washington even more committed to his religion. It put him in direct conflict with his dad. Here’s Josh’s audio journal.

Josh Powell (from December 13, 2000 audio journal recording): I was living with my dad for about six months, until I finally got to the point where I couldn’t take it anymore. My dad is of course a non-member and it was starting to wear me down to have to be around alcohol in the house and cussing and occasional anti-Mormon discussions. So my mom suggested I get an apartment in Tacoma. I hadn’t really considered that because I wasn’t planning on staying in Tacoma. Well, I felt like I wanted to get the heck out of there.

Dave Cawley: Josh found an apartment in Tacoma, this time by himself with no roommates. He joined the church’s College Heights ward and enrolled in the business school at the University of Washington Tacoma. He made new friends at church. There were a lot of girls in his orbit, but none wanted to get serious.

Josh Powell (from February 17, 2000 audio journal recording): I often feel like I just can’t get through to any girl that I really like, that the only girls that pay attention to me are the ones that I’m not interested in anyway.

Dave Cawley: That fall, he went to an Institute class with his friend Tim Marini. Institutes of religion are sort of like seminaries. They’re places where college-age church members go to study their faith and to socialize. At the end of one Institute class, Josh spied a young girl who looked somewhat familiar.

Josh Powell (from December 13, 2000 audio journal recording): Well I didn’t know who she was. She was about to leave after Institute and I called her back and I was like “hey come here, talk to me for awhile” and she did.

Dave Cawley: Her name was Susan Cox. As they chatted, she asked if he knew how to play the piano. Josh said “maybe a little.” Susan said she remembered Josh having played the piano at her house years ago. He’d come over to see her older sister, Mary. Again, are you seeing the pattern here? Josh made a habit of moving his affections between sisters when rebuffed.

Susan would later write that Josh “socially attacked” her that day. He was 24, she was just barely 19 — the same age Catherine had been when she first started dating Josh. Susan would soon become Catherine 2.0.

On the next episode of Cold:

Josh Powell (from January 5, 2001 audio journal recording): Tonight I asked my sweet Susan to marry me and she said yes.

Cold season 1: Prelude – Full episode transcript

Dave Cawley: This can’t be the man I’ve seen so many times on TV. He looks thinner, but at the same time weathered. More tired. Worn down. He steps out of a dark gray Dodge Caravan wearing a jacket and a knit cap in the vibrant blue and green of the Seattle Seahawks. A chill autumn breeze blows, rattling wind chimes in a nearby tree.

(Sound of wind chimes)

Dave Cawley: It ruffles the bit of unkempt gray hair peeking out from beneath the hat. I recognize this man, or at least I think I do. It’s hard to be sure from where I’m standing, up the hill a ways in the Woodbine Cemetery of Puyallup, Washington. I watch as he carries flowers, a toy car and a small stuffed animal over to a grave next to the winding cemetery road. That is when I’m sure. He’s Chuck Cox.

I walk down and meet Chuck beside the grave of his grandsons, Charlie and Braden. Their dad, Josh Powell, killed the boys and himself in February of 2012 by setting fire to his rented home. At the time, Josh was the sole suspect in the disappearance of his wife, Susan, from their home in West Valley City, Utah. Susan was Chuck’s daughter. She’s never been found.

Susan Powell (from February, 2001 audio journal recording): Josh is mean to me but only because I was mean to him and then he was mean back to me so I was mean to him more. And now he’s being mean to be again. But I still love him, even though he won’t kiss me.

Dave Cawley: The voice you’re hearing now belongs to Susan. She recorded that while dating Josh, way back at the start of 2001, when she was 19.

Susan Powell (from February, 2001 audio journal recording): And maybe he’ll deserve and earn and actually get his Valentine’s Day gift. Maybe. Depends what he does for me.

Dave Cawley: I found that clip among hours and hours of audio journals that Josh recorded in his early 20s, both before and after meeting Susan.

Josh Powell (from December 13, 2000 audio journal recording): I’m not as good a person, rather depressed, moody, irritable when I get away from things that I know are right.

Dave Cawley: These recordings have never before been made public. They’re just a small piece of what’s to come.

Josh Powell (from December 13, 2000 audio journal recording): It really shows that she cares for her to come over here…

Dave Cawley: My name is Dave Cawley. I’ve worked as a journalist in Salt Lake City for more than 15 years. In that time, I’ve covered a lot of stories and seen some pretty crazy things. But no story has stuck with me more than the unsolved disappearance of Susan Powell in December of 2009. Maybe it’s because Susan and I were the same age, or because we both came from Mormon families. The radio station where I used to work was in West Valley, the same place Susan lived with Josh and her boys. We shopped at the same stores, ate at some of the same restaurants.

About three years ago, I presented my news director at KSL — where I work now — with a proposition: why don’t we do our own investigation of Susan’s disappearance? Police had just declared the case cold and opened up their records. We got thousands upon thousands of pages of documents — police reports, witness interviews, social worker notes, psychological evaluations, emails, journals — on and on and on and on.

What might we learn from all of that about Josh — about how his mind worked? Or how about the rumors that’d gone around, claiming he’d spent time with strippers or had a secret mistress?

Andrew Andersen: He was a sex addict, you know that, right?

Dave Cawley: Uh, hmm. Could we prove that? What about talk of Susan having planned to divorce Josh?

Amber Hardman: I mean that was the first thing I said. ‘Susan, leave. You need to just leave.

Dave Cawley: How about motive?

Linda Bagley: He just didn’t want to have to deal with an ex. He wanted to have control of everything.

Dave Cawley: Or what if, as Josh’s family suggested, Susan ran away? Could we find any clues about where she might be, or rule out where she’s not?

Tony Gallegos: But even still some of those places they, there could have been something in there that we wouldn’t have seen or discovered because it was remote or in the bottom of a shaft.

Dave Cawley: I went to work. I submitted new public records requests, obtaining more than 3,000 never-before-released files from computers that belonged to Josh and his father, Steve. I conducted new interviews, in Utah, Oregon and Washington. I went in-depth with the retired detective who led the investigation.

Ellis Maxwell: It was a theory that he poisoned or sedated Susan…

Dave Cawley: I also tracked down people who’ve never publicly shared their stories, some not even with the police.

Catherine Everett: I didn’t want it to be like ‘oh hey, look at me, I want to be a part of this too’ because I didn’t.

Dave Cawley: That’s Catherine. Her story is absolutely wild. You’ll hear it in episode one. In this podcast, we’re going go through the case together. We’re gonna hear Susan, in her own words, describe her crumbling marriage.

Susan Cox Powell (from July 29, 2008 home video): Hope everything works out and we’re all happy and live happily ever after as much as that’s possible.

Dave Cawley: We will retrace the route of Josh’s unlikely winter camping trip, the night his wife disappeared. We’ll hear about how police might have missed solving the case by just 10 minutes.

Ellis Maxwell: I go to release the vehicle and he’s gone and patrol officers don’t know where he left and went to. He didn’t say anything, he just up and left.

Dave Cawley: We’ll peer into the depths of abandoned mines, as we follow searchers into the dusty wastes of the Utah desert.

Louis Amodt: It was never out in the public everywhere we looked and how soon after she disappeared that we spent time looking.

Dave Cawley: We’ll scour the hard drives police seized with search warrants.

Cheney Eng-Tow: There were items that were encrypted that were never gotten into, but who knows. Is there something on there that is incriminating or not?

Dave Cawley: We’ll hear Steve Powell describe a disturbing obsession with his own daughter-in-law… and how she reacted to it.

Dax Guzman: I guess… we know where Josh got it from. His dad is one messed up dude.

Dave Cawley: We’ll glimpse the horrors police found in Steve’s home as they closed in on Josh. This is all pretty heavy. But amid all of that terrible darkness, we’ll see how people tied to the case have used their experiences to create light.

Kiirsi Hellewell: There have been people that have contacted us and said “because of her story, I recognize the signs and I got out before I ended like her.”

Amber Hardman: Like her, you may feel very, very, very trapped. You may feel like there’s no other way out. And you might be in a very scary situation but people are willing to help and there are ways to get out. Safe ways…

Nancy: If it can help anybody, with anything, any portion of this story, it’s worth it to me to say something.

Dave Cawley: I hope you’ll subscribe, take this journey with me and, if you find the experience valuable, share it with your friends. Welcome to Cold.